second book: stop because i love reading about remus from sirius’ perspective. he’s soo 🤭 i also understand sirius way more, this enhances my experience with atyd so much
omg. OMG. I’M JUST- WOW. i think it is so funny how sirius’ take of events went. i occasionally went back to atyd just to see what moony was thinking during the time and can i just say HE REALLY IS THE MOST MELODRAMATIC PERSON EVER. we see remus just freaking out because he has no idea what sirius is thinking and then cut to sirius just documenting every little thing moony does BECAUSE THEY ARE JUST SO CUTE. i love them so much. anyway, that was my little wolfstar rant. READ THIS YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT.
This did a surprisingly good job on portraying complex internalized homophobia and the impact of growing up without queer representation. And also once again the vibes! The yearning!
And reading the other side of a miscommunication does not, in fact, make it less frustrating. If you know you know. Daily reminder to read (the original) All The Young Dudes if you haven't already!!
Absolutely daunting to be about 50% into an e-book after more than a thousand pages. At least Goodreads lets me count them as separate books 🙏🏻
I think remus pov is better, maybe bc Remus is my favorite but it's still quite interesting to read what Sirius's silly and stupid brain thinks.
Also I'm stopping here, I am not reading the 3rd part of the story because I love my mental health
SPOILERS!
I am not ready to see what happens after the 7th year in hogwarts. Like all the deaths, all the pain. Sirius's locked for 13 years... Yeah I cannot do that, but if you can, well then you are better than me
[Highlights: More Gay Wizards, I think I just have a love for those???, (Yes this is referencing Snowbaz), they fight A Lot]
Heavy TWs for child abuse, homophobia, internalised homophobia, thoughts of self-harm. Also, generally just make sure you know what you're getting into if you're having a sucky day. This is very angsty when it wants to be.
“was it scary? was i scary?” “no. you were beautiful.”
“kissing him wasn’t fun. it was like starving, all visceral hinger an sharp teeth. like realising that he had been holding his breath, and suddenly tasting fresh air.”
letterlijk my shayla’s. i love them. dit deel is echt de start van alles, i’m not ready for the angst van de rest 🥹😭
“but sirius didn’t want the sun. at night, he dreamt of the moon.”
of course remus perspective is iconic and perfect but the way sirius one gives us insight on his mind, the way he was taught and everything is just so beautiful
“In the years that followed, Sirius would look back on that week in Cornwall often. He would think about it when he was lonely, or scared, or so tired that he could hardly lift his wand. When he wondered whether it was all worth it, what they were even fighting for-those were the moments he would close his eyes, remembering days in green grass and warm sand, wandering through the whitewashed village, ice cream melting on their tongues and fingers. He would think about nights in a tent with Remus, young and joyful and mad for each other, and remind himself that at the end of everything, they would have those days again.”
5 stars .. I’m scared to relive the pain… this pov is very revealing though, even though the og book is definitely better, I like having a better understanding of why he does what he does. Also the relationship with regulus broke my heart 💔😭
DONT cause this was something. I loved to switch between their point of view and watch everything build up. I’m not sure if I always liked how Sirius was emotionally described but still this remains tied to my heart till the day I die.
I could go on and on; even though I know how this ends, I still linger at the heartwarming scenes because at least they felt joy. at least they could be kids for a while longer.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.