'Read this book. Then talk to your sons. It is essential reading' Jamie Theakston 'An extraordinary and important book. Read it immediately' Claudia Winkleman 'Superbly written, this deeply moving book underlines how truly precious mother-daughter relationships are, and never more so than in those teenage years' Gloria Hunniford A gripping memoir of two battling narratives and a mother-daughter relationship stretched to its absolute limits.Roxy was 13 years old when she was coerced then blackmailed into sending explicit photos, which were spread around her school. The shame led to self-loathing. The blame led to a psychotic breakdown. Roxy started hearing voices. Then she started seeing things...What happens when your teenager starts to lose it, and then you lose each other? What happens when you can't tell your mother you desperately need help? And how can a family move past a devastating mental health crisis?When You Lose It is a brutally honest true story, written from two perspectives, of consent, coercion and shattering consequences.
At 13 Roxy was pressurized into sending explicit photos, there after blackmailed. The humiliation she felt coupled with self doubt lead her to a psychotic breakdown. Together Roxy and her mother Gay have to navigate this troublesome journey, making hard choices and following survival instincts.
This book is a memoir about a mother and daughters' relationship that was tested to the end, it was gut wrenching, raw and split wide open. I will recommend this book to anyone and everyone because you need to read this immediately. I felt every emotion both mother and daughter endured, from the happy moments, the little victories to the heart breaking one's too. It was truly an extraordinary book.
Everybody should read this incredible memoir. I read it in just over 36 hours and I was thinking about it even when I wasn’t reading it.
The book is written from the point of view of a mother and her daughter and the journey they went on after her daughter was peer pressured into sending nude photos. It was a really hard read at times and very sad but definitely worth it.
A book for parents of girls, a book for parents of boys, a book for teachers, a book for teenagers. A book about peer pressure, about wishing to belong, about the "modern" risks of teenage years.
Told in two voices, of mother and daughter, here we have the fears and struggles of a daughter trying to make sense of the world and learning to deal with her anxiety alongside the attempts of a mother to navigate a family with a father who is often away for work and 3 daughters, plus her own professional life. The first few parts were particularly difficult to read. Mother & daughter's anxiety transpired to me and I often needed to set the book aside to avoid being sucked into it. I had to read this bit by bit, but I never wanted to be too far from it.
I've found this very well written and with a very good flow as mother and daughter's voices address each other. Using a distinct font for each voice made it easy to understand who was talking but most of the time the words and context were obvious enough.
Thank you Roxy, thank you Gay for sharing your story - hopefully this will raise awareness to the issues of peer pressure, bullying and minors pornography so that mothers of boys and teachers of boys can be more alert and not condoning the behaviour described here! And also to help mothers of daughters to find ways to support the girls who might find themselves in a similar situation to Roxy's.
(This was the first time that I've received a free copy of a book in exchange of my honest review.)
An important memoir written from the perspectives of mother and daughter as they battle years of Roxy’s mental health illnesses off of the back of sending inappropriate photos encouraged by inappropriate boys when she was just 13.
This book highlights in the rawest of ways how mental health illness can present is different ways, affect people differently and how it can impact on the people around you as well. What I found particularly interesting from reading this mother/daughter memoir was just quite how hard it can be to remember how much you love someone when things are feeling a bit better.
It’s definitely an eye-opening read and I liked that we got both sides of the same story. I’d recommend this book.
This book is amazing for the mental health awareness world
Raw , Honest and gut wrenching good
Roxy were coerced into sending photos to an older boy when she was 13 years old. It got out and the result was a psychotic breakdown that no one wanted. Her whole life changed and that of her mother that became her primary caregiver.
There was a time when I was scared for Roxy and her mother , while she was trying to recover. I feel this book needs to be prescribed in schools because what we learn in Life Skills , don't prepare you for situations like this. This is definitely a book I will recommend over and over!
It hit very close to home. Loved the two perspectives on the same situation. If you grew up with mental illness resulting in a complicated relationship with your mother then I highly recommend this book
Such interesting subject matter. I have been fortunate enough to hear Roxy and Gay tell their story first hand and I immediately knew I needed to read on. Loved the two stories facing off against each other - a must read for any mother or daughter.
such a unique book about a topic that really does need to be talked about more. i did think some parts were lacking a little nuance and i think a wider conversation around power dynamics and structures would help develop the issue further but i also understand that this is a memoir. the structure of this book being told between both the mother and daughter perspectives really gave a insight into the impact of mental health throughout a family (also definitely check tws before reading). such an important topic and one that i hope this book can help to open up more conversation around.
thank you to welbeck publishing for sending me a copy for review!
4/5 Rarely have I read a memoir with as much honesty as this one. Roxy writes with complete openness about her life as a child and as a pre-teen/teenager; she dissects her relationship with her changing body and the rather fast construction of her sexual self, in particular why she took naked pictures of herself to send them to boys/men. She is very candid and articulates with clarity the dichotomy between both the disgust and desire to be perceived and sexualised. She illustrates very well her psychotic break, as her writing becomes a bit blurred and completely unreliable.
However, the show stopper has to be a mother. From an artistic perspective, I find her account of events absolutely incredible; there is no tentative to hide her absolute fucked-up thoughts about the situation. Most of the time, I wanted to slap her. Gay constantly positions herself as the victim of her daughter whose only objective in life seems to be attacking her. She keeps describing four year old Roxy as a teenager, making her fully responsible of her actions and words, never taking into consideration that she was only a child, and not an enemy ("You've been an extreme teen since you were four"). Gay had either no idea of the selfishness that transpires from her version of events, or she is gifting us an artistic goldmine. I can only applaud the bravery that it must take to publish a book with such a display of self-victimisation. And while this may come across as ironic, I mean it: she offers a completely transparent view in her mind, and all the times where she was very clearly the problem. I find that remarkable.
This book is a must read for teenagers and parents alike. As someone who typically doesn’t stray from fiction, I was shocked when this book stood out to me. I work in a library and was processing new books when I stumbled across this one. It grabbed me - I wasn’t sure why. I read it in a matter of days.
While I cannot relate to the all of awful experiences that happened in this book, I too struggled tremendously to sleep as a child. Some nights, I would stay awake until I physically couldn’t keep my eyes open. The only thing that would calm me down even slightly was the thought that somewhere in the world someone else was awake. It took me years to fall asleep without being worried that for some reason I might not wake up. My fear was that I’d go to sleep and simply not wake up the next morning and I didn’t want to be alone when I was so sure I was going to pass away. My mother couldn’t understand it. My father couldn’t understand it. My friends couldn’t understand it. I thought I was weird… but your story made me feel a little less like an outcast.
It wasn’t the main point of the story by any means, but even so it was important. I am in awe of Roxy’s strength and both of Roxy and Gay’s resolve throughout this experience. It can be easy to label our parents as the bad guys without truly knowing their side of the story - I know I did. Mental health is important and I’m so glad to hear a story with a positive outcome.
If not for the fact I started my full time job a day after I started this book- I definitely would’ve finished it in one sitting, and most likely in one day.
Wow. All I have to say is simply ‘wow’. A beautiful memoir from a mother and daughter perspective, about such an incredibly real and relatable scenario.
I reached the end of part one and knew this book would end up being one that would make me emotional, I did not realise how far it would go.
The failings of the school, and other adults around Roxy stick in my head. I can’t believe they allowed something so terrible to be gotten away with, and I can’t believe the failures of the adults who refused to push her issues further.
But I also completely empathise with her mother. To read what Gay went through, makes me think to my own mother’s thoughts. The amount of miscommunication between them about how they feel towards each other is shocking, but not surprising. It’s making me realise I need to text my own mother more and have deeper convocations with her regarding problems I had as a teen. I am now desperate to get her perspective.
Incredible book. Adding to the favourites shelf.
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“I believe there is a common denominator to every person who helps us! they have experienced life at the sharp end and survived. They all give us something to take on our journey. They had been through the portal and were there to catch us when life chewed us up and spat us out. We landed in a heap on the floor and they pulled us up, one by one, and without judgement, were strong enough to hold on to us until we were able to hold on ourselves. That is what resilience means to me: it is being strong enough to help others until they are strong enough to help themselves so that they are strong enough to help others until they are strong enough to help themselves … and so it continues. You are helped up so you can help others up after you.”
Incredible. Beautifully written, heartbreaking (and heart-making), and so important for anyone raising, teaching, supervising, or even knowing, a young person. Both Roxy and Gay give a raw, unflinching account of the realities of mental illness and the social systems in place to cope (or, as the case may be, not cope) with them today.
“Wow”, all I have to say is simply wow. In genuine belief every single girl just needs to read this because it like healed an Y7 me?? Please you’ll understand if you read 😭
The ending did make me miss my mum so much BUT I’d still read it over and over. Love love love. You felt every emotion both the mum and daughter endured. Hopefully it raised awareness to the issues of peer pressure, bulllying and minors sending nudes so that mothers of boys and the education system don’t condone behaviour the way they did in this book.
I am in awe of Roxy’s strength and both of Roxy’s and Gay’s resolve throughout their experience. It’s so easy to label our parents as the bad guys without seeing their side of the story - which is what made this book refreshing seeing what the other was going through and feeling about the same situation. Mental health in children is so important and it was so nice to see a story with a positive outcome.
wow. wow. wow. wow. This is incredible. It feels so validating to read of a story similar to my own. Not all of the details are the same, but to read of a young girl struggling with mental health and having to leave school, it made me feel so seen and not alone. The dual point of view in this was very well done, and it was very interesting to see how differently two people can view a situation. Definitely check the trigger warnings for this because there are many. But I appreciated that this book did not hold back. Amazing writing, beautiful story. This will stay with me for a long time.
When a books starts with an introduction which says “To the school - you left me alone, …. Chose to protect the guilty” “To the boys - I was 13”, “To the reader - when I was just 13, my life fell apart and I felt like that was it.”, how can you not feel the power of of the pages to come. If this was fiction it would almost be unbelievable what Roxy endured and how her family dealt with it. So important, for girls to understand the reality of what can happen when they send messages and share things online, but also for boys to know that none of this is acceptable. A book that I have already recommended many times to friends with teenagers, it is powerful and heartbreaking.
A compelling and concisely-written tale from two perspectives. Whatever you think of the characters and their apportionment of blame for the narrative that unfolds, the writing is flawless. Raw, emotive, gripping. I cared about the characters but was also frustrated by them at points, which is what made this account so honest and human. As a mother of teens it felt like an important read to contrast the two viewpoints and see where conflict can sometimes occur with my own family. I am very keen not to pass judgement on the rights, wrongs and morals of those concerned. Read it and form your own judgements.
5⭐️ beautiful! And heartbreaking. It made me think about my own relationship with my mom. Thankyou for writing this, thanks for sharing your story ❤️
Fav quotes: this is what resilience means to me: it is being strong enough to help others until they are strong enough to help others and so it continues. You are helped up so you can help others afterwards. Genorosity of spirit is the greatest strength of all. Happiness is the greatest revenge. Courage is essential
In the noisy confusion of life, keep peace in your soul. With all its sham, drudgery and broken drama, it is still a beautiful world. Strive to be happy
One of the best mental health memoirs I've read to date. This book is a raw and deeply honest account by Roxy Longworth, and her mother Gay, as they share their perspectives on navigating the set of events that lead to Roxy suffering psychosis, and her recovery from it.
It's one of those books that really stays with you and truly gets your reflecting.
Themes include: Shame, consent, social media, mother-daughter relationships, psychosis, suicidal feelings, mental health crisis, mental health and education systems.
This book was honestly one of the best I’ve ever read. Harrowing, full of misunderstandings and a deep seated love- this book is a must read for anyone, regardless if you have a daughter or not. The perils of social media, unchecked youth and suffering from mental health in a world that begs to not understand- I was both shocked but also not suprised by what happened to Gay and Roxy. This book should be read in schools as well and highlights how quick we are to decide who is the victim- a 5* read for me.
This book is one of the saddest most empowering books I think I have ever read. Roxy you are such an amazing strong young lady. Every teenage girl should read this and be grateful you told your very raw and emotional journey. Gay thank you for sharing your most vulnerable honest truths. I hope and pray that I can be a fraction of the mum you have been, and that my relationship with my daughters thrive and blossom like yours has 🫶🏼
As a girl growing up in the later 2000s and early 2010s in a world of social media, peer pressure and sexual shame, it’s easy to relate to Roxy and her story. This was raw and honest, and again made me question why girls and women get the blame, when boys and men are often protected and have excuses made for them. I wish all young girls could read this - it would make them feel less alone. Thank you, both of you, for sharing your story and for being so brave. I would thoroughly recommend this.
This was brutal at times, raw, honest, validating, illuminating, terrifying and heartwarming as mother and daughter figured this shitshow out. A brilliant narration of the rollercoaster ride through an immensely difficult and tragic time. Kept waiting for a neurodivergent condition to be diagnosed though?! Hard relate to needing two things at the same time for distraction but even to just keep my senses sufficiently stimulated! (Late diagnosed ADHDer…) xxxx
Powerful, honest book. So well written. Characters are themselves and describe the complex depth of emotion in ‘ordinary’ parent child relationships and how it can go so wrong when misunderstanding happens and the powers that be ie the school don’t recognise severe bullying and abuse of a young girl by her peers.
Wow, very raw emotion. Found myself getting pretty annoyed at how Roxys mother was treating her. But in honest opinion I understand that parenting teens isn't easy. I definitely recommend if your a parent of teens, read this! It's definitely opened my eyes to be more clued in when my tween daughter wants to have a chat!
Absolutely amazing, heartbreaking but beautiful in it's honesty. Couldn't put it down and read it in under a week whilst working full time (I know for some of you that's nothing but for me that's quick!) Couldn't recommend it enough, especially if you either have or plan to have children. I know it's only February but this far it's the book of the year for me!
Really scary read and makes you really feel for the mothers and daughters navigating their journeys in today's world, with the constant validation needed by teenagers. A story that could have had a very sad ending but instead relieved she got the help she needed and mum supported her in this. Can see why it is recommended to parents and daughters.
Good insight for the teacher, school administrator, safeguarding lead, school counsellor or anyone who works with / lives with a young person. The joint telling of Roxy's story (and her family's) allowed the reader to experience something other books don't convey about family relationships. Very worthwhile reading.
Such a beautifully written book. It made me feel less alone, it put the feelings I had when I was 13/14 in words. I did sob from start to finish- partially because of how close to home this story hit but also in relief - it wasn’t just me that felt like that, there is someone else in this world that felt exactly how I did and most importantly, it wasn’t my fault.
A heart-wrenching, infuriating, informative, honest, raw, and important read. I listened to the audiobook which really reinforced the two perspectives of mother and daughter brilliantly. Kudos to Gay for voicing your parts, what strength. This book evoked in me fear, sympathy, anger, frustration, sadness, relief and utter heartbreak throughout, but I am so glad I will have this book with me now as I lead my son and daughter into adolescence and beyond. Thank you Roxy and Gay for sharing your stories. I will make sure as many people I know read your book.