OMG WHAT A RIDE.
Leighton Greene is an amazing author. I spent about 60% of the book wanting to call the police on Xander, shouting at Ben to RUN and FAST, get that fucking psycho under check before he got himself killed.
And I ended up loving Xander SO MUCH. And so dearly!
I didn't trust him, at the beginning. And I think I had good reasons. I was honestly afraid for Ben's life quite often, and when they started their 24/7 trial, I was ready to call it quits.
But the book surprised me. Because it wasn't trying to show me that was ok. The opposite. New Xander is the Xander who's deserving of my love. The vulnerable, scared, brave sadist. How he can be so cruel and at the same time so endearing it's a mystery, but it worked.
There's a few things here that made me lower my rating to 4 instead of 5:
- the ending, with the whole mystery on who was selling the blinds, dragged a lot. Like a lot.
- I wished I knew MORE about Xander's perspective, his past, his trauma. He almost killed a guy, ffs. I want to know about that in more detail than presented.
- The rhythm really slowed down in the last 20%. It was a struggle to get to the end by that point.
But this is a brilliant series. It can get pretty dark. The s/m is quite extreme. But Xander and Ben really love each other, they have great chemistry, and are willing to go through all the hurdles to become better versions of themselves so they can build a healthy, functional relationship together. And I loved that. I loved to read about their ups and downs, their emotional journey, and the psychological effect extreme kink can have in a relationship.
Plus this is honestly incredibly fucking romantic at times and I love that very much thanks
bye now