✰ 3.25 stars ✰
“But the water that gives life can take it. The love that feels forever can fade. People are messy and broken and achingly beautiful, and life is never quite what it seems.”
I really don't know what to make of The Long Way Back. I, honestly, did not find anything off-setting about the writing. I liked how the POV's alternated between Charlie and Eva, and how there was a clear distinction between the mother and daughter's personalities and perspectives. What I don't quite understand, what was the true intent of this story.
On one side, it gave me the impression that parents shouldn't be too invested with their children - giving them the breadth to grow and be their own person. On the other hand, we get a little glimpse into the many beauties of the United States - satisfying the wanderlust in all of us, but still, showing the precautions one should take while traveling, especially alone. Another side showed me how damaging social media can be, once again, for Instagram influencers, or even, having your child in the spotlight - giving people the ability to latch onto them to fulfill their own desires. And then, the other part of me was perplexed at the cause behind Eva's disappearance - and why, she even felt the need to move in that direction in the first place.
Do you see what I'm getting at? I felt that there were too many plot devices and so many themes that were being tackled, that I couldn't quite figure out, what exactly it was that I was supposed to take away from this book. There were just so many points that I felt were thrown into this mix, so much that wanted to be addressed, that I couldn't feel wholly satisfied with any of them. 😩 💨
“God, being a mother is agony, Charlie thinks. Bittersweet and aching and inexpressibly beautiful. And hard.”
It started off really strong; Charlie's fear of not remembering what happened to her daughter was palpable. I liked the little pieces and clues that were laid out, as she tried to recall what could have happened, her adamant belief that she had not harmed Eva, that something had happened to her, all the while, reflecting on her relationship with her, and how much Instagram had become such a strong staple of their lives. Those instances, I felt like it was a cautionary advice that we shouldn't be so overwhelmed and consumed by the allure of an online presence - because, really that's all that it is. And when it becomes such a big part of your life - when it entirely becomes your life, there are going to be repercussions.
“Motherhood is push and pull, back and forth, I love you even when you disobey, walk away, keep secrets. Maybe especially then, Charlie thinks, because I know you. I know you like I know the rhythms of my own body.
A mother doesn’t have to think about it, the innate knowledge of her child in the world is a part of who she is. Until it isn’t.”
As much as I empathized with Eva's frustrations and her feelings towards her mother, I did not quite buy the reasoning behind her disappearance. I get that this is something that is happening - that it should not be ruled out - but, it seemed so far-fetched...that I did not quite believe it. But, the extent of her disappearance was so severe, that again, I'm conflicted on what should I take away from this. Should the readers sympathize with Eva and her predicament - that if she hadn't been so distanced from her mother, she could have avoided this entirely?
Or should we be angry with her rash impulsive actions of first love that led her to this situation, and that her mother should have been more involved in her life? That imbalance of trying to weigh out the right over the wrong, I think, marred my enjoyment of it; because in hindsight, it just teaches me that, despite them being such a loving family onscreen, off-screen, there was no balance and stability to their lives. And if there had been, perhaps, all of this could have been avoided. 😩
“Charlie still had her camera, and Eva still had her words, and maybe there were better ways to share and connect, to remind people to open their eyes and their hearts.
To explore the world around them and smile at the people they met. To always take the long way back.”
But, then the rational part of me kicks in that says, 'Amina, think about the title' - what is the author trying to say with this? 🤔 And then, I kinda understand why the story went in the direction that it did; that, despite the outlandish predicaments that this mother-daughter duo found themselves in, it was that they would still find their way back to each other - even if they had to take the long way back. So, if that was the intention behind this story, then, I suppose, it did achieve that. I just wish it could have been executed in a more believable scheme of things.
So, while this book left me with mixed feelings, I still found it engaging enough to pique my interest to read it till the end; so, I guess, it deserves some credit for that. 🤷