Thank you to tandem collective
And simon and schuster for sending me a copy, and for having me on the Tandem readalong!
Please note that the trigger warnings for this book are child sexual abuse, grooming, cohesion, manipulation, and cohersive behaviour.
My thoughts:
A gut wreching read. The abuse that Joe suffered when he was seventeen at the hands of his teacher is heartbreaking. When reading, you can see how manipulative, gaslighting, and abusive Miss P is, and how at 17, Joe is very vulnerable and is just a child. You kind of forget at different stages that he is 17, but he then does something that shows his age, and my heart breaks for him. Being 17 is very hard, and you read the pressure Joe is under with what is happening with Miss P and her manipulated ways, keeping it all a secret and lying to friends and family, and school and you just want to hug him. Joe was completely robbed of his teenage years, and he would never get those back. My heart breaks for him.
It is written in a more fiction than a non-fiction narrative, which I loved, but because it is written that way, I kept on forgetting that this is non-fiction. The book completely gripped me, I couldn't stop reading (the short chapters helped), I basically inhaled the book in 4 days.
The last chapter just left me speechless and made me go "wow" out loud, and I cried. I will never have words for that chapter.
It makes me sick that people in authority use their position to abuse children. I cried when I read the afterword, which discusses the Independent Inquiry into Child Sexual Abuse.
Thank you, Joe, for sharing your story with the world. It was very brave. I can not imagine how hard that must have been, and I will not forget it. My thoughts go out to everyone who has been abused 🤍