While I Am Not Afraid: Secrets of a Man's Heart

by Peter Clothier

Here is the dramatic tale of a man's descent into the unresolved darkness of his soul. Filled with astute observations and written with an elegant rawness that is the product of brutal self-examination, the book provides a rare glimpse into the heart and mind of a man in crisis. At an age when most men are settled into a routine lifestyle, author and art critic Peter Clothier's world turned upside down; his daughter returned from college suffering from severe anorexia. The desire to save his daughter's life unexpectedly propelled Clothier into a search of self, whereupon he discovered a universe of unexpressed emotions and delayed dreams. Clothier recounts his confrontations with past demons, his encounters in the Warrior Monk organization, and the unrelenting strain his daughter's affliction brought to his marriage.

252 pages, Paperback

First published September 1, 1997

About the author

Peter Clothier is an internationally-known writer who specializes in writing about art and artists. He believes in avoiding the jargon that obscures much current writing about art, and in writing simply, clearly, in language that the lay person can readily understand. He seeks to achieve a harmony of mind, heart, and body in his work, and looks for this quality in the artists he writes about. A reformed academic, now fifteen years in recovery, he has returned in recent years to teaching, in mostly non-traditional ways: in workshops, continuing groups, and individual coaching and mentoring for artists and writers.