Forget-Me-Not, by R. Cooper
Being(s) in Love, Book 10
★★★★★
551 Pages
3rd person, single character POV
Genre: MM, LGBT, Urban Fantasy, Shifter, Police, Fated Mates
Triggers: homophobia, being-phobia, corrupt police, conspiracy, off-page poly/sharing, discrimination, mild violence, guns
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I re-read the entire series before reading this, and I'm glad I did, because that made Ray and Cal more fresh in my mind, before delving back into their relationship. Sadly, my paperback began falling apart around the halfway mark, with pages falling out like petals. I was gutted, but this is a nearly 600-page book.
It was great revisiting Ray and Cal, but with a new dynamic. I wasn't sure how I'd like it, and I delayed reading it for a few days until I could get myself in the right mindset. I'm *really* glad it started immediately with Ray waking from an attack, with amnesia, unable to recognise Cal or their mate bond, and having been attacked by magic. It meant that there was so much ease believing Ray couldn't recognise or remember his previous life. I'm not sure that would have been the same, if we'd seen how their relationship had been since our last visit with them.
It was sad to see Ray struggling, but also interesting to see Cal trying so hard to be the strong mate, while realising he's been forgotten. Cal is so protective of Ray, taking his time helping Ray remember what matters, without forcing their relationship on him when he's not ready. Anything related to Cal is gone from Ray's mind, and that's hard for Cal, which really hit the feels hard. Yet, at the same time, it was interesting to see how their relationship has evolved since their last story together. Things are great, but there are also secrets being kept, things swept under the rug, never talked about or confronted. To see how much Cal has sacrificed, and how much Ray has let slip by, was sad but realistic. Relationships change and evolve over time.
The police, even the ones Ray thought of as friends, have proven untrustworthy, and have been slagging off Cal and their mate bond. Ray is just realising how many problems existed in their relationship, that they didn't address and that they need to resolve. It also covers how Ray started to see an escalation in crime – something that could severely affect his “pack” of the town, and his mate – that worried him enough to set precautions, including telling Cal what to do, hiding a USB of “proof”, and amping up security at home.
I utterly LOVE how gentle and careful and hopeful Cal is around Ray. Their dynamics are changing, but in the best and healthier way. They both see new things in their relationship that they've been blind to, or avoiding, until now. I also loved that, despite the amnesia, no one kept secrets from Ray or ignored it as if it didn't matter. Instead, they carefully reintegrate him and go slow, to leave room for old memories to resurface, without needlessly leaving him confused and in the dark about important events.
It was nice to see Cal's parents reappearing. That Lis kept her promise to Clematis, that she and Calvin got back together, and that they were there for Cal when he desperately needed them. It was also great to see Teo reappearing. I loved that they weren't alone, but even if Carmelo wasn't around anymore, they had family around them, probably of Carmelo's lineage and ability. I also loved that they knew exactly how to handle Ray, in his werewolf mode, without any fear or hesitation, and were still taking care of their community the way Carmelo had. I would LOVE to see if Carmelo was still around or not, and maybe see another story involving the same kind of Beast as he was. Maybe one of the teens? Maybe in Albert's story? (which I'm dying for!)
I was a bit surprised by the inclusion of a poly scene, but it was off-page, and kind of made sense, emotionally, within the dynamics of how it came about. I think I prefer it that way, because although it happened, it wasn't like it was romantic or permanent, which was easier to cope with.
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In the end, while I loved the story, I can't say much about the plot because it would feel like anything important I have to say would be a spoiler. But, I was a bit disappointed that the HUGE conspiracy wasn't really resolved at the end. It felt more like something had been started that would finish in a later book. However, that's quite common in this series, with some plots linking between multiple books, such as how Zarrin's attack is still being discussed in future books. I'll be interested to know if *this* plot is also resolved later, in another novel, and who gets to be part of that. I also REALLY want to read Albert's story.
Saying that, I loved the change of dynamics within Ray and Cal's relationship. I love that you get hints of how their relationship evolved since their last story, and that Ray and Cal both work harder to make sure things are different, the second time around.
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Favourite Quote
“Fairies don't like sadness." Ray inhaled deeply to give himself a moment to revel in sugar. He did not know Callalily. He would bleed for him. He would die for him. He would sleep at Callalily's feet if Callalily allowed it. He felt like he was dreaming except for the pounding in his head and the roil in his stomach. "Fairies hate ugly things. Everyone knows that. If you leave me, don't stay around. You won't like me. You won't like what I will become.”