This lovely memoir by Juliana Castro Varón develops its deft structure as a bold reply to a little piece of text from Virginia Woolf’s To the Lighthouse. Woolf proposes that the question about the meaning of life is something that “closes in on one with years.” Castro Varon’s answer is to deftly describe her own “little daily miracles, illuminations, matches struck unexpectedly in the dark” - from which she constructs an engaging understanding of life that is beautifully captured in the short book.
This book asserts that in life what “survives the wreck of time” is not some single massive answer to the inescapable question about the meaning of life, but rather is the series of small riveting and unforgettable life events that accumulate into an another sort of answer over time - individual experiences of beauty, but also of truth, self discovery, romantic love, family, art, photography and literature - and sometimes of moments of pain and suffering.
The text is structured in “chapters” (the word is inadequate to describe the small but lovely and memorable essays that could each stand on their own) that are almost epistolary; combined with the author’s own sketches the book creates a new and creative genre of memoir. Constructed carefully and poetically, each of these epiphanies is a freestanding fragment of story of a young life of engaging intellect and an insistent pursuit of beauty.
The book brings in a wonderful cast of characters: a brilliant and sensitive mother as well as other full drawn family members, friends and colleagues who somehow become equal partners in the author’s experiences of art and literature. The chapters tell the small stories in such a way that they become paradoxically large and substantial: an accidental encounter on a train, the humorous experience and larger understanding that came with first confession, life-affirming and sometimes difficult passages with family, a friendship that evolves into a brief romance, the persistent search for the fundamental emotional experience of art in the work of Velazquez, Felix Gonzalez Torres, and James Turrell, and encounters with fragments of literary texts from Rebecca Solnit, Dave Eggers and others.
Readers will argue about which of the chapters is best and they will each be right.
The book introduces a unique, ambitious and sensitive new voice, one which brings to mind the voices of other great memoirists such as Joan Didion, Mary Karr, and Patti Smith.