For the first time, secret and confidential British diplomatic dispatches have surfaced that provide a revealing view of events in the subcontinent from 1947 to 1969. These documents, obtained from the British Archives, give a very extensive and fascinating documentary picture of these events from 1958 to 1969. The material includes reports of meetings with Heads of State and Government, important ministers, high dignitaries, political leaders, and critical analysis of the state of mind of the people in power and their political opponents.
During his service, he got to know two Prime Ministers Benazir and Nawaz Sharif and six Presidents - Ayub Khan, Yahya Khan, Z. A. Bhutto, Zia ul Haq, Ghulam Ishaq Khan and Farooq Leghari in varying measure. They all displayed vast differences in personality, character and style. He believes that each one of them has directly or indirectly contributed to our generation's anguish and sense of betrayal, our loss of confidence in our rulers, in our country, in our future, in our selves and the souring of the dream of Pakistan. In his words, "Every now and then, I put pen to paper and unburden myself of the things that weigh upon my spirit: The sense of being in a blind alley, the perception of our collective guilt, the knowledge of all that has been irrevocably lost."