Raw, refreshing, and heartbreakingly honest, Taylor pulls back the curtain and invites us into her journey through anxiety and anorexia, of learning to find God most present in her pain. Grace-laced, moving, and deeply relatable, this part memoir, part self-help book invites you to lay bare your deepest wounds before God and allow Him to work the kind of healing that comes only through walking our deepest valleys.
Through vivid word pictures, Taylor painted heartbreaking scenes I could relate to all too well. I so appreciated the depth of vulnerability she shared on each page—I know that couldn’t have been easy. So many times, I found my heart crying, Yes, exactly. Someone else understands. It was healing to feel seen in the invisible mental struggles that hold so many of us captive.
And yet, she doesn’t end there. With grace and love, she takes familiar biblical stories and reveals timeless truths through a new lens. She brings to light the vicious lies and falsehoods we’ve tricked ourselves into believing and gently guides us to the cross, to the feet of Jesus.
I appreciated that she didn’t just hand out a laundry list of solutions to try. Or worse, a quick fix to mental illness. I appreciated that she mentioned toward the end that she still struggles with anxiety. But while some struggles may last a lifetime (Jesus never promised this life would be easy), they are not meaningless because they are the instruments Jesus uses to draw us ever closer to Himself.
One of my favorite chapters was the one on learning to coexist with uncertainty, of allowing joy to exist alongside sorrow, pain alongside God’s goodness. One theme that God has impressed so regularly on my heart during my own valley seasons is that He is redeeming all our pain for our good, and Taylor brought out this theme so beautifully.
Perfect for any Christian young person battling anxiety, depression, or self-loathing, this book will lift you up, give words to your deepest wounds, and point you to Jesus, the ultimate Giver of life and hope.
This world is chaotic, messy, broken. But peace can still be ours.
Because God is our peace. And that’s an anchor we can never lose.
Favorite quotes:
“Jesus didn’t sacrifice his life for us to merely skim the surface of abundance. He longs for us to plunge into the depths of rich, vibrant, and genuine lives.”
“Freedom is found not so much in those glorious, emotional moments but in these consistent forward steps during daily life.”
“In his love and mercy, he allows us to experience things we can’t control or conquer. He wants us to surrender to self-reliance and self-dependency.”
“He knew the Israelites had to reach the end of themselves, releasing their perceived sense of control completely, to encounter the person who could free them internally. The new thing he was doing among them could only be encountered on the wilderness route.”
“Deep waters and desert spaces are not the absence of God’s love and mercy, but sacred spaces of intimacy, connection, healing, and communication. God becomes personal in these scary places.”
“At its core, the spiritual journey is one of God continually welcoming us home, not only to a truer version of him but also to a truer version of ourselves.”
“To trust that God is truly good is to hold his self-proclaimed goodness in one hand and the reality of my pain in the other, and for there to be no competition between the two.”
*I received a complimentary ARC of this book from NetGalley in exchange for a review. All thoughts and opinions are my own.