I expected a lot from this book in terms of themes of identity, return to homeland - a local teaching a diasporan about the home culture - but I was disappointed. Maybe I should’ve lowered my expectations since I’m not familiar with the Filipino comics/graphic novel scene - this was the first one I’ve gotten by a Filipino author after studying graphic novels in a university class - I’m not sure if Pinoys generally take diaspora themes in comics/graphic novels seriously... or delve deep into social themes in general.
The story in a nutshell is - well, you jump straight into the friendship of Halina, whose mom was Filipino and dad is American, and a Manileño, Crisostomo, or Cris for short. The story doesn't start with how they met - it's in media res and is a bit confusing at first. Eventually, we find out that Halina is on holiday in the Philippines and wants to discover the Filipino identity she was never exposed to in her life. However, this search takes the backseat because the story is mostly about her and Cris's complicated romance. Halina already has a boyfriend, and Cris is a torpe. He explains some Filipino things to her and takes her out to the movies, gets her a gig as a magazine cover model, and also criticizes the exploitative Filipino variety show culture, which Halina later on takes part in.
I wish her identity was explored more - I was distracted by how she was illustrated as a pretty girl, somewhat sexualized, instead of highlighting how driven she is to discover her identity as a Filipino. She's an emerging diasporan - William Safran defines the diaspora as “special kinds of immigrants because they have retained a memory of, a cultural connection with, and a general orientation toward their homelands[...] they relate in some (symbolic or practical) way to their homeland; they harbour doubts about their full acceptance by the hostland; they are committed to their survival as a distinct community; and many of them have retained a myth of return”. She is not part of a diaspora community as far as the novel says, but in the other counts she is one. The book does not explain her situation in depth - it's just a device for the romance. It was like book clickbait.
I got this book because I thought it would be a reference for me for my thesis project for my undergraduate degree - I’m creating a short graphic novel on the challenges Armenian diasporans face when they come to live in Armenia. (I chose this because I live in Armenia and I am a Filipino diasporan myself, for more than half of my life.) Thus, I was expecting Arre to have a poignant exploration of a half-Filipino’s identity and of what it’s like for a diasporan to return to a land she belongs to, ethnically, but has never visited. However, the book was more of a romance and rant against Filipino variety shows. And, although it shows our inferiority complex towards white people, it doesn't explicitly comment on it or implicitly reference it in a way that takes a strong stance.
I’m also trying to find out if Arre lived abroad or has connections to the Filipino diaspora but I’m coming up short, I don’t think he has these (but if you’re reading this and know otherwise, please leave a comment). Though, I did like how authentic the Manila settings were - the highways and tall buildings, the malls, the grimy shop signs, and even how Halina would wear shorts and slippers because of the heat, - it reminded me of my childhood and every time I’d go back to the Philippines to visit places similar to those. It gave me bittersweet nostalgia. But I wonder how Halina took it all in as a first timer. We don’t hear in the story about her adjustments from first world living to third world culture.
I also wish we heard about how much Halina knew about her Filipino culture growing up - the book is quite sparse about this and only tackles how she adjusts to Manila life on a surface level. It doesn’t go deep into Halina’s questions about her national identity. She just mentions those questions in frustration at Cris, but that’s all. Maybe it would’ve been more helpful if the book was in her point of view, like the initial draft was, which Arre includes in his notes at the end of the story. And I doubt if he really researched on that diasporan experience. The Manila settings were genuine, but I didn’t feel like I could relate to Halina enough about being a diasporan, even if that’s who she is as a character. That's why I think this book falls short and doesn't deliver on its premise.