How can an mmc be the most whiney insufferable little shit when he can’t even talk??? 😭😭 tell me why this man threw a tantrum and locked himself in his room for WEEKS, refusing to speak to anyone or even eat, because he was surrounded by people who don’t like him?? That was not cute. Especially since the people who don’t like him actually had extremely valid reasons to dislike him. It turned out to be invalid because their reasons were based on incomplete information but how tf do you expect people to know everything when you keep it all to yourself??? He did NOTHING about it!!! He just sulked!! Didn’t try to fix anything. Just left it all up to the fmc. Very uncool.
I enjoyed the first book a lot. It wasn’t a 5 star read, but it was fairly close. There was something about it though that just put me off and I couldn’t figure it out, and I think I was right to be somewhat sceptical about this series because it absolutely TANKED in enjoyability during this book. I’m so disappointed.
So for starters, nothing happens. And I mean that so literally, for the first half of the book, absolutely NOTHING happens. Mmc is, as previously stated, sulking in his room. Fmc is wandering around being depressed and feeing hopeless about mmc isolating himself. I can only read so many boring conversations with uninteresting side characters about plot that happened over a century ago when absolutely nothing else is going on. Someone DO something!!! Stop establishing backstory and world building that should have been outlined in book 1!!! I’ve spent time with the characters now, I want the plot to happen. But alas, it didn’t. Until about halfway that is, but by this point the book had lost me and I was barely paying attention. Don’t ask me to describe how it ends. I should have dnf’d before this put me in yet another slump.
I just…. Ugh. The romance is what I read these books for, right? No two ways about it. I read for the tension, the yearning and the eventual culmination of all of that tension and yearning into a love I can fantasise about. That is the single most important thing I look for in books, prioritised above all else. I do like some plot with my smut, don’t get me wrong. I generally want there to be something going on. But I need the romance. It’s essential for me to enjoy a book, and I do not want to read books without romance. I don’t care what that says about me, I’m a lovergirl. So, having established that so everyone knows how vital it is for me, the romance in this book (book, not series, because book 1 was enjoyable) was extremely unsatisfying. There was just no growth!! Even if the mmc hadn’t been the most annoying fucking manbaby ever, it felt frustrating as hell because it’s like he wasn’t even trying. Fmc kept saying that she couldn’t save him and that he needed to save himself etc etc, or some variation of those words, and he kept saying he would try, but I just found that so fucking tedious. Don’t tell me you’ll try. JUST TRY. MAKE SOME EFFORT!! I read these books to escape from how disappointing real life men are, and this man was just giving emotionally constipated manchild weaponising his incompetence. Maybe I’m being too harsh. He clearly has a lot of complex self esteem and ptsd-related issues, and he’s really not a bad guy. He’s just does not meet the standards I’ve come to expect from a book boyfriend.
The fmc was actually fine. I did find her grating at times, more so in this book than the first, because in book 1 her anger and frustration at mmc’s complete lack of communication (and not because he literally can’t talk, he just refuses to communicate at all. He learns sign language AND has a notebook and pencil. They ‘speak’ the same language. Don’t give me bullshit about how you don’t know what to say, sack up and COMMUNICATE!!!) felt justified. But now it’s like… girl come on. Why are you still so unequivocally dickmatised over this man?? He’s extremely annoying and he’s not improving in the slightest. Have some self respect atp idk.
Anyway this book pissed me off and yes this review is harsh, but I put time into this. I bought the audiobook because it was so fucking boring that I couldn’t physically read it without zoning out every 5 sentences. But please don’t take this review as an objective ‘this book sucks, don’t read it’ kind of thing. That’s never what my reviews are about. This just really did not hit for me personally, and I’m annoyed about that. Good thing personal taste is incredibly subjective!! This might be fantastic for many of you. Not for me though 😮💨 I do not want to continue this series, because it will put me into a slump. I can feel myself slumping hardcore after this because it was such a slog to get through and I really don’t want to be there again, it’s miserable. Reading is basically the only thing that brings me joy these days. I do not want to force myself to finish a series that upset me this much, but I do want to see if mmc ever gets his shit together and/or his voice back. So I’m undecided. For now though, I’m keeping the rest of this series on the tbr and I’m going to read something I will actually enjoy.