I have a very weird relationship with bully romance novels.
There is a very big part of me that really abhors them. When I let myself really think about what is going on in the book and the abuse that is being normalized and/or even sexualized (for lack of better words), it really makes me sick.
I mean, some of these guys do horrific things to the girls in these books, and they ultimately suffer no consequences. IF ANYTHING, their behavior is supposed to somehow make them more attractive. Manhandling a girl, ruining her reputation, completely humiliating her, and (sometimes) forcing yourself on her sexually---these things are what constitute foreplay in this genre. The nastier the attitude and the more horrific their actions, the better. I mean, I know everyone has their kink and really, to each their own, but for me, I have a hard-time digesting a lot of it.
So, why do I read these then?? Because, while a lot of what happens in the book is disagreeable to my palate, I also love a good enemies-to-lovers story. And, what are bully romances if not an E2L at their core??
I'm honestly hoping that one day I will come across one that satisfies the anger in me that most of these provoke and that an author will write one in such a way that I won't come out of it feeling angry AF and disappointed. I don't know what all that would entail, but when if I ever find one, I will let you know. Sorry...I'll end my rant now.
As for this book, I really liked the way it started off. I had high hopes. Our FMC is as tough as she is vulnerable. She seemed very intelligent and she offered no apologies for who she was. I liked it.
I thought, maybe just maybe, I was going to get the bully romance I've been waiting for. However, by 70% into the book, I realized it just wasn't going to happen. The FMC forgave the bullies much quicker than I did and that made it an unpleasant read. When I'm still mad at the male characters in the book,
NONE
of the sexy-times are remotely sexy to me. They're gross. Then, I just get mad at the FMC for having any kind of sexy-times with them at all and being a damn doormat (IMO). From there, it all just turns into one big ole rage fest.
Okay, aside from that, the book itself is pretty well written. I didn't have a hard time understanding anything, and it wasn't littered with glaringly obvious grammatical errors. I'm sure that most people will love this book (really, it's not bad), but I just can't get out of my own head enough to enjoy it for what it is.