3.5 stars rounded-up
It took me literal ages to finish this book, true, but tbh that's more on real life messiness than anything else. ALTHOUGH this book is kinda freakishly long for romance standards and tbh, not all of it was needed, were I an editor, I think I'd go crazy with that delete button and cut like 1/5 - 1/4 of it xD
Random thoughts, good and bad:
☛ sports romances that's more on the inclusive, sex-positive, anti toxic masculinity vibe
☛ boy falls first and it's splendid
☛ MCs that feel very honest, very raw, very flawed - and it's not only about sex and romance, it's also very much about their individual journeys
☛ writing was kind of chaotic at times and the flow between chapters did not always feel seamless, it's like an action skipped, but it was like a scratched CD kind of skip
☛ LOVED the FMC, Greta was just my kind of girl, scared of commitment, scared of feelings, guarded, doing her best to come off as unfeeling and tough, but being all messy inside and making messy decisions too
☛ ALSO, some folks will for sure be put off by this, but I loved that as a FMC, Greta was "allowed" to have a good, satisfying sex life outside of MMC, and she even had sex with someone else after they first hooked up (but before they entered any sort of exclusive relationship) - here, all my toxic double standard relationship traits are in the open, for all of you to see, because if it was written the other way around, I'd be LIVID and threw a book across the room, but since it was the girl getting some, I'm just chilling, all giddy and GOOD FOR HER
(but to be fair, this double standard stems almost solely from me being tired of decades and decades of sexist narrative where female characters must be chaste and devoted only to "The One" while the guy does what he wants when they're not together, so it's to even the score; and yes, also because I will always support women's wrongs 💁♀️)
☛ really appreciated how the narrative didn't excuse Otis' toxic behaviour, but at the same time, he wasn't vilified, it was really about showing: "here's this guy, he's so not perfect and he makes mistakes and he has issues, but it doesn't make him an inherently bad person" + there was a lot of focus on both him and Greta putting in the work to become better persons
Anyway, overall this was a good read, definitely different from your standard sports romance, and mostly in a good way. There was steam, there was fun, there was angst and even some tears. I'll be on the lookout for more from Jeanine Bennedict for sure, she's definitely an interesting, intriguing new voice in the romance community.