Actual rating: 4 1/2 stars
I was only supposed to read the first page and then continue with the other two books pending on my reading list, but I was enthralled. This was supposed to be the book to read after I finished the other two. But I was instantly pulled into this story and I could not stop reading it.
Now, I'm not sure this book is for everyone. If you're hoping for an instant love connection and a pure romance book, this might not be the book for you. This book is like reading a reality show instead of watching it. It's slow paced but still intriguing enough for you to keep reading. Also, I think this is one of the longest Pepper Pace books I've read so far.
I adore Bailey. I think she's an absolutely endearing person. I liked her from the very start and she gave it her best. If I was Bailey, I'm not sure I would be willing to take part in fully immerse 1950's reality show because of the discrimination faced by black people during that era. But Bailey went for it, even with their unusually strict rules for the whole reality show.
Now, I'm not sure how a reality show works, but I'm sure there is some type of control and script that actors need to follow and mostly they do what is being asked by the producers. Also, you are mostly aware of the production team around you and you also have the staff to help you out. But in this show, it's almost like you really step into the era of 1954 and the rules are so strict, you literally stay in that production set the whole day (to a year) and continuously act until it's downtime. No "cut" scenes or retakes, you just go with the flow. They also don't do this "single" interview session you normally see in reality, where the actors complain or talk about their day. This was straight up being dropped into 1954 and live it like it's now your own reality type of show.
My reaction was similar to Bailey when they said that she had to do all the daunting true 1950's housewife duties in full make up and heels. My god, that back-breaking work and, not to mention, the staff/production team is not going to help you at all. So Bailey was suddenly dropped into this situation and she realized how exhausting it was. In addition to that, Bailey was in an interracial relationship with Bobby, a white man. Now living in the mostly white neighborhood, Bailey felt pressured to prove herself even more than other white housewife because nearly everything she does is being observed and scrutinized by them. Bailey was living under the microscope of the judgmental white neighbors. I think Bailey's preservation and endurance makes her a magnificent character. Her chemistry with her co-star Bobby, also makes the whole thing even more intriguing.
Bobby (Robert), is Bailey's "husband" on the show and right from her first introduction to him, Bobby was instantly hooked. It was obvious that he was very taken with Bailey, but he also appeared to be professional at the same time. I thought it was rather weird that Bobby was taking the audition so seriously that he looked quite vexed when Bruce the show manager, interrupted the audition to offer Bailey the job. It was very brief at the beginning. I actually didn't think much of it until Bailey finally arrived at the production set. Only then do we find out that Bailey was supposed to play his wife on the show. It also turned out that he is the producer and creator of the show! So technically, Bailey 's co-star is also her boss. The thing about Bobby is that he was mysterious, he was someone who was absolutely dedicated to his show, he set strict rules for his staff and actors, the production set looked so genuine that Bailey felt like she really did time travel. Bobby was also very strict about breaking character and gets upset if people do something to jeopardise the show. But in Bobby's case it was borderline obsessive. He also does a lil thing here and there that seems like a mini red flag and we learn more about his mysterious life of Robert and his acting life as Bobby.
Bobby (on the show) is head over heel in love with Bailey (they use their first real name on the show) and it shows how much he adores her and is very loving to her. Sometimes it felt so real to Bailey, she felt like she really did have a handsome and amazing husband, Bobby in real life. It is almost like they weren't even acting sometimes, because nearly everyone who watched the show feels like they had the most realistic and stupendous chemistry on set. We later find out that Bobby/Robert has really fallen in love with Bailey and the feeling is mutual. They instantly become the show's favorite and fan favorite, both in show and real life.
Bailey soon found out that nearly every cast/actor of POC is either, cast as background or no script actors and she also felt like the show didn't quite reflect the other reality of the 50's era, particularly the black folks. The 50's wasn't so accepting of interracial relationships, integration and equality, especially if you're black/POC. So, after Bailey's input about it to Bobby, they started taking the show on a most realistic path, and that's when Bailey started to really feel the oppression and hate coming down on her like falling bricks, it wouldn't have not been so bad if she could actually see the production team around her and take break in between takes. It would have been a reality/show balance but instead she is facing racism full blown, stark naked and Bailey was left shaken on her first day (of realism). She felt like the realism was too real because the line blurred for Bailey, who didn't process the first day of the racist realism experience and blurted her butt hurt to Bobby. After the production stopped, Robert made it clear that this is what she asked for and she needed to accept the realism. Bailey slowly started to realize that her action role was going to be painful and uncomfortable because the 50's for black people wasn't peachy.
However, Bailey persevered and used that pain and anger she felt for her protagonist with resoluteness and gave an outstanding performance. She instantly became the best actress on the show, and because of that, the show started to gain more traction than before. Her near genuine relationship with Bobby and her pure unscripted reaction made her an exceptional actor. She gained a load of friends and allies and they used that story's progress to push forth the rebellion for equality rights.
There are so many things happening in the book and I don't want to review all of them, honestly, just read the book. I think the reason why Bailey gets upset or shaken is because they use their real name, there is no visible production team on sight (most part) and no retakes or breaking character and they also don't get a detailed script. It makes Bailey really act and react to everything around her in a very raw and in-your-face acting. It also blurs the line between actual reality and acting. It seems like it's not just Bailey because if she has it bad, Bobby is on another level. He is really so into his character that sometimes, Bailey wonders if Bobby is really fooling himself into thinking he is living in 1954 and he gets really protective of Bailey. He also mentions that he does not like to put Bailey in uncomfortable "scenes" because he doesn't like to see her hurt, even if it's just acting.
I love Helen, Pat, Haley, Anita, Quentin, Hank, Curtis, Marvin, Carl, Aunt Mae, Juanita and so many more characters. I want to review them all but there's just too much.
I sometimes wonder if something is up with Bobby/Robert because he sometimes his reaction to the show so authentic. He is obsessed with the 1950's, and he rarely talks about his family and his pedo of a politician father. Bobby craves a traditional family and when Bailey finally meets his mother, she doesn't quite get the normal family vibe. In fact, his mother had pre-warned Bailey about Bobby's father. There is a lot going on with Bobby/Robert, from his family, his 50's obsession and his OCD need for 50's realism. Bailey also wondered why she felt such a strong connection to Bobby, almost like she had known him for a long time. Did this rich boy have some kind of mental illness that he used the 50's traditional family lifestyle as a coping mechanism for his own screwed-up RL family?
The show was really good and I absolutely adore Bailey and Bobby. I'm starting to notice there is some very mild friction starting from within his production team and the racism storyline is starting to look too real even for Bailey. There is also the mystery about Bobby's RL.
There is so much going on in this book and I'm a gonner for slow pace romance and drama. The only reason I didn't give 5 stars is because it lacked balance. This show is supposedly a very expensive streaming service and its audience is mostly super rich people. I highly doubt they would continue to pay for that subscription if they only kept showing white people as the rotten egg in the whole bunch of the show, it also lacked "bad" black people. Nearly everyone black in the show was so great and amalgamated. I don't believe that is 100% true, I don't think all black folks were so accepting of an interracial couple just like the whites. Yes, it's mentioned by both Helen and Bobby, but it was just in the passing. We don't really see these bad black people on the show like how it was with the whites. Marvin was supposed to be the "bad" black but he was so mediocre and did not stand out like the other bad white characters, so that was disappointing. They always ended up being "good" in the end, might as well you don't even invent a "bad" one. If you want realism, show white/black/POC all have multiple layers; good, bad and grey characters.
I also felt like Booby agreed to changes (quite drastic ones) too easily and I wished there were more friction between the newlyweds Bailey and Bobby, sometimes they were too lovey dovey and very forgiving. HAHAH
Also, I felt like the whole lynching thing was too much for the show, since it's not really a TV series about the 50's era. This is a reality show, so to kill off a character from a REALITY show by lynching is too much and too disturbing!!! I don't think it was appropriate. Yes, it's a real and horrifying reality of black folks back in the 50's but this is a reality show!!! Yes, my reaction was similar to Bailey when she heard who got lynched.
Another thing is that, after reading a super long book, the book ended with more questions unanswered and more story to unfold. I was hoping we would get some sort of answers about Bobby and his past but it seemed like this book was only the beginning.
This book is super long and sometimes, you tend to get the repeated routine of housewife in almost every chapter. Like I said before, this is a reality show in a book. You read it not watch it. I loved every character in the book and I can't wait to read the next installment (if any).