The boy didn't have cancer. He had something else buried deep within which he named "his Cancer". Others didn't know it was there, even though he tried telling them. Instead, they said he was "fine" and being "silly" and "melodramatic". Even when his anger turned to frustration and streams of tears, they continued to say he was okay. He knew he wasn't though and, the more they doubted him and didn't listen, the more the "cancer" grew.
He could feel it inside and, it scared him. He knew that, one day, it was going to explode. What he didn't know was who would be caught up in the explosion.
From award-winning author Matt Shaw, the author of Sick B*stards, The Octopus Trilogy and Roe V. Wade.
MATT SHAW was born, quite by accident (his mother tripped, he shot out) September 30th 1980 in Winchester hospital where he was immediately placed on the baby ward and EBay. Some twelve years later (wandering the corridors of the hospital and playing with road kill when he was on day release), the listing closed and he remained unsold, he was booted out of the hospital to start his life as a writer and hobbit – beginning with writing screenplays and short stories for his own amusement before finally getting published when he was twenty-seven years and forty-five seconds old.
Once Published weekly in a lad's magazine with his photography work, Matt Shaw is also a published author and cartoonist. Has to be said, can be a bit of a flirt and definitely, without a shadow of a doubt, somewhat of a klutz.
Favourite books "Roald Dahl's Collection of Short Stories" Tim Burton's Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy Anything, really, written by himself. Because he is that good.
Ben Closs is a ten year old boy, who is constantly bullied at school. He has a voice in his head nicknamed “cancer”, which constantly tells him to do bad things, and if he just acts upon it once, then the voice will leave him alone.
This is a novella which I devoured in one sitting, and once again Matt Shaw has turned the “shock” dial up to the MAX!!!
Edited to add: I had forgotten I even reviewed this this thing. If I were to review it now I would be way less nice, don't waste your time with this book and its garbage AI generated cover.
I decided not to rate this one. Ultimately I have a very profound dislike for the tropes used in this story ("the voices in my head told me to do it", bullied child, failure to communicate...) and I knew it before I started reading. I read this book because of the BOH indie authors brawl and I don't think it would be fair of me to give this book a low rating when I knew it wasn't for me and proceeded anyway.
3.5 stars. This was a nasty little affair. Poor Ben struggled so greatly with the voice inside of his head. Not like a normal internal dialogue that we all have, but something a little more...shall we say...direct? Lots of solid plot points and a likeable lead. Where this fell short for me, literally, was the length and the development of both Ben and his dynamics with this voice. There were so many possibilities here and the author could have dragged this out much more, benefitting everything, but it all felt very rushed, abbreviated, and incomplete. This needed to pace itself better and take its time, as it had all the right pieces, but just couldn't fit them together in such a way that gave it all justice. Still a fun way to kill thirty minutes.
Ben was a quiet and shy boy. He was bullied because of this and it was worse when he couldn’t take up for himself. Ben heard voices in his head that kept getting louder, imploring Ben to do something guaranteed to make Ben happy and the voice would go away. What did the voice want him to do? Would he do it?
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I am uh......speechless 😶 😶 😶 😶 Ben (MA PRECIOUS 10-YEAR-OLD) and his what do you call it? Schizophrenia and auditory hallucinations? This is a very quick heartbreaking story about Ben and his so called "cancer" and how his guardians take that thing literally and never even acknowledged the possibility that MAYYYYYYBE your son has auditory hallucinations that tells him to do bad things? We all go through this very short book all from Ben's perspective in the conversations his 'little voice in his head' tells him to do and only different times that he tries to get rid of it like covering his ears with a pillow to make the voice go away and the most important scene in here, stabbing his ears with a compass 🧭 , yes i'm talking about that type of compass.
The book is like really really short (i finished it in like 30 minutes), this lil paperback is such a gem in literature and just the ending of it was really heartbreaking 😭💔💔 i can't really say anything more than that because this would just be on spoilers territory.
I read this in a single sitting. It grabbed me from the start and kept my attention all the way through, which is common from Shaw. :) I loved the creepy vibe Ben gave off. I love how I can connect with Ben, too, though. I was also bullied in school. I'm just Thankful I didn't have the same issue he has. Lol
I did take off 1 star though because of the ending. It leaves you with too many unanswered questions.
This was a good read. It was disturbing to think of a child in this way Ben was portrayed and at ten same time sad too. Too this I of a child like Ben suffering for so long alone not able to speak out. It brings to the forefront the.harm and self doubt that people have with the same issues that then lead to terrible brutal attacks. And intriguing read with some brilliant characters. Recommended.
A sad and disturbing story.... but a very well written book....Ben hears a voice in his head and the more he tries to ignore it the harder it gets....finally he gives into it with a surprising and shocking ending...Matt Shaw is a superb author and can only get better and better. I loved it!!
To be honest I was waiting the ENTIRE story for him to listen to the voice. I kept picturing in my head what he would do. The head in the duffle bag was a nice touch. This is my first Matt Shaw book and the next one I’ve decided to read is Matt Shaw as well. Love love loved the storyline,
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I enjoyed it! It was my first by Matt Shaw and I look forwards to reading more. The story was raw and heartbreaking in so many ways. The hardest thing for me was the disregard adults showed for him when he LOUDLY needed help, because its what happens every day in every school. It was real horror, happening now.
A great story! Matt Shaw has never disappointed, and in this, he really dove deep into the mind. The torment and pain of a fractured mind! Allowing Ben and his "cancer" to really take shape of how mentally someone can be tortured was eye-opening. Not all monsters come from unhealthy environments. Such a detailed and enjoyable mind screw, thanks Matt!
This has to be the first time I've given a horror novella 5 stars Ben's story was so heartbreaking and it really tughed on my heart strings to think a ten year old boy had to go through what he did is so sad I think this book is important I know it's fiction but people really do go through this and the impact that has on those individuals can be heartbreaking I really think this book carries a great mental health awareness and some people may be able to relate to this it was a quick read one I read in one sitting it was hard hitting and it's a book I will think about for quite a while I would highly recommend this book
I did enjoy this and I thought the character development was more than decent for such a short story.
There were a lot of typos which were a little distracting as time went on, but a little polish and care would fix that up.
Very depressing and sort of claustrophobic as you feel trapped with Ben and his cancer. The tension building in that sense was great, and it all unfolded very rapidly at the end.
It was good, more of a 3.5. A good short read, and an interesting premise for a longer novel.
The Things He Heard had me gasp in horror at the end!
I do wish this story was a bit longer and that we had more info on the origins of Ben’s “cancer”. It felt like the story stopped just as things were amping up.
This novella is the first work that I have read from Matt Shaw. I am now looking forward to reading all of his work. This story is chilling and unnerving. The perfect combination!!
This was a very depressing and heart-breaking story by Shaw.
I'm used to his extreme stories, I think this is my first book by him that's not technically "splatter" but I was still intrigued. So captivating and sad. I absolutely loved it!
I love it! It’s a short story about a kid with a voice in his head urging him to commit terrible acts. It was sad how the kid had to endure all the bullying and the persistent voice telling him to harm everyone, but the ending was so satisfying for me. It’s terrible but I like it
Ten year old Ben Closs doesn't have cancer but that's what he calls the voice inside his head. Only he can hear it, no one believes it's there, and it encourages him to do terribly awful things to those around him. No, Ben Closs doesn't have cancer, but he's certain that it would be better than this constantly chattering voice inside his head.
I love Shaw's writing style and I thought the compass scene was pretty surprising but overall this story was pretty lackluster for me. I just didn't enjoy it the way I'd hoped to. I will say the debacle with Sammie the dog tugged at my heart strings a bit though and I certainly wasn't expecting that ending.