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The Happiness Project
Nineteen-year-old Bruno has a secret he can never tell. The sort of secret that means he can never have anything more than sort of friends. Never get close to anyone. Never have a random hook-up or even a kiss—apart from that one time in a club when some beautiful guy wearing luminous wings and neon bangles up his arms, kissed him.
His secret means getting fired from job after job washing dishes, until delivering mysterious packaging around London is his only way of making any money. His secret means his life is, at its heart, a lie.
Bruno thinks he can live that lie. Alone in his empty, furniture-less flat, he thinks he has to. Until the lonely boy next door throws up on him and they get stuck in a lift together. But that’s the problem when someone starts to care about you, your secrets get harder to hide. And as he and Alexei gets closer, Bruno realises that his only real choice is between hiding his heart and trusting it.
Alexei is confused. About everything. Hiding out in a room in his cousin's flat, he tries to convince himself that’s where he needs to stay. Bad things happen outside. Things that might make his world grow even darker. Things he doesn’t think he can deal with. He doesn’t want to have feelings for Bruno. Feelings terrify him. But when he starts to understand Bruno has his own troubles, helping him becomes the only thing Alexei wants to do.
His secret means getting fired from job after job washing dishes, until delivering mysterious packaging around London is his only way of making any money. His secret means his life is, at its heart, a lie.
Bruno thinks he can live that lie. Alone in his empty, furniture-less flat, he thinks he has to. Until the lonely boy next door throws up on him and they get stuck in a lift together. But that’s the problem when someone starts to care about you, your secrets get harder to hide. And as he and Alexei gets closer, Bruno realises that his only real choice is between hiding his heart and trusting it.
Alexei is confused. About everything. Hiding out in a room in his cousin's flat, he tries to convince himself that’s where he needs to stay. Bad things happen outside. Things that might make his world grow even darker. Things he doesn’t think he can deal with. He doesn’t want to have feelings for Bruno. Feelings terrify him. But when he starts to understand Bruno has his own troubles, helping him becomes the only thing Alexei wants to do.
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First published October 25, 2022
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Suki Fleet
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Suki Fleet is an award winning author, a prolific Reader (though less prolific than they'd like), and a lover of angst, romance and unexpected love stories.
They write lyrical stories about memorable characters and believe everyone should have a chance at a happy ending.
Their first novel This is Not a Love Story won Best Gay Debut in the 2014 Rainbow Awards, and was a finalist in the 2015 Lambda Awards. Their novel Foxes won Best Gay Young Adult in the 2016 Rainbow Awards.
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Suki Fleet is an award winning author, a prolific Reader (though less prolific than they'd like), and a lover of angst, romance and unexpected love stories.
They write lyrical stories about memorable characters and believe everyone should have a chance at a happy ending.
Their first novel This is Not a Love Story won Best Gay Debut in the 2014 Rainbow Awards, and was a finalist in the 2015 Lambda Awards. Their novel Foxes won Best Gay Young Adult in the 2016 Rainbow Awards.
If you’d like to offer your support and buy Suki Fleet a coffee you can do that here: https://ko-fi.com/sukifleet
If you would like info on upcoming releases and the occasional free story, please sign up to Suki’s newsletter: https://sukifleet.wordpress.com/newsl...
If you’re interested in reading first drafts of Suki’s new stories, or reading stories that are no longer available or cuts that can’t be published on Amazon, and other extras, please consider signing up to Suki’s Patreon: https://www.patreon.com/sukifleet
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August 12, 2024
✰ 3 stars ✰
“Kindness changes the people it touches. It changes the world. It’s the only thing that can. It’s love in action.”
For nineteen-year-old Bruno, who felt that he was forever fated to be unloved due to his own shortcomings, and Alexei, who was questioning his own identity and felt no one would accept him for who he was, they truly brought out the best in each other, during the most trying and difficult of times. They were a sweet pair, who slowly gravitated towards one another, as they sought out each other for comfort and support - so very protective of each other in their times of need - eager to assist and dispel all questioning thoughts and fearful intrusions and the darkness that threatens to overwhelm them. 🥺 'Somehow Bruno makes me feel that there’s a little patch of solid ground beneath me, which makes me want to talk.' With delicate care and true tenderness, Suki Fleet touches upon their relationship with a slight twist of supernatural elements that hinted towards a greater power at work - one that made their connection more sincere and heartfelt than what they expected. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“Some feelings can’t always be put into words, they just need to be felt, doesn’t mean you can’t share them with someone, though.
“I’m really glad I met you,” he whispers.”
I felt for Bruno's insecurities and worthlessness - his loneliness & how he yearned for a simple hand of kindness - one moment of reprieve from all the horrible things that he has to encounter - from homelessness to illiteracy - and witness - being battered and bruised for being helpless to defend himself from wayward bullies. 😥 I ached for Alexei and his own personal struggles - the palpable fear of taking care of his younger brother, Gregor, whilst his own deteriorating health, as well as his own inner qualms and complicated doubts over his identity, as well as his sexuality. 'You can have it all, but how much do you want it?' The crippling bouts of anxiety, the fear of abandonment, as well a lot of moments riddled with grief, and the dawning uncertainty of how they'll manage in the days ahead, made for a rather gloomy and depressing read. 😢 But with patience and kindness, the two of them truly find their way together, and reach for the light - stronger and happier than when they first started. A more serene and hopeful look at their lives and what awaits them. 🤍🤍
I liked Eddy and George - up to the point where they offered their own advice and assistance in nurturing the two of them, finding their own footing and embracing their happiness with open arms. 'But it is to do with you, I think helplessly. It’s everything to do with you. I like you. Fuck. I really, really like you.' I'm not so sure if I was up for the sudden and unexpected addition of paranormal elements to their dynamic; it seemed out of sync with the overall vibe. 😕 I also had slight issues with the constant allusion to the different types of clouds; ones that in a way were included to reflect upon the current happenings of the storyline, but it became a bit bothersome for me.
“I wrap an arm around his still heaving chest, a surge of protectiveness rushing through me.
Wish you were mine, I think before I can stop myself. Why do you feel so much like you’re mine?”
Lately, I'm also finding that I'm struggling a bit with Suki Fleet's writing style, which is a shame, considering the first book I ever read of theirs was an immediate five star read. 😞 The writing in The Happiness Project was not as smooth as I would have liked, the pacing slightly jarring, and the tone somewhat uneven. Like there was either too much hopelessness and then a sudden intake of blissful contentment and harmony. There were also certain instances where the phrases and train of thought became a bit too repetitive. 😟
And yet, I'm always willing to give their books a go, because it's always a promise that it will be a read full of feels. Would it have been better if there had been less epilogues and not so much a spin towards the supernatural? Maybe; but, regardless of the twist it took at the end, it was still a tender and heartwarming read. It touched upon some heavy themes, which allowed two broken beautiful boys to find happiness in each other's hearts and homes where they could belong and be loved as they were. 🫶🏻🫶🏻
“Kindness changes the people it touches. It changes the world. It’s the only thing that can. It’s love in action.”
For nineteen-year-old Bruno, who felt that he was forever fated to be unloved due to his own shortcomings, and Alexei, who was questioning his own identity and felt no one would accept him for who he was, they truly brought out the best in each other, during the most trying and difficult of times. They were a sweet pair, who slowly gravitated towards one another, as they sought out each other for comfort and support - so very protective of each other in their times of need - eager to assist and dispel all questioning thoughts and fearful intrusions and the darkness that threatens to overwhelm them. 🥺 'Somehow Bruno makes me feel that there’s a little patch of solid ground beneath me, which makes me want to talk.' With delicate care and true tenderness, Suki Fleet touches upon their relationship with a slight twist of supernatural elements that hinted towards a greater power at work - one that made their connection more sincere and heartfelt than what they expected. ❤️🩹❤️🩹
“Some feelings can’t always be put into words, they just need to be felt, doesn’t mean you can’t share them with someone, though.
“I’m really glad I met you,” he whispers.”
I felt for Bruno's insecurities and worthlessness - his loneliness & how he yearned for a simple hand of kindness - one moment of reprieve from all the horrible things that he has to encounter - from homelessness to illiteracy - and witness - being battered and bruised for being helpless to defend himself from wayward bullies. 😥 I ached for Alexei and his own personal struggles - the palpable fear of taking care of his younger brother, Gregor, whilst his own deteriorating health, as well as his own inner qualms and complicated doubts over his identity, as well as his sexuality. 'You can have it all, but how much do you want it?' The crippling bouts of anxiety, the fear of abandonment, as well a lot of moments riddled with grief, and the dawning uncertainty of how they'll manage in the days ahead, made for a rather gloomy and depressing read. 😢 But with patience and kindness, the two of them truly find their way together, and reach for the light - stronger and happier than when they first started. A more serene and hopeful look at their lives and what awaits them. 🤍🤍
I liked Eddy and George - up to the point where they offered their own advice and assistance in nurturing the two of them, finding their own footing and embracing their happiness with open arms. 'But it is to do with you, I think helplessly. It’s everything to do with you. I like you. Fuck. I really, really like you.' I'm not so sure if I was up for the sudden and unexpected addition of paranormal elements to their dynamic; it seemed out of sync with the overall vibe. 😕 I also had slight issues with the constant allusion to the different types of clouds; ones that in a way were included to reflect upon the current happenings of the storyline, but it became a bit bothersome for me.
“I wrap an arm around his still heaving chest, a surge of protectiveness rushing through me.
Wish you were mine, I think before I can stop myself. Why do you feel so much like you’re mine?”
Lately, I'm also finding that I'm struggling a bit with Suki Fleet's writing style, which is a shame, considering the first book I ever read of theirs was an immediate five star read. 😞 The writing in The Happiness Project was not as smooth as I would have liked, the pacing slightly jarring, and the tone somewhat uneven. Like there was either too much hopelessness and then a sudden intake of blissful contentment and harmony. There were also certain instances where the phrases and train of thought became a bit too repetitive. 😟
And yet, I'm always willing to give their books a go, because it's always a promise that it will be a read full of feels. Would it have been better if there had been less epilogues and not so much a spin towards the supernatural? Maybe; but, regardless of the twist it took at the end, it was still a tender and heartwarming read. It touched upon some heavy themes, which allowed two broken beautiful boys to find happiness in each other's hearts and homes where they could belong and be loved as they were. 🫶🏻🫶🏻
July 2, 2023
4.25 stars ... Just beautiful! 🥰 My fourth Suki read ('Foxes', 'Sometimes There's Stars', & 'This is Not a Love Story') and not *quite* the heart-wrenching, gut punch drama that the first three dealt me. That's not a negative at all ... just not the rip-my-heart-apart, ugly crying tale that I was expecting. Wonderful characters that I would love to know irl and NEED to know they have the HEA they so very much deserve. If you're a Suki fan, as I am, you will not be disappointed with this one. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
October 26, 2022
Every time I read a new story by Suki Fleet, it ends up on my favorites shelf. And if I had to pick one as my all time favorite, I couldn’t possibly narrow it down to just one. This is Not a Love Story, Sometimes There’s Stars and Foxes have always been the top contenders for the top spot and I now add The Happiness Project to the uppermost tier of SF love.
The reason I read queer stories almost exclusively is because I want to feel seen and heard and understood and damn if I didn’t feel all those things and more reading The Happiness Project. Fleet thoughtfully and beautifully explores the complexities and confusion that can sometimes come with being on the ace spectrum, questioning one’s gender identity, and/or how we define and understand our sexual orientation. Being lesbian-leaning/bi/pan/??? and also somewhere on the ace spectrum/gray ace/demi/??? myself, I have never before read a story that comes as close to expressing how I feel as this one does. Which isn’t to say that my experiences mirror either Alexei or Bruno’s exactly, but Alexei’s questioning, the ‘What do I feel? And what do I want? And how do I explore it?' resonated profoundly. Even at 56, I’m still trying to figure it out and my sexual identity is still evolving. Fleet does a masterful job of putting really confusing emotions and questioning into words in a way that lit me up inside and made me feel seen in a way I’ve never felt before. As I read, I just kept thinking, “This!” and “Yes!” and “Oh, oh, oh! This too!”
Beyond those aspects of the story that made it very personal for me, The Happiness Project is a deeply moving and lovely story in so many other ways. Fleet incorporates neurodiversity, poverty and being failed by social systems in equally compelling, thoughtful and compassionate ways, shining light into the dark and quite literally delivering messages of hope and love, acceptance and support in unexpected and magical ways. Alexei and Bruno’s families, both biological and chosen, add so much warmth and depth and love to this moving story; Gregor is one of my favorite characters ever and I am SO excited that he’ll be getting his own story as well.
KU but as a favorite, this one is added to my permanent collection both in ebook and hard copy.
5 heartfelt stars
The reason I read queer stories almost exclusively is because I want to feel seen and heard and understood and damn if I didn’t feel all those things and more reading The Happiness Project. Fleet thoughtfully and beautifully explores the complexities and confusion that can sometimes come with being on the ace spectrum, questioning one’s gender identity, and/or how we define and understand our sexual orientation. Being lesbian-leaning/bi/pan/??? and also somewhere on the ace spectrum/gray ace/demi/??? myself, I have never before read a story that comes as close to expressing how I feel as this one does. Which isn’t to say that my experiences mirror either Alexei or Bruno’s exactly, but Alexei’s questioning, the ‘What do I feel? And what do I want? And how do I explore it?' resonated profoundly. Even at 56, I’m still trying to figure it out and my sexual identity is still evolving. Fleet does a masterful job of putting really confusing emotions and questioning into words in a way that lit me up inside and made me feel seen in a way I’ve never felt before. As I read, I just kept thinking, “This!” and “Yes!” and “Oh, oh, oh! This too!”
Beyond those aspects of the story that made it very personal for me, The Happiness Project is a deeply moving and lovely story in so many other ways. Fleet incorporates neurodiversity, poverty and being failed by social systems in equally compelling, thoughtful and compassionate ways, shining light into the dark and quite literally delivering messages of hope and love, acceptance and support in unexpected and magical ways. Alexei and Bruno’s families, both biological and chosen, add so much warmth and depth and love to this moving story; Gregor is one of my favorite characters ever and I am SO excited that he’ll be getting his own story as well.
KU but as a favorite, this one is added to my permanent collection both in ebook and hard copy.
5 heartfelt stars
October 28, 2022
I'm re reading this impossibly beautiful book, just trying to process the mess it's left me in. I'm still trying to find the right words. Full of Suki's trademark gorgeously poetic words, leaving feelings trailing behind I didn't expect to feel. This is just stunning. Absolute perfection in a book. There are no perfect humans here, just normal flawed people, with hopes, dreams and needs that only that other person can complete. Or maybe it's just you who complete them on their own, because sometimes, that other person just makes you brave.
Suki Fleet's writing is like reading poetry. One minute, emotional and raw, and then the next: gorgeously beautiful. This is a story of real people. And despite their fears and anxieties and worries and ways, they find a way to shine in each others lives. This was a deeply satisfying read, full of ups and downs and left me emotionally drained, yet full of light. Highly Highly recommend. x
Suki Fleet's writing is like reading poetry. One minute, emotional and raw, and then the next: gorgeously beautiful. This is a story of real people. And despite their fears and anxieties and worries and ways, they find a way to shine in each others lives. This was a deeply satisfying read, full of ups and downs and left me emotionally drained, yet full of light. Highly Highly recommend. x
September 9, 2023
This book is very hard to rate for me.
I can't comment if the anxiety representation, dyslexia-representation and medical aspects were done in an accurate way.
The cast was very diverse, and that was great.
There was so much going on, so many topics were central to the story : anxiety, learning difficulties, severe medical conditions, ace/asexuality, feeling non-binary, also great.
But the way Eddie and George were "shown" in the last 20% was weird. I don't like to read a contemporary book that dips its toes into the transcendend/paranormal without being warned about it.
It's why I can't give this book more than 3 stars.
I didn't even read the epilogues it bothered me so much.
I can't comment if the anxiety representation, dyslexia-representation and medical aspects were done in an accurate way.
The cast was very diverse, and that was great.
There was so much going on, so many topics were central to the story : anxiety, learning difficulties, severe medical conditions, ace/asexuality, feeling non-binary, also great.
But the way Eddie and George were "shown" in the last 20% was weird. I don't like to read a contemporary book that dips its toes into the transcendend/paranormal without being warned about it.
It's why I can't give this book more than 3 stars.
I didn't even read the epilogues it bothered me so much.
July 24, 2024
My second Suki Fleet, and like the first, fantastic. And by some coinkydink, the second book in a row I've just read with a main character harboring the same secret shame.
I read my two Suki Fleet novels out of order, this is actually the story of Bruno and Alexei, who are raising Gregor, our autistic MC in Half-Drawn Boy and takes place some years before. But I don't think it spoiled anything reading them out of order, it's not like there's any question of whether the MCs in a romance are going to end up together or not, that's kind of the whole premise of the genre, the suspense, and emotion is all about the process.
Both characters are dealing with disability. Bruno, 19 years old, has been struggling for a long time, but finding it increasingly difficult now that he's aged out of care and is living on his own. Whereas Alexei's disability is of more recent onset, and a progressive condition, and has essentially withdrawn from the world in reaction, and is also guardian of an autistic younger brother (Gregor). Their disabilities are far from their only problems, but they "just might" (eyeroll) each be just what the other needs. Oh, and Bruno knows this magical drag queen. Never hurts to have one of them on your side.
Now if I could only have one of them I'd choose Half-Drawn Boy because I personally connect with Gregor and Noah's story more strongly, but I don't have to choose! And that's great, because Bruno and Alexei are great, and this one features even more Eddy than we get to see in Gregor's book, so yay!
And as regards Eddy, this one has a much clearer magical realism/fantasy element to the story. I wasn't expecting it to go quite as far as it did in that direction, but while it did feel a tiny bit out of place, I definitely wanted more than I was expecting to get as an explanation for that aspect of the story and those characters, so I'll take it.
As with the other book, Fleet really puts her characters through it, the drama dialed up to 11, and I basically plowed through this in two sittings. Clearly not an author I should be reading when I have other things to do, or am out of kleenex. So, looking forward to more Suki Fleet, but I'm not quite sure when.
I read my two Suki Fleet novels out of order, this is actually the story of Bruno and Alexei, who are raising Gregor, our autistic MC in Half-Drawn Boy and takes place some years before. But I don't think it spoiled anything reading them out of order, it's not like there's any question of whether the MCs in a romance are going to end up together or not, that's kind of the whole premise of the genre, the suspense, and emotion is all about the process.
Both characters are dealing with disability. Bruno, 19 years old, has been struggling for a long time, but finding it increasingly difficult now that he's aged out of care and is living on his own. Whereas Alexei's disability is of more recent onset, and a progressive condition, and has essentially withdrawn from the world in reaction, and is also guardian of an autistic younger brother (Gregor). Their disabilities are far from their only problems, but they "just might" (eyeroll) each be just what the other needs. Oh, and Bruno knows this magical drag queen. Never hurts to have one of them on your side.
Now if I could only have one of them I'd choose Half-Drawn Boy because I personally connect with Gregor and Noah's story more strongly, but I don't have to choose! And that's great, because Bruno and Alexei are great, and this one features even more Eddy than we get to see in Gregor's book, so yay!
And as regards Eddy, this one has a much clearer magical realism/fantasy element to the story. I wasn't expecting it to go quite as far as it did in that direction, but while it did feel a tiny bit out of place, I definitely wanted more than I was expecting to get as an explanation for that aspect of the story and those characters, so I'll take it.
As with the other book, Fleet really puts her characters through it, the drama dialed up to 11, and I basically plowed through this in two sittings. Clearly not an author I should be reading when I have other things to do, or am out of kleenex. So, looking forward to more Suki Fleet, but I'm not quite sure when.
October 26, 2022
The Happiness Project is a gorgeous, moving book. Again and again, Suki Fleet delivers heart rending novels and The Happiness Project is no exception; it’s another emotional powerhouse that sensitively touches upon gender identity, neurodiversity, poverty, sexual orientation, dyslexia, and ultimately, the theme of the book – kindness.
Nineteen-year-old Bruno is barely surviving. He's on his own after aging out of a kids’ home. He has no family, no job, almost no money, and an empty flat he’s about to be evicted from. He gets to the point where he’s lost every meager possession he owned and he’s afraid he’s going to lose everyone, too. He feels broken and unwanted. The one thing he does have is the determination to keep going and not give up, although at times his burdens feel insurmountable. But he also has kindness in his heart – something that’s free to share and can’t be taken away from him. His only friend tells him:
“Kindness changes the people it touches. It changes the world. It’s the only thing that can. It’s love in action. And kindness is what you are, Bruno, more than anything. It’s what we all are, but so often we let other things get in the way. Like I said, if love is not your reason for doing something, whatever you’re doing is just noise.”
Bruno has a big secret that makes him feel broken and filled with shame but he’s so weary from lying about himself, trying to hide his true self. He needs to lie, he believes, for people to like him. But he realizes no one has ever known the real Bruno because he lies about himself to everyone as a form of self-preservation. He needs to break free of his big secret but he has no one he can trust with his truth, until, maybe, Alexei. When he finally blurts out the truth to Alexei, it’s freeing; the honesty feels so right.
Alexei, Bruno’s lonely neighbor, is suffering from a devastating disability. He also lives with anxiety and experiences debilitating panic attacks. That’s how he meets Bruno, when they're stuck in an elevator together and Bruno talks him down from his fear. They build trust and embark on a friendship that means everything to both of them. As they grow closer, they support each other and really listen. Alexei feels safe with Bruno and his anxiety abates when they’re together. Life doesn’t seem pointless anymore with Bruno in it; he feels alive and safe now. But Bruno is attracted to Alexei and longs for more than friendship. He tries to keep his emotions – and physical reactions – in check because he doesn’t know if Alexei can return his feelings. They slowly fall for each other in little ways: holding hands, shy smiles, brushing their shoulders together, all the romantic and physical affection I love.
Some feelings can’t always be put into words, they just need to be felt, doesn’t mean you can’t share them with someone, though. “I’m really glad I met you,” he whispers. “Me too,” I whisper back. There have been a few moments in my life so brilliant and bright that I’ll always remember them. I think this might be one of them.
Have you ever seen those two halves of one heart necklaces that fit together like puzzle pieces? Each partner wears one half of the heart. I’m reminded of them because that’s what Bruno and Alexei feel like to me – two halves of one whole that are meant to be together. I’m sure I've mentioned this before – Fleet’s books almost always have an ethereal quality to them and that’s a commonality my favorite books usually share. It’s the connection the characters build, a beautiful, delicate bond that supersedes the direst of situations. There’s something a little other worldly about this book, too, a bit of magic.
Another thing I appreciated was Fleet's exploration of romantic versus sexual attraction in a way that challenges common stereotypes and misconceptions. Individuals have varying needs when it comes to sex and love.
This is a wonderful love story. If it was a cake, the icing on top would be the FOUR epilogues at six weeks later, six months, six years, and sixteen years into the future. They provide all the closure you could want, including Bruno’s dedication to changing the world once act of kindness at a time with his own happiness projects. I adore epilogues; these are some of the best I’ve read.
I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. Highly recommended.
ARC kindly provided to Love Bytes Reviews in exchange for an honest review.
Nineteen-year-old Bruno is barely surviving. He's on his own after aging out of a kids’ home. He has no family, no job, almost no money, and an empty flat he’s about to be evicted from. He gets to the point where he’s lost every meager possession he owned and he’s afraid he’s going to lose everyone, too. He feels broken and unwanted. The one thing he does have is the determination to keep going and not give up, although at times his burdens feel insurmountable. But he also has kindness in his heart – something that’s free to share and can’t be taken away from him. His only friend tells him:
“Kindness changes the people it touches. It changes the world. It’s the only thing that can. It’s love in action. And kindness is what you are, Bruno, more than anything. It’s what we all are, but so often we let other things get in the way. Like I said, if love is not your reason for doing something, whatever you’re doing is just noise.”
Bruno has a big secret that makes him feel broken and filled with shame but he’s so weary from lying about himself, trying to hide his true self. He needs to lie, he believes, for people to like him. But he realizes no one has ever known the real Bruno because he lies about himself to everyone as a form of self-preservation. He needs to break free of his big secret but he has no one he can trust with his truth, until, maybe, Alexei. When he finally blurts out the truth to Alexei, it’s freeing; the honesty feels so right.
Alexei, Bruno’s lonely neighbor, is suffering from a devastating disability. He also lives with anxiety and experiences debilitating panic attacks. That’s how he meets Bruno, when they're stuck in an elevator together and Bruno talks him down from his fear. They build trust and embark on a friendship that means everything to both of them. As they grow closer, they support each other and really listen. Alexei feels safe with Bruno and his anxiety abates when they’re together. Life doesn’t seem pointless anymore with Bruno in it; he feels alive and safe now. But Bruno is attracted to Alexei and longs for more than friendship. He tries to keep his emotions – and physical reactions – in check because he doesn’t know if Alexei can return his feelings. They slowly fall for each other in little ways: holding hands, shy smiles, brushing their shoulders together, all the romantic and physical affection I love.
Some feelings can’t always be put into words, they just need to be felt, doesn’t mean you can’t share them with someone, though. “I’m really glad I met you,” he whispers. “Me too,” I whisper back. There have been a few moments in my life so brilliant and bright that I’ll always remember them. I think this might be one of them.
Have you ever seen those two halves of one heart necklaces that fit together like puzzle pieces? Each partner wears one half of the heart. I’m reminded of them because that’s what Bruno and Alexei feel like to me – two halves of one whole that are meant to be together. I’m sure I've mentioned this before – Fleet’s books almost always have an ethereal quality to them and that’s a commonality my favorite books usually share. It’s the connection the characters build, a beautiful, delicate bond that supersedes the direst of situations. There’s something a little other worldly about this book, too, a bit of magic.
Another thing I appreciated was Fleet's exploration of romantic versus sexual attraction in a way that challenges common stereotypes and misconceptions. Individuals have varying needs when it comes to sex and love.
This is a wonderful love story. If it was a cake, the icing on top would be the FOUR epilogues at six weeks later, six months, six years, and sixteen years into the future. They provide all the closure you could want, including Bruno’s dedication to changing the world once act of kindness at a time with his own happiness projects. I adore epilogues; these are some of the best I’ve read.
I hope you enjoy it as much as I did. Highly recommended.
ARC kindly provided to Love Bytes Reviews in exchange for an honest review.
October 15, 2022
“We have such weird conversations. Please don’t ever stop being weird with me.”
Most of my review is the message I sent to author Suki Fleet immediately after I finished The Happiness Project. A side note: This was written with tears running down my face and a heart full of love.
Suki,
I literally just finished The Happiness Project, and my heart is so twisted up. It was one of the most delicate and emotionally evolving stories I have ever read. My heart is pounding in my chest, and my eyes are filled with tears, and I am having a hard time breathing because of the layers of love that this story has gifted my soul. I feel that I was handed an envelope of my own. I feel so honored to have experienced this story.
This was my first book of yours. I am blown away by the creative and compassionate presentation of neurodiversity, gender orientation, trauma, mental health, friendship, love, and the magic that ties our souls to each other.
I felt this book, deeply, and appreciate the journey.
One other observation. This book would make an absolutely amazing movie or series. There are so very many opportunities for others to learn kindness and promote happiness through your storytelling.
You have my heart. Thank you❣️🌈♥️ Deb
Most of my review is the message I sent to author Suki Fleet immediately after I finished The Happiness Project. A side note: This was written with tears running down my face and a heart full of love.
Suki,
I literally just finished The Happiness Project, and my heart is so twisted up. It was one of the most delicate and emotionally evolving stories I have ever read. My heart is pounding in my chest, and my eyes are filled with tears, and I am having a hard time breathing because of the layers of love that this story has gifted my soul. I feel that I was handed an envelope of my own. I feel so honored to have experienced this story.
This was my first book of yours. I am blown away by the creative and compassionate presentation of neurodiversity, gender orientation, trauma, mental health, friendship, love, and the magic that ties our souls to each other.
I felt this book, deeply, and appreciate the journey.
One other observation. This book would make an absolutely amazing movie or series. There are so very many opportunities for others to learn kindness and promote happiness through your storytelling.
You have my heart. Thank you❣️🌈♥️ Deb
April 18, 2023
5 stars all the way 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟. The Happiness Project left me feeling extremely happy 🫠 [thank you Suki] although there were some happy and sad tears. Heartwarming and with loadsa feels, I had a big smile plastered on my face at the end and was chuffed to bits that Gregor and Noah are getting their own story next year. Bruno, Alexei and Eddy are amazing characters, and Suki's writing is top notch ✅️✅️✅️.
October 17, 2022
19 year old Bruno is struggling to live on his own after a childhood spent falling through the cracks of the care system. Hiding his neurodivergence and learning difficulties, he’s overwhelmed by everything that’s expected of him. Bruno’s neighbor Alexei has his own problems; dealing with a degenerative disease, confusion about his gender and sexuality, and family responsibilities. The two kind-hearted young people become friends and grow to rely on each other, helping each other through the difficult times they are going through.
I loved this book so much! I felt for and related to both of these kids (technically they are adults at 19 and 24, but to me they are still kids). I appreciated the representation–one main character is neurodivergent, and queer and the other has anxiety, a degenerative disease, and is gender fluid, panromantic, and ace. They fit together perfectly, learning to trust each other, and open up to each other. Their relationship was beautiful. Even though the story has a lot of angst, the book is ultimately very uplifting and has a very satisfying HEA. I’m sure Suki Fleet fans will love it, and if you haven’t read any of Suki’s books yet, I urge you to give it a try. The Happiness project is a beautiful and emotional read and I can’t recommend it enough!
I loved this book so much! I felt for and related to both of these kids (technically they are adults at 19 and 24, but to me they are still kids). I appreciated the representation–one main character is neurodivergent, and queer and the other has anxiety, a degenerative disease, and is gender fluid, panromantic, and ace. They fit together perfectly, learning to trust each other, and open up to each other. Their relationship was beautiful. Even though the story has a lot of angst, the book is ultimately very uplifting and has a very satisfying HEA. I’m sure Suki Fleet fans will love it, and if you haven’t read any of Suki’s books yet, I urge you to give it a try. The Happiness project is a beautiful and emotional read and I can’t recommend it enough!
May 21, 2023
Can I give ten stars?? Five isn’t enough!
So Suki Fleet has written some absolutely beautiful books, and this one is definitely at the top of that list. Just stunning.
This is the story of Bruno and Alexei, two young men who both think they are totally different from the rest of the world, but as it turns out, they just needed someone who fit with them.
Bruno is struggling to get through every day. He can’t keep a job, he’s at risk of losing his flat, and he has no family. He also has a secret he’s been to scared to share with anyone. He doesn’t know how to make it all work, and he’s losing hope.
Alexei has been holed up in his room for months. Ever since he had to move in with his cousin, he’s found himself suspended in fear. He has a degenerative illness that’s getting worse, and he’s got questions about his gender and sexuality but doesn’t know where to start, let alone how to answer them.
Alexei doesn’t feel safe with anyone, until Bruno helps him calm down from a panic attack.
This book is about so much. Self acceptance, figuring out who you are and what you want, trusting people, and relationships being what you make them. There is reps for Neuro divergence, Ace, gender fluid, and degenerative health. And there’s Gregor, who’s the absolute greatest character 💜💜
This book was so gorgeous and I highly recommend it to everyone in the world
So Suki Fleet has written some absolutely beautiful books, and this one is definitely at the top of that list. Just stunning.
This is the story of Bruno and Alexei, two young men who both think they are totally different from the rest of the world, but as it turns out, they just needed someone who fit with them.
Bruno is struggling to get through every day. He can’t keep a job, he’s at risk of losing his flat, and he has no family. He also has a secret he’s been to scared to share with anyone. He doesn’t know how to make it all work, and he’s losing hope.
Alexei has been holed up in his room for months. Ever since he had to move in with his cousin, he’s found himself suspended in fear. He has a degenerative illness that’s getting worse, and he’s got questions about his gender and sexuality but doesn’t know where to start, let alone how to answer them.
Alexei doesn’t feel safe with anyone, until Bruno helps him calm down from a panic attack.
This book is about so much. Self acceptance, figuring out who you are and what you want, trusting people, and relationships being what you make them. There is reps for Neuro divergence, Ace, gender fluid, and degenerative health. And there’s Gregor, who’s the absolute greatest character 💜💜
This book was so gorgeous and I highly recommend it to everyone in the world
November 7, 2022
Yet another beutiful novel from Suki Fleet. The way Fleet manages to write, about heartbreaking subjects like poverty and systemic failures of young people while at the same time conveying the characters resilience and ability to raise above said failures, is a thing of beauty: i have yet to read one of their novels that I haven't loved with all my heart.
Highly recommended
Highly recommended
November 30, 2022
Beautiful story of Bruno and Alexi - 2 eccentric souls who find their perfect match. 🏳️🌈❤️🥹
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August 1, 2024DNF@p.77
These people are too young for me to relate. I think I’ve outgrown puppy love stories.
These people are too young for me to relate. I think I’ve outgrown puppy love stories.
October 31, 2022
Such a beautiful read 🥰
A perfect first love. The story is a perfect blend of sweet romance, sassy wit and incredible character development. All the feels for this one! The raw grief and emotions in the story had me close to tears at some points. Alexei and Bruno were just so perfectly created to be together, and with every hurdle in their way, they grew stronger. The way the Ms Fleet wrote their journey through everything they were dealing with, just felt so very real, and hit the mark every single time. I love this lady's writing style and always look out for any new books she may have coming in the future. This one is a tear-jerker, but those endings! (You'll know what I mean if you read it). So perfect! Highly, highly, recommended.
A perfect first love. The story is a perfect blend of sweet romance, sassy wit and incredible character development. All the feels for this one! The raw grief and emotions in the story had me close to tears at some points. Alexei and Bruno were just so perfectly created to be together, and with every hurdle in their way, they grew stronger. The way the Ms Fleet wrote their journey through everything they were dealing with, just felt so very real, and hit the mark every single time. I love this lady's writing style and always look out for any new books she may have coming in the future. This one is a tear-jerker, but those endings! (You'll know what I mean if you read it). So perfect! Highly, highly, recommended.
November 18, 2022
Woa.
This is a really amazing book. I kind of lack words. I especially lovrd thd first half-and-a-bit, so sore and pure. But once you've started, you have to read all of it, of course.
This is a really amazing book. I kind of lack words. I especially lovrd thd first half-and-a-bit, so sore and pure. But once you've started, you have to read all of it, of course.
November 1, 2022
Well five stars is a given when speaking about Suki Fleet's books. But this one is just a wonderful novel, so beautiful and charming that maybe 5 stars are not even enough. Loved it to pieces and I beg Mrs Fleet to have it translated into italian because all italian fans of Suki Fleet's novels must read this one.
October 26, 2022
I love this book. It's gorgeous and so real. Suki Fleet has this way of writing that just touches you, and this book is the perfect example of that. Bruno and Alexei are both a little different, both afraid to venture out into a world that isn't built for different. It's the type of book that pulls at your heartstrings and makes you cry because it feels so real. You can point to this book and say "this is me, this is how I feel." Being seen is sometimes the only thing people want, this book will make you feel seen. It will also give you a rush of joy most other people don't have.
I've always loved Suki Fleet, and this book proves why.
I've always loved Suki Fleet, and this book proves why.
June 13, 2025
I read this after reading Half-Drawn Boy, and this is a "prequel" that shows the origin of Gregor's parents. I like the whole cross-generational aspect, and a lot of scenes were actually enhanced by this unusual reading order. For example, I like the whole imaginary sea related prose that stretched across both books.
Bruno and Alexei are very interesting characters with a very unique journey. Despite the long and flowery prose, their romance was very lovely and believable. The world and the characters seem built up, and of course I love the long, detailed paragraphs of pure emotion. It may be a bit slow, but it's worth it in the end. However, it's a bit odd that both characters try to out self-deprecate each other. I guess it makes sense given their circumstances.
Now for the two things I didn't like at all. These are the main reasons I have this book at 3 stars.
Bruno and Alexei are very interesting characters with a very unique journey. Despite the long and flowery prose, their romance was very lovely and believable. The world and the characters seem built up, and of course I love the long, detailed paragraphs of pure emotion. It may be a bit slow, but it's worth it in the end. However, it's a bit odd that both characters try to out self-deprecate each other. I guess it makes sense given their circumstances.
Now for the two things I didn't like at all. These are the main reasons I have this book at 3 stars.
November 3, 2022
I gave up on Suki Fleet for a while because her books were just too dark, with the MCs being put through hell (physical abuse, homelessness, drug use, etc.) before they finally are able to be together, usually in the very last chapter. But given this book is entitled The Happiness Project, I thought maybe her style had lightened up a bit.
This is still a hurt/comfort story - I don't think Fleet will be writing goofy romcoms anytime soon - but I didn't spend the entire book in a constant state of dread. Bruno has no money, no job, and a secret he is ashamed to share with anyone. Alexei, who lives in the apartment next door, is agoraphobic and almost completely mute, with his own secrets to keep. Fortunately they become friends early on, and are able to support each other through their respective crises. The major barrier to their HEA is Bruno's belief that he is unlovable, and Alexei's confusion about both his gender and his sexuality.
Suki Fleet must have heard the complaints about her books ending abruptly, because she gifts us with FOUR separate epilogues that eventually take us 16 years into the future. There's a confusing hint of the paranormal, but Bruno and Alexei's relationship was so wonderful that I didn't mind. I'll still approach Fleet's books with caution, but this one was just right.
This is still a hurt/comfort story - I don't think Fleet will be writing goofy romcoms anytime soon - but I didn't spend the entire book in a constant state of dread. Bruno has no money, no job, and a secret he is ashamed to share with anyone. Alexei, who lives in the apartment next door, is agoraphobic and almost completely mute, with his own secrets to keep. Fortunately they become friends early on, and are able to support each other through their respective crises. The major barrier to their HEA is Bruno's belief that he is unlovable, and Alexei's confusion about both his gender and his sexuality.
Suki Fleet must have heard the complaints about her books ending abruptly, because she gifts us with FOUR separate epilogues that eventually take us 16 years into the future. There's a confusing hint of the paranormal, but Bruno and Alexei's relationship was so wonderful that I didn't mind. I'll still approach Fleet's books with caution, but this one was just right.
January 2, 2023
This is an extremely leisurely stroll, as romance novels go.
And, it is at first hopeless, which when it was published I did not have the bandwidth for. But now I did, and it was well worth my patience.
It is also the first book in a long time to make me glad of every single epilogue. Technically, there are four.
Counterintuitively, read this one when you are patient but tolerant of hopelessness on the way to realistic and fantastic hope. It delivers. Eventually.
And, it is at first hopeless, which when it was published I did not have the bandwidth for. But now I did, and it was well worth my patience.
It is also the first book in a long time to make me glad of every single epilogue. Technically, there are four.
Counterintuitively, read this one when you are patient but tolerant of hopelessness on the way to realistic and fantastic hope. It delivers. Eventually.
October 29, 2022
The Happiness Project is beautifully written and one of the best books I've read. Have tissues handy. This story is heartbreaking and heart healing. This book took me longer than normal to read I think because I didn't want it to end. These wonderful characters are so relatable and their story hit home a little too much. Bruno is nineteen and trying to survive without letting anyone know his secret. His neighbor, Alexei, has secrets of his own. A chance meeting in the lift that happens to break down while they're inside, gives Bruno and Alexei a chance to talk a little and for Bruno to help Alexei overcome a panic attack. These two are sweet together from the beginning. They have a special connection throughout the book that grows into something lasting and true. This book has a bit of a mystery and magical element to it as well. I can't say enough good things about this book. This is a new author to me and I know I will be reading more of their work. I highly recommend this book. I know it's one I will enjoy rereading. This book is one not to be missed.
I voluntarily reviewed and arc of this book.
I voluntarily reviewed and arc of this book.
October 22, 2022
What a fantastic book. Absolutely worth more than 5 stars. Having been brought up just south of London I could see these locations in my mind’s eye. I understood the systems Bruno and Alexei were dealing with (Spot on Suki). This book is so well written, so heart-warming, so emotional, just so everything. It is not an easy read but such a satisfying one. I didn’t want to put it down and when I had to I was eager to pick it up again and couldn’t focus on anything else. If you are looking for a light and fluffy read or a hot and steamy one then this is not it. This is a true love story and one that will pull on every single one of your heart strings and stay with you for a long while. I’m still processing it. I really appreciated the epilogues; I needed to know how Bruno and Lexi were doing. Roll on 2023 when we can read about Gregor and Noah which looks set to be another emotional rollercoaster (and we are sure to see more of Bruno and Lexi in this). Thank you, Suki, for this wonderful and thought provoking story.
February 12, 2023
Beautiful and relatable
This one holds the second place after “Foxes”. (But I haven’t read them all. Yet.)
“The Happiness Project” is a delicious, realistically paced slow burn story where connection between MCs is everything.
It’s beautifully written (as always) and relatable. Proof? 63 highlights from me—oh boy. My personal record.
And I guess it’s the first time I’ve read a story in which I related not to one MC but to both. Sometimes it even felt too close for comfort. I felt called out once or twice. 👀
Anyway, thank god authors like Suki still exist in this mad world and make it better with their stories. I mean, first make your heart hurt, but it’s good cause it lets you know it’s still alive, and THEN make it better.
Each time I went back to reading, I realized how much I love it. Made me smile and swoon over and over. Despite the angst that’s worth it.
I’m sure this amazing book will make some people feel seen, understood and less alone.
Can’t wait for Gregor & Noah’s story. ❤️ And can Eddy get one too? So curious about this character 🙏
This one holds the second place after “Foxes”. (But I haven’t read them all. Yet.)
“The Happiness Project” is a delicious, realistically paced slow burn story where connection between MCs is everything.
It’s beautifully written (as always) and relatable. Proof? 63 highlights from me—oh boy. My personal record.
And I guess it’s the first time I’ve read a story in which I related not to one MC but to both. Sometimes it even felt too close for comfort. I felt called out once or twice. 👀
Anyway, thank god authors like Suki still exist in this mad world and make it better with their stories. I mean, first make your heart hurt, but it’s good cause it lets you know it’s still alive, and THEN make it better.
Each time I went back to reading, I realized how much I love it. Made me smile and swoon over and over. Despite the angst that’s worth it.
I’m sure this amazing book will make some people feel seen, understood and less alone.
Can’t wait for Gregor & Noah’s story. ❤️ And can Eddy get one too? So curious about this character 🙏
October 26, 2022
This book will rip your heart out and then put it back together for you but it won't quite be the same. You'll have lived through seeing the world through the eyes of two young men trying to just get by day to day struggling with some real issues of health, learning difficulties, family issues and at the same time trying to answer the bigger questions about whether or not life can get better, could there possibly be love out there (initially their belief is no, part of that heartbreak I mentioned) and what love even means, you know, all the big questions. They figure their odds are pretty low of escaping their bleak, lonely lives until they meet each other and low and behold there is a person that just "fits" with them. Suki Fleet will make you feel exactly what they feel every step of the way and you'll come out the other side seeing the world and the people in it just a bit differently and wondering what is really going on in their lives and in their minds and hearts.
February 1, 2023
Beautiful 🌼🌞
This story was such a surprise (hello, I'm Sharon and I don't read blurbs). It takes us on a beautiful journey of discovery. Gender, sexuality, learning, different types of relationships. It's about overcoming adversity and being the best version of yourself. And the little twist? Simply magical.
I lost sleep over this book because I felt I could not put it down until I'd reached a part of the story where I was happy to leave the characters overnight. I just couldn't leave then in a bad place. Hence reading until 3am. But oh so worth it.
This story was such a surprise (hello, I'm Sharon and I don't read blurbs). It takes us on a beautiful journey of discovery. Gender, sexuality, learning, different types of relationships. It's about overcoming adversity and being the best version of yourself. And the little twist? Simply magical.
I lost sleep over this book because I felt I could not put it down until I'd reached a part of the story where I was happy to leave the characters overnight. I just couldn't leave then in a bad place. Hence reading until 3am. But oh so worth it.
October 27, 2022
This one's on the angsty side. There's drama, lots of drama. There's emotional trauma, there's physical disability, mental disability, family problems, bad people - you name it, it's there.
You could say it's a hurt-comfort trope exploited to the max.
And then, unexpectedly, there's some supernatural elements thrown in, just for kicks? I wasn't much into that part. But overall - it's not bad. It's decently written, if a bit too wordy at times. And the characters are fairly likable.
You could say it's a hurt-comfort trope exploited to the max.
And then, unexpectedly, there's some supernatural elements thrown in, just for kicks? I wasn't much into that part. But overall - it's not bad. It's decently written, if a bit too wordy at times. And the characters are fairly likable.
November 12, 2022
Beautiful and heartwarming
Very, very beautiful story as always from this author. I think what makes them all special is that characters are everyday people and not some super human heroes (billionaires, super beautiful people or super smart ones that have it all perfectly figured out). Bruno and Alexei both have their fears and demons, their daily struggles that actually make this story about their relationship shine so much more.
Very, very beautiful story as always from this author. I think what makes them all special is that characters are everyday people and not some super human heroes (billionaires, super beautiful people or super smart ones that have it all perfectly figured out). Bruno and Alexei both have their fears and demons, their daily struggles that actually make this story about their relationship shine so much more.
November 13, 2022
Such a beautiful story. In the Happiness Project, set in central London, Bruno and Alexei, who live next door to each other, are struggling with their own seemingly overwhelming problems. Suki Fleet shows us that in a bleak urban environment and seemingly hostile world, reaching out with kindness can be transformative, especially when aided by a touch of transformative magic. Such a touching and heartfelt story with a truly accepting and diverse central romance.
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