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Ending Forever
Axel Rivers can’t get his head above water. Throughout his life, he’s worn many hats — orphan, musician, veteran, husband, father—but a year ago, a horrific event he now calls The Bad Day tore down everything he’d built. Grief-stricken, unemployed, and drowning in debt, Axel needs cash, however he can find it. Enter Kindred Eternal Solutions. Founded by the world’s six wealthiest trillionaires and billionaires, Kindred promises to create eternal life through mastering the science of human resurrection. With the technology still being developed, Kindred seeks paid volunteers to undergo tests that will kill and resurrect their body—again and again—in exchange for a check. Axel signs up willingly, but when he undergoes the procedure—and comes back, over and over—what will he find on the other side of death?
- GenresScience Fiction
178 pages, Paperback
Published April 29, 2022
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Nicholas Conley
16 books55 followersNicholas Conley is an award-winning Jewish American author, journalist, playwright, and coffee vigilante. His books, such as Knight in Paper Armor, Pale Highway, Clay Tongue: A Novelette, and Intraterrestrial, merge science fiction narratives with hard-hitting examinations of social issues. Originally from California, he now lives in New Hampshire.
www.NicholasConley.com.
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July 3, 2022
Love the dedication in front of the book: “Dedicated to everyone I have ever lost. Every sunset precedes a sunrise, and what the dead leave behind shapes the future. May the memory of you-each of you- be a blessing.”
Axel Rivers has had a lot of bad things happening in his life, mostly, what he refers to as ‘That bad day’. Down on his luck and funds, and carrying deep sorrow in his heart, he decides to sign up for the Kindred Eternal Solutions experimental program, run by the wealthiest of the elite. Those who’ve suffered hardship and in need of money are the targeted to sign up and receive a big check for taking part in this trial program, along with some of the curious who want to learn what does happen on the other side. Besides the big paycheck for signing up for this series of deaths and resurrections, Axel hopes to be able to see that infamous light so talked about on the other side as well as the privilege to meet up with his dearly missed lost loved ones.
These volunteers are put to a death sleep in a chamber and monitored through their temporary death state by doctors and scientists, and are promised to be brought back to life within hours, and must complete the death/resurrection process daily, six times in a row. The program is researching how to keep people alive through eternity, mainly for the purpose of the rich elite who run the program, trying to discover a way to cheat death for themselves.
At first Axel is very apprehensive but the thought of his overwhelming debt is what keeps him in the program. After his first session he feels disillusioned – he saw no light, no lost loved ones, and felt doom from meeting ‘the stranger’. He felt more depressed after the session, feeling as though he had a visitation from a dead family member later that day after first session. He thought it felt so real, not as though it were a spirit. His second session, he felt a breakthrough, met some of his lost loved ones, and saw the ‘Deathweavers’, – the ones in the next realm who make decision about when those on earth’s time is up.
Axel meets Brooklyn, a fellow partipant, single mother who has suffered many hardships in her own life, and they become friends and go out for drinks after day two of the experiment. On day three, Axel is late for that third session and is booted from the program. He decides to wait for Brooklyn to finish, when he discovers, she never showed up to that session. Axel learns from her sister that a tragedy has taken place and Brooklyn’s daughter Gwen is in intensive care dying from it. Axel’s new awakenings through the first two sessions drive him to approach the scientist at her home where he begs her to put him under one more time because he is sure he can bargain with the ‘Deathweavers’ and plead for Gwen’s life, and for her own scientific knowledge purposes, Dr. Carpenter agrees.
In Axel’s last time returning to death and resurrection, he learns a lot about himself and conquers boundaries that he learned he’d created around himself. He manages to get the attention of the Deathweavers and like everything else in life, they would only agree to let Gwen live if Axel gave up something precious of himself.
This book is about the fragility of life, overcoming one’s own tribulations and grief and gaining the selflessness to help another human being. Despite the paranormal-ish basis of the story, the strength of love and compassion shine through people when they are forced to surrender their own hurt and wounds to help the worse off.
The last few chapters were so captivating and beautiful, it was difficult to read without tears.
Axel Rivers has had a lot of bad things happening in his life, mostly, what he refers to as ‘That bad day’. Down on his luck and funds, and carrying deep sorrow in his heart, he decides to sign up for the Kindred Eternal Solutions experimental program, run by the wealthiest of the elite. Those who’ve suffered hardship and in need of money are the targeted to sign up and receive a big check for taking part in this trial program, along with some of the curious who want to learn what does happen on the other side. Besides the big paycheck for signing up for this series of deaths and resurrections, Axel hopes to be able to see that infamous light so talked about on the other side as well as the privilege to meet up with his dearly missed lost loved ones.
These volunteers are put to a death sleep in a chamber and monitored through their temporary death state by doctors and scientists, and are promised to be brought back to life within hours, and must complete the death/resurrection process daily, six times in a row. The program is researching how to keep people alive through eternity, mainly for the purpose of the rich elite who run the program, trying to discover a way to cheat death for themselves.
At first Axel is very apprehensive but the thought of his overwhelming debt is what keeps him in the program. After his first session he feels disillusioned – he saw no light, no lost loved ones, and felt doom from meeting ‘the stranger’. He felt more depressed after the session, feeling as though he had a visitation from a dead family member later that day after first session. He thought it felt so real, not as though it were a spirit. His second session, he felt a breakthrough, met some of his lost loved ones, and saw the ‘Deathweavers’, – the ones in the next realm who make decision about when those on earth’s time is up.
Axel meets Brooklyn, a fellow partipant, single mother who has suffered many hardships in her own life, and they become friends and go out for drinks after day two of the experiment. On day three, Axel is late for that third session and is booted from the program. He decides to wait for Brooklyn to finish, when he discovers, she never showed up to that session. Axel learns from her sister that a tragedy has taken place and Brooklyn’s daughter Gwen is in intensive care dying from it. Axel’s new awakenings through the first two sessions drive him to approach the scientist at her home where he begs her to put him under one more time because he is sure he can bargain with the ‘Deathweavers’ and plead for Gwen’s life, and for her own scientific knowledge purposes, Dr. Carpenter agrees.
In Axel’s last time returning to death and resurrection, he learns a lot about himself and conquers boundaries that he learned he’d created around himself. He manages to get the attention of the Deathweavers and like everything else in life, they would only agree to let Gwen live if Axel gave up something precious of himself.
This book is about the fragility of life, overcoming one’s own tribulations and grief and gaining the selflessness to help another human being. Despite the paranormal-ish basis of the story, the strength of love and compassion shine through people when they are forced to surrender their own hurt and wounds to help the worse off.
The last few chapters were so captivating and beautiful, it was difficult to read without tears.
May 16, 2022
I write this review as a member of Rosie’s Book Review Team (author, check here if you are interested in getting your book reviewed) and thank her and the author for this opportunity.
This is the third book by Nicholas Conley I read and reviewed, and having loved both, Pale Highway and Knight in Paper Armor, I was eager to check his newest work. His books are never run-of-the-mill or formulaic, and they don’t fit easily into a genre, and that is the case here as well. They also make readers question their beliefs, thoughts, and assumptions, in this particular book, about life and, especially, about death. Not an easy topic, and not one many books discuss openly, and that makes this unique book, all the more extraordinary.
The description included with the book provides a good idea of the plot without revealing too much, although this short book —which probably falls into the category of science-fiction for lack of a more suitable one— is not a mystery or an adventure story, and a detailed description wouldn’t provide true spoilers. But there is something to be said for discovering its wonders without being prewarned in advance. For that reason, I’ll only add that grief (as mentioned) and guilt are behind the main character’s feelings and many of his actions. He’s been pushed (by life and by his own decisions) to desperation, to the point of no return —or so he thinks— and the experiment he signs himself for offers him money, evidently, but perhaps something else, something or someone that will bring him peace.
Apart from grief, guilt, loneliness, depression, trauma, the nature of memory, family life, becoming an adult orphan, losing a child... if those topics were not enough to make it a must-read, the novel also comments on human greed, arrogance, and the immaturity and silliness of some of those mega-rich people who come up with self-aggrandising vanity projects, sometimes hiding behind the gloss of some future venture with commercial possibilities, or under the guise of research useful to humanity at large. I don’t think I need to name any names, here, as I’m sure a few will easily come to mind. And, of course, this is a book that explores our relationship with death and our reluctance to look closely at it.
Axel is the central character, and Conley presents him without any embellishments. This is a broken man, and although the story is narrated, mostly, in the third person; we only see things from his point of view. The main story takes place over a few days (the ending, though, reveals the after-effects of what happens during Axel’s deaths and is later), but there are fragments in italics that clearly represent the memories of the character, and there are also brief interjections and thoughts we are allowed to see that come directly from his head. It is impossible not to sympathise with the character, because of all he has gone through, from early childhood onward; and the more we learn about him, the more we get to empathise with him as well. There are other characters, and although we don’t spend so much time with them, it is an evidence of the author’s talent that they all feel real and complex nonetheless. I loved Brooklyn, whom Axel meets at the experiment, and who is truly his kindred spirit. Her little girl, Gwendolyn, is wonderful as well, and that makes their part of the story even more poignant. Malik, Axel’s friend and always supportive, keeps him grounded and real. Dr Kendra Carpenter is a more ambiguous character. She is on the wrong side of things, and her attitude is less than exemplary, but her reasons make her less dislikeable and more nuanced than a true baddie would be. We don’t meet the people financing the whole scheme, but that is not necessary to the story, as this is not about them. There are some important characters whom we only meet through Axel’s memories, both from his recent and from his more distant past, but they also become real to us.
The author writes beautifully. I have said already that this book probably falls within the science-fiction category, but not into the hard sci-fi subgenre, as it does not provide any details about the science behind the experiment. The novel is speculative in the sense of exploring and coming up with fascinating ideas and insights into what the other life (death) might look like, and the Deathscape and its inhabitants (for lack of a better word) are described in gorgeous (and sometimes scary) detail, with a pretty limitless imagination. Although the “real life” events taking place in the “now” of the story are narrated in third person past, what happens while he is dead is narrated in the present (third-person again, apart from the odd moment when we hear his thoughts directly), but the changes in tense felt organic and in keeping with the nature of the story. Of course, one needs to suspend disbelief when reading such a book, but that is to be expected. I was completely invested in the story, and there was nothing that suddenly jolted me and brought me back to reality. Apart from the wonderful description, and the memories that are so vivid they pull at one’s heartstrings, the feelings of the main character are so recognisable, understandable, and so compellingly rendered, that one can’t help but share the way he is feeling, and that applies to both, when he is feeling devastated and when he is feeling hopeful.
Those who want to get a better idea of what the writing is like, remember that you can always check an online sample.
I struggled to decide what to share, but I decided to include the introduction and a couple of fragments:
Dedicated to everyone I have ever lost. Every sunset precedes a sunrise, and what the dead leave behind shapes the future. May the memory of you —each of you—be a blessing.
Here, Axel is talking to his father, as a young child. His father has lifted him on his shoulders and is showing him the lake.
...when Ax said that they were on the edge of the world, Papa said, “no, son. That out there, on the horizon.” He pointed. “It’s the beginning of the world. And it’s all yours to explore. To dream. Remember that.”
“On the other hand, big machines don’t run unless all the little pieces work, right? And infinity... we might be small, Axel, but y’know, maybe we’re still totally vital to the whole thing running. Every decision we make influences every other part of it, I think. Even after we die. Might as well make the most of it while we’re still alive, I say.” (This is Brooklyn talking to Axel).
What a beautiful ending! Conley has a way of making readers experience the highs and lows of existence, of asking them to look into the abyss and to face subjects that make them uncomfortable, like death, but he always rescues them and offers them hope and a positive ending. And this story is no different. Do take the time to read the author’s acknowledgements at the end of the book. They offer an insight into the book’s creation and the author’s own world.
So, would I recommend it? Well, what do you think? Of course! I have mentioned the themes, and although the story is ultimately one of redemption and hope, there are some emotionally difficult and extremely sad moments as well, and it might be a tough read for people who are facing or have recently had to deal with some of the topics mentioned. I’d leave this to the judgement of the individual, but I’d say that most people will finish the book with a smile on their faces and feeling more hopeful and confident about the future.
Another great book by Conley, one of a group of authors I am happy to read and recommend without any hesitation.
This is the third book by Nicholas Conley I read and reviewed, and having loved both, Pale Highway and Knight in Paper Armor, I was eager to check his newest work. His books are never run-of-the-mill or formulaic, and they don’t fit easily into a genre, and that is the case here as well. They also make readers question their beliefs, thoughts, and assumptions, in this particular book, about life and, especially, about death. Not an easy topic, and not one many books discuss openly, and that makes this unique book, all the more extraordinary.
The description included with the book provides a good idea of the plot without revealing too much, although this short book —which probably falls into the category of science-fiction for lack of a more suitable one— is not a mystery or an adventure story, and a detailed description wouldn’t provide true spoilers. But there is something to be said for discovering its wonders without being prewarned in advance. For that reason, I’ll only add that grief (as mentioned) and guilt are behind the main character’s feelings and many of his actions. He’s been pushed (by life and by his own decisions) to desperation, to the point of no return —or so he thinks— and the experiment he signs himself for offers him money, evidently, but perhaps something else, something or someone that will bring him peace.
Apart from grief, guilt, loneliness, depression, trauma, the nature of memory, family life, becoming an adult orphan, losing a child... if those topics were not enough to make it a must-read, the novel also comments on human greed, arrogance, and the immaturity and silliness of some of those mega-rich people who come up with self-aggrandising vanity projects, sometimes hiding behind the gloss of some future venture with commercial possibilities, or under the guise of research useful to humanity at large. I don’t think I need to name any names, here, as I’m sure a few will easily come to mind. And, of course, this is a book that explores our relationship with death and our reluctance to look closely at it.
Axel is the central character, and Conley presents him without any embellishments. This is a broken man, and although the story is narrated, mostly, in the third person; we only see things from his point of view. The main story takes place over a few days (the ending, though, reveals the after-effects of what happens during Axel’s deaths and is later), but there are fragments in italics that clearly represent the memories of the character, and there are also brief interjections and thoughts we are allowed to see that come directly from his head. It is impossible not to sympathise with the character, because of all he has gone through, from early childhood onward; and the more we learn about him, the more we get to empathise with him as well. There are other characters, and although we don’t spend so much time with them, it is an evidence of the author’s talent that they all feel real and complex nonetheless. I loved Brooklyn, whom Axel meets at the experiment, and who is truly his kindred spirit. Her little girl, Gwendolyn, is wonderful as well, and that makes their part of the story even more poignant. Malik, Axel’s friend and always supportive, keeps him grounded and real. Dr Kendra Carpenter is a more ambiguous character. She is on the wrong side of things, and her attitude is less than exemplary, but her reasons make her less dislikeable and more nuanced than a true baddie would be. We don’t meet the people financing the whole scheme, but that is not necessary to the story, as this is not about them. There are some important characters whom we only meet through Axel’s memories, both from his recent and from his more distant past, but they also become real to us.
The author writes beautifully. I have said already that this book probably falls within the science-fiction category, but not into the hard sci-fi subgenre, as it does not provide any details about the science behind the experiment. The novel is speculative in the sense of exploring and coming up with fascinating ideas and insights into what the other life (death) might look like, and the Deathscape and its inhabitants (for lack of a better word) are described in gorgeous (and sometimes scary) detail, with a pretty limitless imagination. Although the “real life” events taking place in the “now” of the story are narrated in third person past, what happens while he is dead is narrated in the present (third-person again, apart from the odd moment when we hear his thoughts directly), but the changes in tense felt organic and in keeping with the nature of the story. Of course, one needs to suspend disbelief when reading such a book, but that is to be expected. I was completely invested in the story, and there was nothing that suddenly jolted me and brought me back to reality. Apart from the wonderful description, and the memories that are so vivid they pull at one’s heartstrings, the feelings of the main character are so recognisable, understandable, and so compellingly rendered, that one can’t help but share the way he is feeling, and that applies to both, when he is feeling devastated and when he is feeling hopeful.
Those who want to get a better idea of what the writing is like, remember that you can always check an online sample.
I struggled to decide what to share, but I decided to include the introduction and a couple of fragments:
Dedicated to everyone I have ever lost. Every sunset precedes a sunrise, and what the dead leave behind shapes the future. May the memory of you —each of you—be a blessing.
Here, Axel is talking to his father, as a young child. His father has lifted him on his shoulders and is showing him the lake.
...when Ax said that they were on the edge of the world, Papa said, “no, son. That out there, on the horizon.” He pointed. “It’s the beginning of the world. And it’s all yours to explore. To dream. Remember that.”
“On the other hand, big machines don’t run unless all the little pieces work, right? And infinity... we might be small, Axel, but y’know, maybe we’re still totally vital to the whole thing running. Every decision we make influences every other part of it, I think. Even after we die. Might as well make the most of it while we’re still alive, I say.” (This is Brooklyn talking to Axel).
What a beautiful ending! Conley has a way of making readers experience the highs and lows of existence, of asking them to look into the abyss and to face subjects that make them uncomfortable, like death, but he always rescues them and offers them hope and a positive ending. And this story is no different. Do take the time to read the author’s acknowledgements at the end of the book. They offer an insight into the book’s creation and the author’s own world.
So, would I recommend it? Well, what do you think? Of course! I have mentioned the themes, and although the story is ultimately one of redemption and hope, there are some emotionally difficult and extremely sad moments as well, and it might be a tough read for people who are facing or have recently had to deal with some of the topics mentioned. I’d leave this to the judgement of the individual, but I’d say that most people will finish the book with a smile on their faces and feeling more hopeful and confident about the future.
Another great book by Conley, one of a group of authors I am happy to read and recommend without any hesitation.
July 30, 2022
If there was an indication as to when this story takes places, I missed it, but it feels like it is in the not-too-distant future. The only indications I spotted to think it was in the future are that the richest people in the world are a bit richer than today and medical science has advanced a touch beyond where we are now. While some of the things that happen stretch the imagination a bit, I was to suspend disbelief fairly easily. Specifically, I’m talking about the ability for someone to die and be resurrected, not through the actions of some deity, but through the use of technology.
Of course the story gets you thinking, which I see as the point of this kind of tale. One rabbit hole my brain went down was pondering the repercussions of this technology being bankrolled by the world’s most atrociously rich people and whether they were going to use what they found to help mankind in a generic sense, or to make their lives longer and their bankrolls larger with no changes for the average person. The protagonist, Axel Rivers, and his life also sent my thoughts off on a tangent or two. Have you got someone who has passed away that you’d do almost anything to see again? Or have you got anyone still in this world who you’d be willing to do almost anything for? Do you have regrets in life that you wish you could somehow makeup for in some way? All of these questions are the kind of issues Axel struggles with in this book. If you’re like me you’ll wonder if you’d react the same as he did when addressing these questions. It all made for an entertaining and (hopefully obvious by this point) thought-provoking read.
**Originally written for "Books and Pals" book blog. May have received a free review copy. **
Of course the story gets you thinking, which I see as the point of this kind of tale. One rabbit hole my brain went down was pondering the repercussions of this technology being bankrolled by the world’s most atrociously rich people and whether they were going to use what they found to help mankind in a generic sense, or to make their lives longer and their bankrolls larger with no changes for the average person. The protagonist, Axel Rivers, and his life also sent my thoughts off on a tangent or two. Have you got someone who has passed away that you’d do almost anything to see again? Or have you got anyone still in this world who you’d be willing to do almost anything for? Do you have regrets in life that you wish you could somehow makeup for in some way? All of these questions are the kind of issues Axel struggles with in this book. If you’re like me you’ll wonder if you’d react the same as he did when addressing these questions. It all made for an entertaining and (hopefully obvious by this point) thought-provoking read.
**Originally written for "Books and Pals" book blog. May have received a free review copy. **
August 10, 2022
~About
Axel Rivers has signed a contract, allowing a rich organization known as Kindred to kill, and subsequently resuscitate him, in exchange for monetary gain. Axel’s first death is an experience like no other, where there is nothing, save for the stranger. Afterward, he feels so alone.
When he re-visits the deathscape (a surreal location he travels to in death), he encounters the memory of his dearly-departed wife, who warns him to save her. A few days later, it becomes clear who her refers to, and Axel endeavours to somehow re-enter the deathscape, to convince the deathweavers to spare a young girl’s life.
~Characters
*Axel
Axel Rivers is an unemployed welder who was hit hard by a recession. Having lost his wife and son, he finds himself alone and in dire need of money. He hopes that by volunteering to die in Kindred’s programme, that he might get to see his departed loved ones once more.
Axel grew up in foster care, feeling unloved and deeply sensitive to the world around him. A former soldier, he has a deeply protective nature and is driven by his need for answers in life, particularly regarding the stranger, who he encounters in the deathscape.
At the start of the story, Axel appeared to have given up on life, going through the motions, so to speak. However, by the end we see him emerge stronger, having forgiven himself for the deaths of his loved ones, able to use his new life experiences to look ahead, to a better future.
*Brooklyn
Brooklyn is first introduced as a somewhat sarcastic young woman with anisocoria (an unusual eye condition), who quickly befriends Axel when they meet in the Kindred programme. We later learn that she is a single mother, and an excellent one at that. In addition, she and Axel have an instant rapport, with Brooklyn calling him Battle-ax. Brooklyn’s fun sense of humour comes through on the page and made her intensely likable from the start.
However, Brooklyn’s life has not been all plain-sailing and laughs. She has experienced much pain and trauma, just as Axel has, a common feature which binds their lives together when they meet. Over time, I could see just how strong of a woman Brooklyn had grown to become, knowing everything she had overcome so far in her life.
*The Stranger
The Stranger is a repetitive presence witnessed in the deathscape. It first appears to Axel as a deformed version of his deceased son, with a mangled hand and an eerie mask of his child’s face. It blames Axel for his wife and son’s deaths, feeding into his own sense of guilt over what happened to them. It is later revealed what the stranger actually is. However, I will not mention this here for risk of spoiling the surprise for the rest of you.
~Positive Aspects
While reading Ending Forever, I identified numerous positive elements, which I have detailed below.
-The third-person point of view narration worked well to highlight both Axel’s waking life and his deathscape experiences. I particularly liked how Axel’s deathscape experiences are told in third-person present-tense, while his real-life experiences are told from third-person past-tense. I thought this was a nice way of distinguishing the two; Axel’s waking life and dreaming death.
-The deathscape was an interesting concept, like a twisted, surreal dream. Furthermore, the idea of deathweavers (beings who control the fates of mortals) was very mysterious and intriguing.
-The characters were explored at a deep emotional level, allowing us to see their fears and past trauma, goals, and all the burdens they carried with them. As a result, this allowed me to easily empathise with the character’s individual plights.
~Memorable Quotes
As usual, while reading Ending Forever, I kept my eyes peeled for insightful quotes. With that in mind, the following six stood out to me the most.
1) ‘Energy cannot be created or destroyed – we never truly cease to exist – our energy must just get redistributed.’
2) ‘Everybody’s complicated, I guess. No matter how hard we try to be simple.’
3) ‘We’re such a small part of something so huge. Infinite.’
4) ‘Connections run deep sometimes. Even if they’re new.’
5) ‘The Everything is complex and multi-faceted – Every action, every moment, and every decision factors into an infinite number of other ones.’
6) ‘Sadness is part of what makes you alive. Sadness is human. And don’t be afraid to find some happiness, either, because that’s part of being human, too. It’s all interconnected. It’s all part of you.’
~Overview
Overall, Ending Forever was a suspenseful novel that explored the concept of life after death. It was told in a deeply emotional style, focusing on feelings of loss and the fears that stem from such losses.
Themes included life and death, what might happen after we die, memories, and grief / loss.
My Rating: 5 stars.
Recommended to: lovers of unique stories, which delve deep into the concept of life after death.
June 13, 2022
I read a review of this book and I was sufficiently interested to pick it up myself. I was not disappointed. This plotline is unique and interesting; a whole new take on corporate exploitation, this time in the temporary state between death and moving on into a permanent afterlife.
Axel Rivers drew a poor set of cards when his parents were killed when he was a youngster. He spent his life going from pillar to post without having a proper family or home until he met his deceased wife, Shoshana, and they had a son, creating their own small family. During his younger years, his friend and fellow orphan, Malik, is the closest relationship Alex has to family, but since the death of his wife and son, Malik's friendship has not been enough to stop Axel from sinking into a state of chronic depression.
Axel is alone, without a job or money, and with an enormous burden of guilt due to the deaths of his family. He decides to volunteer as a test subject for a programme run by some of the wealthiest individuals in the world. A programme that requires the volunteers to die by artificial means and be resuscitated every day for a week. Axel is fearful of dying, but he wants the money and also has his own agenda so he agrees to participate on the terms stated.
It quickly becomes apparent that all is not as it should be in this twilight zone between dying and moving on to the afterlife and Axel finds himself embroiled in one of the most ambitious planned corporate takeovers ever. With the help of a new friend, Brooklyn and her young daughter, Axel finds new meaning in life and the will to overcome obstacles in his attempted path to resolve this corrupt and power-driven situation.
The story is told in the present with flashbacks to Axel's earlier life before and after his parents died, as well as the time with his wife and child. I thought this worked well and I found it easy to follow.
A thoroughly enjoyable science fiction novel with a page turning storyline.
Axel Rivers drew a poor set of cards when his parents were killed when he was a youngster. He spent his life going from pillar to post without having a proper family or home until he met his deceased wife, Shoshana, and they had a son, creating their own small family. During his younger years, his friend and fellow orphan, Malik, is the closest relationship Alex has to family, but since the death of his wife and son, Malik's friendship has not been enough to stop Axel from sinking into a state of chronic depression.
Axel is alone, without a job or money, and with an enormous burden of guilt due to the deaths of his family. He decides to volunteer as a test subject for a programme run by some of the wealthiest individuals in the world. A programme that requires the volunteers to die by artificial means and be resuscitated every day for a week. Axel is fearful of dying, but he wants the money and also has his own agenda so he agrees to participate on the terms stated.
It quickly becomes apparent that all is not as it should be in this twilight zone between dying and moving on to the afterlife and Axel finds himself embroiled in one of the most ambitious planned corporate takeovers ever. With the help of a new friend, Brooklyn and her young daughter, Axel finds new meaning in life and the will to overcome obstacles in his attempted path to resolve this corrupt and power-driven situation.
The story is told in the present with flashbacks to Axel's earlier life before and after his parents died, as well as the time with his wife and child. I thought this worked well and I found it easy to follow.
A thoroughly enjoyable science fiction novel with a page turning storyline.
April 29, 2024
Hello, fellow Science Fiction and Suspense readers; I have an excellent read for you today.
Nicholas Conley's "Ending Forever" is a compelling science fiction novel that delves into the emotional journey of Axel Rivers, a man facing profound loss and the allure of eternal life through a company's resurrection program. Conley's narrative skillfully intertwines Axel's personal struggles with broader themes of grief and the search for meaning, making it a resonant read for those who enjoy emotionally charged sci-fi stories. The book has garnered positive feedback for its relatable protagonist and the exploration of societal issues. While some readers desire more depth, the novel's poignant reflection on life's value and the human condition shines through. For fans of thought-provoking science fiction, "Ending Forever" offers a blend of speculative intrigue and deep human connection. It's a story that stays with you, prompting introspection on life's fragility and our pursuit of purpose. Find it on platforms like Goodreads and Amazon for more reviews and information.
This book deeply resonated with me. A few years ago, I lost my oldest son, and I experienced some of the emotional ups and downs that Axel goes through. Fortunately, I have a personal physician who helped me navigate my distress. Over time, I've learned how to cope with my loss, and now I'm living a fulfilling life dedicated to helping others when I can.
• ASIN: B09XW82CXT
• Publisher: Red Adept Publishing LLC
• Publication Date: 5/10/2022
• File Size: 5282 KB
• Print Length: 188 pages
• Genre: Suspense - Science Fiction - Suspense Thrillers
Nicholas Conley's "Ending Forever" is a compelling science fiction novel that delves into the emotional journey of Axel Rivers, a man facing profound loss and the allure of eternal life through a company's resurrection program. Conley's narrative skillfully intertwines Axel's personal struggles with broader themes of grief and the search for meaning, making it a resonant read for those who enjoy emotionally charged sci-fi stories. The book has garnered positive feedback for its relatable protagonist and the exploration of societal issues. While some readers desire more depth, the novel's poignant reflection on life's value and the human condition shines through. For fans of thought-provoking science fiction, "Ending Forever" offers a blend of speculative intrigue and deep human connection. It's a story that stays with you, prompting introspection on life's fragility and our pursuit of purpose. Find it on platforms like Goodreads and Amazon for more reviews and information.
This book deeply resonated with me. A few years ago, I lost my oldest son, and I experienced some of the emotional ups and downs that Axel goes through. Fortunately, I have a personal physician who helped me navigate my distress. Over time, I've learned how to cope with my loss, and now I'm living a fulfilling life dedicated to helping others when I can.
• ASIN: B09XW82CXT
• Publisher: Red Adept Publishing LLC
• Publication Date: 5/10/2022
• File Size: 5282 KB
• Print Length: 188 pages
• Genre: Suspense - Science Fiction - Suspense Thrillers
June 24, 2022
Ending Forever is yet another enjoyable read by Nicolas Conley. Axel, the main character, is stuck in grief. He can’t go back to his old life, and he is unable to move forward, as the guilt over the death of his loved ones hold him back. A chance to take part in an experimental trial that puts Alex to death and then resurrects him seems like the perfect solution; he might get the chance to make amends. What Alex did not count on was how life has a way of bringing strangers into our lives when we need them the most. This moving and enlightening story reaches deep into the unknown.
I was not sure If was going to like the storyline, as I thought it might be a bit disturbing. The idea of someone dying and being brought back to life again sounds horrific. How wrong I was! Ending Forever is a beautiful, emotional, and almost therapeutic read. You can feel the emotional connections between the characters. Nicolas’s writing makes it easy to visualise the story which comes from a place of grief and acceptance and conjures up vivid pictures for the reader.
I would most definitely recommend Ending Forever
I receive ARC in exchange for an honest review.
I was not sure If was going to like the storyline, as I thought it might be a bit disturbing. The idea of someone dying and being brought back to life again sounds horrific. How wrong I was! Ending Forever is a beautiful, emotional, and almost therapeutic read. You can feel the emotional connections between the characters. Nicolas’s writing makes it easy to visualise the story which comes from a place of grief and acceptance and conjures up vivid pictures for the reader.
I would most definitely recommend Ending Forever
I receive ARC in exchange for an honest review.
June 22, 2023
I enjoyed just almost everything about this book; from cover to dedication and, of course, the scifi plot.
Ending Forever is about overcoming ones own battles and grief, selflessness, and this fragile thing we call life.
I really enjoyed how the author displayed life after death, as well as the afterlife itself. It's rather deep and introspective.
The whole Deathscape Conely created was fantastic.
Please read my full review at bookswithachance.com
Triggers: Death of loved ones (child, spouse, parents), mentions of suicide, car accident, suicide contemplation.
Thank you to the author and @rrbooktours for the opportunity to read this book!
I rated Ending Forever four point five stars, rounded up to five.
“And don’t worry if you get sad sometimes , while you’re there on Earth,” she says. “Because sadness is part of what makes you alive. Sadness is human."
Song: Looks Red, Tastes Blue by Mayday Parade
Ending Forever is about overcoming ones own battles and grief, selflessness, and this fragile thing we call life.
I really enjoyed how the author displayed life after death, as well as the afterlife itself. It's rather deep and introspective.
The whole Deathscape Conely created was fantastic.
Please read my full review at bookswithachance.com
Triggers: Death of loved ones (child, spouse, parents), mentions of suicide, car accident, suicide contemplation.
Thank you to the author and @rrbooktours for the opportunity to read this book!
I rated Ending Forever four point five stars, rounded up to five.
“And don’t worry if you get sad sometimes , while you’re there on Earth,” she says. “Because sadness is part of what makes you alive. Sadness is human."
Song: Looks Red, Tastes Blue by Mayday Parade
April 5, 2024
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
Ending Forever by Nicholas Conley is a speculative science fiction novel. This story is about a clinical study that has been financed by some of the wealthiest persons to study what happens during and after death. There wasn't any specific time when it was happening but felt that it was not in such a far-away future.
When Axel took part in the program he did it because there was nothing to lose. He already lost everything... The system is simple - be on time, die, get back, share experience - repeat. We all know things are not always as simple as they should be.
I loved to follow Axel's life and loss. It broke my heart! And just when you think things can't get any worth... there is more to hit him! Life becomes complicated and it's not anymore just about him.
I believe this book deserves more attention! It's just so good! I loved every step of this book!
Ending Forever by Nicholas Conley is a speculative science fiction novel. This story is about a clinical study that has been financed by some of the wealthiest persons to study what happens during and after death. There wasn't any specific time when it was happening but felt that it was not in such a far-away future.
When Axel took part in the program he did it because there was nothing to lose. He already lost everything... The system is simple - be on time, die, get back, share experience - repeat. We all know things are not always as simple as they should be.
I loved to follow Axel's life and loss. It broke my heart! And just when you think things can't get any worth... there is more to hit him! Life becomes complicated and it's not anymore just about him.
I believe this book deserves more attention! It's just so good! I loved every step of this book!
June 3, 2023
I want to start off by saying that I received complimentary ebook. In return for my honest thoughts and review.
I know that this ebook took me longer to read. Not because I was bored or didn’t like this book. I just took my time. I have to say after reading this book definitely will be adding more books from this author. This book is amazing and a book I would have never thought I would like. But I loved how different this book is. Sometimes books make you think. Like what if this really existed. I really felt for the main character Axel losing so many people he loved.
I highly recommend this short book.
About Book
Axel joins a study called Kindred for people wanting to live forever. But he isn’t completely honest when joining study. Axel faces side effects during this study.
Thank you the author and RR booktours for allowing me to read such amazing book.
I know that this ebook took me longer to read. Not because I was bored or didn’t like this book. I just took my time. I have to say after reading this book definitely will be adding more books from this author. This book is amazing and a book I would have never thought I would like. But I loved how different this book is. Sometimes books make you think. Like what if this really existed. I really felt for the main character Axel losing so many people he loved.
I highly recommend this short book.
About Book
Axel joins a study called Kindred for people wanting to live forever. But he isn’t completely honest when joining study. Axel faces side effects during this study.
Thank you the author and RR booktours for allowing me to read such amazing book.
June 20, 2022
Title: Ending Forever
Author: Nicholas Conley
Genre: Science Fiction
Rating: 4 out of 5
I can’t imagine agreeing to being killed and brought back…especially ten times. Sounds horrific, even without all the things Axel encounters. This was an intriguing read. Vivid descriptions and an intriguing premise, which are the norm for Conley’s writing. I enjoyed how Axel grew and changed throughout the story, finding his own strength and the will to go on. If you’re looking for something fresh to read, give this a try.
(Galley courtesy of the author in exchange for an honest review.)
Author: Nicholas Conley
Genre: Science Fiction
Rating: 4 out of 5
I can’t imagine agreeing to being killed and brought back…especially ten times. Sounds horrific, even without all the things Axel encounters. This was an intriguing read. Vivid descriptions and an intriguing premise, which are the norm for Conley’s writing. I enjoyed how Axel grew and changed throughout the story, finding his own strength and the will to go on. If you’re looking for something fresh to read, give this a try.
(Galley courtesy of the author in exchange for an honest review.)
August 16, 2022
WOW. I don't even know where to start with this book, I enjoyed it so much. The imagery is amazing, and the way Conley weaves in Axel's backstory to his present life is masterful. The way Kindred is run, and their facilities really bring to life the way corporate America feels if you aren't part of the elite, and highlights the class disparities between the rich ruling class and those below them. Axel feels so real. You can feel his emotions sliding off the page and surrounding you. His experiences on the other side of life, while lying there dead, are unique and fascinating. I loved this take on what happens when you die, and will probably be reading this again in the future!
August 21, 2022
Click here for the full Ending Forever review. Thanks for the free copy of the book, all opinions are my own.
The book had a lot of potential, with an interesting premise and exciting (and scary) questions about the afterlife and what comes next. And while I could feel all the emotions that come with grief, pain, and loss, there were several things that prevented me from immersing myself in the narrative. Like the sudden shifts from 3rd person to 1st person POV and the changes in the tense of the narrative - from past to present to past to present, etc.
The book had a lot of potential, with an interesting premise and exciting (and scary) questions about the afterlife and what comes next. And while I could feel all the emotions that come with grief, pain, and loss, there were several things that prevented me from immersing myself in the narrative. Like the sudden shifts from 3rd person to 1st person POV and the changes in the tense of the narrative - from past to present to past to present, etc.
October 27, 2023
I've reviewed Nicholas Conley here before (Knight in Paper Armor) and enjoyed his work, but Ending Forever is whole different fish. Not only did I lose significant sleep for this book, I'm still thinking about it and chewing on the questions it poses days after finishing. I regret letting it sit in my to-be-read pile for so long, because it's a brilliant piece of science fiction for my tastes.
Full review here:
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May 18, 2025
what if you could die, come back and remember
It’s a sweet book , about death, love, guilt and memories. A corporation trying to learn about the afterlife for profit. And it’s not religious! I found it a very satisfying read altogether
It’s a sweet book , about death, love, guilt and memories. A corporation trying to learn about the afterlife for profit. And it’s not religious! I found it a very satisfying read altogether
June 26, 2025
I enjoyed the storyline. Deep, it met me where I’m at right now. Makes you appreciate the fragility of our lives.
June 23, 2022
Alex Rivers desperately needs money. Life hasn't been kind to him. He lost his parents at a young age and was bounced from foster home to foster home. Later he joined the military and played in a band. When he met his wife, it looked like things were finally starting to look up for them, but tragedy struck. And now he is broke and full of grief.
So he signs up for the experiment founded by the Kindred Eternal Solution. The company was founded by the richest people on Earth to find immortality. The volunteers, like Alex, will die and be later resurrected, time and time again.
Alex hopes to see his family on the other side, but nothing in his life is ever that easy.
The story is full of suspense, and twists and turns, I never knew what was coming next. The grief and sadness of the main character are almost palpable. The characters created are very vivid, real, with flaws and mistakes, but somehow very likeable. The best part about it is the writing. It's so good, it just pulls you into the story from the start. It's quite unique as is the story.
received from the author, all thoughts and opinions are my own
So he signs up for the experiment founded by the Kindred Eternal Solution. The company was founded by the richest people on Earth to find immortality. The volunteers, like Alex, will die and be later resurrected, time and time again.
Alex hopes to see his family on the other side, but nothing in his life is ever that easy.
The story is full of suspense, and twists and turns, I never knew what was coming next. The grief and sadness of the main character are almost palpable. The characters created are very vivid, real, with flaws and mistakes, but somehow very likeable. The best part about it is the writing. It's so good, it just pulls you into the story from the start. It's quite unique as is the story.
received from the author, all thoughts and opinions are my own
July 4, 2023
Full disclosure - I was provided an advanced reader’s copy of this book by the author or their representative but have voluntarily provided a review. All opinions are my own
Contract to Die
Axel Rivers has always drawn the short end of the stick. After having lost his parents as a youth the memories of them are fuzzy at best. Growing up orphaned with no real grounding Axel’s only constant companion is his best friend Malik. It was not until he met Shoshana that he felt as if he had finally found a grounding force. Building a life with Shoshana and their son became his entire world, until the bad day took it all away. Now, he is lost in a deep depression of suicidal thoughts and lethargic actions. When he is offered an opportunity to join the clinical trials of Kindred Eternal Solutions he figures he has nothing to lose. The trial, only to be referred to as a “sleep study” to those on the outside will involve Axel being killed and resurrected several times over the course of a week. Once the trial is complete, Axel will stand to be a wealthy man if he lives that long. As the trial commences, Alex experiences the world beyond death, but is this the afterlife as it currently exists or a construct that has been created by Kindred as a sort of eternal playground for the rich and powerful. Axel doesn’t care if it offers him the chance to see his wife and child again. As he wanders through the Deathscape nightly, he learns more and more about the dynamics of this strange place and about those who have created it. But with the revelations comes consequences and after Axel gets kicked out of the program he goes through extreme measures to return to the Deathscape to help those dear to him gain peace even if it means his own demise.
Ending Forever is a speculative science fiction novel by author Nicholas Conley. The story is short but does not lack depth or substance. The premise revolves around a clinical study that has been bankrolled by some of the wealthiest persons on the planet to study what happens after (and during death). What if death was not the end and the afterlife was just a layover of sorts to the next adventure? Would people be able to make a home in the Deathscape or could it be utilized for other purposes? If you could “die” to enter this world to visit your loved ones again, would you? What can go wrong with taking a seeming natural part in the life cycle and capitalizing on it for financial gain?
With Ending Forever, Conley has penned a story what will have the reader thinking. I finished this book months ago and I still find myself thinking about certain scenarios. This is a well thought out story that deserves another readthrough as I feel that I missed so many little nuances in the first pass. If you like Sci Fi that is hauntingly thought provoking and mildly disturbing. Ending Forever is one that will stick with you long after the final page has been turned.
Contract to Die
Axel Rivers has always drawn the short end of the stick. After having lost his parents as a youth the memories of them are fuzzy at best. Growing up orphaned with no real grounding Axel’s only constant companion is his best friend Malik. It was not until he met Shoshana that he felt as if he had finally found a grounding force. Building a life with Shoshana and their son became his entire world, until the bad day took it all away. Now, he is lost in a deep depression of suicidal thoughts and lethargic actions. When he is offered an opportunity to join the clinical trials of Kindred Eternal Solutions he figures he has nothing to lose. The trial, only to be referred to as a “sleep study” to those on the outside will involve Axel being killed and resurrected several times over the course of a week. Once the trial is complete, Axel will stand to be a wealthy man if he lives that long. As the trial commences, Alex experiences the world beyond death, but is this the afterlife as it currently exists or a construct that has been created by Kindred as a sort of eternal playground for the rich and powerful. Axel doesn’t care if it offers him the chance to see his wife and child again. As he wanders through the Deathscape nightly, he learns more and more about the dynamics of this strange place and about those who have created it. But with the revelations comes consequences and after Axel gets kicked out of the program he goes through extreme measures to return to the Deathscape to help those dear to him gain peace even if it means his own demise.
Ending Forever is a speculative science fiction novel by author Nicholas Conley. The story is short but does not lack depth or substance. The premise revolves around a clinical study that has been bankrolled by some of the wealthiest persons on the planet to study what happens after (and during death). What if death was not the end and the afterlife was just a layover of sorts to the next adventure? Would people be able to make a home in the Deathscape or could it be utilized for other purposes? If you could “die” to enter this world to visit your loved ones again, would you? What can go wrong with taking a seeming natural part in the life cycle and capitalizing on it for financial gain?
With Ending Forever, Conley has penned a story what will have the reader thinking. I finished this book months ago and I still find myself thinking about certain scenarios. This is a well thought out story that deserves another readthrough as I feel that I missed so many little nuances in the first pass. If you like Sci Fi that is hauntingly thought provoking and mildly disturbing. Ending Forever is one that will stick with you long after the final page has been turned.
December 4, 2022
4.5
Book source ~ ARC. My review is voluntary and honest.
Axel Rivers is drowning. Metaphorically, in grief and debt. He needs money so he turns to a crazy solution. Kindred Eternal Solutions needs volunteers to be killed and resurrected again and again and they’re willing to pay. Axel signs on the dotted line. However, after his first death and resurrection he’s not so sure he wants to keep doing it. Because there’s something very weird about the afterlife. And it follows him back to the land of the living.
Wow. Axel’s grief is so overwhelming it even drowns the reader. Then he signs up to be killed and brought back just to get out of debt. Yikes. That’s crazy! But understandable. I love the characters (especially Axel) and the writing. I can’t even begin to describe the weirdness that is the afterlife. You just have to read it to find out. Strap yourself in then open the book. This is one wild ass ride!
Book source ~ ARC. My review is voluntary and honest.
Axel Rivers is drowning. Metaphorically, in grief and debt. He needs money so he turns to a crazy solution. Kindred Eternal Solutions needs volunteers to be killed and resurrected again and again and they’re willing to pay. Axel signs on the dotted line. However, after his first death and resurrection he’s not so sure he wants to keep doing it. Because there’s something very weird about the afterlife. And it follows him back to the land of the living.
Wow. Axel’s grief is so overwhelming it even drowns the reader. Then he signs up to be killed and brought back just to get out of debt. Yikes. That’s crazy! But understandable. I love the characters (especially Axel) and the writing. I can’t even begin to describe the weirdness that is the afterlife. You just have to read it to find out. Strap yourself in then open the book. This is one wild ass ride!
October 7, 2023
An inspirational and entertaining quick read that touches on the insatiable quest for immortality by so many individuals while others seek only the peace and oblivion of death. A study of contrasts with good and evil, joy and despair, and yet in the end the message that shone through was "hope" and the possibilities that await around every corner if we can only persevere... It is a message I needed to find again very badly and I am deeply grateful to Mr. Conley for reminding me. God bless you....
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