4 stars
Hey, it’s Anna. Long time no speak. Was just wondering how you’re doing.
This is a second-chance romance by one of my favorite authors, Jade West. It’s probably important that I explain something before I go any further: I am much pickier when it comes to my favorite authors. Bait and One Too Many aren’t just two of my favorite Jade West books, they’re two of my favorite books in this entire genre. In other words, the bar is high. Is that fair? Maybe not, but that’s the way my brain works. Expectations are everything. Still, just keep that in mind, and be aware that comparatively, when it comes to my other ratings, this book is probably closer to five stars.
Flesh never forgets, and ours sure remembered every fucking thing we’d ever done.
The story is told is alternative POV, with a couple chapters from the past but almost all from the present. Anna and Lucas have been apart for ten years. We find out early that this is because of something Lucas did, which left Anna broken. They both moved on but by the time the story begins, they’re both single again. This is when Anna decides to randomly reach out to Lucas one morning. I really enjoyed the simplicity of this; their reunion wasn’t caused by fate, it was because of a text message. How many of us can relate to that?! Anyways, Anna maintains she just wants a one-off hook-up, and believe me, he gives that to her. These two are filthy in the bedroom. Lucas has a very specific fetish and even though I cringed a few times, they were scalding hot together. I could totally see why they were such a good match. It’s not often you find someone that tolerates your weird fetishes, let alone *enjoys* them. But then why did they throw it all away? Well, this was another relatable part of the book that I was grateful for: Lucas made a mistake. It wasn’t as bad of a mistake as Anna was initially led to believe, but still- it was his to own, and he DID own it. For a second I thought the author was going to absolve him completely, and while the door was left open for that to be the case, she left it alone because it really didn’t matter. His actions started the chain of events and he made more mistakes in the aftermath. Thankfully, he never lost sight of that. In the romance genre as a whole, I feel like authors tend to make every love story a fairy tale. And don’t get me wrong, I love those stories sometimes too, especially lately. But the reason I read dark romance is to get something REAL and RAW. This book had that in spades; both MCs paid for Lucas’ mistake and then some. It was hard to hold his actions against him; in my opinion, he was punished beyond what he deserved for the mistakes he made, and his grovel reflected that.
And then I kissed her. I kissed her and she kissed me right back and our doom was fucking sealed.
While I liked them both, Lucas and Anna definitely had their flaws. Anna was just a touch too helpless. Now, this wasn’t all her fault. I don’t want to give too much away, but let’s just say that she was very influenced by somebody else, and not in a positive way. But I wanted her to grow a backbone at times and tell her friends and parents to mind their own fucking business. Okay, they hated Lucas for what went down ten years ago. They’re entitled to that. But it was her life to live, not theirs. As for Lucas, he was great when they were banging, but otherwise he was just kind of a sad sack. Like, take control of your life, bro. At first, I had some trouble respecting him, probably because nobody else did. But over time, he grew stronger, probably because Anna reminded him of the person he used to be. I loved the way he treated Anna in the last quarter of the book. Yes he cared for her, but he gave her agency as well, and she badly needed that. So, all in all, while I didn’t love them at first, both became the best versions of themselves.
It was toxic. Painful. Blunt and savage. It was poison. But sometimes the antidote comes from the strangest places. Maybe, just maybe, I was staring at mine.
So, why not 5 stars?? Well, a few reasons, but they’re all my opinions that may not bother others. First of all, it definitely had way more angst than any other Jade book I’ve read. And that wouldn’t have been a huge deal if she didn’t beat us over the head with it. Like, I got it; Lucas hurt you, Anna. But she really blamed him for everything bad in her life over the last ten years and that wasn’t entirely fair. Maybe, if she fell apart that badly after losing him, she was too dependent on him in the first place. Secondly, the angst included some plot devices that I didn’t love. As mentioned above, things didn’t turn out as predictable as I originally thought, and I was very relieved for that. Finally-and I also mentioned this above- Anna’s family and friends, as well as Lucas’ mother, drove me fucking crazy. These people were just way too invested in someone else’s life. I would have NEVER let them influence me like that, and it made me lose respect for both MCs. Like, you’re grown. Just tell them you love them and respect their opinion but it’s your life, so you’ll decide what is best for you. It really bothered me how it was like “welp, we can’t be together because my friends don’t like you.” THEN GET NEW FRIENDS!!! (Sorry, I was really annoyed by this, which took away my enjoyment of the story. Hence the four stars instead of five.)
”This is going to be a disaster,” she said. “People will never let me do this. Not in a million years.”
“People can fuck right off, I’m done with trying to please them,” I said, and kissed her hard.
So, anyways, this is a very meaningful read. It’s also vintage Jade West filth, which makes the story special; rarely do you have such perverted sexy times wrapped up in a relatable, thoughtful story. So yes, it could’ve easily been five stars, but the angst was a bit too frustrating and predictable. There was also a LOT of it. Maybe I needed to see more of the happy times of Anna and Lucas, either in the past or present. On a similar note, I wanted more from the epilogue. But I guess life isn’t always wrapped up in a bow like that, and I can appreciate that.
I’d always loved every little scrap of her soul with every scrap of mine, I’d just been too much of a prick to ever deserve her.
You can’t ever change the past, no matter how much you want to, so why give it any more of your future than you have to?