Pedro and Daniel, two Mexican American brothers growing up in 1970s northern Ohio, are both out of step with the rest of their large family. Pedro, darker skinned like his father, grapples with a stutter and constant abuse from his mother, while gregarious Daniel enjoys playing with dolls and makeup -- and both are gay in a Catholic family. And while Pedro grows up to become a doctor and Daniel studies to be a priest, they both struggle to live authentically as gay men in a world rife with homophobia and the fear of HIV and AIDS.
This powerful book, occasionally laced with poetry, Spanish dichos (proverbs), and illustrations (by Julie Kwon), is based on the author's relationship with his brother Daniel who died in 1993 at the age of 30. It is utterly heartbreaking in the relentless depiction of abuse and colorism demonstrated by the boy's mother and the impact such physical and emotional violence had in their lives. While I would rather read stories that celebrate how far we've come in supporting our LGBTQ+ community, the increased pushes for anti-gay and anti-trans legislation right now make it necessary that we don't forget stories like these that show the pain, fear, and lack of acceptance that so many queer children and adults still face.
It may take the reader a little time to adjust to the shifting voices in the book -- the first part is all told in 3rd person, and after that the story alternates between Pedro's and Daniel's POVs, with the first few chapters reflecting their younger ages and less well-developed storytelling -- but I think it adds to the immediacy of the story and the lives of these two boys. Some passages may feel a little info-dumpish, especially the on-the-train conversation between the brothers about the then-state of medical understanding of HIV and potential treatments, but they do provide useful information for the narrative.
Achingly beautiful and melancholic. I wish we could go back to the 1970s and 1980s and do better by our LGBTQ+ brothers and sisters. Four stars.
TW: child abuse (physical and emotional), domestic violence, bullying, homophobia, colorism, racism, death (off page), depictions of illness
Thank you, Levine Querido/Chronicle Books and NetGalley, for providing an eARC of this book. Opinions expressed here are solely my own.