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Back To Me
I'm not me anymore.
Bridget Owens spends her days working and her nights trying to escape the nightmare she was born into. One year after leaving her old life, she still sees ghosts, hears threats, feels nails digging into her flesh, and can't sleep unless she wants to wake up sobbing. Her memories become a graveyard of who she once was, and she nurtures it daily until she reaches her breaking point.
When Nick, a childhood friend, suggests help at the last moment, she finds it hard to sit across from a counselor who says he cares. She finds it impossible to trust anything, even herself. She's broken, and she isn't sure how to put the pieces back together. What if they never fit right anymore?
A story of redemption, calling, healing, and recovery.
Bridget Owens spends her days working and her nights trying to escape the nightmare she was born into. One year after leaving her old life, she still sees ghosts, hears threats, feels nails digging into her flesh, and can't sleep unless she wants to wake up sobbing. Her memories become a graveyard of who she once was, and she nurtures it daily until she reaches her breaking point.
When Nick, a childhood friend, suggests help at the last moment, she finds it hard to sit across from a counselor who says he cares. She finds it impossible to trust anything, even herself. She's broken, and she isn't sure how to put the pieces back together. What if they never fit right anymore?
A story of redemption, calling, healing, and recovery.
- GenresChristian Fiction
306 pages, Paperback
Published October 25, 2022
About the author
Michaela Bush
57 books125 followersMichaela Bush is an independent writer of Christian fiction. She graduated from Clarion University of Pennsylvania in 2019 with a degree in English and minor in Psychology. She enjoys spending time with her family and friends, and when she isn't writing, freelancing, or building her own editing business, she's out with her horses or playing violin. Writing has been her calling from a young age and she hopes to touch lives and inspire readers with clean, thoughtful, and impactful novels. Follow her blog at www.tangledupinwriting.com.
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August 21, 2022
Disclosure: I received this book free from the publisher/author. The opinions I have expressed are my own, and I was not required to write a review. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255.
Characters: Bridget was a sympathetic, well-developed character. Her struggle with PTSD/anxiety was well-written (and quite sad). The side characters were great too. I'm glad Bridget had good friends to support her.
Language: Clean.
Moral/theme: This novel contained themes such as friendship, trust, and recovering from abuse (Bridget's former pastor was a major creep, but this was handled tastefully and non-descriptively). I found the discussion about baptism concerning. At some points, it seemed like the characters thought baptism saved them.
Plot: The plot mostly revolved around Bridget healing from her PTSD/anxiety.
Romance: Clean. Just a few hints of romance.
Writing: Michaela Bush's writing worked great. I could picture what was going on, and everything flowed well.
Overall: Back to Me was an entertaining read that I'd recommend to those who enjoy contemporary Christian fiction.
Characters: Bridget was a sympathetic, well-developed character. Her struggle with PTSD/anxiety was well-written (and quite sad). The side characters were great too. I'm glad Bridget had good friends to support her.
Language: Clean.
Moral/theme: This novel contained themes such as friendship, trust, and recovering from abuse (Bridget's former pastor was a major creep, but this was handled tastefully and non-descriptively). I found the discussion about baptism concerning. At some points, it seemed like the characters thought baptism saved them.
Plot: The plot mostly revolved around Bridget healing from her PTSD/anxiety.
Romance: Clean. Just a few hints of romance.
Writing: Michaela Bush's writing worked great. I could picture what was going on, and everything flowed well.
Overall: Back to Me was an entertaining read that I'd recommend to those who enjoy contemporary Christian fiction.
October 30, 2022
3.5 stars
Wow, what a book, and I have to applaud the author for writing something like this. A book like this comes straight from an author's heart, and that's a powerful thing.
Characters: Poor Bridget. Her trauma and fear and PTSD were so real. To be honest, some of this book was hard to read because we were stuck in her head for so long and it was so dark. But that's reality. But Bridge was such a well-developed character, and even though I don't have her exact trials, I could relate somewhat to her. And the side characters ... they were all amazing. Nat was such a sweet friend, and of course, Nick was just perfect for Bridget. I also appreciated how he wasn't this stunning, super cool guy, but rather a normal person who just did the best he could and was there for Bridget. Also, the pastor was also a great addition, and I appreciate his calm, loving counsel to Bridget.
Setting/Plot/Writing Style: The setting was quite small-town, which was nice, and lent a real-world feel to the book. The plot was slow because it focused a lot on character development, but it didn't make the book feel super long. As for the writing style, it was excellent - this author knows how to write. I love the traces of comedy in the midst of a lot of painful stuff.
Theme: Obviously, this book deals with a lot of hard stuff - eg., pastoral abuse, intimidation, PTSD, anxiety, depression - and those things were all addressed. Horrifically, this is real life for some people, and what a beautiful thing to know that there is healing, and it's in Jesus. I loved that Bridget came back around to trusting people, especially people in leadership positions in the church. And the importance of friendship - that was lovely! However, I was really uncomfortable with the emphasis on baptism. Bridget was already saved at the beginning of the book, but there seemed to be lines that acted as if her sins were being washed away or she was being saved when she was baptized. Baptism doesn't save; it's an outward sign of what Jesus has already done in a believer's heart. I may have misread the author's intention, of course, but I would've appreciated more clarity on this.
Overall, this was a well-written contemporary, and I'll be reading more by this author in the future!
Disclosure: I received this book free from the publisher/author. The opinions I have expressed are my own, and I was not required to write a positive review. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255.
Wow, what a book, and I have to applaud the author for writing something like this. A book like this comes straight from an author's heart, and that's a powerful thing.
Characters: Poor Bridget. Her trauma and fear and PTSD were so real. To be honest, some of this book was hard to read because we were stuck in her head for so long and it was so dark. But that's reality. But Bridge was such a well-developed character, and even though I don't have her exact trials, I could relate somewhat to her. And the side characters ... they were all amazing. Nat was such a sweet friend, and of course, Nick was just perfect for Bridget. I also appreciated how he wasn't this stunning, super cool guy, but rather a normal person who just did the best he could and was there for Bridget. Also, the pastor was also a great addition, and I appreciate his calm, loving counsel to Bridget.
Setting/Plot/Writing Style: The setting was quite small-town, which was nice, and lent a real-world feel to the book. The plot was slow because it focused a lot on character development, but it didn't make the book feel super long. As for the writing style, it was excellent - this author knows how to write. I love the traces of comedy in the midst of a lot of painful stuff.
Theme: Obviously, this book deals with a lot of hard stuff - eg., pastoral abuse, intimidation, PTSD, anxiety, depression - and those things were all addressed. Horrifically, this is real life for some people, and what a beautiful thing to know that there is healing, and it's in Jesus. I loved that Bridget came back around to trusting people, especially people in leadership positions in the church. And the importance of friendship - that was lovely! However, I was really uncomfortable with the emphasis on baptism. Bridget was already saved at the beginning of the book, but there seemed to be lines that acted as if her sins were being washed away or she was being saved when she was baptized. Baptism doesn't save; it's an outward sign of what Jesus has already done in a believer's heart. I may have misread the author's intention, of course, but I would've appreciated more clarity on this.
Overall, this was a well-written contemporary, and I'll be reading more by this author in the future!
Disclosure: I received this book free from the publisher/author. The opinions I have expressed are my own, and I was not required to write a positive review. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255.
September 11, 2022
I frankly wasn’t sure what to expect of this book, but I was blown away. Although I have never experienced anything remotely similar to what Bridget went through, I do struggle with betrayal, forgiveness, and trauma, and God used this book to sucker-punch me in the face.
This book was almost exclusively focussed on Bridget’s internal journey, and the setting was barely needed or dwelt on, but the side characters were so well done. Nat was such a sweet Mama Bear (and added plenty of humour with her pregnant lady issues); Olivia was a nice, simple girl who was just there and refreshingly normal; Nick was a great friend—really awesome—and the pastor and his wife had plenty of personality, as well as Bridget’s coworkers.
The plot, as mentioned before, was character-driven and focussed solely on Bridget’s struggle to admit her problems, seek counselling, work through them, and come out on the other side. It was super well done, very realistic, and crammed full of truth and love. I honestly can’t mention all the topics handled, but forgiveness (without approving a wrongdoing); learning who God really is and forsaking unBiblical things taught by mistaken leaders; being a good friend to a struggling soul; trusting and loving after betrayal; and the time it takes for emotional & mental healing, were a few of the messages expounded on. I was convicted and encouraged, and I honestly recommend this to anyone struggling with similar issues. 5 solid stars!
Content: Pastoral abuse to an 18-year-old (“doing everything but r*ping”), plus abusive parents (physically and emotionally) is a theme of the book, but well handled, although it might be triggering to some. Minor euphemisms; also the villains use “wh*re” and “s*ut.” Main character is baptized again when she returns to God after a period of wandering to reaffirm her return. Recommended age, 18+.
A Favourite Quote: “Bridge, sometimes the place you’re used to isn’t where you belong. ... Break out of the prison you’ve made of it in your mind and enjoy life as a free woman. Jesus already broke you out, you just gotta accept that gift and move forward out of there.”
A Favourite Humorous Quote: At the historical center, I busy myself cleaning and wait to change the sign until I see Nick’s rattletrap truck heading for home after work. And it works, too, until Nick’s truck never leaves, and Cindy’s asking me in a rather exasperated tone to just change the sign—so I do, tugging my hoodie up to cover my thick mess of hair from the rain. And from recognition. But that only works in superhero movies, and definitely not when the person you’re trying to avoid is standing with his arms propped up on the sign you have to change.
*I received a complimentary copy of this book for promotional purposes. I was not required to write a positive review. These are my honest thoughts and opinions.*
This book was almost exclusively focussed on Bridget’s internal journey, and the setting was barely needed or dwelt on, but the side characters were so well done. Nat was such a sweet Mama Bear (and added plenty of humour with her pregnant lady issues); Olivia was a nice, simple girl who was just there and refreshingly normal; Nick was a great friend—really awesome—and the pastor and his wife had plenty of personality, as well as Bridget’s coworkers.
The plot, as mentioned before, was character-driven and focussed solely on Bridget’s struggle to admit her problems, seek counselling, work through them, and come out on the other side. It was super well done, very realistic, and crammed full of truth and love. I honestly can’t mention all the topics handled, but forgiveness (without approving a wrongdoing); learning who God really is and forsaking unBiblical things taught by mistaken leaders; being a good friend to a struggling soul; trusting and loving after betrayal; and the time it takes for emotional & mental healing, were a few of the messages expounded on. I was convicted and encouraged, and I honestly recommend this to anyone struggling with similar issues. 5 solid stars!
Content: Pastoral abuse to an 18-year-old (“doing everything but r*ping”), plus abusive parents (physically and emotionally) is a theme of the book, but well handled, although it might be triggering to some. Minor euphemisms; also the villains use “wh*re” and “s*ut.” Main character is baptized again when she returns to God after a period of wandering to reaffirm her return. Recommended age, 18+.
A Favourite Quote: “Bridge, sometimes the place you’re used to isn’t where you belong. ... Break out of the prison you’ve made of it in your mind and enjoy life as a free woman. Jesus already broke you out, you just gotta accept that gift and move forward out of there.”
A Favourite Humorous Quote: At the historical center, I busy myself cleaning and wait to change the sign until I see Nick’s rattletrap truck heading for home after work. And it works, too, until Nick’s truck never leaves, and Cindy’s asking me in a rather exasperated tone to just change the sign—so I do, tugging my hoodie up to cover my thick mess of hair from the rain. And from recognition. But that only works in superhero movies, and definitely not when the person you’re trying to avoid is standing with his arms propped up on the sign you have to change.
*I received a complimentary copy of this book for promotional purposes. I was not required to write a positive review. These are my honest thoughts and opinions.*
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November 21, 2022
Disclosure: I received a complimentary ecopy of the book via a contest. I was not expected to write a review and opinions expressed are my own.
Note: Based on the book’s synopsis, I wasn’t sure what to expect. Some kind of a thriller? As a reviewer, I want to mention, up front, that this book deals with recovering from sexual abuse.
Scripture Connection
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.
2 Cor. 1:3-4
Spiritual Content
In addition to experiencing physical and sexual abuse, in her childhood church, Bridget grew up under a lot of spiritual abuse. As a result, she’s held captive to fear, memories and an overwhelming sense of unworthiness: what she refers to as “It.” She’s resistant to physical contact of any kind and is hesitant to form deep friendships.
Bridget does recognize, to some extent, that what happened to her was very wrong, but also wrestles with the idea that she is somehow guilty. She continues to hear God’s voice, but is also very hesitant to place her trust in Him, based on the abuse she has received from those who claim to represent Him.
To be clear, Bridget seeks very much to distance herself from organized churches. I do not conflate this with choosing to walk away from God. I have witnessed idolatry in the Christian faith that makes the two synonymous, and, while the author does not attempt to do so, this is a very important distinction, in my opinion.
Throughout the book, the Lord uses counseling and positive relationships to bring healing to Bridget, as she recognizes that she is not to blame for the abuse and that her worth comes from her Creator.
What I Liked
I am so grateful that the Lord put it on the author’s heart to write this novel, which so clearly exemplifies the 2 Corinthians 1 verse. The novel deals with sexual abuse within the church: specifically, abuse instigated by those in positions of leadership. This is one of those topics that needs to be brought to light, and all the moreso (not less!) when those in pastoral roles are involved. I applaud Bush’s bravery and vulnerability in sharing a story that appears to be rooted, to some extent, in personal experience (see the Author’s Note at the end of the book).
I appreciated the friendships portrayed. Bridget’s friends are loving and compassionate, willing to listen but not overly pushy. It was beautiful to see how they watched out for her. On a personal level, I was glad that they didn’t demand her trust, but allowed her space, while also demonstrating their concern for her. These are definitely the sort of friends a person would want to have!
I felt that the author achieved a good balance in her treatment of pastors as potential perpetrators of sexual abuse. While she certainly did not generalize this behavior to all pastors, she also did not lessen the reality/harshness of the abuse—and the fact that it does occur. That is, she didn’t imply that the pastor in the story was the only pastor who has ever abused someone. I also appreciate that the counseling pastor in the story is not portrayed as perfect, either. We see him make a few mistakes, which he is willing to acknowledge as such.
Likewise, there is a strong emphasis on forgiveness, but NOT at the expense of truth. It is repeatedly noted that the abuse was completely wrong and completely not Bridget’s fault.
I found the writing to be particularly engaging and zoomed through the story. I’m also grateful that the author deals very gently with the subject matter, with very few specific details of the abuse. Instead, details emphasize how others responded to the abuse that Bridget experienced.
Additionally, I felt that the portrayal of “It” was well-executed. “It” becomes something of a character, throughout the novel, and the personification resonated with me, not in terms of sexual abuse, but as a potential metaphor for anxiety. This is, of course, what “It” represents in the story, but is what a point of connection, for me. And, the symbolism of the water, attached to It— flowed beautifully with the story. I think this was one of the strongest elements.
Content Notes
As mentioned above, the book is all about recovering from sexual abuse, so its subject matter is mature. However, the content is not graphic and really focuses on the mental recovery, rather than going deeply into the nature of the abuse. With the tragic reality that abuse can occur long before adulthood, I would feel comfortable recommending this book to a mature high schooler.
There is one use of the word “g—z.”
Recommendation Status
Back to Me is a meaningful, hopeful work that engages with the healing process, following sexual and spiritual abuse. As someone who has not been in the same situation as the protagonist, I’m not sure whether or not I’d recommend it to someone who is also healing. However, I’m so grateful that the author sheds light on a very hard subject, while consistently pointing to Christ, and by extension, hope. The subject matter could have lent to a much darker narrative, but I wasn’t left feeling depressed. (And, the author notes in a foreword that fiction portrays healing in a quicker way than real life).
This is a book I very much enjoyed, and I look forward to revisiting the characters in its sequel, Between Us.
Note: Based on the book’s synopsis, I wasn’t sure what to expect. Some kind of a thriller? As a reviewer, I want to mention, up front, that this book deals with recovering from sexual abuse.
Scripture Connection
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.
2 Cor. 1:3-4
Spiritual Content
In addition to experiencing physical and sexual abuse, in her childhood church, Bridget grew up under a lot of spiritual abuse. As a result, she’s held captive to fear, memories and an overwhelming sense of unworthiness: what she refers to as “It.” She’s resistant to physical contact of any kind and is hesitant to form deep friendships.
Bridget does recognize, to some extent, that what happened to her was very wrong, but also wrestles with the idea that she is somehow guilty. She continues to hear God’s voice, but is also very hesitant to place her trust in Him, based on the abuse she has received from those who claim to represent Him.
To be clear, Bridget seeks very much to distance herself from organized churches. I do not conflate this with choosing to walk away from God. I have witnessed idolatry in the Christian faith that makes the two synonymous, and, while the author does not attempt to do so, this is a very important distinction, in my opinion.
Throughout the book, the Lord uses counseling and positive relationships to bring healing to Bridget, as she recognizes that she is not to blame for the abuse and that her worth comes from her Creator.
What I Liked
I am so grateful that the Lord put it on the author’s heart to write this novel, which so clearly exemplifies the 2 Corinthians 1 verse. The novel deals with sexual abuse within the church: specifically, abuse instigated by those in positions of leadership. This is one of those topics that needs to be brought to light, and all the moreso (not less!) when those in pastoral roles are involved. I applaud Bush’s bravery and vulnerability in sharing a story that appears to be rooted, to some extent, in personal experience (see the Author’s Note at the end of the book).
I appreciated the friendships portrayed. Bridget’s friends are loving and compassionate, willing to listen but not overly pushy. It was beautiful to see how they watched out for her. On a personal level, I was glad that they didn’t demand her trust, but allowed her space, while also demonstrating their concern for her. These are definitely the sort of friends a person would want to have!
I felt that the author achieved a good balance in her treatment of pastors as potential perpetrators of sexual abuse. While she certainly did not generalize this behavior to all pastors, she also did not lessen the reality/harshness of the abuse—and the fact that it does occur. That is, she didn’t imply that the pastor in the story was the only pastor who has ever abused someone. I also appreciate that the counseling pastor in the story is not portrayed as perfect, either. We see him make a few mistakes, which he is willing to acknowledge as such.
Likewise, there is a strong emphasis on forgiveness, but NOT at the expense of truth. It is repeatedly noted that the abuse was completely wrong and completely not Bridget’s fault.
I found the writing to be particularly engaging and zoomed through the story. I’m also grateful that the author deals very gently with the subject matter, with very few specific details of the abuse. Instead, details emphasize how others responded to the abuse that Bridget experienced.
Additionally, I felt that the portrayal of “It” was well-executed. “It” becomes something of a character, throughout the novel, and the personification resonated with me, not in terms of sexual abuse, but as a potential metaphor for anxiety. This is, of course, what “It” represents in the story, but is what a point of connection, for me. And, the symbolism of the water, attached to It— flowed beautifully with the story. I think this was one of the strongest elements.
Content Notes
As mentioned above, the book is all about recovering from sexual abuse, so its subject matter is mature. However, the content is not graphic and really focuses on the mental recovery, rather than going deeply into the nature of the abuse. With the tragic reality that abuse can occur long before adulthood, I would feel comfortable recommending this book to a mature high schooler.
There is one use of the word “g—z.”
Recommendation Status
Back to Me is a meaningful, hopeful work that engages with the healing process, following sexual and spiritual abuse. As someone who has not been in the same situation as the protagonist, I’m not sure whether or not I’d recommend it to someone who is also healing. However, I’m so grateful that the author sheds light on a very hard subject, while consistently pointing to Christ, and by extension, hope. The subject matter could have lent to a much darker narrative, but I wasn’t left feeling depressed. (And, the author notes in a foreword that fiction portrays healing in a quicker way than real life).
This is a book I very much enjoyed, and I look forward to revisiting the characters in its sequel, Between Us.
July 11, 2023
Content note: This book is about the aftermath of a girl who was abused. While handled in a godly, tasteful way, this is still a hard topic that isn't easy.
This book was well written (which I can always expect from Bush) and very poignant. It deals with heavy topics and isn't easy, but it is also hope-filled. It can help give a voice to the voiceless as well as help those who haven't experienced such trauma in their lives understand a little better.
One of the only things I will note, having had a couple of friends who sadly had similar things happen in their life that some of the counseling didn't seem right to me. I realized that different counselors are going to have different approaches.
I recommend this book for those who love a well told story, those who want to understand trama a little better, and those who love seeing a voice being given to the voiceless.
This book was well written (which I can always expect from Bush) and very poignant. It deals with heavy topics and isn't easy, but it is also hope-filled. It can help give a voice to the voiceless as well as help those who haven't experienced such trauma in their lives understand a little better.
One of the only things I will note, having had a couple of friends who sadly had similar things happen in their life that some of the counseling didn't seem right to me. I realized that different counselors are going to have different approaches.
I recommend this book for those who love a well told story, those who want to understand trama a little better, and those who love seeing a voice being given to the voiceless.
September 18, 2022
This story is totally my heart. 😭🥰 I connected with Bridget on so many levels and felt so SEEN throughout this whole book as many of her struggles are mine in how depression can really twist your head and warp your perspective on people and things and even yourself as a whole. Also the point made that you can never go back to who you were before but only forward is so, so true and helped me a lot even though it is heartbreaking to say goodbye to your former self and hope and strive to be stronger and better in the future.
I honestly don’t know what else I can say about this book except THANK YOU to Michaela for writing this book, for sharing her heart on a difficult matter, for being a light to those of us who, whether we were scarred in the same way or not, were broken and beaten down but with the Lord’s help and the help of those He has placed in our lives we can overcome and heal and be whole once again. So a million thanks to Michaela for writing this book and allowing me to read an early copy. It’s one of my favorites now. 🥰
‼️Content‼️
TRIGGER WARNING: depression, anxiety, PTSD, and mentions of past pastoral and parental abuse
Language: geez; whore; slut
Violence: mentions of past abuse from parents and pastors (not detailed); disrespectful men grab a woman’s wrist and sleeve a couple times
Sexual: a kiss on the cheek; extremely mild suggestive hints (not in a good light); vague mentions of past sexual assault (no rape) from a pastor
Other: depression and anxiety; PTSD; panic attacks
***Note: I received a free copy of the book from the author. All thoughts and opinions are most assuredly my own, and I wasn’t required to write a positive review. If I was, I wouldn’t have read it. 😜***
I honestly don’t know what else I can say about this book except THANK YOU to Michaela for writing this book, for sharing her heart on a difficult matter, for being a light to those of us who, whether we were scarred in the same way or not, were broken and beaten down but with the Lord’s help and the help of those He has placed in our lives we can overcome and heal and be whole once again. So a million thanks to Michaela for writing this book and allowing me to read an early copy. It’s one of my favorites now. 🥰
‼️Content‼️
TRIGGER WARNING: depression, anxiety, PTSD, and mentions of past pastoral and parental abuse
Language: geez; whore; slut
Violence: mentions of past abuse from parents and pastors (not detailed); disrespectful men grab a woman’s wrist and sleeve a couple times
Sexual: a kiss on the cheek; extremely mild suggestive hints (not in a good light); vague mentions of past sexual assault (no rape) from a pastor
Other: depression and anxiety; PTSD; panic attacks
***Note: I received a free copy of the book from the author. All thoughts and opinions are most assuredly my own, and I wasn’t required to write a positive review. If I was, I wouldn’t have read it. 😜***
February 6, 2023
Read this book. Pleassseeeee. Read it. Do yourself a favor.
Hit way too hard. Way too relatable. Hard to put it into words, but yeah. Wow. 3
Hit way too hard. Way too relatable. Hard to put it into words, but yeah. Wow. 3
September 12, 2022
Oh my goodness. This book was so beautifully written! I love this book so much and have so many thoughts about it, so let me break it down.
-Bridget is such a relatable character for people who struggle with anxiety and PTSD. She is so well-developed! What I love about this character is how she has other things in her life, other than the ghosts of her past. She doesn't always focus on the trauma of her life, although it plays a major role. She hangs out with her friends and works at the diner; she has some semblance of a life. So we're not just getting a PTSD-ridden storyline. It's almost like I'm living through the life of Bridget Owens.
-I love how the author helped me better understand anxiety, depression, and PTSD. I've only read a handful of authors that handle/portray these conditions well. So kudos to the author for that.
-Bridget's friends are so supportive; it was beautiful to watch their different, intertwining friendships. I love Nat for "sensing" when a friend is in need. And I love Olivia and her spirit. I loved Nick from the start; he is so kind to everyone he meets and is very understanding toward Bridget about her feelings.
-I did cry during this book. Not many authors can make me cry in a book.
Overall, I LOVED this book and will definitely be rereading it. Trigger warning: the MC in this story deals with PTSD and anxiety from abusive situations. Recommended for anyone who wants to read fiction where light overcomes the dark.
I received this book free from the author. I was not required to write a review; all thoughts are my own.
-Bridget is such a relatable character for people who struggle with anxiety and PTSD. She is so well-developed! What I love about this character is how she has other things in her life, other than the ghosts of her past. She doesn't always focus on the trauma of her life, although it plays a major role. She hangs out with her friends and works at the diner; she has some semblance of a life. So we're not just getting a PTSD-ridden storyline. It's almost like I'm living through the life of Bridget Owens.
-I love how the author helped me better understand anxiety, depression, and PTSD. I've only read a handful of authors that handle/portray these conditions well. So kudos to the author for that.
-Bridget's friends are so supportive; it was beautiful to watch their different, intertwining friendships. I love Nat for "sensing" when a friend is in need. And I love Olivia and her spirit. I loved Nick from the start; he is so kind to everyone he meets and is very understanding toward Bridget about her feelings.
-I did cry during this book. Not many authors can make me cry in a book.
Overall, I LOVED this book and will definitely be rereading it. Trigger warning: the MC in this story deals with PTSD and anxiety from abusive situations. Recommended for anyone who wants to read fiction where light overcomes the dark.
I received this book free from the author. I was not required to write a review; all thoughts are my own.
August 30, 2022
Wow. I wanna say I have no words, but that wouldn't be very helpful for this review, would it? All I can say is Michaela Bush deserves a round of applause. Back To Me is a gritty, raw story of redemption and forgiveness, healing and trust. It gets dark and painful at times... but it's the sort of painful that reminds me of when Aslan was peeling off the dragon scales from Eustace Scrubb. (If you don't get that reference, DUDE WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN DOING WITH YOUR LIFE ALL THESE YEARS? Go read the Narnia books after you read the review - oh, and after reading Back To Me, of course. ;) )
In other words, it's a good painful.
(Heads up: I'm gonna write this review in a more stream-of-consciousness way, instead of the usual sections I break up things into. But as always we'll start with the characters first.)
Each character came alive for me. I loved the cast of such different people with their own backstories and conflicts who each came alongside Bridge and supported her in their own unique ways through all the darkness she was going through. It was so touching and heartwarming.
And, of course, I immediately sympathized with poor Bridget. I love how, IMMEDIATELY, we are hooked into the story with the first line "It overtakes me like the crashing waves beneath the bridge I frequent." Now that, ladies and gents, is how to pull off a first sentence that captivates, raises questions, and sets the tone for the rest of the book. Wonderfully done. (And I know I'm getting ahead of myself... but don't even get me started at that ending!!! AHHH SO BEAUTIFUL!!!! I CAN'T EVEN)
Now, I shall not lie. *sighs* I eventually got kinda fed up with how depressed Bridget was, how cheerless she felt, how nothing good ever happened. But the gradual, slow change felt so realistic and... it just needed to happen that way. And since she's plagued by C-PTSD, it would've been ridiculously unrealistic for her to quickly get over it. So overall, Michaela did a remarkable job writing Bridget, creating a sympathetic, flawed, broken character who I rooted for the whole time!
As for Nick... what's NOT to love? He's so gentle and caring and boyish. :D I love how he was kind of relentless with Bridget, trying to get her to open up and be the friend she needed, while also respecting the boundaries she put up. (And the budding romance between them at the end was absolutely heartmelting and I ship them so hard.)
I also loved Nick's relationship with his sister Nat. *grins to myself* That was sooo fun to read about. After all, good siblings relationship in books get me ev-uh-ry time.
This quote sums up each main character so well, that I have to share it: "Nat's persistence, Nick's protectiveness, Olivia's unassuming presence, and the pastor's deep-seated knowing that could unnerve the calmest person in the world." Back To Me wouldn't have been the same without any of these characters. Pastor Moore especially was a lifesaver, and was written very well. Poor Bridge really needed someone like him in her life!
The content in this book was pretty dark and heavy since Bridget's backstory dealt with a pastor's perversion, abuse, corrupt church leadership, etc. Sometimes, it was honestly rather exhausting to read because of that. But the author handled it so well, especially through how Pastor Moore counselled Bridget through the trauma. I love how it all pointed to Christ in the end, how the story illustrated how God heals the most painful of wounds, how He is our strength when all else fails.
The prose was clear, vivid, and immersive, with some beautiful metaphors (I love metaphors, hehe). And I so appreciated any bits of levity interspersed throughout to lighten things up, whether that be through something a character says or a sarcastic or humorously understated thought Bridget has. The story was slow-paced, but not in a way that you notice. It's so character-driven I just didn't even stop to think about how not a lot was happening externally. Which I am more than okay with - I LOVE those more introspective character-focused books.
Overall, I very much enjoyed reading Back To Me and am excited to read more by the author!
FAVORITE QUOTES
When I lean into the dark that likes to envelop me, the demons that say I’ll never be okay and that I should stay down and wallow…I’m not healing at all. When I push against It, when I pray against all of this and follow His nudges instead of rejecting His help, that’s when His power moves. When His light floods in.
-
I am Bridget Owens.
I am twenty-five.
I am brave, and I am strong even if strength means clinging to God when I can’t stand anymore.
I am not just a victim, a safe target. I am not just a nutcase. Not just broken, but healing. Gentle waves lick up my arm, silencing the sensations for a few moments. It invigorates me, makes me breathe more deeply. I’ve been deprived of oxygen for far too long.
-
He gazes at me like I’m a million stars on a moonless night, and it doesn’t make me squirm.
Disclosure: I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255.
In other words, it's a good painful.
(Heads up: I'm gonna write this review in a more stream-of-consciousness way, instead of the usual sections I break up things into. But as always we'll start with the characters first.)
Each character came alive for me. I loved the cast of such different people with their own backstories and conflicts who each came alongside Bridge and supported her in their own unique ways through all the darkness she was going through. It was so touching and heartwarming.
And, of course, I immediately sympathized with poor Bridget. I love how, IMMEDIATELY, we are hooked into the story with the first line "It overtakes me like the crashing waves beneath the bridge I frequent." Now that, ladies and gents, is how to pull off a first sentence that captivates, raises questions, and sets the tone for the rest of the book. Wonderfully done. (And I know I'm getting ahead of myself... but don't even get me started at that ending!!! AHHH SO BEAUTIFUL!!!! I CAN'T EVEN)
Now, I shall not lie. *sighs* I eventually got kinda fed up with how depressed Bridget was, how cheerless she felt, how nothing good ever happened. But the gradual, slow change felt so realistic and... it just needed to happen that way. And since she's plagued by C-PTSD, it would've been ridiculously unrealistic for her to quickly get over it. So overall, Michaela did a remarkable job writing Bridget, creating a sympathetic, flawed, broken character who I rooted for the whole time!
As for Nick... what's NOT to love? He's so gentle and caring and boyish. :D I love how he was kind of relentless with Bridget, trying to get her to open up and be the friend she needed, while also respecting the boundaries she put up. (And the budding romance between them at the end was absolutely heartmelting and I ship them so hard.)
I also loved Nick's relationship with his sister Nat. *grins to myself* That was sooo fun to read about. After all, good siblings relationship in books get me ev-uh-ry time.
This quote sums up each main character so well, that I have to share it: "Nat's persistence, Nick's protectiveness, Olivia's unassuming presence, and the pastor's deep-seated knowing that could unnerve the calmest person in the world." Back To Me wouldn't have been the same without any of these characters. Pastor Moore especially was a lifesaver, and was written very well. Poor Bridge really needed someone like him in her life!
The content in this book was pretty dark and heavy since Bridget's backstory dealt with a pastor's perversion, abuse, corrupt church leadership, etc. Sometimes, it was honestly rather exhausting to read because of that. But the author handled it so well, especially through how Pastor Moore counselled Bridget through the trauma. I love how it all pointed to Christ in the end, how the story illustrated how God heals the most painful of wounds, how He is our strength when all else fails.
The prose was clear, vivid, and immersive, with some beautiful metaphors (I love metaphors, hehe). And I so appreciated any bits of levity interspersed throughout to lighten things up, whether that be through something a character says or a sarcastic or humorously understated thought Bridget has. The story was slow-paced, but not in a way that you notice. It's so character-driven I just didn't even stop to think about how not a lot was happening externally. Which I am more than okay with - I LOVE those more introspective character-focused books.
Overall, I very much enjoyed reading Back To Me and am excited to read more by the author!
FAVORITE QUOTES
When I lean into the dark that likes to envelop me, the demons that say I’ll never be okay and that I should stay down and wallow…I’m not healing at all. When I push against It, when I pray against all of this and follow His nudges instead of rejecting His help, that’s when His power moves. When His light floods in.
-
I am Bridget Owens.
I am twenty-five.
I am brave, and I am strong even if strength means clinging to God when I can’t stand anymore.
I am not just a victim, a safe target. I am not just a nutcase. Not just broken, but healing. Gentle waves lick up my arm, silencing the sensations for a few moments. It invigorates me, makes me breathe more deeply. I’ve been deprived of oxygen for far too long.
-
He gazes at me like I’m a million stars on a moonless night, and it doesn’t make me squirm.
Disclosure: I was not required to write a positive review. The opinions I have expressed are my own. I am disclosing this in accordance with the Federal Trade Commission’s 16 CFR, Part 255.
February 7, 2023
2.5 stars
This book had some good things about forgiving and the fact that forgiving someone who wronged you isn’t condoning their sin. It was also good about how important it is to not hold your hurts and pain inside but find some safe friends to share with who can help you.
The story was written in first person present tense, which is not my favorite style of writing, but it seemed to work for the most part.
I’m not sure why I decided to read it when I did because I just ended up feeling more depressed and frustrated and annoyed. I was thankful that the author didn’t go into detail about the abuse she suffered, but there were still hints and mentions of things, so I wouldn’t recommend this book to anyone under 18. While there were some things I liked, there were also times I felt rather lost. I had no idea until almost the very end that the pastor was a gray-haired older man. This would have made a little difference in my thoughts on the pastor being in his office alone with Bridget with the door closed. I still wouldn’t have liked it, but it wouldn’t have felt so alarming. And why wasn’t his wife with him when he’s counseling a young woman? If this wasn’t a modern story I wouldn’t have wondered, but now days closed doors can be problematic.
There were some doctrinal things that were a bit confusing and some that I didn’t agree with. And it seemed as though Bridget getting baptized magically fixed all her fears and erased all terrible memories making her suddenly be able to sleep through the night. I don’t think that’s what the author was trying to portray, but that’s what it seemed like to me.
Will I read this book again? No.
Would I recommend it? I don’t know.
This book had some good things about forgiving and the fact that forgiving someone who wronged you isn’t condoning their sin. It was also good about how important it is to not hold your hurts and pain inside but find some safe friends to share with who can help you.
The story was written in first person present tense, which is not my favorite style of writing, but it seemed to work for the most part.
I’m not sure why I decided to read it when I did because I just ended up feeling more depressed and frustrated and annoyed. I was thankful that the author didn’t go into detail about the abuse she suffered, but there were still hints and mentions of things, so I wouldn’t recommend this book to anyone under 18. While there were some things I liked, there were also times I felt rather lost. I had no idea until almost the very end that the pastor was a gray-haired older man. This would have made a little difference in my thoughts on the pastor being in his office alone with Bridget with the door closed. I still wouldn’t have liked it, but it wouldn’t have felt so alarming. And why wasn’t his wife with him when he’s counseling a young woman? If this wasn’t a modern story I wouldn’t have wondered, but now days closed doors can be problematic.
There were some doctrinal things that were a bit confusing and some that I didn’t agree with. And it seemed as though Bridget getting baptized magically fixed all her fears and erased all terrible memories making her suddenly be able to sleep through the night. I don’t think that’s what the author was trying to portray, but that’s what it seemed like to me.
Will I read this book again? No.
Would I recommend it? I don’t know.
October 16, 2022
Michaela writes a beautiful story of healing and redemption, made possible by God's love and caring friends. I had the absolute honour of beta reading this book and I am so excited for it to be out in the world.
The plot is mainly focused on Bridget's journey, and I love that. She grows so much throughout the book, but the journey definitely isn't easy.
Her struggles with PTSD and anxiety are portrayed so well. My heart broke for her in her hardest moments. But the story doesn't only focus on this. We see her life: her job, her friendships, the sweet and subtle romance between her and Nick; everything balances out.
You can really tell that Michaela put her heart and soul into this story. I believe it is a story that needs to be out there and read and cried over, and that will help someone to heal.
The plot is mainly focused on Bridget's journey, and I love that. She grows so much throughout the book, but the journey definitely isn't easy.
Her struggles with PTSD and anxiety are portrayed so well. My heart broke for her in her hardest moments. But the story doesn't only focus on this. We see her life: her job, her friendships, the sweet and subtle romance between her and Nick; everything balances out.
You can really tell that Michaela put her heart and soul into this story. I believe it is a story that needs to be out there and read and cried over, and that will help someone to heal.
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October 25, 2022Thought I already put this on my read shelf, haha. I'll re-read it before writing a review though.
December 31, 2022
THIS BOOK WAS SO GOOD!
RTC!
RTC!
October 20, 2022
This book is short enough to read in an afternoon, but long enough to handle heavy topics with nuance.
Content advisory: Sexual abuse (recollected in vague detail), physical abuse, emotional abuse, PTSD, other mental health issues, trauma related to church
I recommend this book especially to Christians who are concerned about the prevalence of abuse in our culture, including in churches. It shows ways that those viewed as spiritual authorities have twisted scripture to manipulate people... and it also shows a sharp contrast of people who are faithful to God's calling.
It brings up great points to think about, especially on how Christians are called to reflect the character of Christ.
Also, I loved
Content advisory: Sexual abuse (recollected in vague detail), physical abuse, emotional abuse, PTSD, other mental health issues, trauma related to church
I recommend this book especially to Christians who are concerned about the prevalence of abuse in our culture, including in churches. It shows ways that those viewed as spiritual authorities have twisted scripture to manipulate people... and it also shows a sharp contrast of people who are faithful to God's calling.
It brings up great points to think about, especially on how Christians are called to reflect the character of Christ.
Also, I loved
December 1, 2024
Reread 2026
Ack and good stuff.
Original review:
When I picked this book up the first time 6 months or so ago, I took one look, and didn't think I was up for it. Who knows if I was any more up for it now...but I survived, so there.
This thing was good. I've always enjoyed Michaela Bush's writing but I don't know if I've ever read anything by her that felt as real and deep and raw as this did. Yeah. Ouch. I don't know what pain it takes to write writing that vivid and deep and raw and painful, but it was peaceful and good and wholesome and I appreciated it. I think it was written so well that I felt like I got a fair bit in the MC's head, so I guess just research the trigger warnings here and beware they're written in a vivid way. I think what I appreciated most about this book is how it didn't end on a hopeless note while also not being all suddenly rainbows and sunshine. It shed light on truth and hope. It didn't stretch it, it didn't minimize it, it didn't go drastic. Or maybe more what I appreciate most about this book is the friends, because they didn't really perfectly understand the MC like at all. But they did what friends do anyway, and they didn't need to perfectly understand everything to be good friends, they just showed that good friends exist regardless of the brokenness of the world or how crushing the world might feel, because they really do actually exist.
Ack and good stuff.
Original review:
When I picked this book up the first time 6 months or so ago, I took one look, and didn't think I was up for it. Who knows if I was any more up for it now...but I survived, so there.
This thing was good. I've always enjoyed Michaela Bush's writing but I don't know if I've ever read anything by her that felt as real and deep and raw as this did. Yeah. Ouch. I don't know what pain it takes to write writing that vivid and deep and raw and painful, but it was peaceful and good and wholesome and I appreciated it. I think it was written so well that I felt like I got a fair bit in the MC's head, so I guess just research the trigger warnings here and beware they're written in a vivid way. I think what I appreciated most about this book is how it didn't end on a hopeless note while also not being all suddenly rainbows and sunshine. It shed light on truth and hope. It didn't stretch it, it didn't minimize it, it didn't go drastic. Or maybe more what I appreciate most about this book is the friends, because they didn't really perfectly understand the MC like at all. But they did what friends do anyway, and they didn't need to perfectly understand everything to be good friends, they just showed that good friends exist regardless of the brokenness of the world or how crushing the world might feel, because they really do actually exist.
November 4, 2022
Kindle edition: Just decided to read this again after its release. I got even more out of this book in the second read.
December 6, 2025
I loved this book! It contains great descriptions of trauma and flashbacks that helped me better understand trauma and its effects on Bridget. Church hurt is such an important topic, and I felt that the author handled this difficult topic well! I also loved how the author included the importance of friendship in the novel. Additionally, Bridget experiences progression and regression, which makes her growth as a character feel more realistic.
Although I was very engaged throughout most of the novel, a handful of chapters toward the beginning felt somewhat slow and repetitive. Also, toward the end of the book, a few scenes contain Christian lingo that would be hard for someone who isn't familiar with Christianity to understand. Even though I grew up in the church, I struggled to understand parts of these scenes, too. I did like these scenes overall, though.
Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed reading Back to Me! Bridget was a dynamic, well-developed character, and I appreciated the book's focus on trauma and church hurt.
Although I was very engaged throughout most of the novel, a handful of chapters toward the beginning felt somewhat slow and repetitive. Also, toward the end of the book, a few scenes contain Christian lingo that would be hard for someone who isn't familiar with Christianity to understand. Even though I grew up in the church, I struggled to understand parts of these scenes, too. I did like these scenes overall, though.
Overall, I thoroughly enjoyed reading Back to Me! Bridget was a dynamic, well-developed character, and I appreciated the book's focus on trauma and church hurt.
February 13, 2023
Abuse and healing
Michaela Bush may have written a novel, but she boldly approaches a subject, that as Christians, we would rather ignore. She does it with sensitivity, wisdom and the sure conviction that Jesus can and does heal our brokenness.
Michaela Bush may have written a novel, but she boldly approaches a subject, that as Christians, we would rather ignore. She does it with sensitivity, wisdom and the sure conviction that Jesus can and does heal our brokenness.
September 26, 2022
4.5? Rtc, lots of thoughts and feels!
December 31, 2022
Absolutely loved this story. Full review to come
March 2, 2026
Such a great story
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