4.5 Stars.
Cayo Suarez and Ben Roth were roommates at Duke Law School. They were the best of friends, but Cayo--out and proud--had an intense crush on Ben. Ben, having a broken heart and needing the attention of a dear friend, cultivated a close, physical relationship, that was purely platonic--though Ben had other desires too. He wasn't gay--isn't gay--though his brother is. He just loved how Cayo loved him--like a brother, that he sometimes fantasized about.
They had a huge falling out right before graduation--when Cayo confessed his deep love, and Ben freaked the F out. Ben behaved VERY badly, using a no-no slur and hurting Cayo emotional and physically in the moment. Cayo hasn't responded to any of Ben's attempts to make amend in the two years since, but he's mystified to find Ben dancing in a gay club in DC when he knows for a fact Ben took a soulless lawyer job for a corporate firm in NYC, while Cayo took the Legal Assistance position in DC Ben had claimed to want when they were students.
Cayo is so shook by Ben's advent in his life again, that he takes charge to find out Ben's story--what he's doing in DC. Ben's shook too, but he's wanted to make amends to Cayo for two long years. Cayo was his bestest of best friends, but Ben isn't gay--he's always dated women, except for a few hand jobs with a fellow teammate on the swim team way back in high school...
Okay, to be clear, Ben isn't straight. He spends a LOT of the book trying to figure out if he has a label, actually, but the long and short of this is Ben is sure he loves Cayo, as more than a friend or roomie. He needs Cayo's care, and wants his whole heart, too. Cayo immediately makes forgiveness happen--he's been holding his anger close for too long and desperately missed is best friend. He's not eager to rush into a relationship, however. He does invite Ben to take his spare room while Ben does an apartment hunt; he's recently been transferred to the DC branch of his conglomerate law firm.
Their close contact ignites all the need Ben can manage. He's so needy, and it's not long before he initiates non-platonic contact. Still, he's convinced he's not gay--and Ben's brother and brother-in-law (his brother's husband) are quick to take him to task. Whatever, he's not "gay", he's definitely into Cayo, which means he's willing to love a man--and whatever his sexuality, Ben needs to be honest and caring to Cayo. Cayo is upset that Ben may be playing him--and he's nervous to fall for a man who's only ever been with women. Cayo is afraid if Ben is bisexual he may want to go back to women, and he'll lose his best friend as well as the man he's loved his whole adult life.
I'll cut to the chase, Ben and Cayo are a solid couple--once Ben owns up to his love for Cayo. The next complication is a court case. Cayo is representing the plaintiff in a sex-discrimination suit, and Ben is--through a series of coincidences--representing the defendant, who happens to be a sexist scumbag. A wealthy sexist scumbag. That's where the suspense comes in.Cayo's amazing in the courtroom, and Ben...falls flat. But, a few days later, Cayo receives priviliged information and implication is that Ben sent it to him. It's super shady, and both Ben and Cayo are worried about Ben's job. He's at risk for firing and a board complaint.
In the meantime, Ben and Cayo are deepening their relationship. This book brings the smut, and I loved every moment of Ben's initiation into the gayest of gay sex. It's super fun, and enjoyably dirty, which I was delightfully surprised to experience. Ben spends his days figuring out how to make Cayo's life easier, and gets some extenuating circumstances to reveal his caretaking nature. Like I mentioned, there's shady business happening, and it leads to destruction of property, relocation, kidnapping and threats to life and profession.
This story comes complete with some cameos from characters in previous books. It's billed as a standalone, and works that way, but I'm sure there were novels that featured Ben's brother Aaron, and also his close friend and legal confidant Liam. Both of these men are settled, married gay men, who are also lawyers. Their support and counsel shepherd Ben in his journey to self-acceptance. I was curious about their back stories, but it didn't detract from my enjoyment of Ben and Cayo's story. There's a bit of intrigue and some definite suspense, but those moments end quickly and we have lots of time to focus on the deep love and dirty sexytimes that bind Ben and Cayo together.
I really like this story, and how Ben and Cayo overcome their differences in old hurts, and present disparities in wealthy and experience to find the common ground that will support their nascent relationship. I liked this story, and was intrigued about the previous books, as well. You can tell the authors are lawyers, because they are meticulous about finding the loopholes and knotting them up. It was a good story with cool elements of reconnection and accepting one's life, even if it's not going according to plan. I liked the supporting characters and would be interested to read on if we see Ben and Cayo in a new circumstance.