What the fuck did I just read?! You know, before this book I was having a really good reading month. I think the last 3 books I've read were 5 star books. I knew it was too good to be true. I am a sucker for Fake Dating or Marriage of Convenience trope so I was really excited to read this book. I really wanted to like it. In the beginning I kind of liked it. As I kept reading I tried lying to myself and telling myself that I was enjoying the book. I ignored the signs that told me to stop reading. When I got to the MMC pov I wanted to do anything but continue reading. I went on tiktok. I even posted updates on here. I NEVER POST UPDATES ON HERE WHILE I'M READING A BOOK. I usually love the guys pov in books but I could care less for his. I'm not usually a quitter. I hate to dnf books, so like the masochist that I am, I tortured myself by forcing to read out this book. I definitely skimmed this shit though. This book felt so fucking try hard. It was like the author was trying so hard to make the MMC this super hot alpha and it had me not liking him. It was as if this book was written for tiktok. You know, it had those scenes where you could take and make a tiktok and trick someone into thinking it's going to be a good book. Y'all, I disliked this book so much, I SKIMMED THE SEX SCENES. It could have been the most toe curling smut, I'll never know because I skimmed it as fast as possible...like read a word a page kind of skim. Anyhow, here's for the spoilers. This is your official warning.
So they both had secrets from eachother. His secret was that he got kidnapped, sexually assaulted, and killed the man. (I'm just going to copy and paste from the book)
"So, I let him do it. I didn’t want to touch him, so I let him stimulate me with electricity. To my absolute horror, I found it turned me on. Bastard started me off on small doses, then higher ones, training me to get an erection and come on command. And all along, he watched me and jerked off."
Okay so there's that. That's his secret. He told her. No one else knows. His secret is out and now it's just her secret. SHE WAITS TO TELL HIM CHARTERS LATER so ofcourse, I'd think her secret is so much bigger than his. I mean come on, he told you he killed a man, so your secret has to be way worse than his if it takes you so long to tell him. Then now, she breaks up with him because according to her, (I'm pasting this straight from the book)
"He’s too perfect."
"So are you."
"I’m not." I hunch my shoulders. "You know I’m not."
Well shit, so now I'm thinking, she's a Serial Killer or eats babies or some shit. I mean come on. He told you he got turned on by something his assaulter did and killed him. You think he is too perfect and you're not perfect enough. Her secret has to be mindblowing right? I mean she broke up with him because of her secret! It has to be the worst thing ever if it has so much impact right?! WRONG. SO FUCKING WRONG. The big secret that she broke up with the love of her life for is the face that she has alopecia and is bald!! What in the fucking Jada Pinkett Smith is that shit. That's what she broke up with him for?! Look, I'm a girl who has every insecurity in the book, so I know how it makes us do some dumb shit but BFFR. BE FUCKING FOR REAL. You think this man is so perfect, and you love him and he love you, but you leave him because you are bald?! Come on now. Okay let's try to see it from her pov. She's bald. It's her biggest insecurity. She's sacred to tell him. She leaves him because of it. Maybe it's because she's scared he would stop loving her if she's bald. BUT ONCE AGAIN. BFFR. If the man you love and who you claim I'd perfect, leaves you because you're bald, HE DOESN'T DESERVE YOU. HE WAS A PIECE OF SHIT IF HE DID THAT.
But, like we already established, the MMC is "perfect". So here's the kicker, HE ALREADY KNEW SHE WAS BALD. He had her investigated since the beginning of the book. He just thought it was something she would tell him when she was ready. So she really broke her heart, and his heart because of something he already knew! I'm not usually this mean in my reviews but once again BFFR. what kind of fucking plot twist was that?! I want back the time in my life I wasted reading this book. I also want a freaking apology to the people on tiktok who told me this book was the best book ever written.