Torment Part Two

The Bleeding Hearts #2

by Dylan Page

Torment Part Two is a dark, taboo, MC, contemporary romance.

My dreams are gone.
I’m trapped, controlled, and defeated.

I made a deal that I have to stick to, if I want to keep everyone-including myself-safe.
Shay has given me an ultimatum; be his or someone I love will pay the price. I’ve been trying to figure out how to survive my new life, but the constant demand to satisfy Shay to keep Manic at bay, is taking its toll.

As time passes, I find myself growing comfortable in my cage, and my priorities start to shift. But when secrets start to unveil themselves, I begin to question everyone around me. Who is lying? Who can I trust?

My protector turned into my tormentor, and now, he’s something I don’t know how to live without.

**Warning: This book is meant for mature readers, 18+. Torment: Part Two is a dark romance and contains scenes and situations that may be upsetting for some readers. Includes triggers and sensitive materials such as – BUT NOT LIMITED TO – domestic abuse, profanity, dub-con, gang violence, PTSD, depression, and anxiety disorders. Please do not read if you are uncomfortable with any of the above.
Thank you.

Genres: Dark Romance, Dark, Romance, Abuse, Contemporary, Contemporary Romance, Suspense

324 pages, Paperback

First published June 4, 2021

About the author

When Dylan was younger, she always had an aspiration to tell stories. But before she even knew how to write, she would draw them out. Her mother always encouraged her, and bought her piles of blank notebooks for her to draw out the stories she imagined in her head. Her dad encouraged her to use her words instead. Over the years, he pushed her into writing clubs and bought her notebooks so she could fill them with endless short stories.

When Dylan isn’t busy writing, or spending time with her two boys, she likes to play guitar, piano, and paint. Mind you she’s not good at it, but she likes it nonetheless!

Reviews

[⚔Irunía⚔ · Rating 5 out of 5]

What am I supposed to do?? Cry every time I see a daisy???? 🌼😭 Are. You. Happy. Now. Ms. Page...



“Good girl, Mina,” he whispers, his breath tickling my ear. His thumb brushes away one of the errant tears on my face and, in the dark, I can make out the slow, sultry smile that curls his lips, “Very good girl.”

Author: does not romanticize toxic, abusive love between the psychotic, manipulative stepbrother and his sweet teenage stepsister.

Author: devotes the whole ass book to toxic, abusive love between the psychotic, manipulative stepbrother and his sweet teenage stepsister.

Me:


Now, how I imagine the author looking at all these people who have been rooting for Shay, Mina or, god forbid, Keenan throughout the duology:


Mina??? Mental breakdowns, crushed dreams, ruined psyche, permanent case of sadness.
Shay???? His rotting corpse lies beneath the gravestone adorned with a lonely daisy (and my tears).
Keenan?????? He kinda got his happily ever after with Mina, but did the author give him the time of day in the series?


I wonder if he still keeps asking the same dumb "do you want me to save you, Mina" question. Out of habit no less. Or if he still keeps making her empty promises like "I'll get you out of here, Mina?" :)

Yeah, you guessed right: I cannot stand Keenan and the thought that Shay didn't do me a favour by killing him prior to committing a suicide? My head hurts like a bitch just thinking about how unfair the fictional world is :/

Don't even get me started on why I dislike the dude so much. My brain is still grieving the loss of my most beloved fictional psycho protagonist and I am not able to think rationally. All I ever wanted was Keenan and James' blood being poured right before my puffy eyes, you know? Just to summon a little smile through tears, but oh well... My girl Mina deserved a much better guy who would indeed fight for her and care about her wellbeing. In my dictionary, Keenan is the synonym for second best. He just reaped the fruits that had fallen right into his helpless, wimpish hands and I am feeling a bit salty with such an outcome. Whatever.

“You’re my girl, Mina,” he murmurs, at last while reaching out with his free hand to cup my face, “it’s time you fully embrace that.” He takes a step closer, forcing me to spread my legs so he can stand between them. “Now open your mouth and take me in.”

The number 1 rule for any guy who wants to win a girl's heart : don't fucking kill her mother no matter how much of an obsessed psycho you are. Nah, wait, not right. Do not do anything even remotely close to all the appalling, disgusting, nasty, manipulative tricks that Shay pulled off. Ever. I mean even my ability to make all kinds of fucked up excuses for irredeemable behaviour decided to take a vacation (which speaks volumes for people who know my taste in "heroes").


Play the part, Mina… just play the part. Keep him safe… But even in my mind, I hear myself sob. Mina's despair was so contagious that I might have shed a couple of tears even before the major mindfuck-fest I was subjected to in the last chapter and the epilogue...

Don't mind me, just mourning for the manipulative, cunning, unstable, neurotic, obsessed and psychotic murderer/loverboy is all.
The things he did to Mina were just... unforgivable. Anything he did was actually disgusting and unforgivable. The way he mindfucked Mina, manipulating the teenage girl, twisting her perception of reality and grooming her into an obedient toy he needed?

He reaches up, pressing two fingers to my racing pulse on my neck, the corners of his mouth rising ever so slightly. “I just want you to be with me, Mina. Stop fighting it. Just be good and do as I say, and I’ll fucking love you with all that I have. I’ll make you feel good.” His fingers reverently slide down my neck, skimming over my collarbone before drifting slowly between the valley of my breasts, “Tonight, you fucked up, didn’t you?”
He never laid a finger on her because (*love*) why bother when you are the most creative, manipulative cunt out there?

I know I should hate him because every time I heard something like this from his lips...
“You look like a hot piece of ass,” he murmurs, “and if I can see it, then these desperate little fuckheads can, too. Do you want them to look at you? Do you want them to think they have a chance? I dare them. I dare any of them to try…” Slowly, he turns his head, eying a group of boys who are in the midst of passing us, their eyes flickering from me to Shay and quickly away again, “... because if they do, the police will be finding pieces of their bodies for weeks.”
I didn't even bat an eye. If there is anything worse than Shay speaking his horrendous thoughts out aloud, it is him translating them into deeds.

Shay used to soothe my fears. Now… he is the root of them.


So, why did I believe that Shay really loved Mina the way his sick mind allowed him to?
So, why did I feel that Mina really loved Shay despite the nightmare he had dragged her through? Why couldn't I tear my eyes away from the scary, terrifying love story that isn't even supposed to be called like that?

And more importantly, HOW TF DID THE AUTHOR DARE TO GIVE MY VILLAINOUS BOY SHAY SUCH A BEAUTIFULLY TRAGIC, GLORIOUS END that shattered me to pieces?
I don't know the answers to these questions, y'all. Ask Dylan Page, bye.

In front of me, I see her, that beautiful girl, daisy in hand, looking at me like I’m her whole world, and I feel lighter. For her. This is for her. She’ll be safe, and I’ll be at peace.
What more can I do? Dead men can’t talk, right? Take me back to the night we met...Click.






Now just let me sit in the corner and silently cry the tears of joy I reserved for my precious girl Mina.




P. S. 🗣️ Where do I sign a petition for Shay's son story to be written?? 🗣️

[Mareeva · Rating 5 out of 5]

5 stars

I'm sorry I need a moment...or ten


If I ever want anyone to fuck me up so thoroughly I barely know how to live my life without them, I'd let Shay do the honours. BECAUSE DAMN that man knows how to ruin you.

This book took Shay's character to a whole new depth of obsession, manipulation, and lunacy.

🛑SPOILERS. Ending thoughts hidden in a tag🛑

He became so controlling, to the point where he was in charge of Mina's clothing, food, friends (or no friends, to be more accurate), her comings and goings (actually no comings or goings of any kind), he refused to let her see her stepfather AND FUCKING BRANDED HER PERMANENTLY.

his hand painfully grips a fistful of my hair and gives me a shake. "Say, 'I understand, Shay.'"
"I-I understand Shay," I hiccup through my tears.
"Say, 'I will do what you tell me, Shay.'"
"I will do what you tell me, Shay,"
"Say that you are mine!"
I swallow back the lump in my throat and whisper, "I'm yours."

If she tried to disobey, he taught her a lesson in blood. Not her own, never her own, but those of other people.

That was my favourite thing about Shay, by the way. He never abused her physically. I mean why would he bother when he basically mind fucked her this entire book? His brand of abuse was so much more impactful, hurtful, and lethal. He took her and moulded her into everything he needed, something that physical abuse would never achieve without her fearing him. And Mina? She was mentally raped 300 ways, in every position, and she still felt safe with him.

Here's where we talk about the brilliance of this character development:

Mina initially gave into Shay to protect Keenan. At first she was disgusted, ashamed, and guilty of the things he made her do after dark. Then she began to crave it because that was the only thing that managed to make her feel good anymore.

When before, she was outraged by Shay's controlling nature, with time her entire life revolved around pleasing him. Every action she took was with him in mind. At some point she no longer felt comfortable being her old carefree self because she was in a Shay induced shell for so long.

This man is so talented🤧

She truly and completely loved Shay while fully acknowledging all the shit he had done to her. AND I BELIEVED IN HER LOVE. That is what I appreciate about this series so damn much. Anytime a heroine falls in love with her abusive hero I always ask the same questions.....why? How?? For what???

In Torment however, it all made sense, it was believable and I genuinely understood why she might feel the way she does. It wasn't pure or natural. The love she developed was agonisingly confusing and forced upon her in a way that she could not escape.

Truly, Miss Dylan, my heart goes out to you for writing such a bleak yet amazing portrayal of grooming. Shit was so good, Shay managed to groom me as well.

Something else that I found refreshing was the way this entire book felt...

To be more specific, every time I read dark books with disturbing content, it always feels as if all the insanely dark shit is completely normal. Like it happens to everyone in everyday life, I don't feel the danger or the stakes.

In this series, even though the things Shay does really aren't as disturbing comparing to some of the things I've read, it affected me more. I felt how wrong everything was. How horribly dangerous the circumstances were for Mina, how deranged the hero became, it all felt so much more powerful without being over the top.

Okay, now that I'm done fangirling, I'll go and fangirl some more...

This is me cutting to the chase: the ending was devastating and so damn perfect.
I am actually kind of in shock at the route this book took...and not for the reasons you might think.

Well slap my ass and call me Sally......

MY FUCKING THEORY WAS RIGHT YA'LL (if you wonna see the theory I had for the twist of this series click here, it's in my first review hidden in a spoiler) and the thing is.....I really did not think that was how things would go. I thought I was really reaching with all those conspiracies, some things were just not adding up so I kind of swept it under the rug...but now that it happened I can't say that I'm mad about it.

Shay's end? Magnificent, heartbreaking, redeeming, beautiful....every appraising adjective I could think of.

Mina's end? pretty good💀
Listen I'm happy for her and all, but I don't know about Keenan I'm sorry. I wished she didn't end up with either of the men if I'm being honest. Plus Keenan was barely present in this book and I wasn't feeling him as a love interest.
But hey, she happy = I'm happy.

And of course Dylan Page had to pour acid over fresh wounds by introducing Shay's lil grey eyed offspring.


Overall: I paused my uncontrollable crying to write this review, so now I'm going back to it.

[vee]

”To anyone who has ever felt trapped in the darkness, who have felt lost, consumed by the cruel thoughts in the back of their minds. To anyone who has ever felt like giving up by giving in to those words that rip your heart apart, and make you feel like you don’t deserve happiness or love. Tell those voices to shut up. Pick yourself up, and please reach out for help.

You are WORTHY!
You are a FIGHTER!
You are STRONG!
You are BEAUTIFUL!
You deserve HAPPINESS!

Don’t let the nightmares of the past ruin your hopes of the future. Don’t let your worries of the future overrule your present. Be silly. Be kind. Be present in today and just do the best you can do. This is your life. Whenever anything tries to knock you down, pick yourself back up, and tell them they hit like a bitch.”

but can we take a moment to appreciate the ‘dedication’ section tho?

so. i dunno how to feel rn, hence i’m not gonna rate it. on one hand, i couldn’t enjoy any part of this book like i did w/ the first one, i kept skimming most of it and yeah. the main reason why is bcs of Shay (and other stuff too, but mostly him). yet on the other hand, he’s literally the only reason that made this book memorable for me

random thought first : i really appreciate the way the author didn’t romanticize their dark world. i’m not saying that’s what i want on my romance, cuz i do like some romanticized MC / mafia as well. but i really appreciated how realistic this book is. also, Shay fucking lived up to his street name, Manic. which i loved




anyway

i really didn’t enjoy reading Mina’s miserable condition on Shay’s hand. i really didn’t enjoy reading about their forced non-con relationship :

1. ‘This is Shay. And despite the lines we’ve crossed
over the last several weeks, we are nearing a point of no return. I feel like the man, who was once my faithful guardian and protector, is now transforming into my dark demon.’

2. ‘I don’t like being in here anymore.
When I was little, it used to be a place of refuge, a haven. Even with the knives he had stowed away because they scared me, I had always felt safe with him. Shay used to soothe my fears. Now… he is the root of them.’

3. ‘Play the part, Mina… just play the part. Keep him safe… But even in my mind, I hear myself sob.’

4. ‘Every move I made was with Shay in mind and whether or not he would be happy with me. Everything in my life revolved around him. He was no longer my protector. He was my tormentor. I’d given in to him, but I was still navigating on how best to survive with him.’

5. ‘I was the shell of the person I had once been. I wasn’t strong. I wasn’t capable. I would never be free. This was my life now. This is what I need to accept... I was his.’

i knew Shay was controlling in the first book, and he still managed to manipulate me to liking him anyway. until he forbid Mina to wear her choice of outfit. oh hell no




but even in here, though i couldn’t stand reading their forced sex scenes, and i kept skipping their repetitive fight or whatever the fuck, i still couldn’t fully hate Shay. what is it w/ me?




ᴊᴜsᴛ sᴋɪᴘ ᴛʜɪs sᴇᴄᴛɪᴏɴ. ɪᴛs ɪʀʀᴇʟᴇᴠᴀɴᴛ

MINA. it’s hard rooting for this girl sometimes. i couldn’t make up my mind on how i feel bout Mina on the previous book. but now, sure. so, i decided that while i didn’t hate her, her naivety really is annoying. i’m stuck whether to feel bad for her or wanting her to just die. (problem solved right? well, it’ll devastated Shay, tho. so ugh i dunno. but couldn’t we just get some other root-abable heroine??)

exhibit A, how could she not see what’s been in front of her the whole time? bout the people that James & Shay are? when James hit her mom, she did nothing, and in the end blamed her mom instead for the life they have. can’t she see her mom’s trapped all these time? yet she got traumatized when she caught James & Shay having sex, and drew the conclusion that they’re not the people she thought they were, like it’s such a big deal? like them having sex is such a big revelation?

exhibit B, about the reason behind Keenan befriending her. didn’t she at least suspected it was cuz of the gang? is she really that self-centered? (i mean yea by the end it is bcs of her after all, bcs of her light true love, blablabla, but-). the point is, i don't like her

sᴏ ʏᴇᴀʜ, ɪᴍ ᴘʀᴏʙᴀʙʟʏ ɴᴏᴛ ᴍᴀᴋɪɴɢ ᴀɴʏ sᴇɴsᴇ ʀɪɢʜᴛ ɴᴏᴡ. ʙᴜᴛ ᴇɴᴏᴜɢʜ ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ʜᴇʀ.

”I’ve always been selfish with you. I broke you. I never wanted this. And now, I’m going to let you go, because it will keep you safe.”

i avoided spoilers at all costs about this series, so i’ve got no idea bout anything that’d happen in this book. well, except for 2 things : Mina ending up w/ Keenan and Shay killing himself. yet even knowing that tragic ending beforehand, it didn't fail to effect me by the end. but before we dive in to that one, i just gotta say ; what Shay did to her mom? unforgivable. but honestly not that surprising. the clue’s there from the 1st book. so yeah, i get how his redemption was inevitable, i get how that suicide scene was necessary. tragic, but necessary, and realistically at least… but for me?? :

me 50% in : i want an alternate universe where Mina accepts Shay for how he is and there’s no more reluctant forced reluctant sex, just steamy hot smut

me by the end : u know what? scratch that. i want Shay to find his own true love. i want him to realized that Mina’s just an obsession, let her go, moved across the country, and gave up on love. yet one day, unexpectedly, find his real true love after all that’ll accept him no matter what. cuz even after all he’s done, i still want this baby to get his own HEA.. just not w/ Mina

so yeah, i didn’t mind the fact that Keenan ended up w/ her, cuz i never cared bout any of them anyway, but i’m glad Shay never knew about their relationship, he need not more suffering. my baby can go away w/ peace

as the author said :

”But this was never a love triangle story. This was about a troubled relationship between step-siblings, who live in a tough world, and who both have traumas.”

did i hate Shay for most of the book? :

’I sit back on the bench, a sense of calm rushing over me. I haven’t felt this… right… in a long time. For once, I know, with absolute certainty, that what I’m doing is right. And I won’t be lost in the darkness anymore...’

but did clear liquids involuntarily came out of my eyes and streamed down my cheeks the moment Lord Huron started singing tho? :




random : omfg she gave birth to Shay’s kid btw

so that’s it. that is the end of my thoughts. this book managed to bring many emotions out of me (all for Shay. cuz he’s literally the only person i cared about). i hated him and i loved him and my heart broke for him. overall not the most i cried in a book, but i did cried for the first time in months. so thx book :) (remember to play Lord Huron on the last chapter tho. or else it’s not gonna be the same)

and now i need a book w/ proper traditional HEA

[Fiza · ia · Rating 5 out of 5]

Was just listening to these songs and remembered my shayla 🥹🎶 *shivers with goosebumps*

🎧 𝙸𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚜

I'm still holdin' on to everything that's dead and gone
I don't wanna say goodbye, 'cause this one means forever
And now you're in the stars and six-feet's never felt so far
Here I am alone between the heavens and the embers
Oh, it hurts so hard
For a million different reasons
You took the best of my heart
And left the rest in pieces
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🎧 𝙳𝚒𝚎 𝚠𝚒𝚝𝚑 𝚊 𝚜𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚎

I, I just woke up from a dream
Where you and I had to say goodbye
And I don't know what it all means
But since I survived, I realized
Wherever you go, that's where I'll follow
Nobody's promised tomorrow
So I'ma love you every night like it's the last night
Like it's the last night
If the world was ending, I'd wanna be next to you
If the party was over and our time on Earth was through
I'd wanna hold you just for a while and die with a smile
If the world was ending, I'd wanna be next to you
Ooh
Oh, lost, lost in the words that we scream
I don't even wanna do this anymore
'Cause you already know what you mean to me
And our love's the only war worth fighting for
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🎧 𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚗𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚠𝚎 𝚖𝚎𝚝

I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Oh, take me back to the night we met
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My mind is replaying all the Questionable, Unhinged, Immoral, Deranged things HE DID TO GET HER FOR HER on 1000x

Them: why are you so quiet?
👤🧠: ShayMina

#I'm-officially-tormented
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🎧𝙰𝚕𝚎𝚡𝚊 𝚙𝚕𝚊𝚢 𝙾𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚕𝚘𝚟𝚎 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚑𝚞𝚛𝚝 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜
Don't mind me editing again and again i can't get them out of my 🫀🫁🧠
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Edit#2: after i edited last time i went to bathroom and almost dry heaved GOD I NEED SOMEONE TO SHAKE ME TF UP AND YELL AT MY FACE IT'S JUST A FICTION.. it's not that I'm crying I only cried at the very very end of the book - still not that much but IT HURTS IT PHYSICALLY HURTS BRUHHH😖😫😩
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Edit#1 First thing in the next morning: MY HEART-EU HURTSSS FOR SHAY FOR MINA GOD HELP MEEE I'M UNDER THE WATER
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Need SHAY'S TOXICITY like oxygen atp🔪

[TJ ☾ · Rating 5 out of 5]

4 5 manic stars 😈

(i'm upping my rating bc i was sitting in traffic this morning and shay’s song came on and it got me SO DEEP IN MY FEELS even tho i finished this 2 days ago and that type of emotion just deserves 5 stars 🤷🏽‍♀️)

Song: Lord Huron - The Night We Met

"Good girl, Mina," he whispers. "Very good girl."

before i even start, i just want to give shay the credit he's due. he fucked this girl so thoroughly in the head it transferred over to me.

Shay keeps me safe. He loves me. Everything he does is for me.

*cringes a bit*
*puts book down slowly*
*thinks about it*
*laughs in wonder*

he could teach a psych class on grooming (*coughs* after he sorts through his.... other issues ofc) but essentially, this is how you do it shay o'hare style:

(spoilers for book 1)
1. get em young. 7 years old will do

2. be the model stepbrother. her #1 protector, her biggest ally, her shelter from the storm

3. manipulate her into catering to all ur moods. threaten violence to yourself and others if she disobeys

4. crush any romantic prospects, vet all her friends, dismantle her self-esteem so she only has you

5. mindfuck her by smoothly twisting your brotherly love into something predatory over time, starting w spankings for disobedience that end in orgasms

6. if anyone reaches out a hand to help her, kill em. they can either get with it or get got

7. when she still says no after all that, free will is overrated, blackmail that bitch

now lets dial it up to expert level: (spoilers for book 2)
8. KILL HER FUCKING MOM. SHE'S IN THE WAY. DO IT IN A WAY SO VIOLENT I DONT EVEN WANNA TYPE IT

9. SMASH UP HER LEG SO YOU'VE RUINED HER DREAMS AND PASSION IN ONE FELL SWOOP, INSURING SHE CAN NEVER LEAVE YOU

10. PROFIT FROM ALL THAT PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL TRAUMA BY ISOLATING HER AFTER SO YOU'RE ALL SHE HAS. LIE THROUGH YOUR TEETH ABT IT FOR AS LONG AS POSSIBLE 🙃😌🙃😌🙃😌



so things escalated in this book 🙃 shay took psycho and controlling to a whole new level and he was rly, rly testing the limits of my stan in this book. i mean, shay—



there were multiple points where i well and truly hated him and wanted him dead, but ya know what, he always won me back over. it's quite simple honestly:

🤡 sometimes i hate him
🤡 most times i love him
🤡 sometimes i wanna beat his ass
🤡 most times i wanna fuck him
🤡 sometimes i want him dead
🤡 most times i want his redemption

he is such an interesting/entertaining character, probably one of my favorites ever. the amount of times i have to pause reading just to think to myself "holy shit he's so fucking crazy" is phenomenal. while his actions are beyond appalling and i would never in a million years condone ANY of them, like seriously he is so wrong on a million sick twisted different levels— he's also so well written it's easy to track his demented logic to understand where he's coming from, why he's doing the things he's doing, and how he got to this place. to me, he is a sympathetic villain. the tragedy and immorality of his character is enthralling and reading the fictional manipulation/mindfuck he brings to the table is just captivating.

"What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you fucking insane?" I scream.
"YES! I am! I'm fucking crazy! I'm out of my mind!"

mina rly grew into herself in this book too. as for the ending......... *deep sigh*

ya im flexing when i say i called that shit. i actually am very satisfied w the ending bc from book 1 this has never been a romance. it's... idk what but something else. while i do love shay and was rooting for him, his death was his redemption and sacrifice and penance and it's tragic but i love that. i rly think it's the only way this duet could've ended and the only way shay could’ve been redeemed.

imo tho james' character is still top tier trash. he really fucked every character over. his son, who he knew had mental problems but instead of finding him help, threw him in a toxic lifestyle that would only exacerbate his problems and make it even more impossible to seek treatment. his wife, who he lied to, cheated on, abused, and held captive. and his stepdaughter, who he fed to his fucked up son. so ya that bastard can stew in that forever.

i think the one thing i didn't like was that mina ended up with keenan. i would've rather her have found some other guy way into her future. this book just made me not like keenan. all in all tho i thought this was a great conclusion and the writing was fantastic.

my advice for ppl wanting to read this duet (besides to read the trigger warnings) is don't treat it as a romance. it is beautiful and sad and tragic and uncomfortable and 1000% worth reading if you enjoy stories with dark themes but i wouldn’t call it a romance. and i actually love it more for that quality. also, enjoy 🖤

[bookaddict lass (kate) · Rating 2 out of 5]

5--> 2 stars. That ending was a joke🤡 you seriously sold us this BS and expect me to cry over it🤡🤡🤡🤡 even if I cried, it was due to utter outrage and nothing else. Who turns their character into something else entirely IN THE LAST CHAPTER?
A 180-degree turn in this book reminded me of some shitty thrillers I read a while back that had a dumb yet UnExPeCtEd😜plot twist.

Character development doesn't work that way. Even the open ending would have been better than this tasteless attempt at redeeming the irredeemable

[Marianna Moore · Rating 5 out of 5]

I’m hollow. I’m truly not the same person I was before reading this duet and it will forever hold a piece of my heart.

The authors note at the end says it all:
“Sometimes there is no happily ever after. And sometimes a happily ever after is something less grand and fantastical than we expected. But that’s okay. It’s just… life. And it doesn’t owe you anything.”

I truly cannot remember the last time I was this devastated and emotional impacted by a book. It weighs heavy on my heart and I don’t think I’ll ever clearly understand or articulate my feelings properly when it comes to the book. I do know I cried… a lot.

If you haven’t already please read my review from part 1 of this duet: https://www.goodreads.com/review/show...

SPOILERS AHEAD

Somehow part 2 continues to get even darker and more disturbing and uncomfortable. This book took Shay’s obsession and manipulation to a whole other level. He controlled every aspect of Mina’s life to the point where he branded her permanently and essentially had her under house arrest with no interaction with the outside world. This poor fucking girl my heart hurts for her. Did he ever lay a hand on her? No. But just because her scars aren’t visible on the outside, his mental and emotional abuse left permanent damage on her heart and soul. He took pieces of her she will never get back. His brand of abuse was 100x more lethal.

Mina began to crave Shay and his affection and love, no matter how dark because he took away everything that made her feel good. He was all she had left. Slowly her entire life was dedicated to pleasing him. Yeah…. This man is a manipulative genius.

Despite everything Shay did to her, Mina still managed to love him. And the author made me believe in her love which is ABSURD! But seeing as Shay had me mind fucked too…. I couldn’t help but understand why Mina felt the way she did. Though it gutted me from the inside out, Dylan page was able to write such an amazing and accurate portrayal of grooming. I started to fall into the trap…. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?

The author really makes you feel how wrong all the events that take place in the book are. She invoked feelings in me I’ve never gotten from reading before. I was petrified for Mina. I could feel Shay’s spiral into insanity and I was terrified. I wanted to look away at points because some scenes made me sick to my stomach. Yet at the same time. My heart felt so deeply for both of them.

The ending…… though absolutely tragic, couldn’t have been more perfect.

My heart is broken. But Shay’s redemption was exactly what it needed to be. Truly I couldn’t have seen a different ending taking place. this was the only way Shay was going to be able to show us the side of himself that all readers were holding out hope was there. His character will forever hold a place in my heart though fucked up and twisted. I still don’t fully understand my feelings towards him, and that’s okay. I don’t think I was meant to.

I will never be able to listen to “the night we met” ever again.

Mina Mina Mina, that girl…. Well now I’m crying again. That girl deserves the whole world and then some. She got out, she is safe, and that’s all I hoped for for her. So much of her story was left open ended and surprisingly, I’m satisfied with that. Am I still a bit confused about Keenan? Yes. But she’s happy, she’s smiling, and she’s loved. And she now has a little piece of the man she will always love to walk through life with her. That’s all I could ask for. Do I want more of her Keenan and Hayden? Yes absolutely. But I do believe everything ended how it was supposed to.

I’m gonna go cry for the next 24 hours.

[Shile (Hazard's Version) on-hiatus · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.25 stars

I am still feeling the effects of this book. I will not write a review because I might rant to the point of no return. So I will just move on.

The writing was great but the story lost it's momentum and plot along the way.

Shay, everyone failed you. They did you dirty.

James, you can go to hell.

Mina, what the fuck happened?

Keenan, you don't deserve anything. What the fuck are you even doing here?

The author's note at the end? I call bullshit. I believe readers know the difference between fiction and RL. So, I call bullshit. What a cop out!!

[Arini · Rating 2 out of 5]

♬ im selfish, i know, cant let you go
so find someone great, dont find no one better
i hope youre happy, but dont be happier ♬

ok i think i gave the hero too much credit.

apparently he wasnt very bright. i thought his unhinged-ness was supposed to make him sexy, appealing, and *lovable*, and he’d be the kind of hero who could outwit anyone. but i think it made him paranoid, frantic, careless, and stupid instead.

again, was i reading this all wrong??

i didnt see why this had to be separated into two parts. it didnt feel like a romance. but rather, a biography of someone with a highly disturbed mind who was obsessed with NOT the right person and that unfortunately brought him his downfall.

[Katerina · Rating 3 out of 5]

I’m really sad to admit that this book was a bit of a disappointment for me. That’s coming from someone who rated the first book five stars - I don’t give out five stars lightly; I think that was my first in over three years. But for a debut novel the author did a fantastic so job well done.

We were confronted by three problems at the end of the last book: Shays obsession for Mina his step-sister; Mina’s mother’s death and the mystery of the “killers”; Keenan’s love for Mina.

In my previous review I stated I hoped Mina wouldn’t end up with either of the love interests because I fundamentally didn’t see this read as a love story overall even if there were romantic elements to it.

I’ll start with the positives:

The direction taken with Shay’s character was the most just, natural decision to take par the course of decisions Shay was making and the decline of his mental health. These two books denote the complete breakdown of his mental faculties. He was sloppy, he wasn’t thinking straight, he became blinded by obsession, jealousy, violence and power. He’s fixated on Mina. He regressed a little quick what with the spree killing but the natural course for his character was death; his actions had consequences but in those last moments he provided her some form of safety. I did feel sad when he died. ⚠️ Shay does commit suicide.

The one chapter in his point of view was impeccable. And personally I knew from the last book that he was responsible for Mina’s mothers death based on his interactions and negative feelings towards her. I assumed he orchestrated it but it went a bit haywire, but here we learn he actively took part and relished in her death.

I liked that he never found out about Keenan being Mina’s love.

I liked how despite how obsessive and possessed Shay was he never intentionally physically harmed Mina beyond the basic need to shake her up and manipulate her. I know that’s a low bar to set but as a villain or anti hero in my case (maybe? I don’t know I have convoluted feelings for him); even in his possession, he never became a demented man that beat her. She was really special to him. He genuinely saw her as this angel.

I’m glad she had his child in the epilogue... there’s a part of that broken boy in him that lived on. If he had planned it, I wouldn’t be shocked.

Shay is… he’s troubled.” James went on, stating the obvious. “And my decisions regarding his life only deepened those scars in his mind. But for someone like him, with what he’s done, what the club has done, he can’t just march down to a psychiatrist’s office and tell them everything. He’d get locked up in a heartbeat.

Negatives

Rather than continuing from the drop off point in the last book, we move forward a week for some reason which gave an immediate disjointed feeling.

Early Shay and Mina interactions are consistently downplayed in this book as “sibling” centred as if there wasn’t always a codependent sexual undertone. Which step-brother coerces their step sister to share a bed with them at 9/10 if not motivated by the underhanded logic that they will eventually possess them... Saying his feelings began when she turned 13 when it predated that was eye roll inducing for me personally. Fixation doesn’t respect age boundaries... This man isn’t going around liking little girls, his sole focus is one human - as age inappropriate as she is.

I thought it was strange how Shay was committing murders left, right and centre quite easily without any pushback there. It’s a small biker club prior to mafia involvement - which catches up to him. It’s mentioned he spliced junior members, so surely he should have done some time.

Also the sudden “turn” of her friends at school was also a little one dimensional for me...

Keenans relevance in this book is low. I have no love for him. He’s almost non-existent as a character until just under the 75% mark in the book so the question which needs to be answered is, what is his purpose? How can I as a reader, ‘ship’ him and Mina when he was so... absent and washed out in the duet. He was functioning just fine knowing Mina was trapped under Shay’s obsession; not at one point did he break the rules for her and hatch a proper well thought out escape plan... He’s non-assertive. I’d wager her cares for her but his declarations of love were laughable. Which begs the question after all of this how tf does Mina love and yearn for him? Maybe he symbolised this desire of freedom for her; if she just “gets away” from Shay then she can be with Keenan. He literally courted her since she was 11 years old, and he 17 so he’s equally as predatory in my eyes even if he’s framed as the “good” guy. Them reuniting as a couple was quite possibly the worst ending to this duet. He doesn’t deserve her. She deserves to live and be free away from all the bullshit - period. Let me add, I’d prefer bloody Gavin to be with her over him at this point.

I disliked Mina. Sorry but she was giving me very wet cloth personality. She was completely led by the men in the life. For a large portion of the book she submits to Shays ministrations to protect Keenan - she’s caught between resentment and love for Shay as he becomes increasingly emotionally, sexually and physically manipulative and abusive. The dichotomy was good in the first book but in this book, how can I go from a chapter of her inner monologues trying to convince herself that she’s in love with Shay to the next chapter when she’d immediately kiss Keenan without experiencing any kind of internal betrayal or guilt knowing how jealous she would be if Shay were still f*cking around... The nuance wasn’t developed enough in terms of her feelings...

Mina’s relationship with her mother is so strange. First book was written after her mother’s death and in that entire book she didn’t experience PTSD unlike this book. Mina’s reaction to Shay being the murderer of her mother, brutalising her mum, chopping of her nose duct and eyes wasn’t giving me anything. Her character was seriously falling flat. I could attribute that to some sort of trauma or Stockholm syndrome or her young age of 17 but she was always like that; even in the first book she would watch on as Shay beat her mother, so let’s just say daughter of the year award will NOT be going to her.

This book was more slow moving. The suspense could have been more pacey because it only really took off in the last 30%. Last chapter was a bit meh ....

Not safe: Shay is loyal after being with Mina sexually but prior to that when she was a child was with OW simply because he couldn’t be with her. No information on Keenan. Mina basically cheats on Shay with Keenan but she’s in a forced relationship so, yeah. 🤷‍♀️

[Matilda · Rating 5 out of 5]

one million stars ✨

did i tell myself i was going to hate this? i sure did.

my face when i realized i was loving it:


based on my rating, you can see the clownery quite clearly.

honestly, the way I gave book 1 two stars is kinda crazy because this book was tremendously better and it’s actually never happened where a book took THIS big of a turn

firstly, to anna, tanaz, tj and irunía, i hate you for doing this to me 😭 tell me why my ass sobbed like a baby despite knowing exactly how this ended. this definitely wasn’t a love story. this story felt like what i imagine jumping into a pit of burning acid feels like. pure. torture.

MAJOR spoilers below

mina (h) was so much better in this book. first book was just more me hating that it was primary consisted of flashbacks of mina as a kid...like i’m sorry girl, i don’t care about you skipping around, ignorant to everything, and baking cookies

i didn’t like shay (H), in fact, i hated him with a burning passion and was glad that his redemption was his death.

when he:

⟿ controls what mina wears

⟿ kills people who get near her

⟿ forces her to wear a property cut

⟿ holds her down while you his name branded on her as a tattoo

⟿ threatens to murder her lover if she doesn’t choose him

⟿ doesn’t allow mina to have friends and isolates her from your step-dad

⟿ hires people to kidnap her so he can be mina’s "savior", but they end up destroying her knee, so she can’t do ballet ever again

⟿ joins the people he hired so he can personally torture and kill her mom because she wants to take her from him

⟿ uses the attack on her as an excuse to prevent her from leaving the house because the “person who orchestrated the attack is still out there”

but i forget all about it because he also said he wouldn’t fuck other girls and calls the heroine ‘good girl’ 🫶🏻🫶🏻

i’m feeling like a hypocrite, but


in all seriousness, shay deserved to die for all the fucked up shit he did, but at the same time, his story is so tragic that i started to give a shit about him. i’m glad he was able to find peace in the end.

For her. This is for her. She’ll be safe, and I’ll be at peace.

also, the epilogue was so cute. i actually really loved keenan and i’m happy they were together at the end...i’m not sure why he gets so much hate. all he wanted was for mina to thrive and achieve what she wanted. how cute was it that keenan was treating shay’s son as his own 😭

it’s even more tragic knowing that shay never knew he was going to be a dad. idk if that would have changed his decision, but it just makes it so much fucking sadder.

the bleeding hearts
↠#1 torment: part 1 — 2 stars
↠#2 torment: part 2 — 5 stars

[Jessica ❥Chatterbooks Book Blog❥ · Rating 4 out of 5]

Okay, I slept on it for over a week, and I'm still not certain on my rating for this book. 😂

I'm settling on a 4 for now though.

I was obsessed with this duet when I was reading it, but I don't think I got out of Shay and Mina's story what the author intended me to based on the afterword at the end of the book. I assumed it was crystal clear what we were supposed to be understanding about the characters and their relationships as the story went on, but apparently, I wasn't totally correct in my assumptions.

I'm pretty sure I have an unpopular opinion when it comes to a lot of things, Shay and the ending especially (probably not in the way you think either.) Unfortunately, I can't give any specifics without spoiling. Believe me, I wish I could, because I have a lot of thoughts on this duet.

If you're extra curious, you can check out the comments under my post for part one. Another reader and I had kind of a lengthy back and forth conversation about all of it under spoiler tags. I clearly had a lot to get off my chest. 😂 I had to cut myself off, because I was writing a fucking book down there.

That being said, I have to give Torment: Part 2 a high rating, because it made me feel SO MUCH. My emotions were all over the place the entire time I was reading. I even shed a few tears, especially at the end. There was never a time where I wasn't fully engaged and invested in the characters. I was completely captivated and entertained 100 percent of the time. I adore the way the story was told, and I believe the author is extremely talented.

I can't wait to see what else Dylan Page has in store for us in the future. Whatever it is, you can bet I'm going to pick it up asap!

Angst whores and toxic romance fans, this one's for you!

[Bookishness · Rating 5 out of 5]

♾️⭐️

Update!! 24 hours later, I’m still in tears!! 😭 🖤

Wow. I’m a complete mess—sobbing my eyes out. This story was absolutely brilliant, a haunting portrayal of a tortured soul who only knew one way to love. 💔 I honestly don’t know how to recover from this. Shay made me love him, hate him, fear him, question him, empathize with him—and ultimately break for him. The range of emotions he pulled out of me was overwhelming. The way the Dylan Page brought Shay to life, making me feel so deeply and so conflicted, is nothing short of a masterpiece.

💔💔❤️‍🩹💔🖤🖤
I am not the only traveler
Who has not repaid his debt
I've been searching for a trail to follow again
Take me back to the night we met
And then I can tell myself
What the hell I'm supposed to do
And then I can tell myself
Not to ride along with you
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Oh, take me back to the night we met
When the night was full of terrors
And your eyes were filled with tears
When you had not touched me yet
Oh, take me back to the night we met
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Take me back to the night we met
I don't know what I'm supposed to do
Haunted by the ghost of you
Take me back to the night we met
💔💔❤️‍🩹💔🖤🖤

[Jan · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5 stars

[aira]

well, after how the first one ended (I barely remember now lmaoo), I guess I gotta finish this. 👀

first book review: Torment: Part One

[SHOMPA · Rating 1 out of 5]

OMG. what the hell just i read? And the end part was....totally out of place! I know its just a fiction character but that's not how redemption work for a psychopath in real life. A psychopath never sacrifices for a loved one, more importantly they love no one but themselves. Honestly, I really don't know what to say about this whole book anymore.

[Lisa the book CREEP · Rating 5 out of 5]

I'm completely satisfied with the ending, it was one of the best endings i have ever read.

And the epilogue 🥺 it broke me.
This book is going to stay with me for a really long time. 🖤

P.S- listening to 'The Night We Met' on loop and crying for Shay? Nah not me ☻

[manas (suffering) · Rating 1 out of 5]

➳ i am going to hell ☆

there are SPOILERS. full SPOILERS. if you love this, I AM HAPPY FOR YOU. don’t come at me, though. i clearly hated this, which is valid. if you loved it, that’s also valid. this review has some topics that are triggering so please read with caution.

gry and i are suing everybody. the author, our parents, god for giving eyes, the fans of this book…even ourselves at this point. this is the worst fucking thing i’ve ever read. grooming, pedophilia, romanticizing abusers and rapists??? get the fuck out of my face. i have read books that have these topics explored but the underlying message has always been: this is problematic and shouldn’t be accepted. i NEVER expected people feeling bad for these fuckers, the author saying the abusers feelings matter??? i mean, what the fuck is going on…when people tell me they know how to separate fiction from reality, i know they are fucking lying because there is NO excuse for pedophilia. literally, do not irritate me.

ZERO FUCKING STARS BECAUSE 99% OF THE CHARACTERS LIVED. shay is a pedo, predator, rapist—I DO NOT WANT TO HEAR SHIT FROM ANYONE. there is no amount of redemption he gets that will make me give a fuck about this piece of shit. if this was a character study on abusive relationships; i’ll take it. THIS was not that, since the author herself seems biased and sympathetic towards this pig. keenan getting the “girl” in the end is equally fucking jarring because he’s also a pedo/predator. everything in this book was a repetitive blunder from the first book which makes me think this author wrote this in five minutes and said: here you go.

i cannot emphasis how horrified i am seeing people BLAME mina and say she ruined shay’s life. calling a victim of abuse, grooming, and assault selfish??? and siding with a literal criminal motherfucker is actually crazy. i don’t care, this is genuinely scary and i want no part in this mess. it’s one thing for the author to explore his character and give him a redemption arc—even if he doesn’t deserve it—so we as the audience can see why he turned out this way. in turn, we don’t get any explanation; but rather, the most stupid explanation from his father—who is also an abuser—saying he was a little bit disturbed as a child. this is not a fucking excuse for anything. i was gagging reading their scenes outside of the bedroom so don’t even get me started on their physical/romantic moments. WE SKIPPED THEM ALL. i am actually in such a bad mood after finishing this. i’m praying to shiva to save me from this mess. i really need to stop doing this to myself because i am clearly someone who CANNOT separate fiction from reality—which is how it should be.

FUCK THE LOT OF THESE FUCKERS.

[Gry ☾ · Rating 1 out of 5]

I wish I could say ”at least she tried, A for effort”
But I do not have a single clue what she tried to do?

What she did manage to do is write and publish a book where characters contributing to grooming, pedophilia, incest, sexual abuse(and more) are the fan - and author - favorite.
What she did is not only romanticize abuse but celebrate it.
What she did is write graphic r*pe scenes time and time again, all whilst mentioning that the victim is enjoying herself, came multiple times - but she a page later falls down in tears, or wants to scrub all the dirt of herself (but let me remind you, the abuser is still the authors favorite).
What she did is give the worst human you can imagine a redemption arc.
What she did is blame his actions on mental health.
What she did is write and publish a book that should’ve stayed in the drafts.

What she should’ve done is gone to therapy.

I knew about the dark, heavy topics going into it. But there’s a difference between these topics being delved into, us feeling for the victim and us supporting them through their journey of becoming survivors and overcoming their trauma, to whatever bullshit this was.
The underlying message for this was essentially “You’re getting abused? You can’t do anything about it, so might as well enjoy it.”
I truly HOPE that is not the message the author wanted to put out into the world. But based on her writing and especially her afterword, I am not sure I trust that this is not some undercover pedophile that decided to publish their disgusting incest r*pe porn.

And worst of all, it was not even well done.
The writing was so atrocious. Manas and I fell down laughing at some of these writing choices.
Wdym WHISKERS?? These stupid ellipses and italics made me CACKLE.
There were way too many inconsistencies to count, if possible even more repetitive sentences and plot points, and absolutely ZERO emotional depth.

I want to thank not only god, but jesus - and manas for this being behind us.
Y’all should be grateful to manas right now as well, since she is the reason I have most of my sanity intact.

Torment: Part One - Review

[Carla Bulian · Rating 3 out of 5]

2,5. Unfortunately, what I just read? Really?

[currently being delulu · Rating 3 out of 5]

Originally 4.5 for me not it’s more of just a 3.5 still a great story.






If you were to ask me when I first finished this book if I ever changed my mind abt the ending, I would have told you at that time bitch your crazy. This is one of my all time favorite reads/characters/stories. Ever written.


Howeverrrrrr after reading the rest of the series. Plus echoes then going back to reread, shay & Mina again. ……………………… ain’t gonna lie I do not recommend doing that bc for me personally it changes/cheapened the way I viewed the ending of this masterpiece.


Again. Me personally this was a dark fucked up perfecly crafted, character driven perfectly nuanced story, it had me on the edge of my seat biting my nails pulling my hair crying/sobbing mess.


But to be honest… the way the rest of the series goes the way echos is written …. It changed my view on shay & Mina now at the time yes shay did all that fucked up shit yes I thought some of it was sexy “ don’t judge” yes he KILLED HER MOTHER TO BE W HER IN A HORRIFIC WAY.
And then continued to use that to his advantage and manipulate her and twist her feeling for him to suit him.


But I still believed in their love story despite all that I actually believed he loved her. I believe Mina loved him.


Now having read the rest of the series then going back to reread this …. I’m actually gonna have to say to my self??? ……………………………………………………,………………………. Um ……………………. Uh um ………………. This actually hurts to even type …………….. I’m not sure I should say ………………………………………………. ……………….. umm I don’t think Shays “sacrifice”/“redemption” was that selfless and out of love like I might have thought at one time.

And to be perfectly honest tho some ppl are still up in arms if this was a romance or not just bc shay died. I disagree I think it’s not a romance bc… quite frankly me rereading This the way I did. … uh shay really treated Mina like dog shit. and idk if I was just as manipulated & groomed as Mina bc I felt so bad for this guy. but as I reread this I’m thinking to my self “ why did I believe these two loved each other?”


Bc tbh rereading part two the way I did start to finish. all I could think to my self This story isn’t what I thought it was. this ending isn’t that spectacular when you read the other books and see different things through a different lens.


At one time I would have fought hardcore for the character of shay. Would have said “ but the author made me “ sympathize” “ she made me love this sicko”


Then reading Mina’s follow up it goes like This.

Young girl gets groomed/manipulated her entire life no one there to help her out or look after her “ expect maybe Keenan”

Her dreams get crushed by her stepbrother who mutilates her mother while alive then kills her. Followed by her step brother emotionally abusing her to the point she feels suffocated and relies only on him as support & love “ exactly how he wants her”.

✔️ Then lies abt her taking birth control to make her pregnant so he can trap her more

✔️ controls her food/what she wears bc other guys will notice and calls her that of a slut

✔️ has full blow temper tantrums & relies on a 17 year old girl to help him do nothing for her ofc in return

✔️ brand a tattoo on her that she doesn’t want bc … well fuck her it’s abt you right?

✔️ when you think your boss is out to kill her send her on the run by her self on her own while “ you” not her thinks she’s pregnant “ bc the 17 year old girl has no idea that she is bc she’s been manipulated to trust you ofc” so let her raise that baby by her self

✔️ then kill you’re self to a song playing in your head to get a bunch of horny depressed girls on Goodreads to feel bad for you and actually think you saved the day ….. when in realty you didn’t and just made things harder for everyone & Which resulted in you’re “ so called love of your life stepsister” having lifelong fatal trauma.


I’m not one to to hate on a dark romance I pop them like candy. but if you really think abt it. Torment doesn’t really flow with the rest of the books in this series. In fact it feels a lot like a completely different setting/world the rest of the characters are in.


Like when I go back and read these books now I don’t see the shay I once did. He feels like just an abuser. I don’t see what Mina still sees or tried to. I don’t understand why I felt like despite all of the horrible/terrible things he did that he still really loved her.


Bc that’s not love that’s not even close to what the rest of the series is trying to sell with other couples. It’s not.
what he put her through..bc fr imagine shay was 300 pounds with a long beard and bad breathe and a shaved head…. Would we still feel as sorry & in love w his actions if he was unattractive? No nobody would.


And yes Ik a good part of my beloved hero’s are terrible and if they were unattractive it be the same thing but the difference is Those are romances ….. This? Yeah shay & Mina isn’t a romance it’s not even a love story.

Idc even if the author says that they loved each-other… bc name me one good honest to god thing This guy did for Mina?


Even after his death its still incredibly selfish. She is to live with life long trauma. Pregnant at 17 with no family except Keenan by her self picking up the pieces and raising her son with key.


Like when I really think abt it? My love for shay kinda Just evaporated my body and I hate him like when his “ click” chapter came I was smiling and like “ YES FINALLY” completely different reaction than before I’d say.

But I think if the author never continued this series it would have stood the same. But alas I read the rest of the books and … I came to a different conclusion with this book than I originally thought.


This duet should have stayed a duet.

[Youssra (back to work-semi ia) · Rating 5 out of 5]

review edit:
I think about this duet at least once a week.

THIS IS NOT A TYPICAL ROMANCE PLEASE CHECK TRIGGERS!!

Pain.. so much pain. I don't think an ending has crushed me like this in such a long time. I was crying in the bathroom because I just couldn't face anyone😭

This was brutal, painful, uncomfortable, but sometimes sweet and romantic. This book did not hold back. It makes you question everything. What real love is and isn't, what trauma looks like and how it affects different people. How far are you willing to go to keep the one you love?

The writer did an excellent job writing these characters, they were so dynamic and ever changing, sometimes you like them, other times you are so annoyed by them, but then you love them again. She didn't spoon-feed you everything going on, she trusted the readers to just get what was happening and I liked that a lot.

I don't think Shay will be a character I will soon forget. He is so flawed but after reading and figuring out his story, I couldn't help but empathize with him (and he did some rly fucked up stuff). What a rollercoaster of emotions this book evoked in me you have no idea. I would go from hate to anger to love to frustration and everything in between.

The afterword by the author is A MUST READ. It is a disservice to not read the part imo.
This duet is for sure gonna stick with me probably forever. It consumed me for a week☠️

[Izzy]

After a lot of thinking, I finally decided to rate this book and I do believe the author did an amazing job with writing this thriller type of novel with some toxic romance. I still think it doesn’t fall into the category of romance fiction or even dark romance. I think it’s a thriller and should be read as such.

Beware, there is no happy ending but the writing and suspense buildup is amazing. Also I didn’t believe the “hero”would do something until the very end when it is confirmed.


Original Review—

I can’t rate this because of the feelings I have right now.

I used to read books that have sad endings before but I avoid them like the plague because of my career and life goals right now.

This novel is not a dark romance. It’s just a story about troubled kids and a relationship between one troubled teen with a simple girl who is stuck in it.

What Shay did was unforgivable but I am okay with the ending (not what I wanted but okay); this is not a Romance novel. It has no happy ending. I would have preferred Mina and Shay to have their HEA living together and marrying and having a bunch of babies but it was not realistic because of what Shay had done, if he had not done that one thing, he could have been redeemed by living his life with Mina and enjoying it.


If you want to read a dark romance where the main characters have a good happy traditional HEA, then it’s better to avoid reading this duo. I had already read part one and so I wanted to read part two but I cried a lot while reading this.

And honestly with everything going on around me, the number of people I know who have passed away because of the pandemic and some of those people being my relatives and a very dear friend, I don’t want to read such sad novels. As a doctor I see patients everyday and real life stories are much much harsher so I would like to go into books to lose myself and just have some light at the end of the day.

This author did a really good job portraying a deep relationship between the mc’s and what can happen if it turns toxic and I believe Shay did redeem himself at the end. I believe Shay loved Mina like no other even though he didn’t understand when he became toxic but maybe maybe, he should have talked to Mina and her mom before taking such drastic actions. I have to remind myself that this is not a traditional romance novel.

But it’s not a romance novel, it’s just a novel with a bit of erotica and just deep feelings and some life lessons.



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Shay has also killed Mina’s mom horribly so that’s why I understood why it was unrealistic to think he would live happily ever after with Mina. Maybe if Shay hadn’t done this dreadful deed, the ending would have been different.

Mina (the heroine) ends up with the other man (Keenan) at the end. Keenan is not in the book too much, he is mentioned as the other love interest (sexual scenes do not take place with Keenan in this novel, there is some kissing between Mina and Keenan).

Shay took Mina’s virginity and was her sexual partner throughout the book.

The ending does not give us Mina’s pov, we see from Shay’s pov as he kills himself.

The epilogue is from a stranger’s pov and it is implied that Mina gave birth to Shay’s son ( 2 year old child has dark hair and silver eyes) but ends up living with Keenan as a family as Shay died. 😭😔

I am so not sure what to rate this, I want to give this a 1 ⭐️ because Shay 😭😢 but then again, I want to give this a 5⭐️ because of the story telling and overall writing!

This broke my heart and now I Need to waste a little time by reading something with a traditional HEA tonight even if I have to stay up all night to read.

[Than 🪷 (Hiatus) · Rating 5 out of 5]

5/5 ⭐️s - Let me make this clear: this is not a romance book. It's a dark, complicated, and deeply complex story about a girl being groomed by her stepbrother. This book is strictly 18+ and much darker than the first in the series, as it's where the actual abuse takes place. As a reader, I felt gaslit and manipulated right alongside Mina, constantly questioning what's morally right or wrong. It's intense, unsettling, and challenging-but that's exactly what makes it such a gripping and powerful read.

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Shay's subtle grooming from the last book was thrown across the continent when he found out Mina had a secret love. On her 17th birthday, he took advantage of her, and Mina unwillingly went along with it to protect Keenan's identity as her secret lover. I felt disgusted as a reader-Mina had always seen Shay as her brother, her protector, and he completely broke her trust by SAing her.

By the end of the last book, I started to warm up to Keenan because it genuinely felt like he was trying to push Mina to do better in ballet, helping her escape from Shay and his gang. Compared to Shay, Keenan clearly had Mina's best interests at heart. About 60% into the last book, I realised I could never support Shay being with Mina-it's completely messed up morally.

In this book, Shay spirals completely, going full psycho, and it's obvious Mina needs to get away from him fast. Mina knows this too -she's clever, but every time she's forced to sleep with Shay, she feels disgusted with herself. Her body's reaction makes her feel sick, and I felt that same disgust alongside her. I rooted for Mina to escape, but every time she misbehaved, someone else paid the price, often with their life. She was trapped, especially after her mother was murdered and her legs were broken, ending her dreams of ballet. Shay made her believe she had no one else but him-that he'd never leave or hurt her, that they were each other's entire world. While he never physically abused her, he manipulated her mentally in a hundred different ways, turning her into a shell of the happy girl she once was.

Mina always loved Shay, but never romantically. Yet, as their dynamic shifted, and her protector became her abuser, she gradually convinced herself she loved him as a lover. It felt gross but also painfully believable, given all she'd been through.

"I can't help that I love him..." — I just wanted to give her a hug.

I was so disappointed in James in this book.
Even though Mina wasn't his biological daughter, he clearly saw her as one, yet he did nothing to stop Shay's abuse. He walked away when she needed him most, and it broke my heart every time Mina was excited to see her "dad," only to be let down.

Near the end, I knew what was coming-Shay had gone too far to ever redeem himself. I was actually relieved with how it ended, because Shay didn't deserve Mina.
They were never meant to be together; he abused her. But part of me still felt sad, because I liked Shay when he was her protector, her best friend, the one person who truly cared about her from the moment they met until their last day together. That part of the story tested my morals because, like Mina, I felt disgusted by what Shay had done, but I also felt sad for him. He was clearly sick, but that's not an excuse, and the author makes that very clear. Both Mina and I knew we were being manipulated, gaslit, and misled-Shay's actions were unforgivable, not just to Mina, but in his work for the club as well.

I'm glad Shay, in a final fleeting moment, decided to let go of Mina and protect her from himself. The ending felt fitting given the circumstances. Do I trust Keenan? Not completely. I think he could have done more to protect Mina, but not every ending is perfect-just like life isn't perfect.

Alexa plays ‘the night we met’ by Lord Huron 🥲

[mira · Rating 4 out of 5]

4.75⭐️

“I want you to crave me like a drug. I want you to beg me to fuck you. And I will. Because it is the most right and the most honest thing that I can do, to show you how I feel about you. That I love you. I always have, and I always will.”

i have no words to describe my experience with this duet. tbh i feel so different, i was trying to convince myself not to reread this the second i finished because jesus fucking hell this was a hot mess that i loved.

you know how in book 1 i was like hmm maybe i like keenan. ya i don't. fuck him and his savior complex LMAO.

that last chapter just KILLED me. i couldn't even write a review (is that a thing? review slump?) anyways, shay baby i love you so much.

me right after finishing the book:



me a day later:

[Ericka · Rating 3 out of 5]

2.5 stars. Absolutely not. This book was supposed to make me CRY!! Not a single fucking tear was shed. Nor do I think any tears DESERVED to be shed. Wouldn’t recommend this read.

I’ll make a spoiler video on my TikTok talking about this shit because honestly I’m so pissed 😂

[Pisces · Rating 5 out of 5]

My S.H.A.Y, my poor asshole villainous baby SHAY.


they did you wrong. SO WRONG !!! .
GIVE THIS MAN HIS MINA already. Petition 101

The epilogue was so heartbreaking, I can't find it in me to accept any of this shit.
My worst fear from the previous book was not a nightmare any longer... cos, shit I had seen this one coming mile long like a good old Pisces and just like one, had hoped if I stayed under the rock the problem will just swim away.


Though technically, the story was just fucking awesome. Her main charcters were extraordinarily perfect. But I truly wished there was more interaction between the leads. And finally the big reveal could have been done better. So many months together and they seem to only fuck and petty this and that ..together. It felt repetative at times.

BUT ..it is always a cherry on top 🍒 when author divert their steps from the mainstream and this being one of those rare sight was h.e.a.r.t.i.l.y welcomed.


FUXKING STUPID ELIAS ... hope he does not get his story. Petition 102

now that the she has literally kicked the score board, I will be patiently x anxiously be waiting for Casey's story.
With high expectations, If I may add?

[Michae]

hahah I’m in pain

[Lori [semi-hiatus]]

Review for complete duet
Update after some deliberation.
I actually agree with the way Dylan ended the book, and it's the only way she could have done so to redeem Shay. So I am very happy with that.
That being said, this book needs a solid warning upfront that there is no traditional HEA, maybe not even a HEA at all depending on your perception.
As such it shouldn't be labeled a romance, rather just a love story.
If you want to know how it ends, check the spoiler tag at your own discretion. But I believe this is something a reader should know to make a decision whether to read this or not, and when, since it can be triggering.

*Still no rating because I'm torn. 4* for the story, 1* for romance, so there's that.



Ending: Shay kills himself after he sends Mina away, and it is implied that Mina ended up with Keenan and had Shay's child.
The book needs a trigger warning for suicide.

Original comment: No rating because I don't know how I feel about this.

So I bit the bullet and read this duet. The writing was great, I have no qualms with that.
BUT

I don't think this fits the romance genre. I don't think it should be called romance. A character study? Yes, for sure. But not romance.
I'm actually very happy with how it ended, because Shay was a crazy motherfucker (to the extreme) but I will reiterate.

For me this isn't a romance. Not even a dark one.

My thoughts are mostly jumbled right now. I may update this review later, but that was my main issue with the book.

[Lolina ⋆ · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book had absolutely no right to break me like that. What the heck man, like I really can't deal with this right now.


And Shay, I just wanted to say- Like I know that you've got some messed up things going on, but I still love you. And Keenen, you can piss off.

And can someone please tell me why I can't stop crying? I honestly keep coming back to this review and book because I just can't stop thinking about it. My eyes are not living their best lives at the moment, I don't think I can listen to 'The Night We Met' the same anymore-

Honestly, the writing in this book, in my opinion, was just absolutely amazing- and it mainly came down the fact that it all felt so real . I mean as a reader, I went through all the emotions and reluctance when it came to characters and story. It was a whole other level of toxic and messed up, but it was so, so good- and everything seemed to sort itself out in the end 😐.

Peace out, it's now time for me to continuously be thinking about this book, and bawl my eyes out ✌️.

I just wanted to come back to this review to say that this book is still constantly messing with me. I was listening to the radio and 'The Night We Met' came on and bam, instant tears and dramatic looking out of the window- I'm still not okay with this ending 😐.