To Hell and Back: How the suicide disease became my blessing

by Mo A. Alam

A few years ago my life turned upside down as I was struck by the most painful disease known to mankind. It's called trigeminal neuralgia. For a long time I suffered through pain that the mind cannot comprehend while contemplating how much more of this I can take. All the while I kept looking for pain relief and a root cause. Eventually I found something that helped with both and in the process transformed me and my life. Along the way I also realized that everyone else, not just those with my disease, will also be able to relate to my journey and perhaps be inspired by what I went through and how I came out on the other side. In response to that I set out to write this book to share my story in the hope of inspiring others. In this book I will take you on this very personal journey through chronic pain, modern medicine, dashed hopes and the depths of hell to where I am today. It is a story of discovery, introspection and resolve.

229 pages, Hardcover

Published February 17, 2022

Reviews

[Hani Eskander · Rating 5 out of 5]

A very personal, relatable story about a suicide disease called TN that was ripping the writer's life apart and how his journey to find a cure has led him to the path of Vipassana, a simple yet not so simple meditation technique that has proved to be a lot more than he was looking for yet somehow exactly what he needed his entire life. A humurous tone for a not-at-all funny situation or story, yet Mo manages to take you through his journey of pain and misery onto the other side... He manages to make you land safely. Very safely actually. I say relatable not because I suffer TN, but because this book is relatable to anyone with a suppressed past or on autopilot or have forgotten who they are, for anyone who feels they've lost the plot or lost control of their minds, a slave to their every day life or their everyday habits. This book is a pleasant and very informative read.