Finding your voice, only for it to be snatched away from you again.
Set in Hilbrow, Parktown, Johannesburg, Cape Town and Nigeria; Her Silent Screams by Busisekile Khumalo follows the story of Fatima Farrah Omar, a mute, Muslim girl who gets bullied for being different and for catching the eye of the rugby captain, Banzi.
Falling in love with Banzi is easy but she never expected him to love her back with the same intensity and slowly peel her away from the shadows. Farrah blossoms, coming into herself and just when all the stars are aligning; ghosts from Nura, her mother’s past come knocking leading to their abduction and hell in the Nigerian jungle. Will they ever escape? Or will their screams go unheard like the silent screams in her head.
She found her voice. Though she's mute, she is loud in her head. She speaks her mind. She loved hard and worked hard, silently. No one cared or recognized her, she was invisible to many and was considered dumb by her school and classmates. Little did they know she was gem. She showed them by her academic record, winning a speech competition that lands her a scholarship, and finding love with a boy most "normal" girls only wished for, a whole rugby captain.
Set in Hilbrow, Parktown, Johannesburg, Cape Town and later, Nigerian camps; the book follows the story of Fatima Farrah Omar, a mute, Muslim girl who gets bullied for being mute and for snatching their dream boy, Lwandlelubanzi Lunika. She calls him, Banzi.
Given her state, being mute, she never thought any boy, let alone a whole rugby captain, would fall so deep in love with her. But like everyone, no one is perfect. Everyone we meet is fighting their own demons, so was Banzi but their love is strong enough to survive it all. They are young, and they are ready to explore together this life thing. It was nice to watch their young love blossoms and how they respected their bodies. As they grow and exploring, they manage to help each other peel off each other's layers. They are helped doing this by Banzi's supportive and loving mother, Azabenathi (Nathi). She does not only find love from Banzi but she is loved dearly by his family.
When they thought all the demons have been conquired, ready for varsity life, nightmares start visiting Farrah. Nura, her very loving and protective mother promises her it's just dreams. But the nightmares do not go away and they become intense each day. The past is catching up with Nura and she knows it and she can feel it as she starts preparing Banzi and Farrah for the unknown. One morning, the inevitable happens. While trying to escape with her daughter, they are abducted by Boko Haram. They are swept off from Johannesburg streets, leaving Banzi in a sad and confused state with his family. He is left depressed and helpless.
In the camp, where they are tortured, the Omars are still alive. The conditions are bad and they are not the only ones abducted. Nura finds an opportunity to finally let Farrah and the reader in on her past. It's not nice, it's bitter, horrible and painful. Though you understand why she was protecting her from the truth, you can't not blame her for hiding the truth. But mothers are like that, anything that might affect their kids, they hide. To them, it's protection first. They scream silently while trying to give their kids the best they can, it's a story of many mothers out there.
The story leaves you hanging, and one only wishes for the two to escape and return to South Africa. But it looks like Nura has accepted her fate and the only thing she is left with is prayers for protection for those close to her and forgiveness. Even when tortured, she feels nothing. Her screams are silent but she has no energy left in her. What will become of Fatima? As we wait for book 2.
Thanks Busi for bringing Farrah back to our lives. I thought I would be bored reading this because I read it years back from Facebook, but hey, I could not stop turning the pages because even then it was an amazing and powerful story of our time. It opened many conversations that were too deep and that we could relate to. I also enjoyed the short chapters because they kept calling me to continue. Well-researched and well-delivered. I further enjoyed giving us the silent screams of a boy child. The expectations the society has on them which denies them the opportunity to be vulnerable and share their feelings. I loved him for Farrah, and I loved that for him.
1 of the most captivating stories I've read, the struggles Farrah endured daily were captured and the emotions are raw. I believe the end touches a topic so many authors are afraid to touch and I can't wait to read how it unfolds in the sequel
The most challenging is the male child struggles of being human while behaving as expected of a man by ignoring his femininity, it hurts and breaks even the most hardened of hearts
Ok, now I’m done sulking 🫣. Her silent screams, oh man! The first few lines didn’t give me the “focus on me only” feeling (I don’t know if I’m making sense). I put the book down on the very first page. After a good five minutes, the voice inside my head said, “you do know Busi right? She’d never do you dirty”. That’s when I picked up my book and started again. The best decision I had ever taken❤️. The whole high school experience made me feel like my one was half lived 🤧. Can we talk about my favourite part, Lubanzi and Farrah’s love 😍❤️, my oh my! Even in my adult life I’ve never experienced something as beautiful as that. Ma’am, please clone and older version of Banzi for me😂. I’m a sucker for love! A love so beautifully shared and written 👌🏻 I cried a few times🙈. With regards to the bullying, I wish the anti-bullying campaign would be louder! From home to schools! Teach your kids not to bully others!!! Now, can we get to the part where my heart went from 🫀to mince meat 💔😭. Human trafficking! The ordeal that trafficked humans go through is beyond what my tiny heart can ever take. It’s a story that deserves to be told and you told it well! I cried for every missing person, and all those that are indeed trafficked and going through all that. Lastly, the spirit will never mislead anyone. Before Farrah and her mom got trafficked, the spirit had been warning them both. Thank you maka-Thingo for such a beautiful story🫶🏻. I really hope my spirit is not misleading me 🫣 and that Farrah is really pregnant and that the baby survives 😂😂.
If you are looking for a story about 2 totally different people falling in love and beating the odds and societal norms by dealing with their traumas to find healing and be the best version of themselves - this is it.
Farrah and Banzis story is one of the most amazing healing stories I have ever read. You ride this awesome wave of all sorts of emotions. We all know the world is a very cruel place but will their love be enough to carry them through?
It was beautiful. I loved every single word. I felt all of Farrahs' emotions from the moments she was in school, at home with Nura, her conversations with Nathi and most of all her Grizzly Bear. This book is definitely a masterpiece 🤍
“As always, my screams are silent. They are only loud in my head, and only I can hear them.” Somehow each time she shoots up much higher than the previous time and no, she no longer exceeds my expectations, she exceeded them all a long time ago. @Busisekile Khumalo
Farrah: “What if he has found someone who doesn’t come with as much baggage as me.” When it came to love she had nothing to worry about, no pressure to engage in things that she was not ready for. When she found love, she found a boy who is more than capable of taking care of her. But she was familiar with pain from the age of two, she didn’t have a father, a daughters first love like her mother, her’s was a monster, the foundation of the abuse she received as a result of not having a voice. When he walked out of their lives he left an opening for vultures to come and take as they pleased and they took more than her mother knew.
Banzi: “I know, baby, let me pamper you. You deserve the world, but all I can offer you, for now, is my heart and my arms.” Without any doubt he did give her his heart. Banzi is a dream, a boy who is not afraid to show his emotions and has given himself and his heart wholeheartedly to love. At his age he has pure intentions for the girl he fall madly in love with. He is not perfect, he has his own demons to fight which are as a result of his father actions but all that does not stop him for becoming the best that he is. The kind of a boy who wishes he was there to protect even though he did not know you at that time.
Nuru: “when you lose her, don’t beat yourself up and don’t hide behind drugs. She will find her way home. You are her home. Take care of my babies, Banzi.” Had I done the review the same day after I had finished reading I would have messed it up with her mother, I was angry at her for hiding such a big secret even though she knew it would follow her and made no plans to deal with it once it had arrived. But she is a mother and like all mother’s she wanted to shield the truth for as long it was possible. She was her daughters best friend, loving and understanding. I command her for not depriving her daughter the opportunity of experiencing that first love even though she knew from her own experiences how deep it hurts when you have made the wrong choice. She was once a young girl herself, her father’s princess who lost her first love when she fell in love with a wrong man who became everything to her until it all changed when her kids turned two. The worst was not her abusing husband leaving, it was the consequences of what his leaving turned to be that messed up their lives and followed them till the end.
“I have learnt to read your body and your eyes because when you are not being a smart mouth, you are so good at hiding your pain and fear.”
Bad Stuff: The reason I didn't give this a 5 star is because of the 'The most popular boy I have a crush on will not like me' trope I've seen so many times and not a fan of. I get what it was trying to do (portray insecurities of being a teenage girl) but it's a little off-putting when a female main character doesn't think she's pretty until the right guy comes along because irl that shouldn't be the case.
And of-course we had to throw in the cartoonish 'mean girl'. Just because, I guess. She had no reason to be a mustache twirling villain that I've seen so many times in high school settings before. And this kinda diminishes the grim reality the MC faces later in the story. I think maybe we should have toned her down a bit idk, make her more obscure (I think is the right way to put it). I think that would have made her menacing without the melodrama. This book doesn't deserve the high school rom com cliches. But I digress, I'm not really a romance fan overall so maybe it might appeal to some people.
Good Stuff: I picked this book up because it promised thriller which it delivered, learning about another culture/religion (which I love). I live in South Africa too, but that setting felt like a whole new world and not at the same time. That's how a story should be, and why most people enjoy reading so much.
I don't know much about mutism, so I won't comment on the relatability, or the slurs used, but the representation is fair, I think. I loved that mutism wasn't romanticized like how most conditions/disabilities are in most books. I think if you're looking for a captivating psychological survival thriller exploring being different and some lot of other dark themes. I won't say much, all I'd say is: go in blind you'll enjoy it more.
Overall being in Farrah's head was an immersive experience despite the downsides, I can forgive it.
This compelling read was–and continues to be–the talk of town across the close-knitted circles of local independent authors and readers since its recent release. However, apart from the unrelenting hype, the one reason that drew me to sitting down to this particular novel was simple: after constantly hearing about the critically acclaimed Nomaswazi, Lola's Heart and The Harvard Wife amongst other previous releases, the matter was settled: Khumalo's sixth official publication would be my first formal introduction into her burgeoning catalogue. I wanted to see for myself what the hype was all about.
HER SILENT SCREAMS is told from the perspective of Fatima Farrah Omar, a 17 (and later, 18) year-old Somali refugee living in Hillbrow with her hardworking but constantly on-edge mother, Nura. Her story is one of undying resilience in the face of detriment and trepidation; a suffering endured in literal silence: she is mute. Told across numerous locations from Johannesburg and Cape Town in South Africa, all the way to Abuja and the dangerous jungles of Northern Nigeria, hers is a heart-rending tale that leaves the reader wondering: "When will it ever end?"
After a four year-long horror story at the hands of the pretentious Naidoo family, the Omars begin their tentative path into living a somewhat normal life under volatile conditions at the Safari building in Hillbrow. With Nura away almost all the time due to working a ridiculous amount of hours on end to put food on the table, Farrah (she is referred to by her second name throughout the novel) is tasked with navigating new challenges every "blessed" day. If it's not the unfair bullying and snide remarks aimed at her from fellow pupils and teachers due to her inability to talk, it is having to remain safe in an unreasonably violent environment, all while expected to maintain her identity as a devoted follower of Islam, her faith itself coming under personal scrutiny under the duress of seemingly insurmountable difficulties.
Life takes a turn for the better when after a silly accident involving one of her persecutors and some really heavy books, she encounters Lwandlelubanzi Lunika, the beloved rugby captain and darling of the school, who immediately takes a liking to her personality, as well as her freckles. Banzi (her endearing nickname for him) becomes her knight in shining armour and in time, their undying love for each other blossoms into a grand relationship shared by both the Lunika and Omar families, a valuable character arc for the latter family who, after their haunting period with the Naidoos, learn to trust once again.
A series of deserved success lie in Farrah's path, but again, the cold clutches of pain and struggle refuse to surrender. Banzi endures some domestic troubles of his own, which reopens many wounds of the past. Ultimately, Nura's own unaddresssd demons throw the family into jeopardy, and a fit of terrible nightmares foreshadow the inevitable. Farrah is left to fight through a terror that strips her of everything she's achieved thus far, throwing everything–her studies, her relationship with Banzi, and her hard-earned scintilla of comfort–into an abyss of endless uncertainty.
Before I go any further, I would like to state categorically, that the hype is certainly not misplaced. The writing style resembles the mind of a teenage girl scribbling her deepest thoughts in a journal, to a tee; an appropriate tone that would appeal to youngster attempting to make sense of the world. The appearance of the generic perfect superhero I'd-kill-anyone-who-lays-a-finger-on-you boyfriend archetype commonplace in female writing on Wattpad seems at first to serve as plot armour for Farrah's need for support and protection. But as the story progresses, the mini-plot behind Banzi's character design plays its part in the grander scheme of things, contributing immensely to portraying the unknown depths of his and Farrah's heartwarming intimacy. The school environment and the erotic scenes are reminiscent of a certain high school series starring Ama Qamata and Khosi Ngema, which earns its place in the book as a decent reflection of the youthful exuberance spawned by young love and raging hormones. Khumalo is certainly not afraid to torture her characters, each one with a story of their own that makes you wonder how much one human being can take, and simultaneously, leaves you in awe of their ability to make the effort to solve their problems and become better human beings.
As someone who is familiar with Berea and Hillbrow, Khumalo's banter and commentary regarding these places are satisfyingly accurate, but her pidgin (expressed through the lovely character of Amaka) leaves much to be desired. The pidgin is like that of a Southy woman with an affinity for Nollywood films enrolled in a beginner's class for making jollof rice and egusi stew. A for effort, certainly, but thankfully, Amaka's appearance as a recurring character meant that the number of times I cringed with embarrassment every time she opened her mouth were kept at an acceptable minimum.
Nonetheless, that takes nothing away from the engaging manner with which the book is written. The usage of Somali (and sign language) between mother and daughter, the recognition of Islamic practices and rituals, and the evidence of research denoted during one of Farrah's most rewarding successes, builds a world that is meticulous in detail without falling into the trap that one too many authors tend to commit by wanting to prove that they've done their homework. In that regard, Khumalo's exceptional artistry eclipses all other perceived shortcomings. Each detail is relevant to the story, intertwining social issues with personal affairs that build layer after layer of complexities that merge and clash, but never interrupt or outshine the importance of the other. The ensuing chaos flows and ebbs with every word, taking the reader through periods of perfect peace and utter calamity, but never in between.
With an ending that leaves the story in mid-air, a set of new questions are brought to light, the most obvious being, "Where to from here?" Without a shadow of a doubt, anyone who reads HER SILENT SCREAMS (myself included) is left salivating at the mouth for more to feed their piqued appetites. Khumalo has set the table for a much-anticipated sequel, and like a lustful Banzi in heat, we're going to have to wait with blue balls until then.
Her Silent Screams (Book 1) by Busisekile Khumalo (REVIEW)
I’m a sucker for love. And heartbreak. And books that punch you in the gut then hug you right after. Busisekile Khumalo does all that so well in this book, so it’s a HELL YES for me.
I’m also a sucker for well-researched stories, well-developed characters and uninhibited writing. I’m also a sucker for plot-twists I didn’t see coming and a sucker for cutesy couples.
Clearly, I’m just a sucker of many things… okay that sounds wrong, scratch that part.
Where was I? Yes, the first book in the HER SILENT SCREAMS Trilogy by BUSISEKILE KHUMALO.
We meet Fatima FARRAH Omar aka Freckle Face (As her boyfriend calls her). She is mute but not deaf, a mistake many people make. She lives with her mother Saffiya aka NURA in a small flat in Hillbrow, Johannesburg. Nura is very guarded and keeps her head down (We eventually find out why she is the way she is. She had it HARD. Life was cruel to her in ways even the devil would step back and say, “Ya no, that’s enough now.”)
Back to the story:
Farrah has it rough at school. She’s bullied by Lerato (Banzi’s ex) and her goons, and everyone thinks she’s dumb because she can’t speak. She just wants to disappear and be left alone… until Banzi happens.
Lwandlelubanzi Lunika (uGrizzly Bear ka Farrah or Lwandle or BANZI) is the rugby captain, so of course never in Farrah’s wildest dreams did she think someone like him would choose someone like her. Banzi is a beautiful, gorgeous, sexy piece of snack I would gobble down in one sitting (I feel like a paedophile writing this… He’s of age though, so judge me less).
With Banzi, Farrah is suddenly seen and heard (even without a voice.) Banzi’s family welcomes Farrah and they love her like a daughter. Nura is against the relationship at first. We understand why even though Farrah doesn’t.
Both Farrah and Banzi are broken. Farrah has a blurry past, unspeakable trauma and confidence issues. Lwandle is a hot head with anger issues and a past filled with girls, debauchery and substances. They unpack their pain together in a raw, beautiful way. Banzi builds Farrah up, she calms him down. It’s imperfectly perfect.
We watch them go through Matric together, share university dreams, family road trips, therapy, parties and all things swoonworthy. They explore love in the most honest of ways.
As we go, Nura starts dropping cryptic one liners when she gets into trance-like states. It’s premonitions (Is it foreboding?). We just know that something horrible is going to happen soon. The past is catching up and Nura is scrambling to prepare Banzi and Farrah for what’s coming, but she’s so vague, even my adult brain doesn’t understand it at the time. So imagine Farrah’s 18 year old brain.
And then at the pinnacle, at the climax of it all, when happily ever after is at our fingertips, BAM - Broken doors… Boko Haram… Abduction… Human trafficking… Torture… Dead bodies… Blood… Unspeakable crimes against humanity… and Farrah slips into a coma.
…the nightmare ends in a place worse than hell, somewhere deep in the Algori jungle in Nigeria.
I closed the book at this point and took a deep breath. Because why is all this happening now? WHY??? I was as shattered as Banzi, if not more. That’s not the real reason I closed the book though. It’s kinda hard to read when you’re crying.
All in all, it’s a 5 star from me because it’s well-researched, well-delivered and I love Busisekile’s command of the queen’s language.
I loved the switch in POVs. It gave me a rounded experience of the characters, including the sidekicks. I loved Nathi, Bongiwe and Khanyo the most. And I was left curious about Lerato. There’s a deep story there.
[Q: If Banzi didn’t have a mute brother (Khanyo), would he have still seen Farrah the same way in the beginning?]
I also loved the cultural richness. Busi wrote Islamic culture with such care and authenticity, it’s clear that research was done and done well. Kudos, Ms Author!
So beyond the romance, Her Silent Screams (Book 1) tackles some heavy issues like human trafficking, r*pe, bullying, PTSD, traumas of all kind, drugs, the societal pressures on boys, family dynamics, healing and more, all without sugar coating them. It shows how secrets can both protect and DESTROY. (Nura should have told Farrah the truth a long time ago!)
End Note: Read Her Silent Screams if you are ready to experience love in its purest form. It will make you laugh, swoon and when you least expect it, it will shatter your heart and leave you gutted.
It’s at this point that you’ll run for Book 2 to search for healing. Then you will be thoroughly gutted until you beg for mercy. You will receive none… but you’ll keep reading and hoping and breaking until your mind crashes and you end up in a psych ward with Farrah.
I just finished reading the book and wow 🥺🥺, truly can’t wait for the next book 📕. It was a little hard to start the first few pages , but before page 10 I was glued on what’s next and intrigued trusting since I have read all of the author’s books. I have heard stories similar to Farrah and Nura in our African continent but this read gave me a better understanding because there were names attached to it! The manner in which it was written made me understand very well since I have watched these kinds stories on the news but how it was written, I saw it all and better understood the plight of the immigrants and the type of atrocities experienced ! This Ibrahim was clearly a devil, and I wondered how many Ibrahims are Lurking in the name of religion in our continent! I feel Nura should have told Farrah the truth, this protecting nonsense is unacceptable to me! She should have had a plan in place with her daughter for when these terrorists come knocking , to separate them for her safety, instead she brought Farrah home to be abducted that fateful day! More importantly, when Must we expect the next book 🤣🤣!! It’s a good read indeed and well done Busi
PS: The healing process for everyone in the boo accept for Nura is totally acknowledged and the incredible love story of this young couple, however, I kept being worried about the day coming when they come knocking on Nura’s door, or kick it down in this instance
Her Silent Screams" by Busisekile Khumalo had me glued to my phone for the past week. The story was so intense and emotional that I need some time to recover before I dive into the next book. Can't wait to read Book 2.
My takeaways from book 1.
1. Resilience & Strength - Fatima's journey shows the immense resilience and inner strength of a person who is often underestimated by society. Despite being mute, she excels academically and wins a speech competition, showcasing that disabilities do not define one's capabilities.
2. Power of Love & Support - The relationship between Fatima and Banzi illustrates the transformative power of love and support. Banzi's unwavering love and his mother's acceptance and encouragement play a crucial role in Fatima's growth and confidence.
3. Hidden Struggles - The story highlights that everyone has hidden struggles, as seen with Banzi's personal battles (drug addiction and Daddy Issues) and Nura's traumatic past. This teaches empathy and understanding towards others, knowing that appearances can be deceiving.
4. Courage to Survive - Fatima and her mother, Nura, show great courage when they are kidnapped and tortured by Boko Haram. Their bravery and strength in such terrible situations are truly inspiring.
5. The Weight of Secrets - Nura keeps her painful past a secret from Fatima to protect her. This shows how parents try to shield their children, but it also shows that keeping secrets can have big consequences.
This was a really good read, I throughly enjoyed the research that was done with regards to the Islamic culture. As a reader I got to learn so much about Muslims.
I enjoyed reading a book about teenagers being teenagers and behaving their age. I enjoyed the way Fatima was narrating her own story, it’s actually fascinating being in her mind.
I hope in the sequel the author doesn’t follow her pattern of separating lovers and reuniting them after a few years, because we’re already seen a similar storyline in her previous books (Nomaswazi & The Harvard Wife).
Just finished reading Her silent Screams and all I can say is *WOW*!!!!
As much as it's been many many years since I was in high school, the story was so relatable and so easy to follow and understand. Farrah's journey through family, her dreams, her struggles, her loud inside voice, love and ultimately her past was so captivating, I legit read the book in about 5 hours 🤭 And ofcourse, you left us with heartbreak and a major cliff hanger😅. I'm so looking forward to Book 2 but no pressure, I can only imagine what it takes to bring such a character and a story to life.
Really amazing storyline. Love how the author is able to tap into different personalities/behavior and portray other characters accurately. The mix of languages + translations deserves a 5/5! She made us readers place ourselves in Fatima's shoes and experience what she went through and although we all didn't date rugby captains in high school, for a short while, we did in this book. Can't wait to see what HSS Magnified hold!
Absolutely amazing! It took me time to get into it but the moment I made it past page 3, I could not put it down. Not only is the writing phenomenal, but the characters kept me coming back. I am a sucker for layered characters, characters that have a past, that have depth and emotion. Sis' Busi gave us that, she gave us characters that are relatable and deep. I really appreciated that. The ending? Diabolical. Can't wait to get into book 2.
Her Silent Screams by Busisikele Khumalo is an incredibly powerful and evocative novel that delves deep into the complexities of the human experience, particularly the struggles and silence of women in difficult situations. The story is expertly written, drawing readers in with its vivid portrayal of raw emotions and harrowing experiences. The author’s prose is rich and captivating, weaving together moments of pain, hope, and resilience in a way that feels almost too real.
What stands out most about this book is the authenticity with which Khumalo portrays the characters' experiences. The emotional depth is striking, and it’s evident that the author has drawn on personal understanding or extensive research to craft such believable and heartbreaking scenarios. At times, it feels as though the narrative mirrors the silent struggles that many face in real life, making it a challenging yet important read. The trauma and emotional turmoil faced by the characters aren't sugar-coated; instead, they are presented in their full, painful truth, forcing the reader to confront the harsh realities of life.
While the book is undeniably moving, its raw portrayal of pain and suffering may be difficult for some readers to absorb. The experiences depicted in the novel are powerful yet unsettling, making the reader reflect on the injustices and struggles faced by many. This level of realness might feel overwhelming at times, but it’s also what gives the book its emotional punch.
Overall, Her Silent Screams is an impactful and well-crafted book that will stay with readers long after they turn the last page. It's a poignant reminder of the importance of speaking up, of acknowledging the silent battles people face, and of the strength required to overcome adversity. While the book’s realness can be tough to swallow, it is ultimately a testament to human endurance and the power of storytelling.