Lost Forever

by Edison Dizon

Leandro was a happy man with great plans for his future and uncrushable confidence. He grew up thinking he already knew himself and for the rest of his life, he was admired for his best life choices. He plans of getting married before he reached his thirty, have a small business in his small town which will thrive, and be branch out to neighboring cities. He had a wonderful life ahead of him.

Ramon on the other hand was depressed. His existential crisis was eating his sanity. At the age of twenty-two, he struggled financially. He also decided to run away from his home the moment his father found out that he's gay. After being beaten close to death, he promised never to return under the same roof as his father. He was thirsty for love, acceptance, and belongingness to the point that he kept searching for it in the wrong places.

Leandro and Ramon met as they were neighbors on this old building located at the heart of Cape Town. Both of them connected really well. They shared a few nights at the rooftop enjoying the sea of stars over cigarettes and beers. Ramon knew he's also attracted to Leandro but he was afraid that Leandro is not as gay as him. They went on for years being best friends.

Leandro introduced so many women to Ramon and Ramon played well. Until one day, they shared a kiss. It was the greatest wave of shock and instead of making him feel happy, Ramon realized that he can't drag Leandro to his voids and pointless life.

Leandro woke up one morning and Ramon was no longer there. That's when they started drifting away from each other. That's when their love kept falling apart, pushed to the oblivion of hopelessness. A love they almost had, if only Ramon was brave enough to risk things with Leandro.

Unknown Binding

Published October 8, 2022

About the author

Dr. Edison Dizon is a renowned Spanish-Filipino poet, novelist, and multidisciplinary artist based in Angeles City. He is the author of the award-winning book series "Shades of Seasons" and has been featured in numerous international anthologies, magazines, and literary folios worldwide.

A lifelong creative, Dizon’s artistic journey began in childhood, where his love for literature grew alongside his passion for music and the arts. Beyond his celebrated work in fiction and poetry, he is also an accomplished songwriter, singer, and music producer. He plays a variety of instruments—including the Kalimba, Kubing, and others—bringing a distinct cultural and personal depth to his musical artistry.

Dizon’s creative pursuits extend to the stage as well. A former theatre actor, he now directs various stage productions, blending his storytelling expertise with his love for performance. In the visual arts, he is a painter who has created and exhibited a diverse collection of artworks, further establishing him as a versatile figure in the contemporary art scene.

He earned a Professional Degree in Higher Education Study and a Doctorate in Education from Concordia University. His literary acclaim first gained significant attention with his debut novelette, "In This Heart: 1934," which recognized him in 2016 as one of the outstanding writers of his generation. His dedication to literature inspired him to establish Amikaso, his own publishing company, where he serves as CEO. He also works as an independent writer and content creator and serves as the editor of the blog "Warm Tea on a Rainy Day," featuring works from notable writers around the world.

Outside his professional commitments, Dizon enjoys traveling with family and friends, reading, writing blogs, and immersing himself in the stories and cultures of the places he visits. His multifaceted artistry—spanning literature, music, visual arts, and theatre—continues to inspire audiences globally. His commitment to creative expression and promoting literacy has earned him deep respect within the literary and artistic communities, where he remains a powerful voice and an enduring source of inspiration.