“Perhaps some detours aren’t detours at all. Perhaps they are actually the path.”
– Katherine Wolf
Does anyone’s life ever turn out exactly how they planned? That certainly hasn’t been my story, or the story of anyone I know. I grew up in a small Northern Indiana town that seemed to produce three kinds of professionals: farmers, teachers, and factory workers. All noble and necessary professions, but I wanted nothing more than to escape the confines of small town living as soon as I possibly could. I had big dreams for myself that little town could not contain. Of course, none of those big dreams ever really panned out exactly how I planned, but they did manage to take me far away from small town life. Perhaps that is why I enjoyed this novel so much. The protagonist’s path, being similar to my own, felt relatable.
Long Gone, Come Home is a stunning coming-of-age novel by debut author Monica Chenault-Kilgore that recounts the life transitions of Birdie Walker nee Jennings as she chases her dreams and seeks to find her place in this world.
At 17 years old, Birdie is living at home with her over-bearing mother in rural Mt. Sterling, Kentucky and working at Wright’s Factory tying tobacco leaves. One rare evening when Birdie is allowed to go to a concert with her sister, she meets a handsome, smooth-talking, older man named Jimmy Walker. She is captivated by his charm and the fact that he isn’t from Mt. Sterling and quickly falls in love. When Birdie becomes pregnant, Jimmy wants to marry her, but Birdie’s mother does not find Jimmy charming at all and warns Birdie that he will be nothing but trouble and bring her heartache. Of course, at 17, Birdie only sees the good in Jimmy and thinks her mother is just being overprotective. She quickly finds out her mother may have been right when Jimmy disappears for several weeks without warning and leaves her to wonder about his whereabouts while she cares for their young daughter alone. When Jimmy does finally show up, he is able to sweet talk her into forgiving him and Birdie finds herself pregnant with a second child. Not long after the birth of her son, Jimmy disappears again, and this time he doesn’t return. Birdie is forced to move back in with her mother, and is mixed with emotion, longing for Jimmy’s return and hating him for leaving her in the first place.
When Birdie is witness to a murder, her mother insists that she leave town, without her children, to keep from away from any potential run-ins with the law. Birdie is reluctant to leave but chooses to use her departure as an opportunity to look for Jimmy in some of the cities he talked about visiting frequently. Birdie’s travels take her to Chicago and Cincinnati, where she socializes in jazz clubs and meets an entirely new cast of characters that both help and hinder her in locating Jimmy. She is finally reconnected with Jimmy in Cincinnati, but when he leaves for “one last job” in Chicago he never returns. Birdie is left to figure out the rest of her life on her own with two small children, in a big, unfamiliar city, while facing racism that often threatens her very existence.
Long Gone, Come Home is a tale of chasing dreams, dreams deferred, and coming to terms with the reality of one’s life choices. It is also the tale of enduring racism, resilience in the face of seemingly insurmountable adversity, and the importance of family (blood and found).
I truly enjoyed this novel and wanted to give it a 5-Star rating, but I felt that Birdie’s falling prey to the same kind of smooth-talking men that take advantage of and abuse her left me feeling she didn’t really grow and develop that much from the beginning of the story to the end. While she was tenacious at times in obtaining her goals, she seemed to retain her naivety and be easily taken advantage of, which prevented me from completely believing her to be the strong, independent, female protagonist she is intended. Otherwise, this novel is a very engaging and educational read.
If you have ever dreamed of a different life for yourself or found yourself making choices you never thought you would have to make, then you will find Long Gone, Come Home to be relatable and engaging. If you’re life turned out exactly the way you planned, then I still think you might find something relatable (overprotective mother, gossipy small town, love of dancing and toe-tapping music) and will enjoy this novel.
Many thanks to Monica Chenault-Kilgore, Graydon House, and NetGalley for a free advanced review copy of this novel.