4.5 stars
“You know what you fucken need?” said the goat. “A self-published Australian exploded nonfiction novel about boxing and masculinity featuring a potty-mouthed talking goat. That’s what you fucken need.”
To which my heart’s surprising reply was that yes, that was pretty much what I needed right now. Especially surprising because I don’t think it’s possible to know less about boxing than I do (even after reading this book I basically know nothing) and I’m one of those people for whom Australia hardly exists.
Michael Winkler uses the 1908 visit of Italian-American boxer Joe Grim to Australia as his loose framework to explore man’s (as in men’s not as in men and women’s) relationship to pain. Grim isn’t much of a boxer, but he has an almost supernatural ability to withstand being punched in the head. This contrasts with our narrator (Winkler?), who fears pain, yet is preoccupied with the spectacle of it. Not much is known about Grim, so he fleshes out his narrative with quotes, digressions, discussions with a drunken uncle who may have known Grim, elaborate narrative construction and yes, a potty-mouthed talking goat.
It’s a pretty delirious ride.
Why write a book about pain when there are many sunny aspects of the human condition that could be written about instead?... Perhaps because there are ghosts in my head, old horrors and insecurities that link to tropes of masculine behaviour and rural Australia….It seems certain that on and off from age thirteen I was sick, to a greater or lesser extent, so that swirling obsession with pain, and men, and Australia, and courage, and cowardice, was happening in a mind subject to deep dis-ease.
There is a further dis-ease between the subject, the examination of an intensely physical sport and culture, with the paradox of using words and literature as a way to digest it, particularly when your words seem to be unwanted in the literary culture of today. Winkler quotes Maria Tumarkin: “Narrative, when fetishized, can become an evolved and brilliantly disguised way of shutting our ears to what hurts and scares us the most.” And Winkler seems preoccupied not only with his physical manhood but with his literary irrelevance (hopefully the sleeper success of this book has put that demon to rest):
For some reason then I thought of all the projects I have worked on and not told my wife the details of until they were done, and all of them coming to nought: the novels unpublished, unwanted; the plays unproduced, unwanted; innumerable poems, reviews, monologues, opinion columns, soiled rags of on.-spec journalism and, of course, indigestible short stories, perhaps my most awful metier, actually obviously not, that would definitely be the poetry.
The dark physicality of masculinity makes it hard to be a man; the intellectual world doesn’t seem to easy either. What’s left? Getting punched in the head.
There were a few wrong turns here for me. I’m not sure I needed so much goat. And there’s the (admitted) preemptive discussion of the absence of aboriginal Australians and the (admitted) shoehorning in of a woman… the latter struck me as a missed opportunity. You create a woman in the story just so nobody can say there aren’t any, but you make her a virginal ingenue type and never examine the place where pain and femaleness indelibly intersect, in childbirth, that humdrum activity in which pain is fetishized as much as it ever is in fighting sports?
Anyway, there’s a few things this book is not. But it is an entertaining, creative and audacious book, a definite alternative beach read.