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Neun Tage
Lily Reyes versucht den Kampf gegen Depression zu gewinnen. Na ja, mehr oder weniger versucht sie es, da ein Kindheitstrauma sie glauben lässt, dass die Welt viel zu graumsam ist, um darin zu leben.
In Lilys Welt macht alles so viel Sinn, wie das Atmen unter Wasser. Doch als sie ihre Abschiede vorbereitet begeht Lily einen großen Fehler.
Sie lässt ihr Tagebuch versehnlich für ihn findbar.
Colin Carter ist der Captain des St. Trewery Hockey Teams. Ein Mann, der mehr als nur gutes Aussehen zu bieten hat. Er hat mit eigenen Problemen zu kämpfen. Probleme, die Schuldgefühle hervorrufen, wenn er drüber redet.
Und dennoch...
Liegt Lilys leben nun in seinen Händen.
Und in nur Neun Tagen schafft er es ihre ganze Welt auf den Kopf zu stellen. Gefühle schleichen sich ein, Herzen werden gebrochen, Fehler richtiggestellt und es wird zu alten Leidenschaften zurück gefunden.
Aber wird das reichen?
Werden Neun Tage alles verändern können? Werden neun gute Tage Lily davon überzeugen, dass es mehr im Leben gibt als Schmerz und Kummer?
In Lilys Welt macht alles so viel Sinn, wie das Atmen unter Wasser. Doch als sie ihre Abschiede vorbereitet begeht Lily einen großen Fehler.
Sie lässt ihr Tagebuch versehnlich für ihn findbar.
Colin Carter ist der Captain des St. Trewery Hockey Teams. Ein Mann, der mehr als nur gutes Aussehen zu bieten hat. Er hat mit eigenen Problemen zu kämpfen. Probleme, die Schuldgefühle hervorrufen, wenn er drüber redet.
Und dennoch...
Liegt Lilys leben nun in seinen Händen.
Und in nur Neun Tagen schafft er es ihre ganze Welt auf den Kopf zu stellen. Gefühle schleichen sich ein, Herzen werden gebrochen, Fehler richtiggestellt und es wird zu alten Leidenschaften zurück gefunden.
Aber wird das reichen?
Werden Neun Tage alles verändern können? Werden neun gute Tage Lily davon überzeugen, dass es mehr im Leben gibt als Schmerz und Kummer?
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First published February 27, 2022
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March 10, 2023
this book teaches you that getting a boyfriend ends all existing suicidal tendencies!! so slay!!
November 8, 2023
Ending was ridiculous and grammar THROUGHOUT was shite.
When will people learn to stop romanticising mental health and suicidal thoughts. Uneducated in the matter and the ignorance shows.
When will people learn to stop romanticising mental health and suicidal thoughts. Uneducated in the matter and the ignorance shows.
August 25, 2023
i feel guilty writing negative reviews, but this needed to be said this book has so much potential it was poorly executed and went completely downhill. It has a good plot but if you talk about mental health it need to be more in depth and factual it made lily sound annoying when she’s just suffering. I wish there was a way to rewrite this because this would’ve been such a GOOD book if it was written better I love the whole twin thing but most of it was rushed and there was tons of fillers which made it boring. It was too long it could’ve been cut but if it was long maybe give a in-depth mental health storyline too.
AND I need to say more this book has such a bad portrayal I mean I’m not a gatekeeper of mental health and not everyone is the same when suffering, but it can’t be cured by one man all of a sudden this also ties into how authors act like men are the cure to women's problems they are NOT she needed help not a boyfriend to cure her depression.
AND I need to say more this book has such a bad portrayal I mean I’m not a gatekeeper of mental health and not everyone is the same when suffering, but it can’t be cured by one man all of a sudden this also ties into how authors act like men are the cure to women's problems they are NOT she needed help not a boyfriend to cure her depression.
March 14, 2023
I should probably stop falling for tik tok KU recommendations
August 26, 2022
Honestly, I've read this book quite a while ago but I figured someone should write a review because damn.
I didn't think I'd ever relate as much to a character as I do to Lily Reyes. She's the sweetest and realest person I ever truly read about. Her inner monologue portrayed her depression amazingly, as so did the letters she wrote. Her thoughts were everywhere, jumping from one to the other which I think is pretty realistic for an over-thinker and depressed person.
I loved that she didn't make everything about herself or wanted people to sympathize with her. She didn't play the victim and just wanted everyone to leave her alone. And when Colin suddenly appeared and turned her life upside down, I loved that it truly messed up her inner monologue as well. She was confused and relived at the same time, yet always went back to where the book started off of, her death.
This book was a rollercoaster of emotions, and I ate up every damn second of it. It made me laugh and cry all at the same time.
And the plot. Oh boii, don't even get me started. My jaw was on the floor, together with my soul and litres of my tears.
I cannot wait to read the rest of the series!
I didn't think I'd ever relate as much to a character as I do to Lily Reyes. She's the sweetest and realest person I ever truly read about. Her inner monologue portrayed her depression amazingly, as so did the letters she wrote. Her thoughts were everywhere, jumping from one to the other which I think is pretty realistic for an over-thinker and depressed person.
I loved that she didn't make everything about herself or wanted people to sympathize with her. She didn't play the victim and just wanted everyone to leave her alone. And when Colin suddenly appeared and turned her life upside down, I loved that it truly messed up her inner monologue as well. She was confused and relived at the same time, yet always went back to where the book started off of, her death.
This book was a rollercoaster of emotions, and I ate up every damn second of it. It made me laugh and cry all at the same time.
And the plot. Oh boii, don't even get me started. My jaw was on the floor, together with my soul and litres of my tears.
I cannot wait to read the rest of the series!
March 2, 2025
deserves no stars tbh
EMBARRASSED to admit this was my last book in the 2022 challenge
honestly if the author wants to take a go at suicidal people she needs to interview them well first. i doubt someone just suddenly decides to not die bc of some boy she met like 9 days ago. (and a shitty boy at that)
who the hell randomly leaves after doing it for the first time though i have to admit his story was really sad. almost sad enough for me to have wanted him to be suicidal rather than her.
yeah i get it your mom wants you to die so you do want to die but is that really good enough to kill yourself. sorry for being insensitive to this but i think the author was just milking it atp
literally aaron is also such a weird character. like how are all of them static characters with such a flux-y plot ??? bffr joelina falk
also this was just a knockoff of elle kennedy's off campus series
like we get the hype around hockey boys but can you PLEASE give them personality except the "effortlessly hot and charming guy who gets all the girls including the girl who thought she was better than doing jocks" ?!
honestly so tired of it
and also the grammar mistakes i spotted in this book---ABSOLUTELY HORRENDOUS
and the writing??? EVEN MORE TERRIBLE.
like cmon who the hell was willing to publish books like this
i swear to god we need to return to the 1950s and read good classical books bc im so tired of bad contemporary books trying to make money off of random tropes authors think we like
buy a talent in writing before coming back to write another book thanks :)
EMBARRASSED to admit this was my last book in the 2022 challenge
honestly if the author wants to take a go at suicidal people she needs to interview them well first. i doubt someone just suddenly decides to not die bc of some boy she met like 9 days ago. (and a shitty boy at that)
who the hell randomly leaves after doing it for the first time though i have to admit his story was really sad. almost sad enough for me to have wanted him to be suicidal rather than her.
yeah i get it your mom wants you to die so you do want to die but is that really good enough to kill yourself. sorry for being insensitive to this but i think the author was just milking it atp
literally aaron is also such a weird character. like how are all of them static characters with such a flux-y plot ??? bffr joelina falk
also this was just a knockoff of elle kennedy's off campus series
like we get the hype around hockey boys but can you PLEASE give them personality except the "effortlessly hot and charming guy who gets all the girls including the girl who thought she was better than doing jocks" ?!
honestly so tired of it
and also the grammar mistakes i spotted in this book---ABSOLUTELY HORRENDOUS
and the writing??? EVEN MORE TERRIBLE.
like cmon who the hell was willing to publish books like this
i swear to god we need to return to the 1950s and read good classical books bc im so tired of bad contemporary books trying to make money off of random tropes authors think we like
buy a talent in writing before coming back to write another book thanks :)
December 25, 2022
There’s a way to write depressing romance story and this wasn’t it. Too redundant.
April 4, 2023
loved the concept and the one tiktok i saw of it but im being so fr when i say i had to check if it was written by a 12 year old bc the writing style, dialogue, scenes, and overall plot were sooo badly executed
May 15, 2023
(1) please this was sh*t.
- the writing style. it written like wattpad. the author apparently could not say “I’ll”. she used its full form — “I will” — all the time. which was so off-putting and annoying. suffice it to say, the dialogue was flat.
- the whole portrayal of depression and anxiety felt wrong to me. not the fmc’s panic attacks or symptoms or anything, but the way the mmc was her “saviour”. it was definitely problematic to have a love interest with a saviour complex.
- the fmc’s personality changed almost drastically in between. i thought her outlook would change steadily, slowly, so readers could follow along without getting confused, but it didn’t.
- the plot didn’t revolve around it, but a major part of the story — a story about depression — was sex. it felt wrong.
- the ending was rushed.
- other than all of that, almost all the characters were vanilla and boring and done before. i almost dnf’d, but I’ve dnf’d three books in my life, and i tried not to give up on this one.
- things i liked: the author’s depiction of siblings — Eira (i almost cried) in particular, the found family between the guys, the Spanish, the song lyrics before each chapter, that one Chase Atlantic bit, the coffee tasting, and any hockey / skating subplot is always fun.
- the writing style. it written like wattpad. the author apparently could not say “I’ll”. she used its full form — “I will” — all the time. which was so off-putting and annoying. suffice it to say, the dialogue was flat.
- the whole portrayal of depression and anxiety felt wrong to me. not the fmc’s panic attacks or symptoms or anything, but the way the mmc was her “saviour”. it was definitely problematic to have a love interest with a saviour complex.
- the fmc’s personality changed almost drastically in between. i thought her outlook would change steadily, slowly, so readers could follow along without getting confused, but it didn’t.
- the plot didn’t revolve around it, but a major part of the story — a story about depression — was sex. it felt wrong.
- the ending was rushed.
- other than all of that, almost all the characters were vanilla and boring and done before. i almost dnf’d, but I’ve dnf’d three books in my life, and i tried not to give up on this one.
- things i liked: the author’s depiction of siblings — Eira (i almost cried) in particular, the found family between the guys, the Spanish, the song lyrics before each chapter, that one Chase Atlantic bit, the coffee tasting, and any hockey / skating subplot is always fun.
December 13, 2022
This is somehow both a very good and accurate representation of depression and being suicidal, and a horrible way to deal with a suicidal person.
How Lily describes depression, how her mood varies from semingly okay to just wanting to die in the span of a few sentences in her journal is so accurate. I am happy it shows how bad depression can get without a "reason", because I think that it is so rarely shown but so common.
However, the amount of people who knew how bad she was or suspected, and not acted at all to do anything. The younger people I get more, because they are trying to be loyal and not make things worse, but even the older adults who suspected did nothing. And despite showing how much Collin struggled with his brother's suicide and felt he should have done something to stop it, he doesn't do anything to stop Lily. He romanticized that his love would save her, and thats very dangerous.
They talked about it, but it is better to have someone be alive and mad at you for getting then help, because as long as they are alive you can make up, you cant once they are dead. And as someone who has attempted suicide many times, it really hurts to see all these people supposedly care about her and doing nothing to save her other than try to cheer her up, and once you are at a point where you have a concrete plan on how you are going to end it, that is not enough help.
How Lily describes depression, how her mood varies from semingly okay to just wanting to die in the span of a few sentences in her journal is so accurate. I am happy it shows how bad depression can get without a "reason", because I think that it is so rarely shown but so common.
However, the amount of people who knew how bad she was or suspected, and not acted at all to do anything. The younger people I get more, because they are trying to be loyal and not make things worse, but even the older adults who suspected did nothing. And despite showing how much Collin struggled with his brother's suicide and felt he should have done something to stop it, he doesn't do anything to stop Lily. He romanticized that his love would save her, and thats very dangerous.
They talked about it, but it is better to have someone be alive and mad at you for getting then help, because as long as they are alive you can make up, you cant once they are dead. And as someone who has attempted suicide many times, it really hurts to see all these people supposedly care about her and doing nothing to save her other than try to cheer her up, and once you are at a point where you have a concrete plan on how you are going to end it, that is not enough help.
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July 23, 20230 stars.
worlds worst book award!! did literally ANYONE read over this before it was published?? the gross misuse of the oxford comma and the general juvenile sense you got from the writing, if you told me a 10 year old produced this i would believe you. overall, horrifically written.
couldn’t stand the characters. absolutely despised Lily she was so pick me and i’ve trauma blocked out half of this so i cant even mention examples but just know she was so annoying. don’t even get me started on her letters. written so so badly. it was meant to be sad but it was impossible to take it seriously.
i also don’t understand how aaron knew the whole time but acted like he didn’t? that was meant to be a plot twist but it was just stupid because no one ever did anything about that information. it didn’t make any sort of sense😭
🚨 SPOILERS 🚨
AND EVERYONE WAS SO FUCKING BEYOND STUPID I ACTUALLY COULDNT TAKE IT. NO ONE KNEW AARON AND LILY WERE TWINS DESPITE THEM LOOKING FUCKING IDENTICAL?? COLIN COULDNT FIGURE OUT THAT AARON WAS HER BROTHER AFTER HE WAS ACTING PROTECTIVE BUT BEING GROSSED OUT AT THE PROSPECT OF HIM AND LILY BEING A THING?? LILY NOT BEING ABLE TO PUT TWO AND TWO TOGETHER THAT COLINS SISTER DIDNT HAVE A FLU SHE LITERALLY HAD CANCER??? it was so painful to sit through.
i don’t care about anyone else in this to actually write about them.
also sorry just have to let this one out:
SHE JUST LET HIM FUCKING BELIEVE SHE KILLED HERSELF?? she made him run around finding suicide notes dedicated to him and then when he finally went home, after he read ANOTHER letter, MIND YOU AFTER HIS SISTER JUST FUCKING DIED, then, THEN she decided to let him know she didn’t go through with it????? i’m actually gob smacked. awe struck at how selfish and disgusting that was of her to do😭 her whole thing was she “wasn’t sure” if she was going to go through with it so JUST IN CASE SHE LED HIM AROUND AND LET EVERYONE BELIEVED SHE HAD KILLED HERSELF?
also this is irrelevant but if a stranger told me they loved me after spending seven days together i would actually throw up and laugh in their face
genuinely one of the worst books i’ve ever read which is so annoying because i did like the premise/plot.
worlds worst book award!! did literally ANYONE read over this before it was published?? the gross misuse of the oxford comma and the general juvenile sense you got from the writing, if you told me a 10 year old produced this i would believe you. overall, horrifically written.
couldn’t stand the characters. absolutely despised Lily she was so pick me and i’ve trauma blocked out half of this so i cant even mention examples but just know she was so annoying. don’t even get me started on her letters. written so so badly. it was meant to be sad but it was impossible to take it seriously.
i also don’t understand how aaron knew the whole time but acted like he didn’t? that was meant to be a plot twist but it was just stupid because no one ever did anything about that information. it didn’t make any sort of sense😭
🚨 SPOILERS 🚨
AND EVERYONE WAS SO FUCKING BEYOND STUPID I ACTUALLY COULDNT TAKE IT. NO ONE KNEW AARON AND LILY WERE TWINS DESPITE THEM LOOKING FUCKING IDENTICAL?? COLIN COULDNT FIGURE OUT THAT AARON WAS HER BROTHER AFTER HE WAS ACTING PROTECTIVE BUT BEING GROSSED OUT AT THE PROSPECT OF HIM AND LILY BEING A THING?? LILY NOT BEING ABLE TO PUT TWO AND TWO TOGETHER THAT COLINS SISTER DIDNT HAVE A FLU SHE LITERALLY HAD CANCER??? it was so painful to sit through.
i don’t care about anyone else in this to actually write about them.
also sorry just have to let this one out:
SHE JUST LET HIM FUCKING BELIEVE SHE KILLED HERSELF?? she made him run around finding suicide notes dedicated to him and then when he finally went home, after he read ANOTHER letter, MIND YOU AFTER HIS SISTER JUST FUCKING DIED, then, THEN she decided to let him know she didn’t go through with it????? i’m actually gob smacked. awe struck at how selfish and disgusting that was of her to do😭 her whole thing was she “wasn’t sure” if she was going to go through with it so JUST IN CASE SHE LED HIM AROUND AND LET EVERYONE BELIEVED SHE HAD KILLED HERSELF?
also this is irrelevant but if a stranger told me they loved me after spending seven days together i would actually throw up and laugh in their face
genuinely one of the worst books i’ve ever read which is so annoying because i did like the premise/plot.
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December 16, 2022DNF at 10%
The poster child of Wattpad writing. Not a huge fan of how Lily’s mental illness is portrayed or being handled so far, and from other reviews this doesn’t get better as it does on. Cute concept but not executed well.
The poster child of Wattpad writing. Not a huge fan of how Lily’s mental illness is portrayed or being handled so far, and from other reviews this doesn’t get better as it does on. Cute concept but not executed well.
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May 10, 2023Depression isn’t cute, and neither are suicidal thoughts. Research is a thing, and so is respect about the subject matter.
Not only was this book severely lacking in proper mental health research, but it was also so incredibly cringy, I quite nearly had an aneurysm. Listen, there’s a way to write someone struggling and having suicidal ideation, okay? This wasn’t it. Do better.
Not only was this book severely lacking in proper mental health research, but it was also so incredibly cringy, I quite nearly had an aneurysm. Listen, there’s a way to write someone struggling and having suicidal ideation, okay? This wasn’t it. Do better.
September 18, 2022
WHERE DO I FIND THIS BOOK ONLINE FOR FREE??? SOMEONE HELP PLS!!!
November 20, 2022
was the writing style my favourite? no. did the book almost make me cry? yes. did i laugh every time she called him by his name because i imagine people called colin to be 60 years old? also yes.
February 26, 2023
lowkey thought i was reading on wattpad by accident and had to double check
December 30, 2022
4.5⭐️❤️. I’ll write a proper review tomorrow
This book has got to be one of my favs , I loved all the characters in the book, I related to Lilly in some parts as well. Every chapter has a new song lyric , the banter between Lilly and Collin was everything .
I actually cried with certain bits and especially with Collins sister and when he explained about his brother omg my heart couldn’t handle it and when he was reading Lilly’s journal my heart broke ..
Can’t wait to read the other books about the other characters.
This book has got to be one of my favs , I loved all the characters in the book, I related to Lilly in some parts as well. Every chapter has a new song lyric , the banter between Lilly and Collin was everything .
I actually cried with certain bits and especially with Collins sister and when he explained about his brother omg my heart couldn’t handle it and when he was reading Lilly’s journal my heart broke ..
Can’t wait to read the other books about the other characters.
October 6, 2022
♾️/⭐️
This book is under rated. Totally love this book. Don't really have anything to say except if you think you want to read it you DEFINITELY should.❤️❤️❤️
This book is under rated. Totally love this book. Don't really have anything to say except if you think you want to read it you DEFINITELY should.❤️❤️❤️
December 30, 2022
This book taught me to read the reviews before I start a book.
April 9, 2023
3,5
lily is way too relatable-
lily is way too relatable-
November 8, 2023
… yeah lily isn’t just depressed she’s also a psychopath. stick her in that mental hospital and let her STAY THERE!!
who in their right mind would make someone run around thinking that you’ve unalived yourself when their sibling has just passed away?????? HELLO???
and u guys are in love after 9 days… sure mate
i also love how winter just disappears after half the book 💀💀
also why would u make a joke about your brother when ur about to have sex…….. incest vibes throughout this whole thing… pretty sure if my sibling walked in on me not being decent we won’t even talk about it let alone constantly bring it up at every waking moment wtf
who in their right mind would make someone run around thinking that you’ve unalived yourself when their sibling has just passed away?????? HELLO???
and u guys are in love after 9 days… sure mate
i also love how winter just disappears after half the book 💀💀
also why would u make a joke about your brother when ur about to have sex…….. incest vibes throughout this whole thing… pretty sure if my sibling walked in on me not being decent we won’t even talk about it let alone constantly bring it up at every waking moment wtf
November 24, 2022
im not even done w this book but i HATE IT SO MUCH and i need to warn everybody not to read this book or series or anything by this author
such a depressing book and with my seasonal depression at this time of the year, this book was not good for my mental health
also the writing style was too immature for me and the characters were too childish for me, like the female mc was so selfish
the smut was disappointing :/
i wasted TWO DAYS reading this book and i regret finishing iT
such a depressing book and with my seasonal depression at this time of the year, this book was not good for my mental health
also the writing style was too immature for me and the characters were too childish for me, like the female mc was so selfish
the smut was disappointing :/
i wasted TWO DAYS reading this book and i regret finishing iT
July 1, 2025
Dnf at 23% Ξεκίνησε καλά και η ιδέα του βιβλίου είναι αρκετά δυνατή. Ο τρόπος όμως που μιλάει για την ψυχική υγεία και την κατάθλιψη είναι βιαστικός, ρηχός και καθόλου μα καθόλου σωστός. Είναι ένα ζήτημα λεπτό και δεν το θίγει με καμία ευαισθησία.
December 27, 2022
dnf at 40% good idea the execution sucks
January 25, 2023
Hab nur 4 mal geheult war super!!!!
February 18, 2023
As a suicidal person, I very much disapprove.
November 6, 2023
I honestly loved this book, but it didn't have me giggling and kicking my feet so...4 stars it is.
May 21, 2025
When the book is so bad that it makes you understand why she should/wants to kill herself 💖 This man did NOT truly care for or understand her.
Everything about this book was just... WRONG. The choice in style & direction, the editing (there were alot of errors), characters, the 'romance' and like just everything. It started off well and promising until it fell and grew flat out offensive and stupid at times. At the end her suicide (spoiler, she didn't commit) was treated like some twisty plot.
This book is about a guy who meets a girl and discovers she wants to kill herself. When he finds this out he tells her to give him her last days to show her why she should stay alive. Sounds good right? No. This book was more rom-com than mental health which was incredibly disappointing. I feel like the author made a poor decision to write this plot with the style and structure of a rom-com, because it didn't allow her to give depth to Lily or Colin, so they were paper thin. I wanted to see more of Lily's mental health than just her letters, which by the way, does the author not know paragraphs fucking exist??? Like, she's not writing a goddamn poem- it pissed me off too much 😭. Anyways, it just gave a rom-com com instead of what it was meant to give: sad and raw.
What I mean by rom-com style is that the romance was given priority. We missed conversations that were valuable like the one with her step/half sister Ana and the one with her mom at the end. We missed her telling Colin important stuff- hell there was barely even a focus on the project they were doing.
My main criticism of this book is the male lead, Colin Carter (who is apparently spanish??? He gave 100% American vibes but ok). He isn't a good male lead- to be frank, he had brief moments of toxicity at times and overall I genuinely don't think he gave a shit about Lily because he was so careless. If he gave a shit, firstly he would have tried harder (I know this sounds rude but I'll explain), secondly he wouldn't have wanted to fuck her all the time (I'm not lying about this) and lastly he would have cared more and took her way more seriously.
I know technically they had only known each other for 9 days or something so their relationship can't be that deep but come on, he could have acted better.
Anyway, let my Colin rant commence~
🤸♀️ He read her journal entries/suicide letters (with her consent, aside from the first time) and critiqued them like it was something light hearted or like a joke, and then told her she was being mean to someone who wasn't even all that great to her and basically was the reason she rewrote the letter to said person. Dude. Leave her alone.
🤸♀️ His inner monologue for like the first half of the book felt so childish/not his age/innocent??? He legit calls her Lilybug too. It was a huge contrast to his apparent libido, to say the least.
🤸♀️ They accidentally kissed and he tells her after, "Let's not make it weird alright?" That sounds so condescending.
🤸♀️ He didn't do anything meaningful aside from the sunrise thing. Like, there was a plate smashing thing and then ice skating which okay, good. But then the rest was like taster sessions like what the fuck is this supposed to do. They did coffee and chocolate tasting. Does she look like a tourist to you? The first thing he also did was take her to see his sick sister (she has cancer) in hopes she might change her mind about dying.
🤸♀️ THE JEALOUSY SCENE. (It was NOT it).
🤸♀️ IDK how to feel about his method when trying to stop her from SH.
🤸♀️ He licked his fingers in front of her brother after... YK. DUDE.
🤸♀️ He got mad at her when it came to the end of the nine-day period and she still wanted to kill herself. (I'm realising how much of a child he is)
🤸♀️ The shit this MF said. I believe his frontal lobe is under developed and likely one cell thick!
Exhibit A:
Exhibit B:
He's just abit very icky. Their argument at the end was so brushed over. He had valid points but then he fucked it of course like any white man. I have other issues but I'm ending my little review here. 💋
MY RATING: 1 star
Everything about this book was just... WRONG. The choice in style & direction, the editing (there were alot of errors), characters, the 'romance' and like just everything. It started off well and promising until it fell and grew flat out offensive and stupid at times. At the end her suicide (spoiler, she didn't commit) was treated like some twisty plot.
This book is about a guy who meets a girl and discovers she wants to kill herself. When he finds this out he tells her to give him her last days to show her why she should stay alive. Sounds good right? No. This book was more rom-com than mental health which was incredibly disappointing. I feel like the author made a poor decision to write this plot with the style and structure of a rom-com, because it didn't allow her to give depth to Lily or Colin, so they were paper thin. I wanted to see more of Lily's mental health than just her letters, which by the way, does the author not know paragraphs fucking exist??? Like, she's not writing a goddamn poem- it pissed me off too much 😭. Anyways, it just gave a rom-com com instead of what it was meant to give: sad and raw.
What I mean by rom-com style is that the romance was given priority. We missed conversations that were valuable like the one with her step/half sister Ana and the one with her mom at the end. We missed her telling Colin important stuff- hell there was barely even a focus on the project they were doing.
My main criticism of this book is the male lead, Colin Carter (who is apparently spanish??? He gave 100% American vibes but ok). He isn't a good male lead- to be frank, he had brief moments of toxicity at times and overall I genuinely don't think he gave a shit about Lily because he was so careless. If he gave a shit, firstly he would have tried harder (I know this sounds rude but I'll explain), secondly he wouldn't have wanted to fuck her all the time (I'm not lying about this) and lastly he would have cared more and took her way more seriously.
I know technically they had only known each other for 9 days or something so their relationship can't be that deep but come on, he could have acted better.
Anyway, let my Colin rant commence~
🤸♀️ He read her journal entries/suicide letters (with her consent, aside from the first time) and critiqued them like it was something light hearted or like a joke, and then told her she was being mean to someone who wasn't even all that great to her and basically was the reason she rewrote the letter to said person. Dude. Leave her alone.
🤸♀️ His inner monologue for like the first half of the book felt so childish/not his age/innocent??? He legit calls her Lilybug too. It was a huge contrast to his apparent libido, to say the least.
🤸♀️ They accidentally kissed and he tells her after, "Let's not make it weird alright?" That sounds so condescending.
🤸♀️ He didn't do anything meaningful aside from the sunrise thing. Like, there was a plate smashing thing and then ice skating which okay, good. But then the rest was like taster sessions like what the fuck is this supposed to do. They did coffee and chocolate tasting. Does she look like a tourist to you? The first thing he also did was take her to see his sick sister (she has cancer) in hopes she might change her mind about dying.
🤸♀️ THE JEALOUSY SCENE. (It was NOT it).
🤸♀️ IDK how to feel about his method when trying to stop her from SH.
🤸♀️ He licked his fingers in front of her brother after... YK. DUDE.
🤸♀️ He got mad at her when it came to the end of the nine-day period and she still wanted to kill herself. (I'm realising how much of a child he is)
🤸♀️ The shit this MF said. I believe his frontal lobe is under developed and likely one cell thick!
Exhibit A:
"But if I see you flirt with another guy ever again, I will make sure he experiences afterlife earlier than you do."
Exhibit B:
“Besides, I don’t think any other guy would like to put up with a girl has one foot in a grave. One that plans to be dead in less than a week.”
He's just a
MY RATING: 1 star
December 22, 2022
3.5⭐
Nine Days
r e v i e w
I still love the idea behind the story. A girl that wants to end her life and writes her goodbyes in a notebook - but then this hockey guy finds the book, and wants to show her her life is worth living? Yeah, I think that's a great idea for a book. I still think that after finishing this book - although I'm not fully hooked by how the book delivered the story.
So let me tell you why: how the book started caught my interest. I liked Lily from the start. The way the book showed her depression felt real and well transported. She got into my feels, I wanted to hug her and I could understand where she was coming from despite having a different view on things. I also enjoyed her first interaction with Colin.
Sounds pretty good, he?
I thought so too. Thought maybe...just maybe, this might be a 5⭐ read if it just gets a little bit deeper, digs deeper into Lily and Colin.
But in my opinion, the whole story stays on the surface...no iceberg that has so much more you can't see right away. I was hooked at the beginning but the book lost me inbetween.
In the end it was nice. At the end there was also something that happened...and that got my attention back a little bit. But...after all a pretty nice read with a lot of potential.
3.5/5⭐
Nine Days
r e v i e w
I still love the idea behind the story. A girl that wants to end her life and writes her goodbyes in a notebook - but then this hockey guy finds the book, and wants to show her her life is worth living? Yeah, I think that's a great idea for a book. I still think that after finishing this book - although I'm not fully hooked by how the book delivered the story.
So let me tell you why: how the book started caught my interest. I liked Lily from the start. The way the book showed her depression felt real and well transported. She got into my feels, I wanted to hug her and I could understand where she was coming from despite having a different view on things. I also enjoyed her first interaction with Colin.
Sounds pretty good, he?
I thought so too. Thought maybe...just maybe, this might be a 5⭐ read if it just gets a little bit deeper, digs deeper into Lily and Colin.
But in my opinion, the whole story stays on the surface...no iceberg that has so much more you can't see right away. I was hooked at the beginning but the book lost me inbetween.
In the end it was nice. At the end there was also something that happened...and that got my attention back a little bit. But...after all a pretty nice read with a lot of potential.
3.5/5⭐
October 5, 2025
«Knowing that I don't have to go through a dark period of time on my own is as much help as I could ever ask for.
Pain comes in all sorts of ways. Some might get hit worse, some less, but there's always pain in life. The amount of pain doesn't matter, pain stays pain, and it sucks. It will never leave, will always be present. But it's on us to decide whether or not we'll let it consume us.»
I first picked up Nine Days over two years ago and only managed about 100 pages before setting it aside. At that time, I was still coming out of depression myself, and while I immediately recognised how well this book represents depression, I could not keep reading. I felt too jealous of the main character, jealous that she had someone by her side to help her through it, while I did not. It sounds strange, but when you are struggling and you read about someone finding light again through love and support, it can hurt in a way that is hard to explain. I had no one like that, no one to pull me out or make me see the world differently, so I just had to close the book.
«Pain wouldn't exist without love, and love wouldn't exist without pain. Whether it's family, friends, a pet, sports, significant other, anything, or anyone. Loss is the pain that comes with love. The true criminal, but without it, beautiful things woulan t exist. If you don't fear losing it if you don't fear it leaving you... it's not on the side of beauty it should be on.»
Now, more than two years later, I finally returned to it, and I am glad I waited. This time I could read it without that heaviness, and I found myself connecting to it in a different and more meaningful way. I could understand the sadness, but also appreciate the hope. There were still moments that stung, like the romance and the idea of a boyfriend who helps you see the world again, but instead of making me feel jealous, they made me think about how I would love to have that one day. I was still a little jealous, of course, but I could see the beauty in it now rather than the ache.
«Not one beautiful thing comes without a bad part. It's what yin and yang taught us. Bad comes with good, and good comes with bad. It's just a matter of time for the good to shine through, or the bad to fog up the place. Nothing ever comes for free, but nothing ever stays unrewarded either. Lily is yin in this scenario. She's in the dark, fighting through pain. She can't see that yang is about to come. She can't see because her world is gray and foggy. So if there is a chance that I can be her light shining through the darkness, that I can be the yang to her yin, I have to try.»
The book resonated in many personal ways. The character Winter really reminded me of an old best friend of mine. It did not trigger me exactly, but it definitely annoyed me a little, because she acted the same way as my friend used to. When I was depressed, my friend was always talking about her boyfriends and her breakups, and I felt unseen. Reading Winter felt like reliving that dynamic, but it also made the story feel so real. It showed how complicated friendships can be when one person is struggling and the other does not quite know how to handle it.
«It's weird suddenly having someone keeping an eye on you after years of not having anyone care one bit.»
I especially loved the small and tender details in the book, the moments that felt soft and real. Colin naming Lily’s stuffed animals melted my heart. It was such a simple gesture, but it said so much about care and attention. I love stuffed animals myself, and I think I would quite literally melt if someone cared enough to name them for me. Their scenes together, like watching the stars, waking up early to see the sunrise, or standing in the rain just to feel free, were some of my favourites. I normally do not care much about sunrises or sunsets, but if I were sharing it with someone special, I know it would suddenly matter. The book captured that feeling beautifully — how ordinary things become meaningful when you are finally present again and no longer numb.
«The person who loved me back to life.
The person who showed me that there's happiness in cruely, that there's light in the darkness.
No matter what will happen between the both of us, please know:
I'll always think highly of you.
You're the only person who ever tried to understand me. The only person who dug deeper and tried to make me happy.
You wanted to understand how I felt, and you tried your very best to accept my feelings rather than tell me they're not valid because I have no reason to feel the way I do.
So, thank you, Colin. For Trying. For being there. For understanding.
Thank. You.»
The story also deals with grief and guilt in a way that really struck me. Aiden’s suicide and Colin’s guilt over not doing enough felt raw and heartbreaking. It was painful but honest. I liked that the book did not shy away from showing how grief can look different for everyone, and how losing someone changes you. The part with Colin’s sister was also incredibly moving. Her death was not caused by choice but by illness, and that contrast between her and Aiden made me think about how people experience death in so many different ways, and yet it always leaves a mark.
«I’ll always carry the scars, and they’ll never be gone. They might fade a little. It’s always going to be a part of me, but it is in my hands how I choose to deal with it. If the choice is between suffering and healing. I choose healing. I should’ve chosen healing years ago, but I suppose I found comfort in all this pain. Until it was suffocating me too much. Emotional pain is a silent killer. It comforts you. You just fail to realise that pain’s comfort is actually a weapon.»
And then there are all the little touches that made the book unforgettable. Colin getting the lily tattoo was such a powerful symbol of love and memory, and it fit so perfectly with Lily’s name. I also really liked the moment where Lily stood in the rain and Colin and his friend Grey joined her. It felt like a moment of freedom, of being alive again after being stuck for so long. There were so many beautiful quotes in this book that I could have highlighted half of it.
«"Well, if you're upset, you have to know what it's about." That's another thing I hate. When I do say I don't feel well... I don't always know why. Actually, I rarely know why I don't feel okay. I just don't feel okay, accept it. But people tell me I need to have a reason.»
One thing I also noticed was the difference between my indie edition and the audiobook I listened to. There were a few quotes and lines in the audiobook that were not in my indie-published copy, so I wrote them down on sticky notes and added them in. It made me so happy to see that the author had refined the writing and made it even better for the traditionally published edition. It is always lovely to see an author’s growth like that, especially for a story this emotional.
«I don't have plans for my future.
I don't know what I want to do after I graduate college. I don't know how to live.»
«I'm scared that if I stay, I will only continue to live in misery.»
Yes, I know some people might call this book a bit melodramatic or even “wattpaddy”, but I honestly think that only applies if you cannot relate. If you have been through something like what Lily goes through, this book feels completely different. It is sad, yes, but also hopeful and healing. It captures what it is like to be lost, to find someone who helps you see beauty again, and to start loving life little by little.
«She is mine. Even if she dies, she's always going to be mine. I know this girl is special. She has a huge heart, loves with so much brightness. It's so sad that she can't see it. So I'll be loving her. I'll love her until her last breath, and even after that, I'll continue to love her with every breath I take. Even if I have to breathe for the both of us.»
One last thing I want to include of Colin that I really loved, is how he even made sure to stay home and do a boardgame or something else, when she felt too overwhelmed to go outside and her social battery was empty. Anddd also how he realised that she doesn’t take compliments well/doesn’t believe them. So he will compliment her every day till she believes him.
«Making her feel loved will be enough for now.»
«I withdraw myself from people so I wouldn't annoy them with my awful feelings.»
For me, Nine Days was sad, hopeful, raw, and beautiful, a story that made me feel deeply and reflect on my own healing. It reminded me that books sometimes come to us before we are ready for them, and that it is okay to wait until the right time. I am so glad I came back to it now, because it ended up meaning far more to me than it ever could have before.
«You're living on a floating rock filled with water and you're expecting life to make sense. Well, breaking news: It doesn't make any fucking sense to anyone. Your whole existence doesn't make sense. For all we know, we could be a part of someone's imagination and wouldn't even know it because this, our current life, is all we're familiar with. Yet you're here. You're here for a reason, regardless of it maybe not making sense at all. Your reason to be here certainly isn't to die earlier than you're destined to. You have so much more to experience, so much more to see.»
Pain comes in all sorts of ways. Some might get hit worse, some less, but there's always pain in life. The amount of pain doesn't matter, pain stays pain, and it sucks. It will never leave, will always be present. But it's on us to decide whether or not we'll let it consume us.»
I first picked up Nine Days over two years ago and only managed about 100 pages before setting it aside. At that time, I was still coming out of depression myself, and while I immediately recognised how well this book represents depression, I could not keep reading. I felt too jealous of the main character, jealous that she had someone by her side to help her through it, while I did not. It sounds strange, but when you are struggling and you read about someone finding light again through love and support, it can hurt in a way that is hard to explain. I had no one like that, no one to pull me out or make me see the world differently, so I just had to close the book.
«Pain wouldn't exist without love, and love wouldn't exist without pain. Whether it's family, friends, a pet, sports, significant other, anything, or anyone. Loss is the pain that comes with love. The true criminal, but without it, beautiful things woulan t exist. If you don't fear losing it if you don't fear it leaving you... it's not on the side of beauty it should be on.»
Now, more than two years later, I finally returned to it, and I am glad I waited. This time I could read it without that heaviness, and I found myself connecting to it in a different and more meaningful way. I could understand the sadness, but also appreciate the hope. There were still moments that stung, like the romance and the idea of a boyfriend who helps you see the world again, but instead of making me feel jealous, they made me think about how I would love to have that one day. I was still a little jealous, of course, but I could see the beauty in it now rather than the ache.
«Not one beautiful thing comes without a bad part. It's what yin and yang taught us. Bad comes with good, and good comes with bad. It's just a matter of time for the good to shine through, or the bad to fog up the place. Nothing ever comes for free, but nothing ever stays unrewarded either. Lily is yin in this scenario. She's in the dark, fighting through pain. She can't see that yang is about to come. She can't see because her world is gray and foggy. So if there is a chance that I can be her light shining through the darkness, that I can be the yang to her yin, I have to try.»
The book resonated in many personal ways. The character Winter really reminded me of an old best friend of mine. It did not trigger me exactly, but it definitely annoyed me a little, because she acted the same way as my friend used to. When I was depressed, my friend was always talking about her boyfriends and her breakups, and I felt unseen. Reading Winter felt like reliving that dynamic, but it also made the story feel so real. It showed how complicated friendships can be when one person is struggling and the other does not quite know how to handle it.
«It's weird suddenly having someone keeping an eye on you after years of not having anyone care one bit.»
I especially loved the small and tender details in the book, the moments that felt soft and real. Colin naming Lily’s stuffed animals melted my heart. It was such a simple gesture, but it said so much about care and attention. I love stuffed animals myself, and I think I would quite literally melt if someone cared enough to name them for me. Their scenes together, like watching the stars, waking up early to see the sunrise, or standing in the rain just to feel free, were some of my favourites. I normally do not care much about sunrises or sunsets, but if I were sharing it with someone special, I know it would suddenly matter. The book captured that feeling beautifully — how ordinary things become meaningful when you are finally present again and no longer numb.
«The person who loved me back to life.
The person who showed me that there's happiness in cruely, that there's light in the darkness.
No matter what will happen between the both of us, please know:
I'll always think highly of you.
You're the only person who ever tried to understand me. The only person who dug deeper and tried to make me happy.
You wanted to understand how I felt, and you tried your very best to accept my feelings rather than tell me they're not valid because I have no reason to feel the way I do.
So, thank you, Colin. For Trying. For being there. For understanding.
Thank. You.»
The story also deals with grief and guilt in a way that really struck me. Aiden’s suicide and Colin’s guilt over not doing enough felt raw and heartbreaking. It was painful but honest. I liked that the book did not shy away from showing how grief can look different for everyone, and how losing someone changes you. The part with Colin’s sister was also incredibly moving. Her death was not caused by choice but by illness, and that contrast between her and Aiden made me think about how people experience death in so many different ways, and yet it always leaves a mark.
«I’ll always carry the scars, and they’ll never be gone. They might fade a little. It’s always going to be a part of me, but it is in my hands how I choose to deal with it. If the choice is between suffering and healing. I choose healing. I should’ve chosen healing years ago, but I suppose I found comfort in all this pain. Until it was suffocating me too much. Emotional pain is a silent killer. It comforts you. You just fail to realise that pain’s comfort is actually a weapon.»
And then there are all the little touches that made the book unforgettable. Colin getting the lily tattoo was such a powerful symbol of love and memory, and it fit so perfectly with Lily’s name. I also really liked the moment where Lily stood in the rain and Colin and his friend Grey joined her. It felt like a moment of freedom, of being alive again after being stuck for so long. There were so many beautiful quotes in this book that I could have highlighted half of it.
«"Well, if you're upset, you have to know what it's about." That's another thing I hate. When I do say I don't feel well... I don't always know why. Actually, I rarely know why I don't feel okay. I just don't feel okay, accept it. But people tell me I need to have a reason.»
One thing I also noticed was the difference between my indie edition and the audiobook I listened to. There were a few quotes and lines in the audiobook that were not in my indie-published copy, so I wrote them down on sticky notes and added them in. It made me so happy to see that the author had refined the writing and made it even better for the traditionally published edition. It is always lovely to see an author’s growth like that, especially for a story this emotional.
«I don't have plans for my future.
I don't know what I want to do after I graduate college. I don't know how to live.»
«I'm scared that if I stay, I will only continue to live in misery.»
Yes, I know some people might call this book a bit melodramatic or even “wattpaddy”, but I honestly think that only applies if you cannot relate. If you have been through something like what Lily goes through, this book feels completely different. It is sad, yes, but also hopeful and healing. It captures what it is like to be lost, to find someone who helps you see beauty again, and to start loving life little by little.
«She is mine. Even if she dies, she's always going to be mine. I know this girl is special. She has a huge heart, loves with so much brightness. It's so sad that she can't see it. So I'll be loving her. I'll love her until her last breath, and even after that, I'll continue to love her with every breath I take. Even if I have to breathe for the both of us.»
One last thing I want to include of Colin that I really loved, is how he even made sure to stay home and do a boardgame or something else, when she felt too overwhelmed to go outside and her social battery was empty. Anddd also how he realised that she doesn’t take compliments well/doesn’t believe them. So he will compliment her every day till she believes him.
«Making her feel loved will be enough for now.»
«I withdraw myself from people so I wouldn't annoy them with my awful feelings.»
For me, Nine Days was sad, hopeful, raw, and beautiful, a story that made me feel deeply and reflect on my own healing. It reminded me that books sometimes come to us before we are ready for them, and that it is okay to wait until the right time. I am so glad I came back to it now, because it ended up meaning far more to me than it ever could have before.
«You're living on a floating rock filled with water and you're expecting life to make sense. Well, breaking news: It doesn't make any fucking sense to anyone. Your whole existence doesn't make sense. For all we know, we could be a part of someone's imagination and wouldn't even know it because this, our current life, is all we're familiar with. Yet you're here. You're here for a reason, regardless of it maybe not making sense at all. Your reason to be here certainly isn't to die earlier than you're destined to. You have so much more to experience, so much more to see.»
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