Few are the books that come to us which develop into benchmarks within a specific arena. Relentless Defender is one of these gems.
There are several works out there that begin to address the story and lament that lived experience often brings. The experiences within the first responder are extremely unique; within law enforcement specifically, nuances of the misunderstood chaos that is everyday life are more pronounced.
Michael Sugrue has an extremely bold, essential, raw account of his calling as a law enforcement officer.
Sugrue hearkens back to a few high stress events in his life which has substantial impact on his continued journey to serve and protect.
Throughout the next years of his continuing protective, servant spirit, he recounts the increasing negative toll of this on his job, interagency relationships, most importantly his marriage and family, and his own head.
Essentially, he and Shauna (Doc) Springer record an account where typical words to describe Sugrue prior to these incidents were:
- Fierce
- Loyal
- Intelligent
- Street smart
- Passionate
- Lively
- Engaged
- Unfettered
- Unwavering
- Ethical
After these incidents and the downward internal spiral he continued to experience and although he had an intensively stout, successful and acclaimed history including:
- Being raised as a son of a police officer
- Training as a USAF Raven
- Number of weekly raids
- Number of affiliations and roles with additional agencies and multi-agency task forces,
leadership and unexpected co-workers essentially left Sugrue feeling forsaken.
His life was being transformed before his own eyes cracking through small and large heppeninga that were impacting him. He began to notice within himself that his "cop attributes" outlined above were being replaced with outward actions informed by
- Betrayal
- Embarrassment
- Hypervigilance
- Paranoia
- Confusion
- Loneliness
- Abandonment
- Desperation
- Isolated
- Numbness
- Fear
- Overprotection
- Risk-taking
- Moral injury
- Pain
- Anguish
- Self-blame
- Overwhelm
- Shoulda/coulda/woulda replays
- Detached
- Unapproachable
- Being an "asshole"
- Showing no empathy
- Being a bullseye
- Ddistrust
- Depression
- Hypersensitivity
- Shame
- Chronic threat response CTR
- Physical cancer
- Divorce
- Suicidal
Until an epiphany of sorts with established rapport of a trusted soul who helped him to get plugged in with Shauna (Doc) Springer so that he could start the journey to reclaim his original, true self.
If you are a cadet, an officer or other first responder of any rank and experience, a family member or loved one of someone who is a law enforcement officer, an individual searching for answers about your purpose and priorities, an empathic person in general, or a skeptic of the uniquely turmoiled world in which law enforcement officers live every single day, this book is for you!
You will be encouraged, strengthened, and ultimately inspired by this real-life lived experience of Sugrue.
Don't cheat yourself and miss this book.
Thank you, Michael Sugrue and Shauna (Doc) Springer for this.