I received this novel for free and in advance of release in exchange for an honest review.
First, let me say, if you do not REGULARLY read dark romance, this is not the book for you, go ahead and walk away.
Now, if you DO regularly read dark romance, then this review is for you. So do I.
What this book does have going for it is an insanely long list of triggers, but in my own PERSONAL opinion, more is not always better. I would much rather an author pick 3 or 4 triggers and really hone and develop them and make me ache from reading them, rather than just stack them one on top of the other. And for me, this book was the latter, not the former. There were MANY triggers, but none of them were crafted particularly well and none of them hit me the way they should have.
Jolie is an 18-year-old girl who witnesses the murder of her father and is then picked up by traffickers and sold to a family as a prize for their son who suffers from dissociative identity disorder. (I wish more research had been done here. This aspect did not ring true to me). Their goal is to use Jolie to help them control their son’s more volatile personality. Woodrow has 3 distinct alternate personalities: Woody, a 7-year-old boy; Woodrow, our 17-year-old male protagonist; and Hell, Woodrow’s bad guy alter who steps in to cause violent disruptive protection and ultimately massive harm. The Heaven last name and the Hell alter ego were a little too on the nose IMO.
This is a long novel, but in the whole thing, Jolie never really tries to escape, not on her own anyway. There are times when she should be absolutely terrified, especially in the beginning, and she isn’t. Times when it makes sense for her to be completely broken, but then all of a sudden, she has some spirit left. Instances that should end her or her life or her fight entirely, but don’t, and not because she has any particular survival instinct going on. Her naivety was infuriating to me, and incredibly unbelievable, especially at the start when she shows up quite literally naked and gift-wrapped. Her fight and pushback come near the end of her struggle instead of at the beginning, which makes very little sense. Logically, that should be the opposite.
And I don’t want to spoil the end for you, in case you are down for just the list itself, but for me, it was disappointing. I can hear my college writing teacher having an aneurism for the tactic that was used to give this a HEA. It uses a device that makes me feel that I wasted a LOT of time to get to where I got. I felt cheated. This book didn’t deserve a happy ending. It deserved tragedy. It required it. And honestly, I feel like the ending was put there to avoid backlash from readers. There is nothing about the content of this book that says these people logically end up whole and happy. It makes no sense. This book had the potential to wreck its readers, and it should have. It should have been soul-crushingly epic, but for me, it felt forced and flat. If this book had ended 40-50 pages sooner, without the happy ending and the big “twist”, I personally feel that it would have been a much stronger story and it absolutely would have gotten a higher rating from me.
This book has graphic trigger piled on top of graphic trigger, crushed in like clown cars to the point where I didn’t feel any kind of way about it other than bored. The characters were not well-rounded enough. They were just vessels for trauma really. Something would happen (like an a$$ault) and I would be left thinking that I should feel tightness in my chest, or want to cry, but I didn’t. I never really became invested in their plight or personalities. And because there were so many triggers to choose from, some even only mentioned in passing in a single sentence or two, none of them had the impact they should have. Instead of focusing on the horror, I started counting them. There is such a thing as too much and in my personal opinion, I could feel the author trying to horrify or upset me. Trying to be the darkest thing I have ever read. And the very fact that I could feel that effort, means it wasn’t. Do some scenes hit well and belong in context? Of course, they do, but they get out shadowed by the number that don’t.
In terms of the actual writing, the opening is a little clunky, likely because the heading is a name NOT a place and drops you in a situation that makes it a jog to catch up. You do catch up though fairly quickly so don’t let that be a deterrent. The first half of the book is overly descriptive and the language doesn’t always fit. At times it is very flowery or literary in a novel that is not that. So, it occasionally felt like a thesaurus was used just to have another way of saying something, even when that word was probably not the best choice in the given situation. And then later, some of the colloquialisms didn’t make sense. For instance, British slang comes out of left field at one point and then goes away again.
I personally needed more character development. Both Jolie and Woodrow read very flat to me. Neither of them seems to have any real development over the course of the tale, and yet this story is supposed to span 10 YEARS. Their personalities oftentimes don’t work well together or in the context of the real world either.
As a reader and lover of pitch-black romance, I wanted to like this, I am disappointed that I didn't. It needs more work. It needs a strong editor. It’s got great potential as an idea, but the focus should be on the story, and not on the triggers themselves.
Ultimately, it comes down to what is most important for you personally as a reader. Was this book for me? Ultimately, no. I would be lying if I said the book wasn’t dark. It is. It is absolutely dark. But I needed more than darkness. For me, I needed a stronger plot and I needed a stronger ending. I haven’t been angry with an ending in a long time, but this one really irked me.