Grant Shepard has a small problem. Well, it’s not small— he’s not small— he’s actually a bit of a well-endowed Adonis but his problem is small. Well, no, his problem is giant and might result in him being dumped by his perfect girlfriend and alone forever, but it relates to something small.
Their sex life, or lack thereof.
When it comes to sex their life could be… fuller.
Plumper.
Sigh.
Basically, if Grant was aroused then all his problems would go away.
Which is annoying because Grant lives his life perfectly.
A veteran who saved the life of the vice president, he's known as a hero. He has a great job, a smart and beautiful girlfriend, and he's living a life one can be proud of.
And yet.
Something isn’t right because his girlfriend gives him an ultimatum— either go to a therapist or it's over. The strong, silent routine is not working.
The worst part is that she doesn't just want to go to therapy, she wants to go to ‘sex therapy.’ Which doesn't even sound real. It sounds like something someone made up just to torture him. Someone should pay him to go!
And then Grant meets his therapist.
This is a two part duology about a man so far in the closet it's a miracle he ever stumbled out, and the patient and sexy daddy dominant who saw a boy worth the trouble. Please be aware this is a consensual power exchange relationship with lots of kink, a needy boy, a stern but loving daddy, and a relationship that is highly inappropriate. Isn't that what we're all looking for? If not, this probably isn't the book for you. HEA guaranteed!
Jamie Kassel is a pen name for C.H. Roquel, author of Lesbian BDSM fiction. She lives in California with her family and is obsessed with fictional characters who get their happy endings... and lots of perfect-for-them sex. (Source: Amazon.com)
This book when from zero to one hundred so fast I got whiplash so bad I’m currently curled into a ball holding my neck wondering where it all went wrong. The first half of this book was so strong with a nice build up between Grant and Will during their appointments but damn the second Grant breaks up with his girlfriend Will rolls up and suddenly Grant is calling Will daddy and crying at the drop of a hat constantly (he’s like literally always weeping) and coming four times under an hour hands free and Will immediately becomes super manipulative. In my opinion Will pushes Grant too much emotionally without them having discussed if that type of play is what Grant wants considering they NEVER discussed what Grant is looking for in regards to kink it’s just all what Will thinks Grant needs as he totally disregards the fact Grant is having not only his first gay relationship but also his first BDSM one and those types of discussions are necessary. It just felt like the author became impatient and figured they could cut some irrelevant stuff out (emotional development and character building) in order to jump to the kinky stuff and wow did it not work because we went from splashing in the kiddy pool to signing up for the Olympics and I feel like there should be some other steps between those two but whatever. Also we get a breakup cliffhanger at the end fuck you
reread October 2023 This was one of those books that I just couldn't get out of my head. Unfortunately, I can't give it a better rating after all. Written perfectly and I still don't know if I'm that sensitive, but this book just makes me uncomfortable.
First reading September 2022: Intense, super intense. Aside from the opening chapters where you get to know Grant and his problems, this was like one long lasting BDSM scene. Extremely heavy. Grant has huge issues and I admit I didn't completely understand everything that was going on in his head. Although you read everything from his perspective, it's hard for me to completely immerse myself in him. It's a constant back and forth between his needs, desires, fantasies and at the same time refusing to be vulnerable and allowing what Will offers him. Grant never had sex with a man and has so many desires. I think he himself is so insanely overwhelmed by his needs that he doesn't see what he's doing to himself. Will is equally overwhelmed by how he responds to Grant from the beginning. He does so much to control the situation and be a good Daddy, yet doesn't completely succeed. The book sits on my chest like a heavy block. I need to read the sequel because I want to understand how everything plays out. But at the same time I am afraid to venture deeper into this intense relationship. I hope Grant goes to therapy and finds a more stable view of himself. For all the fondness for the power exchange in BDSM scenes, he needs to be better to himself outside of them.
He wants to disappear. He wants Will to hold him. He wants to go back to bed and hide under the covers. He wants… he wants to be in his closet with a few towels over himself and a cock filling him up, soothing and making everything simple.
I want to cry and cuddle him until he finally finds peace. 😭😭😭
ETA: unless this author plans more full length books to address the unfinished plot points (which so far it’s seems these two are it except for the kinky novella), I will not recommend the second book despite my review of the first.
Well this book is… a ride.
First of all, I nearly didn’t make it past the first chapter because it’s written in present tense third person and it’s utterly bizarre. But my desire to see where this plot went overrode my annoyance with it and I eventually got over it.
Second, the first part of this book is heavy on the shame and internal homophobia. Grant is deeply closeted and with a woman for the first half of this book. There is no cheating but their relationship is not good and he’s obviously keeping things from her. In all honesty, I didn’t care about her one bit. Not at all. I really just wanted her out of the picture.
Once she is, thus begins an emotionally intense and desperate relationship with Will. It’s passionate and kinky and sad and I totally ate it up.
If I didn’t know there was another book after this, I would have been pretty annoyed at the lack of plot progress/tie ups. And this book ends on a dramatic cliffhanger so I’m glad I can just hop into that one and continue this story. It’s not on KU but I happily paid the $5 for book two.
I am really struggling on how to rate and review this because I read it one sitting, was really entertained by it, and greedily bought the second book. That being said, the writing is really rough. There is a lot of internal stuff Grant went through in the beginning that kind of vanished once he started his thing with Will, which really doesn’t get very far before the end of the book. There is a lot Grant has to tackle inside of himself. Sometimes these two act like big children. And again, the tense and perspective it’s written in is really distracting initially. Also not a fan of using the word “tits” for men’s nipples/pecs. And having the entire thing from Grant’s perspective with one chapter near the end from Will’s made it really off balance.
But. I read it and enjoyed it and am a bit confused and also turned on so do with that what you will. 2.5 stars rounded up.
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We get it Karen is beautiful and perfect. It’s is said like a billion times. Therefore, Grant must be super gay for not wanting her. Ugh. The internalized homophobia was pretty bad. The author might suffer from some too tbh.
Told mainly from Grant’s pov. It is a bit unbalanced. Will is his therapist with his girlfriend, Karen. Definitely not a normal meet cute.
Will sees the submissive in Grant and tbh he takes advantage of that vulnerability. If you like that taboo, this book is for you. In the end, I didn’t care either way. Both characters were meh. Grant’s sex with himself was hotter than the sex he had with Will 😵💫 There’s a book 2 but I’m not sure it’s worth my time.
This was the most delicious read since ages!! I‘m left speechless I think there are not enough words to describe how much I loved this book 🥹
This book so really intense and heavy and had a great impact on my feelings. Grant has so many huge issues he deals with and his confusion of his wants and needs doesn’t make it better. In this book it’s a constant back and forth in what he wants, desires or fantasies about he knew he needs to try things out but at the same time he is scared to let go and let himself be vulnerable with will. It’s a messy thing really and it’s heartbreaking to see this…he is so overwhelmed with by his needs and wants don’t he isn’t realized how he went into a rabbit hole, the struggle and pressure he is under. Will offers Grant things and let him test the waters he tries his best to be in control of everything that happens he tried to be a good daddy for Grant to be the daddy he needs, but at the same time he doesn’t really succeed.
Both of the MCs really have my entire heart. But especially Grant got to me…I need him to get better to see himself I’m a better light and work things out. God I want to out him into my pockets😭. The daddy/boy dynamic between them two was somehow different that I usually read in other books it absolutely was more intense and had other view points. I can’t really describe it. And they BDSM scenes in general (what’s like almost the whole book) is outstanding I think I have never read anything like that. It was somehow really uniquely written to me, and I absolutely loved it.
I‘m so glad I picked this book up and I can’t wait to read the second one 🥹🩷
DNF@28% I could not get into this. It was choppy and even though I'm all for MM or taboo, the relationship that was building between Will and Grant was not believable. Also, I realllllly didn't like Grant.
Maybe it was my frame of mind while reading this and I might give it another chance in the future. Meh.
Content Warnings for book: Internalized homophobia, struggled with toxic masculinity, emotional cheating, references to child abuse, references to religious homophobia, power imbalance between a therapist and a patient, cliffhanger
Kink: Daddy kink, humiliation
This book gives me a lot of mixed emotions and how to approach my review for this.
On one hand, there were parts of this I really enjoyed. I found the first half very angsty, yes, but I enjoyed the way the POV was written and how easy it was to connect to Grant. I liked that the author wasn’t particularly violent or using slurs to explore the character’s internalized homophobia and struggle with toxic masculinity. I like the conversations around kink that Will brought up, and some attempts at talking about the unsteady nature of their relationship. If you removed the therapist/patient power imbalance and ethical issue, I could see a lot of those talking points being in other kink books and perhaps even better for it.
On the other, the girlfriend character was… interesting. I’ve not read the second book so I’m unsure if she comes back with a vengeance. I think that she isn’t necessarily given a fair shake at full characterization and is more antagonistic and maybe even misogynistic in those portrayals, but she doesn’t have enough page time or does anything truly outrageous (in my opinion) to be something I saw as a red flag. I also think there needed to be more effort on Will’s part, when he clearly sees Grant as spiraling and unstable, to try and maintain boundaries and healthy ways of communication. The trash can scene towards the end was honestly awful (even if Grant points that out later, Will doesn’t fully acknowledge that it’s a problem), and made me want Grant to just have a kinder daddy.
Will and Grant’s relationship is complex. Do I even like them together? I’m not sure. Grant is someone who needs comfort (and actual therapy, probably), and love, and guidance. I’m not sure if some shift into a very sex-focused D/s relationship is gonna help him in that. I’m glad his angst around being queer didn’t live on in the pages forever, but because he’s also under a spotlight and the nature of who Will is to him… it really is a recipe for a disaster.
I do plan to read the next two books and continue to think on this book. Reality is, I bought into the premise and won’t complain about a power dynamic that’s even in the title (His Sex Therapist). I’m sure people are aware that in real life, a relationship between therapist and patient brings an unhealthy power imbalance. Still, it’s interesting to see how it all plays out on page.
I am super conflicted on what to rate this - there were definitely parts I liked, some great feels between the two MCs as they grew closer, some great chemistry. But there were also things that didn't sit super well with me.
This kinda gave me the vibes of older mm back in the day with poorly written female characters. I don't know, just things with Grant and Karen didn't always read as good, for me.
I think Grant needs some serious therapy and major help and support lol, that's what I mostly thought. But I'm also going to keep reading the second book, so it's clearly impacted me enough that I want to keep reading.
Since this has another book I'm gonna do a mini review and then review/rate the books as a whole.
A few things 😝
-Absolutely love how OTT this was in some aspects, especially when it comes to Grant and William. I ate it up cause you just know in real life it would never happen
-HOT ASF. Grant is down bad for William immediately and it was the best thing ever.
-I wouldn't expect much of/if any plot when it comes to this book. If your okay with that, I would def recommend reading this 🤭🥵
Kink without much substance. The MC is incredibly frustrating in his immaturity, and I didn't quite vibe with the nuance of the situation--self-hating and ashamed and in self-denial, but also regularly bleaching his asshole and fucking himself on a dildo while dreaming of a master? Just felt like the author was trying to have their cake and eat it too.
I'm surprised I liked this one as much as I did. The build up and first half is so intriguing, I really loved reading about Grant's conflict and his secret obsession with Will. The sexual tension between those two was off the charts. Things were a bit messy once they got together, I couldn't quite grasp what Grant was thinking or feeling, seemed like a lot more flip flopping (and a lot of crying). Also there was a lot of sex, which is great.... But it was a lot.
But like I said despite it becoming harder to track Grants motivations and stay connected to his struggles, I really did enjoy this and will happily dove straight into the next book.
I liked the beginning a lot! Grant was a damn mess. He was the neediest, most emotional boy. The beginning therapy sessions with Will were great
Then the story gets sloppy. The dialogue gave me whiplash. One moment Will’s saying they need to get to know each other and the next he’s rimming Grant. Maybe in the next book he teaches Grant about kink and gives him the care that he needs but in this one he does not
Despite the low rating I will probably still read the next one 🤷🏻♀️
Grant and his live-in girlfriend are having problems in their relationship. You know, sex problems. The girlfriend forces Grant to go to couples sex therapy. Grants conditions are that the therapist must be a man and must be a vet. Therapy and other happenings ensue, and the book ends on a cliffhanger. Thankfully volume 2 is out because I hate cliffys.
Grants thought processes and constant self doubt are very relatable to me Not the thoughts themselves. But I enjoyed reading about someone who needs actual therapy as much as I probably do.
If a book is going to have a taboo batshit crazy concept, I think we need to accept that we're not living in the real world and therefore don't have the same consequences. I'm fine with a problematic relationship in fiction, but once you bring in real-world consequences, now I have to start thinking about the real-world consequences and now I'm not having fun. I love a codependent needy mentally ill main character. But when the book acknowledges that being in a relationship might not be healthy for him considering his mental illness, now *I* have to acknowledge that, and now I'm not living in my fun little fantasy world where we don't have to think about what's actually healthy and right. Boo.
Grant is a pretty hard character to be in the mind of because he's so emotionally volatile and, excuse my language, just kind of fucked in the head. But the story was engaging and the spice was hot as fuck so I can't rate it too low. I'm intrigued to see what the next book brings. Hopefully Grant getting his shit together.
I don’t care for BDSM books so I initially didn’t pick this up. Then I picked it up and moved it into DNF more than once. It’s written in the 3rd person which I don’t prefer. But I kept reading Daddy/Boy (no age play) quotes on bookstagram that were so hot I decided to just read it.
The psychology in this book is spot on. If I learned a clinical psychologist trained in sexuality and ethics wrote this I’d believe it. It’s that good.
I don’t read BDSM bc it comes across as transactional and mechanical and I’m here for the intimacy. This book is only about the intimacy in a very inappropriate Daddy/Boy relationship. It is mostly sex and the scenes are incredibly explicit, smoking hot with a lot of dirty talk and very well written. If you love praise kink - this book is for you.
I went in unaware of how long the book is or that it was part 1 of 2. I only read cliff hangers if the second book is out. Thankfully it is. If volume 2 is this good I want to find all this authors other books.
It took a while for my friends to talk me into this because starting out with one guy closeted and dating a woman is not my idea of fun. But that all is resolved fairly quickly, and the dynamic between the two men is amazing. It's got lots of caretaking and kink and is definitely one I’ll recommend. On to book two!
For someone who has read a sizable number of MM BDSM, but one who still doesn't fully understand why subs think and act in such ways and behaviors, Jamie Kassel's His Sex Therapist is a gem of a find (at least for this reader).
Where I usually cringe at some scenes when the sub just lets the dom do such debasing, humiliating, and emasculating acts to him, here I never—not once—felt that. Kassel did a splendid job at letting us know that it is exactly what the MC wants. And, I so badly want him to have what he so craves. I never had that moment where I cry, "Why would someone allow a person to do such sexually humiliating act to him?" No, I didn't. Instead, I say, "Oh, come on. Just give it to him. What are you so worried about?"
Really, the chemistry between Grant and Will is super explosive. And the tender moments are utterly fluffy. Even the varied pet names Will uses on Grant aren't cheesy to my ears, so I'm without the need to gag.
But I so did not expect that freaking cliff hanger. Come on, Kassel! Good thing I have the next book ready.
Wow this was such an interesting book. Grant is so complicated with PTSD and internalized homophobia plus trying to make things work with his girlfriend (which clearly isn’t working).
She makes them go to therapy, and there he meets Will. From their first session he starts to fantasize about him being his master.
When his girlfriend breaks up with him mid session, things escalate with Will - and he finds that Will isn’t master him, but Daddy.
This is part one of two, heading right into book two since this one ends with you wanting more right away!
This is a 2 book series and you will definitely want to read the second one after this first book. I enjoyed the first book a bit more as I think it contained the bulk of the plot and character development. You start the story thinking you know Grant, but his character is so deep! Loved how his relationship with Will seemed inevitable and book 2 is where that is truly explored.
This is book contains a power imbalance, gay awaking, and so much more. Follow along as Grant attempts to deal with what life has given to him. Besure to read any trigger warnings and this book does end on somewhat of a cliffhanger. It will have you running to download volume 2 to see how this ends.
I really wanted to like the book but I couldn’t get with the characters. I’ve read other bdsm books so it’s not that topic itself. It’s the over the top emotional responses every.single.time. And I get he’s the daddy, but damn, it is said over and over again. Waaaaaay too many times.
I must admit this book is one I added based purely on some random quotes I'd seen and it was an interesting concept. The whole set up is chaos, Grant definitely needs therapy although this one isn't really the one.
His relationship with Karen obviously wasn't going to work out, and I actually liked her she was simply trying all she could to make things work out. Sadly Grant is extremely closeted and full of trauma, his trying to create this ideal/normal he feels he should fit into.
I liked the final conversation between Karen & Grant, the closure was good. Both finally being honest with each other as much as able to be. Of course things are all rather dubious, with Grant & Will's initial meeting through the therapy.
Jumping straight into relationship is pretty insane with the whole situation honestly, still they have incredible chemistry. All of those lingering looks and feelings during the initial sessions. The hug, breakdown and those almost moments as Grant falls apart were stunning.
I do love that Will kept his thoughts to himself, pulled back and ensured Grant made decision without him. These two have so much heat and the spice is off the charts in the second half, once they start it's pretty hard for them to stop.
There's a variety of kink explored, Grant is new to everything in reality although his had fantasies for years and hidden his toys for himself. Will tries so hard to lead slowly into things, not rushing despite Grants attempts and giving chance get to know one another.
Figuring out what exactly it is they want together. As Will is putting his Job on the like, while Grant is struggling in his feels still so much uncertainty looking for guidance.
There is so much emotion in this story, hitting the feels in every way especially in Grants perspectives as his thoughts processes can be heartbreaking. He does develop through the tale, but still so far to go and he hopefully gets into some therapy thats for him alone.
I enjoyed the glimpses of both their friendships too, hopefully see those characters return as were fun.
Anyway this story had me captured, I loved Grant & Will with all their flaws. The ending is a cliffhanger and I'm excited to continue the story in the next book, especially with how this one ends 😬
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
Tropes - touch starved MC, therapist x ex (kinda?) patient, erotica
Representation -gay rep, queer rep
This did something to me, I think
Scale: ⭐️ - would've DNF'ed / continued out of spite ⭐️⭐️ - shit, but whatever ⭐️⭐️⭐️ - meh, could've been better ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ - lit 👅 ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ - loved it, inject this shit into my veins 🤪
I love a taboo read: Therapist x patient relationship.
Man, even I'm getting blue balls all the way over here waiting for Will to finally fuck Grant lmao.
Idk, there's something really disatisfying about their dynamic. Like Will isn't exactly matching Grant's neediness and freak despite how from his Pov, we know(!) that he really wants Grant, but it just physically doesn't come across that way, so I get why Grant feels insecure. Like I wish Will was more feral or something. Instead he's extremely sweet and patient and just wanting to take care of Grant and make sure everything is perfect which is all good and whatnot but ffs just fuck the guy.
I didn't realize there was a part two to this, shit. Hopefully Will and Grant can deepen the bond that's starting to form between them and learn to trust each other more. Grant is a bit too indecisive for me, I appreciate he wants Will to make decisions but he's just too wishy washy in a way that's also frustrating so idk. Maybe if he was more vocal, direct/straight-up, about what he wants from Will, it'd be better so I hope they work on this in part 2.
I loved how it covers the emotional changes that occur in inexperienced people (ifykyk)
I loved how Will had so much self control yet there were moments he slipped up and the fact that he acknowledges this makes him all the more endearing. And the way he reassures Grant- *cries in single*
And Grant, oh my little desperate love, I love him to bits and how he lets himself go with Will, letting go of all the stereotypical men traits and just allows himself to be him even though he sometimes feels like he doesn't deserve it.
With Grant, all I wanted to do was hug him, my crybaby. With Will, I just wanted him to hug me like the dude just makes me all hot and bothered with just a look.
Yeah, anyways, If you are looking for a book that deals with emotional changes inexperienced subs go through without the story dragging on forever and a hot dom that like to put his sub in place... then what are you waiting for?
Honestly, I'm not sure how to feel about this book.
The first half was kind of awkward. Imagine being in therapy with your girlfriend and talking about your shitty sex life to a guy you're extremely attracted to. I wouldn't be able to survive it. 💀
I went from feeling embarrassed to feeling uncomfortable. I usually like power imbalance in books, but it felt a bit off in this story. It's probably because it was like Grant could barely function on his own, he was so incredibly vulnerable that it felt weird for Will, his ex-therapist, to have all the power. Emotionally, Grant was a mess.
Will tried to do right by Grant, but I don't think he truly succeeded. Will decided to give in to his lust too early, and I'm not a relationship expert by any means, but I don't think it was the right decision if he wanted a healthy dynamic with his boy.
This book was interesting, so I'll probably read the rest of the story.
Look, I was prepared to give this book 4 stars until the very last chapter...
Let's start with the positives: Grant and Will have great chemistry. There is no denying that. They both find a missing piece with the other and I lived for it. So much, I devoured it in one single sitting. How they grew towards each other was beautiful and I loved how Will was persistent that Grant needed professional help and that couldn't be him any more. RAISE THE GREEN FLAG.
The last chapter, which naturally ended on a negative note as this is a duet, felt very rushed and a bit like thunder on a sunny day. It didn't make sense to me how such a hasty decision was made and not one of them intervened to make it right... My frustration with that might also be the sign I'm more invested in their story than I'd like to admit. Of to part 2 I go.
Tropes: Forbidden (client x therapist) Gay awakening Daddy kink Third pov