This book felt like my heart put into words. I highlighed nearly half of it. It wasn’t dense in theology but read more like a testimonial or memoir of an honest Christian journey. Jenny (going to address her by her first name because she feels like my friend hehe) has put into words what I believe is at the heart of a true follower of Christ.
This year, the Lord has placed this prayer in my heart: "I just want to be where you want me to be, Lord." And I feel like this book gave me weight to what that prayer actually looks like, as well as refining questions when considering my personal motives to what I hope my life will look like.
I deeply appreciated Jenny's perspective on breaking through the facade of loud speech and bold statements, and instead embracing the quiet yet powerful strength of mustard seed faith. She beautifully describes how the Lord guides us into the satisfaction of sacred smallness. My prayer echoes this sentiment—that I find satisfaction in the life God has willed for me, whether that means serving overseas or working a 9-to-5 job in America. As Jenny writes, "Sacred smallness and holy hiddenness, both are beautiful if the goal is to simply, simply love Jesus." The book consistently reminds us that pleasing God is not about social status, fame, or our personal definitions of "success," but rather the posture of our hearts.
"The motive should not be success, but rather fruitfulness."
"When we speak of success in the Kingdom of God, it is simply this: saying yes and following whatever assignment the Lord puts in your hand."
One line that really struck me was, "An idol is convenient." This made me pause and reflect. So often, I chase after things for my own instant gratification. I realize how I cheapen myself by pursuing meaningless and fleeting desires, when the true treasure of Jesus is everlasting and worth infinitely more. I want my heart to strive above what is convenient.
"Trust the gifts and grace that God has put in people around you." This is a truth I need to remind myself of. I can’t—and shouldn’t—do it all, though I often feel pressured to. This truth unburdens me from unnecessary pressures and calls me higher to trust in the One who is MORE than able.
A lesson I've been striving to learn is contentment. Some of Jenny's quotes on this really spoke to me:
"The yoke of our being must find its settled rest and satisfaction in God alone. That is contentment."
"The unsatisfied heart is an idol factory, constantly setting up new objects to obtain in hopes of finding satisfaction that can only be found in God."
Jenny also articulated something I’ve been trying to express for months: "I think many times people say following God is out of their comfort zone. But the reality is, not following God is what’s truly out of our comfort zone, because of the peace that following God brings. I have tried living outside of His will, and the lack of peace wasn’t worth it."
My favorite chapter was "Abide in the Vine." Jenny explains the John 15:1-8 passage so wonderfully, highlighting the importance of each season and how essential it is to go through them faithfully to be truly fruitful. Every season is vital to the harvest. She also points out that the fruit produced in our lives is not solely for ourselves but for His people.
"I'm as fruitful sitting still as I am going 150 miles per hour, as long as I'm abiding."
I did take off one star because Jenny made several "This is _____" statements that, from my understanding, weren't theologically accurate. For example, she says, "This is the simple Gospel: simply sitting, simply loving, simply cherishing—first Jesus, then our neighbor." I think in many ways the RESULT of the gospel are these things, but by no means can be dwindled down to such statement.