TW // mention of miscarriage
May contain spoilers
Nadia's marriage is slowly crumbling in front of her, after 10 years together, her husband Aman has changed dramatically, cutting out foods, getting into fitness and drinking revolting smoothies. Nadia tries her best to get on board, and support her husband in his new endeavours, but after years of buying her practical gifts like Roombas and ironing boards, instead of romantic gifts, she's distraught and angry to find discarded photos of him setting out a romantic dinner for another woman. Determined to scare her off, and get her marriage back on track, Nadia reaches out to reconcile with the one person she can trust, her estranged sister Zeba. Soon Nadia will find there's more than one relationship in her life that needs to be mended, and she may just find out more about herself along the way.
Nadia has dealt with a constant stream of overwhelming loss and grief. Struggling for years and going through every possible resourced to aid her in getting pregnant, but having them fail has left her utterly bereft and isolated, particularly with her husband slowly pulling away with each attempt. Add this grief to the insurmountable and crushing amount of guilt she harbours for isolating herself from her family whilst her mother was battling cancer, and it's still impossible to grasp just how deeply this pain and agony manifests. Reaching out to Zeba is her first step in healing and trying to reconcile the strong bond they once had, but these visits really take their toll on Nadia, seeing her sister with her beautiful boys, and being hit constantly with these intense feeling of remorse and guilt for knowing how much Zeba had to sacrifice to look after their mother whilst she was just trying to get through each day, with the constant blows of not being able to conceive. In spite of all she's faced Nadia has a lot of determination and strength than I would have in this situation than I would, particularly towards her husband. I loved how realistically flawed and chaotic she is, particularly with the intense sweating whilst doing yoga, I am 100% that girl that goes in, and comes out looking like I've been swimming, how y'all go in there and just stay super dry and fresh I will never understand. Her determination and ability to continue trying her best in the face of failure and pain was truly inspirational and empowering, she's inherently stubborn and refuses to give up. Nadia's growth was really empowering, seeing her come to terms with how life pans out, embracing it and accepting it and herself as enough, in spite of her constant fears of ending up drowning in the face of love, her finally accepting that she cannot control everything, and what happens will happen was truly so powerful to read.
Zeba is an absolute QUEEN, when I tell you she is the most resilient, tenacious, and fiercely loyal woman you could ever hope to have on your side, I am not over-exaggerating. You cannot read this book and not fall completely in love with her , despite being the more timid sister, I love her forthrightness, and her small passive jibes in protection of Nadia. Zeba has such a beautiful and tender soul, with a strength that is truly indomitable, she's a powerhouse, and a force to be reckoned with and I absolutely adore her with my whole heart.
I really adored this story, Zara writes so beautifully, that you quickly become enamoured with Nadia and her tenacious spirit. The writing was so smooth and compelling, I felt the warmth, love, strength and loyalty that Nadia and Zeba emanated shine through the pages and it was just such an incredible story, that gripped hold of me and wouldn't let go. I couldn't put it down, it had me laughing out loud, and just bathes you in warmth. It was so wholesome seeing Nadia and Zeba's relationship stitching back together.
'The Retreat' is a story that explores some really poignant and eminent topics including the various forms of grief, and difficulties with conceiving. At it's heart though, it's a story that's so relatable and profound, with a beautiful message about finding yourself when all seems lost and broken, forgiveness, and the unshakeable love and bonds of sisterhood. Packed full of humour, heart-warming and affirming moments, this is a warm hug in book form, with two incredible and powerful women. It's definitely a story that'll keep you captivated and fully entranced with a beautifully heart-felt and moving HEA.