A mesmerizing YA story
The author immediately sets us in the atmosphere of a rural school premise with boys bullying Ainsley, who then retaliates in his own evil way. The initial pacing is fantastically fast, just like in a good TV series. And then the story and its underlined lessons begin, with post-trauma thoughts from interesting characters, including the shooter’s mother, and of course, finding comfort and a spark to continue. Most of all, the characters struggle to explain this evil act to themselves, to us. Being gay or bisexual is an important element of the story, but the actual point is being compassionate and regretful as a human being. One lesson is that being gay, or belonging to a suppressed minority, does not automatically make one a better person.
The writing is also fascinating in how we read the characters’ minds and what drives them to act the way they do. Such brilliant writing expresses the direct and honest thoughts of the teenagers, making them typical of their age and round. I mostly found Noah and James complex, with the most profound characteristic and natural emotions. One blames himself and the other one seeks God for answers.
There are minor weaknesses. There is an overuse of the word ‘fuck’ and ‘fucking’ within the text. Properly inserted in many dialogues and characters’ thoughts, yet could be minimized in other parts. I guess some YA readers may object to my point here and I respectfully accept their objection. Another issue is the addition of side stories by minor characters and their relationships. I also wished there was a deeper look at the shooter’s mother, whose intriguing character caught my attention.
The shooter’s written thoughts brought in an italic font at the beginning of certain chapters throughout the book are mesmerizing, storming my gut. In fact, it started at the very beginning with the following text: ‘He was blank and fucking empty before he flipped them off and shot off his rounds.’ Through expressing his thoughts, the author brilliantly forces us to bring up deep thinking about whether we should sympathize with this suffering teenager before conducting his evil act. All these features made me giving this book a 5-star rating.