I think this is one of those memoirs I’ll choose not to rate. It’s not that it’s bad, per se, and considering how little info there is out there about these awful camps - I do still find it to be something everyone should read. Something everyone should be familiar with. Especially as western democracies along with worldwide human rights committees, which have always been so quick to criticize human rights abuses in other countries, stay oddly silent on this matter.
Companies like Apple, whose newest CEO has been spotted with his arm around China’s “President” (sorry, but without the quotations that implies Xi Jinping was democratically elected and continues to be, and that’s simply not true). He’s not the only one, but among one of the world’s most well-known companies to feign ignorance or rather, “look the other way”, on China’s human rights abuses. Because really, what are some oppressed citizens and a little genocide here and there, when you’re dealing with the possibility of losing HUNDREDS of MILLIONS of customers?! No really. I think it’s something like 70% of Chinese citizens own iPhones, so with a country of nearly 2 billion people, you can imagine all the profits a company stands to lose if Xi decides to ban Apple products in China. And China has been proposing too many lucrative deals, too many agreements where countries would see millions - sometimes billions - of dollars - poured into their country, by negotiating with China. So as sad as it may be, if we can’t even stop the INSANELY FLAGRANT human rights abuses in North Korea, how are we going to do so in China?
Okay, but beyond that and more on the book. It deserves a read because for all intents and purposes, Gulbahar Haitiwaji IS a survivor of a terrible atrocity. At only 228 pages, you get the idea of what the Chinese state is doing to this Muslim minority and what their end game is.
There’s a few reasons I believe that have made the book a bit problematic for readers, and will do so for future readers as well. First - the fact that Haitiwaji, for some unknown reason (apparently even utterly unknown to herself) went back to the Xinjiang province in late 2016-early 2017 after about a decade of living in exile in France.
Apparently she went back, despite “feeling uneasy and with a bad feeling in the pit of her stomach.” It wasn’t as if she went back in an attempt to save a loved one. All of her immediate family - husband and two adult daughters - were safely with her in France.
Her reason for going back? Someone from China had called to tell her there was “an administrative issue“ with her former job and pension, and apparently, this issue could NOT be resolved over the telephone, through an online meeting... nope, she would have to travel from France all the way to China, apparently to sign a few documents. And yet she goes, despite the warnings, despite the danger it will bring to her family and friends still living in Xinjiang (mother, sisters, friends, etc). And indeed, her youngest sister DOES end up in a camp herself after Gulbahar does - for 39 days, but still... they were clearly making an example out of her.
I don’t know, the whole traveling there despite the completely unbelievable reasoning of “administrative issues” along with Gulbahar’s descriptions of her sister’s “behavior” during her “trial” (because let’s be honest, they’re not real trials) - for instance, when her sister is in the room and stifles a sob, Gulbahar turns around and asks her to be quiet.
Okay, understandable that when you’re at a “re-education” (prison) camp, you may not be yourself. The things you say and do may not make sense at the time because of the insane stress and mental anguish your mind is being subjected to. But she’s writing this three years AFTER she got out. And I could understand that one, a little. When one of her fellow detainees asks her about it, she says, “Yes, I did tell her to be quiet. It was awkward, hearing her sobs. If she had gone on, I’d have crumpled too” (makes sense) but then... “And it’s not like she’s the one being judged. If one of us has to cry, it should be me, right?” I replied.
Whoa there. I mean... this was the same sister that went to a prison camp because Gulbahar was refusing to talk (refusing to admit to crimes she didn’t commit, but... her family there WERE in real danger, yet still came to see her and support her, so it all seems a bit... unappreciative?). Then in the next paragraph, she mentions that “my sister blew her nose in the corner of the room, and apart from her exasperating sniffles, the only thing we heard from her...”
Wtf. I understand at the time having your feelings being all over the place, not being able to place your anger, sadness, etc. But years later and she is still annoyed at the fact that her sister was upset during her trial? Something seems off here. Not just about the entire trip back to China and the arrest, but obviously, her frustration with her family members who were merely trying to be there for her emotionally. I’m just going to say it... it comes off as incredibly selfish. And I don’t know if it’s really worth the danger it will put her family in, publishing this book.
All the more reason as many people should read it as possible. But with the entire world ignoring the issue because - well, money - again, was the risk of speaking out worth it? I truly feel pain for Gulbahar for what she inevitably went through. But as you can see, she’s not quite the most sympathetic victim, unfortunately... which is why I’m declining to rate this book. So much didn’t add up.