You should not have to
sacrifice your values,
boundaries or inner peace
for your relationship to work.
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I understand now,
what is harder than being alone.
It's being in love with someone
who makes you feel completely alone.
They won't offer the support you need,
be a shoulder to cry on in your darkest hours,
be present through the good times and the bad.
They can't, because they don't see you.
Your feelings.
Your fears.
Your deepest desires.
What makes you cry.
What makes your soul beam with light.
I understand now,
the difference between being alone
and feeling desperately lonely.
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I know you try to bury your emotions because you're so afraid of being defined by them.
As if they are a flaw in your character, somehow.
Oh, how I wish you knew,
that they are not a part of you.
You merely experience them.
Like everything else in nature,
human emotions are beautifully dynamic.
Forever changing,
reflecting only how you feel in the present moment.
Understand that you are not a 'sad person', you're just feeling incredibly sad right now.
You are not an 'anxious person',
you just feel anxious in this stage of your life.
You are not an 'emotional person',
you simply feel your emotions more deeply than some.
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I know it sometimes hurts, to be a deep feeler.
To be consciously aware of every emotion, feeling their presence deep within your soul.
Always wearing your heart on your sleeve, afraid that it's too fragile to
be so exposed to this cruel world.
Hurt clinging to your bones after every upheaval,
wishing you could shake off the pain quicker.
It's so overwhelming, I know.
But what if I told you that it's not a curse, to be a deep feeler?
That the world needs more of what you are,
because of your capacity to process everything
around you
with such wondrous depth.
You love deeper than most.
You effortlessly see into the expanse of someone's soul,
becoming highly attuned to their emotions. Your empathy is boundless,
always showing a compassionate understanding towards others.
You see the beauty in this imperfect world. You are alive with feeling,
and that could never be a curse.
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You see someone friendly and talkative, but I'm convinced you don't like me and
I'm overthinking every word I say.
You see someone who is organised,
but I feel out of control if things are not 'right'.
You see someone who pays attention to detail,
but I fear making mistakes and being a failure.
You see someone who is hardworking,
but I'm my own worst critic and think I'll never
be good enough.
You see someone who is self-sufficient, but I'm afraid to ask for help.
You see someone who is active, always on the go,
but I can't sit and relax because overthinking haunts me.
You see someone peaceful and calm,
but there is chaos raging inside my mind.
- anxiety is invisible.
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You deserve the kind of love that makes you feel
worthy of love.
The kind of love that is patient, caring, and honest.
A love that doesn't make you think that you're asking
for too much,
or that you're too difficult to love wholeheartedly.
A love that listens and respects you.
The kind of love that fills your entire body when
they look at you.
A love that chooses you, every. single. day. through the difficult times as well as the euphoric.
You deserve the kind of love that you always give to others.
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I'm a dreamer, I think deeply about everything.
Sometimes my mind floats in the clouds.
I'm an eternal optimist.
I cry at movies, both happy and sad.
I'm an empath, I feel everything around me.
I often feel my feelings too deeply.
I get excited by the smallest things.
I'm an introvert, I crave the quiet to recharge.
Sometimes I'm awkward and say foolish things.
I love with the entirety of my heart and soul.
And I'm finally learning to love who I am, unapologetically.