TW// mention of suicidal thoughts, gaslighting, abuse and coercive control
"Every day you can start over. But you have to choose it "
I feel like this review is going to be all over the place, so I apologise in advance.
Adelaide is a memory jumper, at 18 years old, she lives an older fierce and manipulative woman, Fawn, whose taken up the role of Adelaide's mother, after having her memory wiped. Adelaide is tasked with jumping into other people's minds and manipulating or destroying their memories. The government has spent years trying to eradicate memory jumpers from existence, so at Fawn's orders, Adelaide hasn't left their underground safe house since she was little and lost her parents.
This was a really interesting and unique Rapunzel re-telling, with multiple POV's from various different characters, in a futuristic America with an American Monarchy barely holding on.
Colette, Queen of Frelsi, despises her position and how enclosed and trapped she feels. Dealing with the suffocating Palace, and the political mayhem, having to give away a son, and deal with the blackmail of ensuring the ascension of her illegitimate child. However, with her bastard son and heir to the throne falling into a coma, the monarchy reach out to Adelaide and Fawn to save his life by jumping into his memory whilst he's unconscious, something that's difficult and dangerous at the best of times. Colette appears numbed and desensitised at least outwardly to all the horrific and unnecessary death and cruelty that follows her husband King Wesley. She longs to escape and find her son she had to give away, get away from this dictatorship, that relies solely upon the grovelling and hard work of inventors and artists to keep the country of Frelsi afloat. It's difficult not to feel compassion and empathy towards Colette, she carries a large weight on her shoulders and can't see a way out of this hell. The comparisons between her and Adelaide are palpable, each forced to stay in a place that brings them nothing but misery and anguish.
Fawn is really emotionally and mentally abusive to Adelaide, controlling her and keeping constant watch over her daily activities, she has no privacy and is confined to the underground, never having seen the outside. Instead, Fawn uses her talents of memory jumping to gain clientele and bring them home to Adelaide. She's definitely a hard to stomach character, horrific and controlling to an extreme.
Adelaide spends her time isolated and alone, with only Buddy and Perkins to speak to, Fawn's lackeys. Buddy and Perkins are visionaries so they can see glimpses of your future reality, based on a trajectory of your current choices and decisions, which was a really interesting and refreshing dynamic. It's tangible how distressing and traumatising it is for Adelaide to jump into other's memories, particularly when she's forced to do it to someone unwilling, just so Fawn can get an income. She has to deal with their memories replaying over and over in her head long after the client has gone.
Mason was another interesting character, he came into Adelaide's life like a whirlwind, giving her a new sense of life and purpose that she'd lost under lock and key of Fawn. He gave her the space to be herself, and figure out who that is, by embracing herself and all the quirks that come along with it. Adelaide helps Mason uncover the truth about his parents, and in return, Mason brings something each day from a different part of the world, giving her this new opportunity to travel even whilst trapped. Their friendship was so wholesome, full of warmth and heart, and utterly adorable to read.
I did find at times that the movement of the plot was really slow, and focused on some really mundane activities and human aspects of life i.e. cooking and washing up, which I didn't feel necessarily moved the plot along or added much. Some aspects of the plot thought were really beautifully written, for example, Adelaide's first time outside, you could feel her child-like wonder and innocence shining through the pages, it was so wholesome and warming. It has a tense plot, with action packed twists, that although I did guess them from a little while in, were still really fun. I did feel like the open ending left me with a lot of questions. I would've liked to have known more about how Fawn found Adelaide and whether she had anything to do with her losing her parents. What happened to Adam? Green? Fawn? Buddy and Perkins? What did Adelaide end up doing? There's definitely a lot to be cleared up, that felt a little abandoned and lost at the end.
Overall, it was a really unique and refreshing retelling of Rapunzel. Mason and Adelaide's friendship was the biggest highlight for me. It was definitely a unique and well imagined world, with some interesting and compelling twists, but it did leave me with a lot of questions, so I'm conflicted.