4.5 stars rounded up.
I’ve often had the experience of reading a book and deeply identifying with a character through their struggles, fears and triumphs. In Unfinished Business: Notes of a Chronic Re-reader, Vivian Gornick takes this experience a few steps further. She thinks about and inhabits the lives of characters as if they are living and breathing beings about whom she has strong feelings and opinons and from whom she can learn, all of which changes over time in pursuit of “the unfinished business” which is Gornick’s life-long efforts towards personal growth.
In this book Gornick shares her experiences of decades of reading and how her changing understanding of characters in books reflects and coincides with her own personal growth and maturity. She vividly describes plots, characters, and authors, and examines all three through the lens of her personal history and her current understanding of herself, reflecting on how aging, maturation, and changes in self-awareness and circumstances caused characters to resonate with her in a new way on each reread. She uses personal anecdotes about her life to elucidate her latest insights about a book or a character and their impact on her. Gornick is such good company throughout these musings which are as emotionally open as they are intellectually stimulating.
In this small book of 10 chapters, one chapter per author or subject, Gornick shares her reflections on some of her favorite authors, including D.H. Lawrence, Colette, A.B. Yehoshua, Elizabeth Bowen, Marguerite Duras, Doris Lessing, Natalia Ginzburg, Pat Barker and J.L. Carr.
Gornick doesn’t grapple for self-understanding in every chapter of this reading memoir but she always delights in finding just the right book or passage that speaks to her about her experience or provides her with a different spin on a character or author whom she thinks she fully understands.. One chapter, for instance, is devoted to her adoption of 2 kittens. Gornick had never lived with cats and knew nothing about them; how to care for them, how to understand their play or how to get them to cuddle with her. She struggles to understand these cats and their aloofness well into their adulthood. When Gornick eventually picks up a book by Doris Lessing which was presented to her by a friend when she initially adopted the kittens and was quickly forgotten (“how could Doris Lessing help me with understanding cats?) she finds exactly the information and experiences which speak to her predicament and finds herself not only more educated about her felines but also more comfortable around them.
In one other chapter which doesn't fit the mold of rereading and self-reflection Gornick meets A.B. Yehoshua on her first visit to Israel. Without spoiling this wonderful anecdote I'll just say that Yehoshua found the wrong audience in Gornick for his forceful lecture on the importance of Zionism and his declaration that all Jews, including Gornick, should be living in Israel,. She was so appalled by him that it took years for her to read anything written by him. She delighted in meeting a very different man in his short stories once she was able to open one of his books.
But one of the best examples of how Gornick’s rereading over times changes her perception of a character and herself is in her discussion of Sue Bridehead from Thomas Hardy’s Jude the Obscure. She begins this discussion with an anecdote from one of her own therapy sessions. In the middle of this session Gornick says to her analyst, “Now for the first time I see how devious I’ve been with men in relationships.” Her analyst “allows herself a look of weariness” and asks, “when are you going to act on what you now for the first time see?” Gornick thinks to herself, “what a fate… that of the New York analyst, condemned to listening to analysands, like me, insight manufacturers one and all, forever seeing something for the first time, never being able to act on what they see.” Then she says, “fuck it, let me out of here…. I can’t do it….let me out of this life.”
This memory is followed up with the history of Gornick’s lifelong relationship with the character Sue Bridehead. Searching for an explanation for ”Sue’s godawful behavior" during a reread of Jude, "I recalled this scene in my analyst’s office and thought, “she can’t do it either. She too just wants out.” “She,” being of course, Sue Bridehead.
In her late teens and ‘20s Gornick “ached" for the characters in Thomas Hardy novels and read them over and over again because they reflected her own feelings at that time. “They were doomed to years of suffering… only because they were born in the wrong place and wrong time.” But no character pleased her more than Sue Bridehead with whom she so identified and for whom she felt so much sympathy.
Years later after a reread of Jude she sees for the first time in Sue’s character “how a Victorian novelist tracked the resistance to consciousness which afflicts us all through the movements of a character with so much flesh and blood reality she seems nearly a case study.” The case study is the relationship between Jude and Sue, seeing for the first time Sue’s sexual abstinence and the “double bind of sexual attraction and revulsion.” At that point in her life Gornick sympathizes with Sue’s plight and self-imposed loneliness and sees it as a courageous means to achieve a sense of self through being alone.
“Ten years later Sue’s courageous abstinence lost it’s glamour and Sue was getting on my nerves,” Gornick writes. Now Gornick refers to Sue’s abstinence and relationship with Jude as “lunatic behavior.” And 10 years later, after having an illegal abortion, Gornick felt a sense of foreboding and fear of retribution which she didn’t understand in the least since she was “secular to the bone.” With trepidation and “superstitious dread” she takes Jude off the bookshelf and reads. “For the first time I understood the darkness at the bottom of Sue’s personality and the “willful blindness” which I knew so well.
Most recently she wondered if the novel “had finished saying all it had to say to me.” This is the question she has for many of the novels she returns to again and again.
I listened to the audio version which was narrated by the author.