Acum ai fi acasă

by Kathleen Glasgow, Oana Duşmănescu (Translator)

În ochii tuturor, Emory „Emmy” Ward este fata bogată, fiica bună, sora mai mică a lui Maddie cea sexy și dădaca lui Joey, fratele ei mai mare dependent de droguri. Însă nimic nu va mai fi la fel după ce ea și Joey sunt implicați într-un accident de mașină în care își pierde viața Candy MontClaire.

Patru luni mai târziu, pentru Emmy a început clasa a 11-a, Joey s-a întors de la reabilitare și întregul orășel Mill Haven încă încearcă să-și revină după accident. Toată lumea îi spune lui Emmy cine este ea, dar toate s-au schimbat atât de mult, cum mai poate ea să fie aceeași persoană? Oare fusese vreodată acea persoană?
Mill Haven vrea ca toată lumea să trăiască aceeași poveste, însă Emmy începe să vadă că oamenii înseamnă mai mult decât ceea ce par la suprafață.

Acum ai fi acasă este povestea unei fete care conștientizează faptul că în viață e vorba despre suferință, frumusețe, chin și bucurie. A unei fete care se străduiește să se descopere în paralel cu prăbușirea fratelui său, dependent de droguri, într-un orășel devastat de consumul de opiacee.

Genres: Young Adult, Mental Health, Fiction, Contemporary, Romance, Realistic Fiction, Audiobook

400 pages, Paperback

First published September 28, 2021

About the author

Kathleen Glasgow is the New York Times, USA Today, and international bestselling author of Girl in Pieces, The Glass Girl, You'd Be Home Now, How to Make Friends With the Dark, and The Agathas series (with Liz Lawson). Visit her on TikTok (@kathleenglasgow), Instagram (misskathleenglasgow) or her website (www.kathleenglasgowbooks.com).

Reviews

[Nilufer Ozmekik · Rating 5 out of 5]

Breathe in! Breathe out! I’m just a weeping mess! The story of Emory and Joey hit harder to me than I expected! Brother-sister unique bounding stories are triggering subjects for me because of my personal loss! At some chapters, I stopped my reading, choking out, taking deep breathes, gathering my composure to turn back to my reading! But I’m honestly shaking to the core!I’m trembling!

This epic story is realistic slap across your face! It reminds you of it’s impossible to be perfect parents and it’s impossible to raise perfect kids. There’s no formula, no instruction book! I wish it could. You read the manual and fix your children’s problems like fixing an IKEA furniture. It’s obvious you will make mistakes and you cannot direct your children’s lives by putting restrictions, giving them long lists, choosing their friends, controlling the choices they make. That’s not how parenting works. You’re doomed to make mistakes, screw things over but you also try harder to learn from them.

The opening of the book is mind blowing! Emory finds herself trapped in a car, as her brother’s bestie Leonard is driving it like a madman, while Emory tries to soothe Candy who is screaming at the top of her lungs because Emory’s brother Joey passed out at the back seat of the car. He doesn’t move,probably OD’d. And BAM!

Emory opens her eyes at the hospital, her leg in a cast, confused, numb. Her sister Maddie is by her side, parents arguing because her brother was overdosed and his best friend Leonard is sent to juvie because he killed Candy- yes that innocent, sweet girl who wanted to leave the party earlier because of severe headache, trapped in a car with them and now she’s casualty of the tragic innocent.

Emory has been already struggling from lack of social life. Her only friend Liza has been cut out of her life because of her mother’s intervention and now entire school blames her and her brother because of Candy’s death. She’s wounded, she’s pariah and she is also designated caretaker of her brother who returns back from rehab. Their mother gives them long lists filled with rules as if they’re her junior assistants instead of kids.

Emory is always negotiator, peacemaker, doing always what her parents told her, obedient, sweet, good daughter of the family as her big sister is beauty queen, smart, popular college student and her brother… her rebellious, artsy, introvert brother Joey always gets the full attention with his addiction problem.

Emory needs to be seen, to be cared, to be listened! Nobody hears her silent screams or sees invisible scars! She feels invisible, passing through two workaholic parents and her suffering brother in the house and she wants to scream: “ please let me live my own life! I don’t want more responsibilities! I want to live my own life! I want to make my own choices! “

She has a crush on her neighbor next door: Gage, making out with him secretly at the pool house. But even Gage insists to keep things secret, hiding their intimate moments in the dark, keeping her in the shadows.

The question is simple: what are you going to do with your one wild and precious life?

She needs to be seen! She needs to be cared! She needs to be heard!

But she also sees her brother’s struggle. She has to help him but how can she help a person who doesn’t need to get help.

This book is deep, heart wrenching, soul crushing family drama. It’s about parenting, addiction, bullying, #metoomovement, slut-shaming, cancer, sibling bonding, friendship!

It’s touching, tear jerking, sentimental and the conclusion of the story is so realistic and gut punching!

I want to finish my review with some parts I chose from Emory’s stunning poem:

I’m a girl on a stage and I have nothing beautiful for you.
I’m a girl on a stage and you think you know my story.
But how can you know my story when I haven’t written it yet.
When I haven’t had a chance to live it yet.
How can you know my story
When you don’t even know me!

Giving my five tear jerking, self respect, self discovery, bravery, growing spine stars!

Special thanks to NetGalley and Random House Children’s / Delacorte Press for sharing this amazing digital reviewer copy with me in exchange my honest opinions.

[Melissa ♥ Dog/Wolf Lover ♥ Martin · Rating 5 out of 5]

My God, how do I start this review!! I had a million words and they have left me…… this author, every time!

I’m not fine! I’m broken! - Mel





This book made me feel what I felt, feel what I feel, cry, hate, love… understand.



These characters are wonderful. Flawed. They are a lot of us when we were young. A lot of us as parents and the people who are lost.

When I first started reading the book I was getting myself prepared for what the author was going to do to me. I got to a point in the book that I felt was going to be the same old bullshit I read nowadays and felt bummed. I was so wrong. This book is about ALL the things.



Emory, Joey, Jeremy, Eliza, Daniel…. I love you guys so much!!

My whole life, I just wanted to feel better. Forget about what a loser I was. And then I found a way to do that.

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If I was Joey, I’d be pawing through the house looking for anything, something to dull all this down. Forget I’m even me.
I get it now. I really get it.

I hated the parents in the beginning. They didn’t treat their kids very good. They are rich and jerks, but sometimes bad things have to happen to wake someone up. They have Emory who is the good kid, the invisible kid. Maddie, the perfect kid. Joey the bad, loser kid. Joey and Emory did things to try to hide the pain, to feel wanted. Some of the things were stupid and you’re screaming in your head for them to stop. I was young once and did things, a lot of people were in their place or worse. I’m in that place in some ways now. BUT, you can’t judge! You need to find your compassion! It tore my empathy into little pieces. I cried, I laughed and cried some more. And the homeless and the hope that was given!! Damn it!! It was so horrible and wonderful!

I had a lot more I wanted to say, so much more! It just all went out the window. I just know I want to do even more to help people before I die.

YOU ARE NOT ALONE! AND I LOVE YOU!

Mel 🖤🐶🐺🐾

*Thank you to Netgalley and Penguin for a digital copy of this book.

MY BLOG: https://melissa413readsalot.blogspot....

[Catherine (alternativelytitledbooks) - still catching up! · Rating 5 out of 5]

Kathleen Glasgow's first novel is called Girl in Pieces.

Well, I am officially a Girl in Pieces after reading this heart-wrenching, beautiful, and authentic book!

This book tackles the topic of addiction (specifically the opioid epidemic) and its impacts on a community, schools, a family unit, and most importantly, the intricacies of a brother-sister relationship and how quickly these bonds can change.

Emory feels invisible--always has--in the spotlight of picture-perfect older sister Maddie. Her brother Joey has struggles of his own, which culminate after a party one night, where Joey's drug use finds him in a car with bad influence and "friend" Luthor...and leaves a young girl dead after a tragic car crash. Emory was also in the vehicle, and both siblings have become pariahs at school in their own ways, as Emory recovers from a leg injury and Joey begins a stint at rehab. This is all part of their parents' plan to maintain social standing and 'fix' their children. But Emory has secrets of her own, and aside from her time playing babysitter to Joey during his recovery, she vacillates between wanting someone to see her and fearing the repercussions of her double life. When her worlds collide months later, can Emory discover the path she is meant to take and help keep her brother above water...before she loses him again?

Everyone has reasons why they read and prefer certain genres, and for me YA can be some of the most emotionally-driven and relatable fiction out there, even at age 34. I think this is because we can all tap back into those familiar emotions that can overwhelm at a younger age. Couple that with explorations of mental health issues, and in this case, the opioid epidemic, and Glasgow had and held my attention. She is very careful to not veer into stereotypical territory with her books, and you honestly don't know whether her characters will have a happy ending or not. I was so taken aback by how invested I was in this book towards the end that I felt tears welling in my eyes without even realizing it.

In my opinion, there is a tendency to dumb down teens in today's YA, perhaps because they live in the world of social media that didn't exist when we (or of course, the author!) were teenagers. Oftentimes they are painted as nothing more than superficial and self-absorbed, but Glasgow shows us different types of characters in this book, from the aforementioned shallow but mostly, the surprisingly deep. Yes, there are references to texting and Instagram even plays a role in this story, but that isn't the focus. She keeps the narrative trained on the thoughts and emotions of her characters, the actions they take (or are afraid to take) and the way they interact with the adults in their lives.

There was clearly a lot of careful research and heart that went into this story, and I feel it did justice to those suffering at the hands of addiction and those surrounding them as well--we ALL know someone who has battled those demons, if we haven't battled them ourselves. You'd Be Home Now is anything but preachy, though: no need to spout off "Say No to Drugs", but rather, Glasgow explores the system as a whole and what we can do to fix it before more lives are lost. She mentions in her author's notes that she is recovering from her own struggles and she always explores these themes with a caring pen. I will always appreciate her honesty in the fact that life is not black and white, and answers aren't always found, but nevertheless we persist. There is also a helpful list of resources in the back, should you need them or know someone who could use them.

I didn't expect to be so moved by this book, but by the end of this story, I felt nothing but love and a sense of protectiveness towards Emory and Joey and a desperation for everything to turn a corner for them and those struggling in their community. This is a beautifully moving story, and one of the best YA reads I've had this year, bar none. Thank you to Kathleen Glasgow---you made me cry when I didn't even know I needed it.

4.5 stars, rounded up to 5

Now in paperback as of 11.8.22!

[Kathleen Glasgow · Rating 5 out of 5]

Yes! I have a new book! YOU'D BE HOME NOW is the story of Emmy and her brother, Joey. This is a story about how addiction touches everyone and everything in its orbit: siblings, parents, friends, community, town. It's about wanting so much to keep someone safe that you'd do anything for them...but what if love isn't enough to save someone? Happy to answer questions in comments.

[Cara · Rating 5 out of 5]

WOW JUST WOW!!!!! You'd Be Home Now written by Kathleen Glasgow was so raw, heart wrenching, pure, and authentic. I read Girl In Pieces by this author a while back, so when I saw many of my goodreads friends had read this book, and rated it very highly, I knew I had to get my hands on You'd Be Home Now, but let me just say after reading this book, i'm a Girl In Pieces. This book was so heavy to read at times, I had to take a breather. My emotions were all over the place, one minute I was sobbing, the next minute I was gasping for air, and other minutes I just kept praying this book would end differently than I thought. I had to take at least a day or two to write this review because this book was so gut wrenching. I was hooked from the very first page, it was like I was on one of the world's weirdest roller coaster ride, like when you expect a crazy turn, but you go downhill. There are some TW'S in this book; opioid addiction, and death. I recommend all my goodreads friends to read this book because it was so real and authentic. You'd Be Home Now deserves the highest rating possible, I wish I could give this book a higher than five stars. Once I saw the cover, I knew this book would be a heart breaker, but once you actually start reading the story it's more than heart breaking. I hate to say this because it was such a sad book, I was instantly hooked from the very first page. TISSUES ARE REQUIRED IF YOU DO DECIDE TO READ THIS BOOK!!!!!

"Sometimes your life falls to ash and you sift through, waiting for the pain to pass, looking for the remnants in the debris, something to save, when really all you need is right there, inside you".

"I love you, Emmy, but you have no idea what it's like to be me".

"You can't put your life on hold for somebody else, you know? Sometimes you just have to do what you have to do to make yourself happy. And if you're not, like, solid with yourself, how can you help somebody else?".

You'd Be Home Now is the story of a teenage girl figuring out life in all it's beauty, pain, joy, and struggles. Emory, for her whole life has been told who she is. In the town of Mill Haven, Emory is known as the rich kid, the great-great granddaughter of the mill's founder. The mill is basically like a little shopping center strip mall, stores, dry cleaners, places where people can get help if they struggle with addiction. At school, Emory is known as hot Maddie Ward's younger sister. Maddie is now away from home in college, but since she went to the school the Emory now goes to, everyone knows Emory as Maddie's younger sister. At home, Emory is known as one of the good Ward kids, but also known as her stoner brother, Joey's babysitter. One night, everything was turned on it's head, Joey and Emory attended a party where drinking and drugs were involved. Emory only had about two drinks, Joey was high out of his mind, and their friend Luther was completely wasted. There was another girl there, Candy MontClair.

At the party, Candy was a sobbing mess, she just wanted to go home, she was holding Emory's hand trying to breathe. Emory wanted to go home as well, so she announced that since she only had two drinks she would be the designated driver, but Luther was determined to drive. Joey, Emory, Luther, and Candy were involved in a car accident, heroin was said to be found in the car, but this car accident also killed Candy MontClair. She was the only one who had passed away from her injuries. The car accident just revealed how bad Joey's drug addiction really was. Joey is sent to rehab in Colorado, Luther was sent to juvie because of the drugs found on him and he was also underage, Emory fractured her kneecap. Four months later, Emory is starting her junior year in high school, Joey is home from rehab, Luther is still in juvie, and the entire town of Mill Haven is still reeling from the car accident. Everyone at school won't look at or talk to Joey and Emory because they all know they were involved in the car accident that took Candy's life. Everyone is telling Emory who she is, but so much has changed, how can she be the same person? Or was Emory really ever that person at all?

I'm going to stop this review right here because you need to read the book for yourself. You'd Be Home Now really hit hard. While reading this book it truly let all my emotions show, I cried, I was angry, I was heart broken, I was irritated at the parents for thinking making chores for Joey would cure his drug addiction when all he wanted and needed was help and someone to love him. I just wanted to reach into the book and hug Emory and Joey so much, and just cry with them. Please do yourself a favor and pick up a copy of this book, along with a bunch of boxes of tissues because they are required. I feel so guilty saying I loved this book so much, but it was so raw, real, and pure. It gives us as reads an insight to drug addiction and how people cope differently once they get out of rehab. As I took a day or two to write this review because I had to gather myself and process this book, as i'm sitting here now and writing the review for the book, my heart is being broken all over again. I want to apologize to my kindle for absorbing all of my tears, You'd Be Home Now really and truly destroyed me.

[jenoodle✮⋆˙ · Rating 2 out of 5]

・:〃➜ 𝑺𝒑𝒐𝒊𝒍𝒆𝒓 𝑭𝒓𝒆𝒆 𝑹𝒆𝒗𝒊𝒆𝒘 🤍‧₊˚.
🕷️︵‧ ˚ ₊⊹ 𝘚𝘱𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘢𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘬𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘪𝘦 𝘡𝘦𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘣 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘢𝘵𝘵𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘶𝘥𝘥𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦! ⊹₊ ˚‧︵
︶ ๋ ࣭ ⭑☁️˖ Her Review • ₊˚📓

₊ ⊹ˑ🍙‧₊°◞ 𝐘𝐨𝐮'𝐝 𝐁𝐞 𝐇𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐍𝐨𝐰 ⸝⸝ ୭ 🐈‍⬛˚. ᵎᵎ
🎬୧ ⁺ׅ⊹╰› 𝙧𝙤𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙘𝙚: 14+ (𝙠𝙞𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙨𝙚𝙭𝙪𝙖𝙡 𝙨𝙞𝙩𝙪𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨, 𝙩𝙤𝙭𝙞𝙘 𝙧𝙚𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙝𝙞𝙥𝙨, 𝙞𝙢𝙥𝙡𝙞𝙚𝙙 𝙨𝙚𝙭𝙪𝙖𝙡 𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙞𝙩𝙮, 𝙢𝙖𝙣𝙞𝙥𝙪𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙞𝙫𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙧), 𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚: 15+ (𝙘𝙖𝙧 𝙘𝙧𝙖𝙨𝙝, 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙩𝙝, 𝙞𝙣𝙟𝙪𝙧𝙮, 𝙗𝙪𝙡𝙡𝙮𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙚𝙩𝙘), 𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣𝙖𝙡 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙩/𝙩𝙧𝙞𝙜𝙜𝙚𝙧 𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨: 15+ (𝙙𝙧𝙪𝙜𝙨, 𝙙𝙧𝙪𝙜 𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣, 𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙙𝙤𝙨𝙚, 𝙙𝙧𝙪𝙜 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜, 𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙤𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙮 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙧𝙚𝙡𝙖𝙥𝙨𝙚, 𝙤𝙥𝙞𝙤𝙞𝙙 𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣) ﹒⸝⸝🪽₊˚
· · ─────── ·𖥸· ─────── · ·
⊹ ࣪ ˖ now playing: 𝘼𝙧𝙘𝙖𝙙𝙚 ⸝⸝ 🎱˚. ᵎᵎ
╭ 🎧‧₊˚ ⋅ 𝘿𝙪𝙣𝙘𝙖𝙣 𝙇𝙖𝙬𝙧𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚
⌞ 1:11 ——◦———— 3:04 ⌝
↠ⁿᵉˣᵗ ˢᵒⁿᵍ ↺ ʳᵉᵖᵉᵃᵗ ⊜ ᵖᵃᵘˢᵉ ꕀ🥛 ‧₊˚.
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꒰📰꒱ "𝙎𝙢𝙖𝙡𝙡-𝙩𝙤𝙬𝙣 𝙗𝙤𝙮 𝙞𝙣 𝙖 𝙗𝙞𝙜 𝙖𝙧𝙘𝙖𝙙𝙚" ♟️⁺◟˚

🖤୭ ˚.⁺ You know my expectations for this book were mixed. On one hand I was willing to give it a chance on the other hand I had my suspicions that this was going to be a disaster. AND GUESS WHAT! I WAS ACTUALLY RIGHT. It was a disaster. A SHIPWRECK. I swear I don't know what is worse this book or the taste of cigarettes. Because here I was expecting something cool. heartfelt, with a sad storyline that I could literally feel to my core, BUT INSTEAD WE GOT THIS. And I honestly don't even know what to call it at this point. I actually don't think there is a word to describe this. But because my mama didn't raise no quitter I'm going to attempt to describe this anyway.




꒰📰꒱ "𝙄 𝙜𝙤𝙩 𝙖𝙙𝙙𝙞𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙙 𝙩𝙤 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙜𝙖𝙢𝙚" ♟️⁺◟˚

🖤୭ ˚.⁺ I got to start of strong when I say reading this book felt worse than reading an instruction manual to build a desk. ATLEAST WITH AN INSRUCTION MANUAL I CAN LEARN TO BUILD SOMETHING. I swear maybe I am just a professional hater but everything about this book felt so BLAND. And not only just bland but extremely, extremely BORING. And when you top that with a depressing undertone and characters who have the personality of a rock, (Actually rocks have more personality in my opinion) THEN YOU GET THIS WRECK. And I really tried to have hope that things would pick up or become more interesting. I WAS JUST HOLDING ON TO THAT SMALL LITTLE THREAD OF HOPE THAT A MIRACLE WOULD HAPPEN. But if miracles did happen I would NOT be writing this review.

꒰📰꒱ "𝙊𝙤𝙝, 𝙤𝙤𝙝" ♟️⁺◟˚

🖤୭ ˚.⁺ Now during the entire thing i felt like the characters were the most DRYEST creatures I have ever read. Like don't get me wrong, everyone has different names. BUT PERSONALITY? I swear everyone was the exact same and talk like they are working in a presential office. ALSO THE WRITING?? HELLO?? I swear to god the book kept alternating from poetic to regular to chaos and it was SO frustrating to keep up with and lock in. (Can you tell I hated the writing style??) And I don't know if its just me and maybe I'm heartless, but I didn't find this story sad at all. I love the topics it touches with addiction and such and how it can be interpreted in many ways, but the book didn't really make me feel like sobbing at 2am because of how wrecked the plot is. And now looking back I think the reason I didn't feel that much sad brings us back to the character issue. BECAUSE HOW CAN YOU CONNECT TO CHARACTERS IF THEY HAVE NO PERSONALITY??




꒰📰꒱ "𝘼𝙡𝙡 𝙄 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬, 𝙖𝙡𝙡 𝙄 𝙠𝙣𝙤𝙬" ♟️⁺◟˚

🖤୭ ˚.⁺ ALSO WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT ROMANCE ELEMENT THROWN IN?? Because the way that was so unneeded is BEYOND me. The toxicity, the random ahh kissing when her brother literally relapses, IT JUST HAD ME SCREAMING. (And not in a good way.) I feel like we could have done without the random romance element because it was just done SO badly. And while I get that this isn't the main point of the book and therefore the romance is going to be bad regardless, WE STILL COULD HAVE MADE IT A LITTLE BIT DECENT AND MAKE A LITTLE BIT OF SENSE. I also hated every single guy in this book but honestly more on that later.

꒰📰꒱ "𝙇𝙤𝙫𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙮𝙤𝙪 𝙞𝙨 𝙖 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙜𝙖𝙢𝙚" ♟️⁺◟˚

🖤୭ ˚.⁺ And on top of those dry ahh characters that honestly remind me of Sims NPCs, we just have to pay some attention to how STUPID the plot of this was. It's giving Disney Channel movie but make it PG-14. AND I KNOW I SAID THIS ONCE BUT I HAVE TO SAY IT AGAIN. There was no personality in this entire thing and I was BORED. I honestly predicted everything that happened in this too so I guess this is a fun book for a guessing game.

. ݁₊ ⊹ . ݁𝑪𝒉𝒂𝒓𝒂𝒄𝒕𝒆𝒓𝒔 🦢⭑.ᐟ

✒️‧₊˚ ┊𝐄𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐲: She honestly was the most boring to read because the entire book is in her POV. Like girl please go to amazon and buy SOME kind of personality. Heck, even an annoying one would be fine by me 😭😭😭 On top of that I feel like she had potential to be such a relatable and raw character but the author failed miserably at portraying that and it seemed very try hard.

✒️‧₊˚ ┊𝐉𝐨𝐞𝐲: I honestly felt bad for him if anything. I think out of all the characters I could see his personality the most and how he cares for his sister still while he's drowning in addiction. I just wish we could have seen more of him and his interactions with his sisters.

✒️‧₊˚ ┊𝐆𝐚𝐠𝐞: Dude I swear to god I imagined him as one of those Disney bullies and i don't even know why LMAOOOO. He had that typical f boy mentality that probably uses discord to find e girls imo and he lowkey was just a ragebait 😭

✒️‧₊˚ ┊𝐌𝐚𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐞: Ok if I had to pick a favorite character, (or if a gun was held to my head.) I would have to say she honestly would be my favorite. She felt like the only one with a REAL unique personality even though she was still very stereotypical. Unfortunately we didn't see much of her either.

🤍₊˚⊹ And there were a bunch of other boring bland dry asf characters in this book but that is for you to find out about if you even have the time to read this terrible piece of fiction.

🖤୭ ˚.⁺ 𝑶𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒍𝒍:
This was one of those books you read and forget the next day, and then remember it and question why you even read it. There's so many other books out there that would give you the same effect WITH characters that have personality. And honestly I would never read this piece of shit again.

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🤍📞 𝐩𝐫𝐞-𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝: EVERYONE SHUT UP BECAUSE ME AND MY BESTIE FOR LIFE ZEINABB ARE BUDDYREADING🫨 Yes, it was long awaited. And WHY NOT BOND WITH TEARRSSS! IT better deliver 😼

[Book Clubbed · Rating 3 out of 5]

A story about having a family member in the throes of addiction, not about addiction itself, which are two very different novels. A story about a loved one battling addiction is often about the distance the addiction asserts, and the impossible job of reconciling that distance with the intimacy you previously had with them. We get some sense of Joey on the page, but more often than not it's his absence that defines him.

I appreciate Glasgow's character development, and her refusal to romanticize any character in this story. They are all flawed, yet all treated with humanity. She juggles various storylines, and the emotional conflict brewing in Emory as she simultaneously deals with her brother and her own relationship drama felt compelling.

Glasgow writes standard prose, with no aspect that calls attention to itself. The dialogue veered from authentic to corny, "what's up my fellow kids?" imitations. The worst moments are in English class, when Glasgow turns one of the students into a mouthpiece to change the curriculum, and the character immediately starts speaking like the most annoying, 1st-year graduate student you've ever met. It could have been an interesting section, sparking a dialogue worthy of nuance and courage, but it came off (like a lot of contemporary fiction) as a moralizing pamphlet.

I prefer fiction that challenges me, instead of pandering to commonly held beliefs.

The pacing seemed haphazard as well. In the first half, nearly nothing happened, and by the second half, we were speeding from scene-to-scene trying to wrap things up. I have never seen a writer skim through so many mini-emotional climaxes in a scant page or two. It felt like major self-sabotage, but maybe that's all our attention spans can handle at this point.

[Avery · Rating 4 out of 5]

“How glorious it is to drown.”

I haven't been in the review-writing mood lately but I want to write about a sad book to feed off of my sad emotions so here we are.

I've read Girl in Pieces by this author and LOVED it so I had high expectations for this one! I don't like it better than Girl in Pieces but this was still very meaningful and impactful.

The Plot

I liked the plot, it was decently straightforward but it did get more intense near the middle-end. There was one big thing that happened, which led to a whole new thing that had me gawking at my book in shock and tearing up a bit a few times.

This definitely talked about some touchy topics, like toxic relationships and drugs. Sometimes it was hard to read, not from my own personal experiences, but because other people have had to go through all of this and that hurts because no one deserves that.

“Invisibility does that to you. Strips away fancy layers, leaves just the bones and blood. Just enough to get around.”

Also, the writing is gorgeous!

The Characters

Emory was a good and complex character. She was relatable in some cases, like academics and feeling like a failure, which was interesting to read about. I loved her character development throughout the book, where she learned to be brave and to stand up for herself.

Now Joey is probably my favorite character, just because he is so interesting. There are so many different aspects and traits about him that mold him into something super complex. I can't blame him for anything he's done, but I don't know too much about this, so I don't have a place to say.

I didn't like Gage at all, I could just tell there was something off about him and Emory from the beginning.

I did like the side characters such as Liza, Daniel, and Jeremy.

So overall, this was a pretty solid cast of characters, though I didn't necessarily love any of them.

“Maybe people just use different things to fill up the emptiness. Until it becomes less about feeling empty and more about feeding something else.”

The Relationships

The relationships in this are super complicated, whether it be romantic, sibling, parental, or friendships.

I loved all of the friendships in this, and how Emory managed to find her group of people despite everything that has happened.

As for the romantic ones, I didn't care for any of them, which isn't surprising since I don't normally like romance in these types of books, such as contemporaries. If romance is the main plot, then yes, I love it, but not if it's just a little side thing that doesn't have much development. Though I will admit, the romance in this (at the end, mind you) is cute.

Now for the parental relationships, that was difficult, since Emory had a complicated relationship with both of her parents, where her mom is super strict and overwhelming, while her dad isn't around a lot. The journey through the book shows how Emory heals her relationships with her parents and I loved that part so much.

Finally, for the sibling one, I LOVED Joey and Emory's connection. If they could talk to no one else, they could always talk to each other, and if one of them was hurting, the other would feed off those emotions. I love how they were so devoted and loving towards each other and how Emory helped Joey so much in his recovery journey.

“You can be around people every day of your life and not really see them, you know? They’re just a collection of things.”

Overall, I really liked this book! It was a great one to read to just pass the time and I loved reading through Emory and Joey's journey!

4 stars

“You don’t know what is going to happen, or how things are going to end, and we probably get into way too much trouble trying to plan for and predict these things.”

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Wow this hit hard

Rtc

[zeinab]

dnf

this book is way too depressing even for me.

[lilly ♡ (comment restriction) · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 ★'s

"That's the thing about loving an addict. You don't want to lose them. You'll do anything to keep them with you. Keep them alive. You'll lie, beg, cheat, steal. But you start to feel invisible. Because everything is about them. Never about you. You can't even think about you, You're so busy taking care of then. Because you don't want to lose them. But it's hard to be invisible. You just want someone, sometime to see you."

this review is just going to be a ramble of a bunch of my thoughts and what i remember as i go along so... get ready

i had high expectations for this book. i absolutely LOVED girl in pieces and this has been on my TBR for forever. i wasn't necessarily disappointed by the book but it definitely didn't live up to my expectations.

at the start of the book it really just seemed like pointless chapters that didn't really contribute to the plot but it still lured me in. the book is from emory's POV when over half of the book is revolved around joey and not her experiences.

also who was rooting for gage? tbh we all knew he was an asshole i saw that coming from a mile away

throughout this book i really wish it would have came from joey's POV at certain parts. at the start of the book & in the synopsis it talks about a car crash that happened with candy and how it affected emory and joey and that's when everyone kinda found out he was an addict. but the book doesn't go into depth about how the car crash affected emory. at times she mentioned it or had nightmares about it.

but i do completely understand why it was written from emory's pov. people who have loved ones who are addicts or are recovering would most likely love this book, but, i do not have that so to me it felt a little pointless when the entire book revolves around joey and you just hear how much she wants him to be okay and come back.

don't get me wrong, i definitely loved this book. i'm glad i read it. idk if gage was supposed to be a plot twist with everything going on with him but i saw it coming. and the one plot twist i didn't see coming? it felt so predictable in the end.

tbh i thought daniel was gay for most of the book like him and emory kinda had a thing and i was like oh maybe he's gay but i forgot or smth

gage was such an asshole. i understand why emory kept going back to him tho. i felt so bad for her.

SPOILERS AHEAD!
y'all i didnt see joey going missing actually. but then u find out its LUCIFER or luther (?) don't really remember but anyways WOWW who would have guessed. i ate it up tho

also i think everyone who has read this book saw joey relapsing. bc it wouldn't be a book if he came home from rehab and everything was magically perfect and he had a happily ever after.

WAIT. i just remembered. what ever happened with joey and that amber girl? didn't she say sorry or smth?? they should be end game i liked them

i was waiting for daniel and emory to get together or do something besides just talk. and at first when they kissed i was a lil disappointed but i lobed them sm at the end. I LOVE DANIEL, HES MY MAN. well maybe not my man just like a best friend he's adorable

[Melany · Rating 5 out of 5]

Wow - I'm honestly speechless. Just finished this book and put it down. I cried. This was breathtaking, raw, accurate and heartbreaking all at once. I can relate to the story in many ways, so it hit me harder. This accurately depicts someone who loves someone that deals with addiction. It also accurately depicts high school and navigating through life as a teenager trying to figure out who you truly are and find your voice. This book will forever touch me. I borrowed it from the library but will be purchasing a copy of it for my own personal library. Such an eye opening and heartbreaking story that makes you completely submerged into every word. This story will break your heart but give you hope at the same time. Go read it now! Don't just walk to the store to go get it --- run!

[Colleen Scidmore · Rating 4 out of 5]

“Maybe people just use different things to fill up the emptiness. Until it becomes less about feeling empty and more about feeding something else.”

I picked up You’d Be Home Now because of the cover quite frankly. You see a cover with a bunch of scattered pills and I knew without even looking at the synopsis this was going to be a book involving substance abuse. I’m drawn to this subject for several reasons. One is that there are more substance dependency issues now than we have ever had in our history. In fact according to one article I had recently read, 2020 was considered the deadliest year in drug history. Ranging from prescription to street drugs and alcohol etc. I also have close loved ones that have suffered from drug and alcohol dependency. I’m going to take a guess I’m probably not the only one, there others that have also been affected somehow.

Because of my experience I’m interested in learning more and I’m open to reading well done in-depth stories with characters that struggle with sobriety. You’d Be Home Now was more of a YA sugar coated version of dependency, but it ended up being more emotional than what I thought it was capable of when I first started. There were some raw moments that even made my eyes tear up a bit.

Emory is the rich girl in Mill Haven. She’s also known as Maddie’s younger, less hot sister. But worst of all she’s Joey’s baby sister. Joey who’s known as one of the druggie stoners in town and the high school they attend. Emmy does everything she can to keep the peace within her family, keep her brothers secrets, and to fit into the box that everyone wants her in. That is until one fateful night she and her brother get into a horrible car accident. An accident that claims Candy MontClaire’s life on the way home from a high school party.

Everything changes from that point on. Joey is sent to rehab but makes it home in time for his last year of high school. Emmy becomes his designated baby sitter and has no life of her own. She can’t even sneak off to spend time with her secret hookup, the neighbor next door. Slowly Emmy comes to the realization that Joey might not actually be “cured” after all. Day after day he reminds her more of the “ghosties” who live on the outskirts of town. And she’s not sure if she can fit into the same box that she used to do so as willingly before. Emmy needs to figure out who she is for herself, before she gets swallowed up in her families never ending drama.

This story is supposed to be inspired by a classic called Our Town. I don’t know what that is to be honest. I’ve never heard of it so I can’t make any comparisons, but on it’s own I consider You’d Be Home Now a pretty powerful story. And it’s not just about drug use, it’s also a story of a girl who is tired of living her life for everyone else. She’s ready to put herself first and find out who Emmy is and what she wants.

I can relate with Emmy’s inner struggles to find her own identity and do what everyone expects of her. She feels if she doesn’t do what everyone needs and wants from her, she’ll be responsible for her brother back sliding and her parents distant marriage. Emmy has the weight of taking on her family’s problems on top of the struggles of being an insecure teenage girl, it makes her a prime target for an unhealthy relationship. I think a lot of younger girls will be able to associate with her easily.

I feel like Joey’s character could have been a little better formed. His storyline was interesting, especially because it showed how devastating drug abuse can be in a tight knit family setting. But it was still lacking to me somehow. He was hard to connect with imo. But his relationship with Emmy was very touching. She obviously loved her brother unconditionally and would do anything for him. Emmy’s fierce connection wrenched at my heart. 🥺

You’d Be Home Now is a slow burn but it’s a good slow burn. KG has a wonderful way of painting a picture with words and I think taking her time in telling Emmy’s saga made it more real. I got to absorb how truly powerful Emmy and Joey’s stories are.

There are several trigger warnings: there’s teenage death, some sexual content (not too explicit) and of course drug use. But it wasn’t over the top, especially the drug abuse, like I said earlier it was a bit sugar coated.

This is my first Kathleen Glasgow book.
But it definitely won’t be my last. I’m looking forward to seeing what other stories this talented author has crafted!

[Taury · Rating 5 out of 5]

You’d Be Home Now by Kathleen Glasgow is one of the most emotional books I have ever read. First a *shout out* to the author for 16 years in recovery!! That is fantastic! I just celebrated #6. I am also a Therapist working at an inpatient recovery center. If you need help please reach out to me.
So like I said this was emotional , personal , heavy , totally heartbreaking spot on realistic. I hated the mother , like raw Fuck you hatred Felt like the youngest daughter was completely abandoned. Dad was absent until he went into action mode. And the addict was completely totally broken. It amazes me how an educated family can overlook the obvious , a learning disorder. But again, I have a learning disorder as well. It was treated the exact same way.
This book frustrated me because the daughter was set up for a life long battle with codependency. I think i would rather battle the drug than codependency. I live that hell too. If you want to read a book based on raw truth , live the reality of an addict and family behaviors then this book is for you.
If you are battling addiction and have families or your child is an addict. For the love of all get them therapy NOW! The poor girl in the story did not have to do it all on her own. Neither does your spouse partner child family.
www.grandfallsrecovery.com
You matter!
You are worthy!
You don’t have to do it alone!

Barbi 6 years and going…

[Ania · Rating 4 out of 5]

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[Elyse Walters · Rating 5 out of 5]

Audiobook….read by Kathleen Glasgow, and Julia Knippen
….12 hours and 11 minutes

This contemporary young adult novel is as engaging as it is heartbreaking…..

Images, and thoughts are endless as we contemplate how a car accident that killed a high school student opens up other serious issues: substance abuse being the forefront zinger that sets off a string of yet other breakdowns, and subplots ….revealing many cracks encompassing a family, a brother and sister, the high school curriculum, (students organized a walk-out in their English class over assigned reading by ‘White Men’ only), teachers, the neighbors, and friendships, in a small town community….
a type of ‘modern-day’ re-telling of ‘Our Town’, by Thornton Wilder.

Strewn with agonies, emotional intensity, intelligence, and intimacy —portrayed through the characters—
Kathleen Glasgow explores the ways in which we hide from ourselves—formulate false assumptions, project judgments onto others—breakdown as individuals, as family, and as community….
and how love, tragedy, and the need for honest connection may be the only things that bring us back out.

Deeply compassionate … deeply moving … utterly authentic.
Kathleen’s work speaks with an understanding of the unconscionable —
One of the best young adult writers of this generation.

[Ewa Cat Mędrzecka · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.5 ⭐

[ᥫ᭡. · Rating 1 out of 5]

I thought this book was gonna make me cry and make me feel things but i just got bored

[Jayleen &#x1f496; · Rating 5 out of 5]

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Wow, Kathleen Glasgow. This book was so heavy speaking about addiction. As somebody who has experienced a loved one go through all the ups and downs of addiction this book is insanely relatable, it felt as if i was personally reading all my feelings and thoughts on these pages. This book really has made a spot for itself in my heart.

[Jess · Rating 2 out of 5]

This got great reviews but I found it to be dull and lacking any real x-factor that made me want to keep reading. The writing was very good though and I’m sure lots of people will like this one; I was just a little too bored throughout.

[Stay Fetters · Rating 4 out of 5]

"The thing about being invisible is, you’d think it would feel light and airy and easy, no pressure, but it doesn’t. It’s the heaviest thing I’ve ever known."

Kathleen Glasgow writes books that hit a little too close to home for me. This one hits the nail right on the head and brought back a lot of memories from when I was a kid. So I felt every feeling of hope and despair. As we read about the Ward family dusting themselves off and falling over and over again, you fall right along with them. Prepare yourself for the emotional roller coaster that is this book.

Wow! This book is powerful. Kathleen doesn't hold back and she certainly doesn't sugarcoat anything as we travel through the life and mind of a sister of an addict. The author does a perfect job of not glorifying mental illness or addiction like a lot of authors like to do. This is real, raw, and deeply moving. Just remember that it's okay to shed a few tears because I know that I did.

This book shows us that life isn’t always picture-perfect. That we screw up along the way and that’s okay. We pick ourselves back up and try again. Also to never judge someone for what they are going through. Some people are stronger than others and that doesn't change the fact that we are all human. Just a friendly hello and a smile can change anyone's day.

You'd Be Home Now is a phenomenal book and one that I'm going to instantly buy for myself and my library. The closeness of the family and the determination of one young female who looks past herself to try to help her struggling brother was captivating. I love this book and I love this Author.

[Beary Into Books · Rating 4 out of 5]

Rating 3.75

The author did a great job of showing what it is like to be a family member of someone struggling with addiction. Her whole life Emory has been taking care of her older brother Joey. She would make sure he was up in time for school, she would do his homework, his chores, and would even try to hide his drinking/drugs from their parents. She did all of this because she thought she was helping him and did not want to see her parents mad. Unfortunately, she can only do so much to help someone who didn’t want to be helped. No one truly knew how bad Joey’s addiction was until a fatal car crash that killed an innocent girl. After that the parents were forced to take action and send Joey to rehab to get help. Their parents weren’t perfect parents but let's be honest none are. Both the mom and dad work too much and are not involved in their kids' lives. The mom loves controlling the kids' lives, for example, forcing Emory to take dance but doesn't care to accept or listen to them. That is why their parents basically ignored Joey’s problem because they were so obsessed with perfection they didn’t want to admit they had a child who was struggling with addiction. They never took the time to wonder why he needed/wanted drugs to help him cope. They didn’t want their perfect image to be ruined like it was after the car accident. If only they got him the help he needed sooner Candy would have never died.
Emory’s character was great even though she upset me at times. Her character was so real for her age and she lacked the confidence I wish she had. The whole book I was screaming “Please, just stick up for yourself”. Emory deserved to be treated better by everyone, especially her family. Her parents and siblings expect her to be this pure, sweet, perfect daughter/sister that does no wrong. Honestly, it would be exhausting to go through that and it makes sense why Emory has the personality she does. Her character is almost boring because she has no uniqueness to her. She’s been forced to be cookie cutter and it has left her a shell of a person. This also adds to her being invisible. Before the car crash no one noticed Emory and after they only noticed her as being someone who was in the car or being an addict’s sister. Her parents still expected her to take care of her brother but now she felt even more pressure. Emory would blame herself if she was the reason Joey had a relapse. Like Joey, Emory also struggled with addiction but it wasn't addiction to drugs but instead a certain person and an action she did (will stay vague for spoiler reasons). Doing these things made her feel alive and gave her the happiness she was lacking from her day to day life. Honestly, just writing this makes me feel for Emory all over again. It makes me sad to know that there are kids struggling with addiction or trying to help a loved one overcome their addiction.
Overall, this book was good but since it is very realistic the story is slow moving. Be warned, the topics discussed throughout this book are heavy and honest but so important to read about. This book deals with addiction and finding yourself in the best way it could. The author did a great job of not victim blaming. The characters throughout the story show growth and the book leaves you wishing all the best for them.

Should you read “You’d Be Home Now”?
Yes, this is a fantastic coming of age story about a girl finding her voice to finally stick up for herself. This book deals with real life problems such as substance abuse, addiction, depression, and family drama. Even though this is a heavy book, it has its humorous and lovable moments.

**Received an advanced copy through NetGalley in return for my honest review. All thoughts and opinions are my own. **

[Bookphenomena (Micky) · Rating 2 out of 5]

2.5 stars

I nearly rounded this up to three but I'm sticking with the majority of my feels on this read that quite frankly drove me wild. This book was too much of everything, too much trope, too much drama, too much trauma, too many plot devices, just too much. I think if it had been levelled out into something less, I could have gelled with it better. Also, this had one of my most hated things in YA, extremely shitty parents. It was an incredibly depressing read, fairly hopeless and I hated Gage to the power of 100.

The last 10% was stronger and hit the heartstrings to the point I had some welling in my eyes over Joey and the family but overall, this was not my jam.

Lots and lots of content warnings.

[Mariah · Rating 1 out of 5]

You know how movies that you can tell are jockeying too hard for critical acclaim by hitting all the 'objective' checkpoints for high quality are called Oscar bait? Well if there was a literary equivalent - Nobel Prize Literature Bait doesn't really have the same ring to it but I'm sure I'll figure something out eventually- this book would be it. 

It's got all the hallmarks of a prestige piece. 

Tragic event that racks a small town, some social ill to tackle (in this case it's the opioid crisis) to make it seem weighty, absentee parents to create this very cold, isolated atmosphere critics always seem to praise for its realism, lots of introspection and moodiness and 'deep' monologues. 

It's a teen drama without any entertainment value, likeability or sense of purpose a majority of the time. It's steeped in melodrama with absolutely nothing special to make it stand out. While reading this I kept wondering what exactly was the angle here? What made the story of Emory so special it needed to be told? And since this is a Teen Read selection, why should a teen consider this good literature? 

That isn't to say that every book, for teens or otherwise, needs to be some original masterpiece. I try hard to stray away from the idea that originality always be the end goal. However, I don't feel it's too much to ask that a book have some kind of hook or gimmick to draw you in. I suppose people who enjoyed this felt that Emory finding her way after such a great tragedy was the hook. I'd argue that finding your way after tragedy is as generic YA contemporary as you can get, but that's honestly just my bias showing since I don't much care for the genre. If, at the very least, the writing style was more dynamic then it wouldn't have been such a big deal the plot was cliche.

It was unbelievably repetitive. Over half the book was simply Emory feeling guilty while doing nothing good or bad either way. Even her relationship with Gage, though it took a toll on her self esteem, didn't technically count because it predated the accident. Time moved quickly. There were no events to look forward to. No deadlines to meet. No sense of suspense or pressure at any point. I kept waiting for Emory or Joey or Gage or anybody really to do something to ratchet the book up a notch. 

There's a tease at the beginning that Emory might start taking drugs which I thought would have created an interesting parallel between Joey and Emory. Alas, that was only included for a heavy handed aside about the opioid crisis. And as heavy handed as I found it I wish that Glasgow had leaned far more into it because I didn't come away feeling like I'd learned all that much about the epidemic. I'm not going to pretend to be an expert but I know there is a lot more to it than 'doctors overprescribe people to get them hooked so then they can prescribe the cure as well $$$'. I'm sure that's part of it somehow, but on its face that's a little too conspiracy theorist leaning for my tastes. I'm not asking for a 20/20 breakdown, just some nuanced discussion and an actual game plan for how to combat its insidious spread other than reactionary treatment facilities. While they are tremendously helpful, it could be useful to provide options to pre-emptively cut off the potential for addiction whenever possible. Glasgow leaves it at what can be done after the addiction has taken root when it's so much harder to fight with only a few vague comments laying all the blame at the feet of 'doctors'. She doesn't once go into detail about or have any characters bring up how broken the healthcare system in the US is in general contributes to this situation.

I will say that she did a good job humanizing the homeless and addicted. They're people too, and ignoring them doesn't make them disappear or help any of us considering it could easily be any of us on the street one day. She tied the 'ghosties' tribulations to Joey's own trials quite nicely.

Every interaction followed the same pattern. Their mother is an emotionally neglectful shrew seemingly lacking in any redeemable qualities. Joey doesn't think anybody can ever understand his pain. Emory seriously needs to grow a spine. Their dad says nothing that's how absent he is. Maddie is supportive chatter when she appears. Every single conversation continually reinforcing the same point became overkill. Like did none of these characters have any hobbies or something to talk about? The only casual convos allowed were sparse ones with minor characters. 

Going back to the mother, considering how focal she seemed to be to the dysfunction in the household I would have liked if she'd been rounded out early so the redemption wasn't so abrupt. I knew it was coming all along so there should have been groundwork laid to build to it. Additionally, adding some kind of positives along the way would have strengthened the book as she'd have had more agency as a character. It would be less like Emory's mother is ignoring the deep emotional scars she's caused because she's a tool for the author to use at will, but because her mother is choosing to do so based on her background - it's the subtle difference between simply reading and being immersed.

There is a White Feminist character named Liza who I found insufferable. I'm not saying that all white feminists are bad. I also believe that teenagers are smarter than we give them credit for and that they can inspire and/or push movements when necessary. 

What I am saying is that this particular brand of feminist character - the pushy, belligerent white girl who tells it like it is - ages me tremendously whenever she makes an appearance. She feels like the worst aspects of mainstream feminism compartmentalized for only other mainstream feminists to hype up. They always think it's so cool to be above it all and throw out their pithy one liners when really it's emotional immaturity. 

Like Liza decided a couple years ago her body isn't for the male gaze so she hasn't worn anything but overalls since then. I'm glad Liza specifically finds this empowering, but honestly what does this little performative gesture actually do to dismantle the sexualization of other/all women in basically any context? Does she volunteer? Does she go to protests? Does she raise money for any causes? Does she run an activist blog? I understand that as a teen your options are limited. But if you're going to spout your mouth off I feel it's only fair to ask you to put your money where your mouth is in some form. 

White Feminist character has also become shorthand for 'not like other girls'. How hard would it have been for Liza to keep fighting the patriarchy in a mini skirt? Why did she have to eschew all overt signs of femininity to establish she's a feminist character?  The male gaze is inescapable and none of your choices exist in a vacuum. Might as well wear a mini skirt if you feel like it. 

It's so painfully obvious that Glasgow wants you to think she's cool and edgy and different. Like she calls dances 'typical high school bullshit' because it's so silly to want to go to a dance I guess and she runs an underground instagram where she makes what are supposed to be biting poetic indictments of their town when really they're boring, on the nose wastes of page space. 

In lit class Liza stages a revolt because she doesn't like the books the teacher has suggested. Fair enough to finding classics antiquated and out of touch. I hated mandatory school reading 9 times out of 10. Plus, I think that as long as you're respectful you should be able to bring up your point to a teacher and not get shot down. My issue is that Liza is wrong in her reasoning. 

Liza start off unnecessarily aggressive with a question about why they're reading a book about a pedophile ie Lolita. While you may not like Lolita there is a lot of merit to it that is often lost today entirely because many people write it off as the 'pedophile' book. Liza's argument is that it's "a really problematic book about the assault of a child by an adult, some hellacious gaslighting and there could be, you never know, some people in this very room who may be sexual assault survivors." 

The only point she truly makes is about the sexual assault survivor aspect. 

Labeling a book problematic because it features the assault of a child by an adult is narrow minded. Many great books include this very serious subject. It's about the intention, impact and execution not the inclusion alone. Same goes for gaslighting. Rebecca by Daphne du Maurier doesn't have child sexual assault but am I really supposed to think of it as just as bad as Liza purports Lolita to be purely because of the gaslighting? 

Another student brings up that it'd be different if it centered the victim rather than the perpetrator, but again that's such a limiting perspective. 

If the book is good and takes care with its subject matter and is making a salient point about a particular issue then why shouldn't it be written from an alternative perspective if that's the way the author best envisions the story? Are people who have been sexually assaulted the only people allowed to write about it now? All those talks about white people needing to up their diversity counts when possible - should that be tossed out the window? After all, if they've never been disabled, queer or a different race should they really be expected to ever write about it? Is Uncle Tom's Cabin actually hogwash because a white woman wrote it? It's a slippery slope that Liza is treading down. 

Obviously as a teenager it makes sense that she'd have this viewpoint. Many activist teens are so consumed with political correctness as a concept they don't stop to think about practicalities. Even her overalls thing is a normal 'teen trying to make a difference' action. The teens that are legitimately dedicated to social progress learn what real activism is eventually. 

The key to growing out of it is exposure to broader opinions: unfortunately, Glasgow chooses to present Liza as 100% in the right. The teacher reassesses his list after she stages a walkout and the class then gets to pick their own book individually to read instead. She goes totally unchecked for her misguided beliefs. In fact she's rewarded for it. So a Liza reading this would be completely validated rather than pushed to challenge their preconceptions. 

At one point in the midst of this little spat Emory overhears the lit teacher complaining to another teacher about the whole thing. He's definitely on the dusty boomer side so I don't totally side with him, but he makes a good point about how teenagers nowadays refuse to ever be uncomfortable any more. On the outset that may seem like a good thing. Except discomfort is a natural part of life that needs to be worked through rather than avoided. Sometimes discomfort is solely a /you/ thing that you need to examine and deconstruct. Discomfort is not necessarily a sign something is wrong in an objective sense. It could be that something about a person, place or thing is setting you off for some reason. With social media becoming so ubiquitous it has become so much easier for teens to slip into echo chambers where they refuse all outside logic meaning discomfort is anything that makes them feel 'bad' - an all encompassing nebulous descriptor. 

I wish Glasgow had allowed there to be a dialogue about this because it's important that we engage them further in order to fracture this self centered, ego centric approach to social reform. Instead of trying to challenge the intended demographic's mindset I was disappointed to find that Glasgow wanted to pander to it or worse, might not see anything wrong with it in the first place. There's a middle ground between being constantly triggered and avoiding any negative emotions whatsoever.

The last quarter is when it finally picks up. All the action is squished so tightly into such a small chunk it feels rushed and manufactured. It's now trying to be a thriller when before it was pure contemporary coming of age drama. It's not only tonally dissonant but exceedingly absurd in the random appearance and usage of a previously minor character. 

After Emory gets slut shamed for hooking up with Gage, Liza organizes this hamfisted protest where girls wear Scarlet Letters and encourages them to name and shame the guys who did them wrong. It's intended to be a girl power moment. It fell flat for me because it comes out of nowhere as a quick way of brushing past the fallout of her 'relationship' going public because there were other things going on that needed wrapping up. It would have been better if Emory was outed a lot sooner so we had time to marinate in the consequences before transitioning to this resolution. As it stands I found it unrealistic how neatly this tied the whole thing up and question what the point was in even letting it get out when it was going to have so little bearing overall. It felt like the only reason Glasgow had it come out was so the last quarter could be more interesting. I would have preferred a more evenly paced book over a sudden spike in action. 

Plus it feels very wish fulfillment-y. The girls are participating in the slut shaming too and all these girls suddenly are coming out of the woodwork because of Liza's somewhat popular instagram post calling them to action? We don't even know what Liza says to them in person to galvanize them. Maybe I'm cynical but it doesn't feel like something that could really happen without taking me step by step through how the face to face meeting went down. I had a similar problem with Blood Moon by Lucy Cuthew which took the same basic easy out for its ending. What makes it all the worse is that Emory hears about it all secondhand. She doesn't even attend school that day so as the reader you don't even get to experience this big event in real time. 

I appreciate the bond that Emory and Joey have, but I don't like that Emory never learns to put herself first over Joey and it's supposed to be a happy thing at the end. I understand she loves her brother, but there's a point where you can't light yourself on fire to keep someone else warm and Emory frequently does so for Joey to both of their detriment. I don't think the book does a good job of addressing Emory's emotional issues in relation to Joey. She's his first and biggest enabler. Regardless of her choices, a close family member battling addiction can cause major trauma. She really needs therapy yet no one ever even thinks to suggest it. In the end the resentment that bubbles up occasionally is swept under the rug and her desperate need to soothe Joey at all costs is left unaddressed. It's scary how much of herself she's willing to compromise when her brother is in a position where he will exploit that vulnerability. I think it's a disservice to not have Emory stand up just once meaningfully to Joey to make it clear to the teen demo that as much as Joey's addiction is hurting him and as much as Emory loves him she still needs to hold him accountable.

Started out a 3, ended a 1. Tale as old as time in these parts. Not off to a good start. Thankfully, there's plenty of other (hopefully) good books on the list.

[BookNightOwl · Rating 5 out of 5]

You'd Be Home Now By Kathleen Glasglow is a beautiful story about the struggles and addiction to drugs. When Emorys brother is released from rehab after a fatal accident that put him there Emory does everything she can to make Joey feel normal. But everything is not normal. Her family, school even her friends are a struggle. Then thinks go bad to worse. Kathleen Glasglow writes to make you feel every struggle and hard ache. I loved this book.

Thank You Netgally for providing a copy of this book for an honest review.

[Andrea · Rating 4 out of 5]

This was incredible. I think Kathleen Glasgow summarizes her book perfectly:

“Because when we talk about addiction, we have to talk about the collateral damage: the mental health of the kids and adults surrounding the addict. How do you live when your life has been upended by someone else’s health crisis? When you feel guilty about wanting to go to a dance, or be kissed, or go away to college, because right next to you, someone else is suffering?”

[Dana Marie · Rating 5 out of 5]

And just like that, my first five-star review of the year. Easy... this book was incredibly thoughtful in so many ways. The author did such an interesting and careful job using Emory's pov for this, rather than Joey. There are so many layers. I also love the attention to seeing children as they are and humans as they are - not broken, not to be fixed, just human. Humans need to be loved, to be seen, to be given the room to be who they are without conditions. Well done.

[Nine Gorman]

J’ai bouffé ce roman en moins de 24 heures et peut-être bien que j’ai eu les yeux humides à la fin. Pendant ma lecture j'ai eu le coeur serré et je me suis sentie impuissante avec les personnages. Maintenant j’ai vraiment besoin de l’histoire du point de vue de Joey, en espérant que ce soit dans les projets de l’autrice 🤞🏻

[Karla · Rating 4 out of 5]

3.75 stars

[johnny ♡ · Rating 1 out of 5]

this book is ass. young adult at its finest. worst kathleen glasgow book.

[Holly | The Caffeinated Reader · Rating 5 out of 5]

Kathleen Glasgow knows how to emotionally devastate me in the most melancholic but hopeful way.