This book is divided into two parts; and it was only when I had finished and returned to the beginning and started to skip read through part one that something of what the author was trying to convey really struck. The first part is set in London, where Grace Cleave lives alone, leading an isolated, writerly life in a small flat with a sooty garden and bus-tickets wafting in, covering the 'dead' plants. I understood the basic structure; Grace is invited by a journalist, Phillip Thirkettle, who has interviewed her - an awkward, embarrassing interview - for Grace, about her influences etc, to which she cannot answer. Phillip invites her to spend a weekend at his northern home. His wife Anne is from New Zealand, and her father also a former sheep-farmer. He offers Grace a friendly invite, I suppose, recognizing that she is floundering on her own, away from her native country.
Part two is about the visit to Relham - an invented northern city, I could guess Durham, because Phillip refers to the Cathedral where he goes for a Sunday morning service. Grace is overwhelmed by the family atmosphere, she falls immediately for a sense of Anne and Phillip as her parents, and the two small children bring back a whole string of memories of the domestic details of her parents home. I enjoyed the second part very much - it's titled 'Another Summer', and is full of details that I recognize from several of her other books - which all depend very much on autobiographical material. Her father's job working on the railway in South Island, and their constant moves from one location to another - I recognized her story of the Glenham huts - wooden - where the family had to spend 6 months, and survive a bitter southern winter, while their actual home is moved from Edendale. Those details appear, I think in 'Owls Do Cry'.
At the same time as Grace becomes immersed in the domestic details of Anne's life with her children, the cooking and preparing of meals, lighting fires, making all the arrangements for her family as well as her guest, Phillip tries to pry writerly details from Grace's mind, which is a "private place" - it is impossible for Grace to speak gracefully and eloquently at all - it is only in written sentences that she can convey her complex inner world. Over the week-end she becomes painfully aware of disappointing her hosts and leaves earlier than expected, feeling like an imposter, unable to return the couples' generosity in a way they might wish.
So, as I returned to the first part and flicked through, I realised how it feels cold, disjointed and disconnected and full of the isolation Grace experiences, as a foreigner in London. In contrast, the second part is so interesting and easy to read, full of Graces' remembrances of her earlier life - and I realised as I appreciated this contrast how much she is alone. She is no longer human, and has become a migratory bird. The visit to the family she barely knows in the cold north of England, floods her with longing for her past, of her family - their family language of songs and traditions, her three sisters, and her brother Jimmy - a life of obvious poverty but rich in family lore, history, relatives, sharing and love. I particularly liked how she recalled her sisters, saying "they were Shelley's wife" - a sort of family joke because they had read how Shelley deplored his first wife's love for material things.
Anne's face was flushed with the heat of the stove and the cooking and with feeding and calming Noel and Sarah who were both claiming attention from Philip. He sat on one chair with his feet on another and Sarah was crouched on his knees, her hands in his, being pulled to and fro.
Grace laughed unexpectedly and happily.
-That's trolley works, she said, and instantly regretted saying it; they would ask her to explain.
Philip was looking attentively at her, waiting. Anne paused in her serving of the meal to listen. Grace felt trapped.
-Yes, she said clumsily -that, I mean the way you and Sarah are holding hands like that and pulling . . . that's trolley works . . .
Still they waited for an explanation. A deep despair filled Grace's mind as she watched Philip, Anne, Noel, Sarah, so far away, wanting to understand her language, in this case an ordinary family word- surely they themselves had a family language which they would find difficult to explain to others! What if she were to turn towards Anne and say, smiling -How like Shelley's first wife you are!
Anne would not realise the significance. How often Grace and her sisters had exclaimed to one another, -I'm getting to be like Shelley's wife! Meaning that the material vain affairs of the world were intruding on their imaginative concerns; remembering, from a shared reading of the life of Shelley, that he had complained of Harriet, -When I'm thinking of poetry she's thinking of buying hats!
So much of what Grace observes about herself and the small family she stays with, opens out to much larger considerations. And yet all of her story remains rooted with the experiences of her family and those happy years of her childhood. I realised as I was reading this book, that I had read it before, but as with all of Janet Frame's books they are worth reading again and again and again. Her books overlap and she deliberately blurs the distinction of real or invented, biography or fiction, memoir or philosophy. I love her books - a truly unique and significant writer.