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282 pages, Kindle Edition
Published May 18, 2022
She holds her finger up and stares at the pretty square cut diamond. “I know, I still can’t quite believe it.” “He’s got good taste,” I say.
“He didn’t choose it alone,” says Leia, glancing over her shoulder to see if Chains is within ear shot. “Raven,” she whispers.
We all like her, including Leia, she’s just having a hard time accepting their close friendship.
“And every time I see you, you’re that little bit more desperate,” he retorts. I feel my face redden with anger. “Blade isn’t interested. He can’t be any clearer,” he adds.
Alice closes her laptop and begins setting the table for dinner. After me and Hannah split two years ago, I was pissed when I found out she was dating. Then finding out she was dating a woman, well, let’s just say my pride was dented massively.
“Mummy wants a new baby,” announces Molly and the two women fall silent. I arch my brow in Hannah’s direction and she blushes. Hannah never blushes!
“A baby? How the fuck is that gonna work?”
“Half brother or sister,” I mutter. “It doesn’t have to be,” says Hannah with a hint of hope in her voice.
“Who’s that?” I ask. “Conner,” she says, biting on her lower lip and leaving me in no doubt that she’s fucking this guy.
“Does Vinn know you’re fucking him?” I ask bluntly and she blushes deeper.
Our hook-ups became a regular thing, but recently, I’ve pushed for more. Seeing all my friends settling down makes me want that too, only Conner doesn’t seem too keen, always making up excuses to fuck and run.
I take a deep breath. “I’ll do it,” I say and her eyes widen. “If it makes you happy.” “Are you serious?” she gasps and I nod. “Blu, you have no idea what this means to me, to us,” she says, moving towards me and throwing her arms around my neck.
Hannah laughs. “Oh god, Blu, you didn’t agree to it because you thought we’d have sex, did you? It’ll all be done correctly, at a clinic.”
“I think that's stupid. We did it before, we’re all adults. Alice can join if she wants. We could end up with two for one on the kid front,” I say with a grin.
Blu smiles. “I’m a likable kind of guy.” “Raven likes you too,” says Ziggy, absentmindedly. We all look at him and he nods. “She does. I heard her tell Coral and Leia.” Blu grins wider.
That’s why, when I step out into the cold, wrapped in my blanket, I’m mortified to see Blu already out on his half of the balcony chatting with Raven. I freeze.
I can’t help but stare as he runs a finger over the wound and she shivers involuntarily. They both laugh again and I roll my eyes. After a few minutes, Raven answers a call and then tells Blu she’s gotta go.
I can never have anything with Gia. She’s a mafia princess and I despise everything mafia-related.
“When you know, you know,” says Ric, smiling. Something about his smile makes me shiver with an uneasy feeling. I brush it aside because I need to give him a chance, and maybe he’s just nervous too.
“You ever feel like you’re missing out?” asks Blade. I follow his gaze to where Raven is sitting with Chains. “What are you talking about?”
“What is it with you and the mafia?” asks Blade. “Why do’yah hate them so much?” “They take what they want and fuck the consequences. Assholes,” I mutter.
“What’s wrong?” asks Gia. I smile and lean closer to her, keeping my voice low so only she can hear me. “I don’t play games, sweetheart. You want my attention, then don’t throw yourself at my brothers.” I push past her and head for the exit.
I get to Hannah’s just as she’s setting the table for dinner. I stand in the doorway watching with Molly in my arms. Being like this is torture, knowing this is the life I could have had twenty-four-seven.
My eyes widen in surprise the second Blu thrusts inside me.
An hour later, I’m sitting in the office with Anna, Eva, Leia, and Raven. I don’t know when Eva started adding Raven into our group, seeing as Leia feels like she’s a threat to her and Chains.
“Not all of the guys like to sleep with the whores,” points out Leia. “No offence,” she adds, looking at Raven.
I feel my phone buzzing in my pocket. It’s the fourth time and I figure it must be important, so I pull over and answer it. “Finally,” yells Alice. “Get to the hospital now. Hannah and Molly were in an accident.”
We’ve spent two days watching Hannah take even, steady breaths, praying that she’ll open her eyes and flash us a big smile. I’d give anything to see that smile right now.
“No. I don’t cheat,” he says firmly. “We’ve been over for a while.”
“You don’t like cheating, but you fucked me when you were going on dates with Ricardo,” he points out and I feel my cheeks flush.
“I have to get Hannah back on her feet. She’s pregnant and it’s very early on so . . .” Fuck, that wasn’t how I wanted to say it. I was just as surprised as Alice when the doctor told us that Hannah was pregnant. We’d only done one round of IVF and the doctors at the clinic warned us not to get our hopes up cos these things take time.
“Pregnant by who?” she asks. “Me,” I say, cringing as the words leave my mouth.
“I don’t know what I was thinking. Me and you could never work,” he snaps. “I hate the mafia. I hate everything it stands for and I hate entitled mafia princesses even more. I must have been bewitched by that tight little cunt of yours,” he spits. “But there’s plenty of pussy around that’d jump at the chance to be my ol’ lady.”
Alice responds with a sigh and Hannah kisses her gently. I turn away because I can’t handle that shit.
“I told you before, I don’t play fuckin’ games. I’ve been tortured to the brink of death and I still haven’t given up information, so what makes you think your pussy’s gonna work?”
He sucks in a deep breath and lets it out slowly. “I blamed him for Mum’s death. And for Giorgia.” I stare at him, waiting for more. “She was my sister. Twin. She and Mum died at the hands of a crazy bitch my father was fucking. An entitled mafia princess who took her revenge because he wouldn’t leave us for her. She ordered the hit.” “Wow,” I whisper. “That’s some crazy bitch.”
“So she covered her tracks,” mutters Gia. “What happened to her?” “She married him,” I scoff. “He claimed he loved her. And it wasn’t that he didn’t love my mum, because he did, but he didn’t want to be alone. And if he pursued her for Mum’s death, it meant he’d lose her too. How fucked up is that?”
“If it’s that you’re getting married, I already know. If it’s that you bought her the same ring as me, I know that too.”
“It’s not that you didn’t tell me. Maybe I . . .” She pauses. “It’s just weird. I’m having your kid and . . .” She shrugs. “What if it changes everything between us?”
“And the same ring, Blu? Really!” I shrug helplessly. “I’m no good with shopping, you know that. You loved that ring so I figured it must be a good one.”
“what you heard was a grown-up conversation with me reassuring my ex that nothing will change our arrangements, and it won’t. Of course, my child will be my priority. Both of my children.”
I know I’ll have to face the fact that Hannah is pregnant with Blu’s child. He did a nice thing, but I feel weird about it.
“Open the door, Anna,” I say. She laughs. “You think I have someone in our bed waiting for me?” I push my face closer. “I don’t know anymore, Anna. Your lies wrap around us like vines,” I growl.
On the bed is a book, one of those trashy romance novels Eva keeps lending her, and a vibrator. “I’m cheating on you with a sex toy,” she mutters. “So sad, it’s pathetic.”
Anna smirks. “I wish a caveman would drag me off to his cave.” “You have a caveman,” says Eva. “He’s just a little lost right now.” “Stop making excuses for him,” snaps Anna.
Raven walks towards us. “Hannah’s awake,” she says and I smile gratefully. She's been helping me out with Hannah and Molly. “Just a heads up, that girl you found at Cobra’s, turns out she’s Lake’s sister.” “No fucking way,” says Blade.
I smirk over at him. “Shit, brother, you fucked Lake's sister,” I say and Blade’s face pales.
Music begins and I break out into a smile. Thomas Rhett’s “Look What God Gave Her” plays out. “I heard you tell Eva that it was the perfect wedding song and yet no one ever picks it,” says Blu, holding my hand above my head and spinning me under his arm.