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Here If You Need Me: A True Story

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Ten years ago, Kate Braestrup and her husband Drew were enjoying the life they shared together. They had four young children, and Drew, a Maine state trooper, would soon begin training to become a minister as well. Then early one morning Drew left for work and everything changed. On the very roads that he protected every day, an oncoming driver lost control, and Kate lost her husband. Stunned and grieving, Kate decided to continue her husband's dream and became a minister herself. And in that capacity she found a most unusual serving as the minister on search and rescue missions in the Maine woods, giving comfort to people whose loved ones are missing, and to the wardens who sometimes have to deal with awful outcomes. Whether she is with the parents of a 6-year-old girl who had wandered into the woods, with wardens as they search for a snowmobile rider trapped under the ice, or assisting a man whose sister left an infant seat and a suicide note in her car by the side of the road, Braestrup provides solace, understanding, and spiritual guidance when it's needed most. Here if You Need Me is the story of Kate Braestrup's remarkable journey from grief to faith to happiness. It is dramatic, funny, deeply moving, and simply unforgettable, an uplifting account about finding God through helping others, and the tale of the small miracles that occur every day when life and love are restored.

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First published January 1, 2007

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Profile Image for Chelsea.
678 reviews227 followers
August 26, 2007
I don't know quite what to say about this book other than: GOOD. I was trying to explain this to a coworker, and they gave me the "sure, right, uh-huh" look. It hits one of my fiction kinks, what with all the heroic actions undertaken by real people who care about the people they're trying to help. But it's better, because it's real.

Within the first thirty pages or so, I had cried at least twice, but had laughed out loud considerably more. She comes across as incredibly genuine; the loss of her husband and her determination to continue with her life was present but was not forced on me. She didn't force a strong narrative, either, which I appreciate in a memoir; there are very few periods in someone's life that can be told mostly sequentially and create a complete story with a defined ending. Her story doesn't have an ending yet, so she doesn't really give it one. Wonderful.

She's a quasi-local author, and I'm sure we'll be having her in for a signing at some point. She stopped into the store about a week after the book came out, and checked the bestseller list. She was so excited to see that she had hit number three!
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5 reviews4 followers
October 2, 2007
I’d read a few good reviews for “Here If You Need Me,” by Kate Braestrup, but was a little put-off by the “quasi-religious” theme. Very quasi, as it turns out. She’s a Chaplain for the Maine Warden Service (the Maine equivalent of a cross between a Parks Ranger and a Game Warden). She’s married and has six kids and has a very funny attitude about religion, what she describes as “the God thing.”

Anyway, finally broke down and bought it late yesterday afternoon and within the first two chapters (it’s a very short book), had cried three times and laughed out loud about eleven times. When she first got her uniform, her best friend told her she looked like a cross between an effeminate priest and a gas station attendant.

Anyway – check it out.
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130 reviews57 followers
April 27, 2010
This book is sneaky: at first, I thought that it started slow - though with a compellingly tragic story whose point was unclear - but something about it touched me and I kept reading. I can now say that I am incredibly thankful for having done so, as this book is one of the most simple, honest, engaging and thought-provoking that I have read in some time.

Kate Braestrup does not claim to be an expert - in fact, it's in the sharing of her flawed humanity that she is so compelling - but she is so clearly committed to living her truth and takes us on that journey with her. It's an incredible, often heartrending journey but ultimately one of significant meaning and significance. The vignettes that she shares will inspire at times as well as forwarn. They are stories of triumph and tragedy, all the while illuminated by the author's honest and observant prose. One thing's for sure with this book: you really do feel like you know exactly what's going on with the Reverend as she makes her rounds in both her personal and professional lives ... and are the richer for it. Interspersed in others' stories are observations about life and love, scriptural references at once appropriate to the particular story as well as universal in nature and heartwarming descriptions of the events and people whose lives point to the finer possibilities in our own.

Are there a few quirks that the reader will have to adjust to? Sure. Are these meaningfully detrimental to the book? Not at all. The honesty and insight are so profound that the few challenges are only noteworthy in a review like this one (as they would not likely mentioned in, say, a conversation with a friend to whom you were recommending the book).

In summary, then, I recommend this book highly and have to admit that my initial skepticism was misplaced. It is an honest, compelling joy to read and reflect upon. Its impact will linger long after it has returned to my bookshelf, as will its gifts of insight and inspiration....
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47 reviews1 follower
November 2, 2007
Kate Braesrup is a Unitarian Universalist minister for the Maine Warden Service whose husband, a state trooper, was killed in a car accident. The skeleton of this book is her journey from her husband's accident to minister through caring for the bereaved and caretakers of those lost or injured. However, the meat of the book are her interpretations of spirituality, religion and her practice of it. She does this with a light touch and with humor and I left the book feeling centered, grounded and reminded.
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357 reviews
February 4, 2009
This book is quietly and unassumingly beautiful.

In terms of Big Picture, it's a book about divinity and theology - it's about the author's conviction that where the divine shows itself is in ordinary expressions of love between people; in the casserole the neighbors bring over after a death in the family; in the community that searches for a lost resident; in the guy who scritches behind a lamb's ears and makes it bleat with happiness (real guy, real lamb, all in Maine - it's not an allegory).

But lest that sound preachy or off-putting, it's worth saying that this is all embedded within story after story of the Maine Park Ranger service, and their work in Maine's wilder areas, finding the lost and the suicidal and the disturbed, treating the living and the dead with respect, protecting wildlife and snagging the guy who's drunkenly taking too many fish from the river. It's wound about Breaustrup's own life story, her efforts to get through seminary after her husband dies, the hilarious trials and tribulations of raising four children who are all - in the book's beginning - under the age of fourteen. It's a meditation on grief and grace, laughter and hardship, death and life. It's beautifully quiet - I felt as if the whole world hushed while I read it.

Braestrup is a Unitarian Universalist, so her perspective on God and on life is very reassuringly not fundamentalist, or even particularly Christian. Her idea of God is in the hands that pull a child from the ice, or the middle-of-the-night dedication of the rangers as they pour out of their homes and through the state to begin a search for a missing soul in the middle of winter.

And this is the moment that made the whole book for me:

My children asked me, "Why did Dad die?"

I told them, "It was an accident. There are small accidents, like knocking over your milk at the dinner table. And there are large accidents, like the one your Dad was in. No one meant it to happen. It just happened. And his body was too badly damaged in the accident for his soul to stay in it any more, and so he died.

God does not spill milk. God did not bash the truck into your father's car. Nowhere in scripture does it say, 'God is car accident,' or 'God is death.' God is justice and kindess, mercy, and always - always - love. So if you want to know where God is in this or in anything, look for love.


Look for love - sounds so simple, but when you think about it, isn't that a pretty transformative way of looking at the world?

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Author 1 book8 followers
February 17, 2009
I hate reading books that are a waste of time.

This is a true story of a woman who becomes a Warden Minister (someone they call to comfort the family when a relative is lost in the woods), because her husband, who is killed in a traffic accident, was going to become one.

She wasn't religious at all (her husband was somewhat), and she explained this to all of her professors as she studied religion. IF she is called out and finds out the family is atheist, she is able to put them at ease, because she doesn't have anything to force onto them.

The book is about nothing. And she doesn't even tell that many experiences of being there if anyone needs her.
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359 reviews3 followers
January 15, 2009
This book was just fabulous. It was fabulous. I went and heard the author talk earlier this winter and enjoyed myself a bit, but felt a little skeptical about the quality of such a "local" book. But everyone kept telling me how good it was. So I checked it out from the library, read it and was amazed. Prepare to cry in almost every chapter. I love what she has to say about God and I love what she has to say about the doing of very hard work without becoming hard and cynical. It actually made me stop and think twice about cops... so there.
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738 reviews
March 30, 2008
Not only is this woman a wonderful writer, but she's a Unitarian Universalist minister. And she has a sense of humor, which is important if you're the chaplain to the Maine Warden Service. There's a lot of standing around in cold and hot, swatting mosquitos, watching people and nature. Her definitition of who God is to her (pp. 54-55) is something I'll go back to again and again (not a white guy with a beard). Try it...

90 reviews4 followers
December 9, 2008
I thought this book was pretty full of nothing. On the one hand, anyone is free to write a book, I just wish there was a more selective way to know what books are going to have meat. I listened to the unabridged audio version so I heard how she wanted to tell the story, which in this case, I think made it worse because there isn't much room for imagination.

Here are my two takes:

The Bad: She's a minister but seems to be a contradicting one. She says she doesn't believe in heaven, that you just die, that's it--yet she tells people that their loved ones have passed on to heaven. So is she deliberately trying to be dishonest or is she just unsure of what she really believes? Probably the latter.

I thought her beliefs uninspiring and depressing including Christ just sort of being a prophet. I was irritated that she sounded like Christians had a negative connotation and didn't seem to like the idea of her son becoming one hypothetically. I didn't like how she and her children would casually swear occassionally and how she purposely put in the night when her kid was watching a Bruce Willis action movie (probably R) in the background while she studied about Jesus with her other daughter. I think she was trying to show that she wasn't an uptight minister, a cool mom, a casual spiritual leader. She sounded humble in words, but things like these made it seem like she was a bit proud of her unorthodox and lax ways.

The good: Anyone who dedicates their lives to service really are to be commended. It might be too picky to try to say her beliefs aren't consistent with each other when I should be glad that she's just chosen to do something good for herself and hopefully for others.

I thought it was sweet that she did this on behalf of her husband's dreams. I'm impressed when any kind of single parent manages to take on both roles of mom and dad and keep the family together and seemingly happy.
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317 reviews61 followers
March 6, 2012
My mom is a pastor, not a chaplain (they are related, but not identical), and I see her do a lot of this work, the work of sitting with someone and not knowing the answers. It's hard. There are no good answers.

This was a really hard book to read. Bad things happen to lots of nice people, especially children. As someone who had to give up on some shows (Cold Case and SVU, I'm looking at you) because now that I have kids, they are just too scary. and as you might expect, sometimes little kids die in the woods. Not always -- there are stories in here where no one dies, or is hurt. There are little bits of her life (I am amazed at her ability to be a single parent AND be on-call.)

Interestingly, the author's faith journey, while evident, is not explicated. She doesn't talk about how she came to believe, or even what she believes. The most significant story about faith was about her realization that she hadn't had a religious epiphany, that her scientific faith had not been taken from her by an involuntary mystical experience. I liked that. I appreciate stories where love and humanity are marks of the Divine. Her journey is not road-to-Emmaeus, although it is full of roads.

Read this if: you wish people of faith were more humble, if you want a non-Jodi-Picoult view of widowhood, if you've never thought about who fishes unlucky snowmobilers out of the water
Do not read: without a sufficient supply of kleenex, if your faith is threatened by a chaplain who doesn't believe in an afterlife, if you can't handle people dying
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462 reviews83 followers
July 15, 2019
A warm hearted read, like having a conversation with an old friend that you haven't seen in a while. It will make you cry, laugh, and feel comforted at the end.
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853 reviews69 followers
October 1, 2009
ETA: Have since read several times, and still love it passionately. Great book. I personally want to make the HBO series of it:)
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You can subtract at least one star just knowing this was probably a case of "right book at the right time" for me. Also I haven't really read it yet---I was listening to it on CD.

I wondered if it would be engaging enough to keep me awake for my solo roadtrip to Flagstaff. I liked the first hour or so on the way there, but LOVED it on the long drive home, especially after taking the wrong turn onto 191 and ended up deep into Navajo Country with no road signs anywhere, especially after the guy I stopped to ask directions from tried to get in my car...

So now I want to actually read it. The past few weeks have dealt with so many of the big questions Braestrup's work and life deal with...evil, loss, pain. I love how she finds the philosophical puzzle much less engaging than the practical, "What do we do now?" I love her definition of what makes a miracle a miracle (one's gratitude), and I love the exchanges between her children and her.

I would describe the book overall as a love letter to the men and women of the Maine game wardens with whom she works, and to her late husband. I had no real idea of the work they do, and am in awe of it now.

I can imagine the film version, because her work supplies the drama and suspence, and her humor and perspective give them meaning.
905 reviews6 followers
September 24, 2008
This book is exquisite. I've veered away from organized religion in the past five years or so, and ordinarily the story of a woman becoming a chaplain and the work that she does would give me the heebie-jeebies. However, Braestrup's stories of finding divinity and love and peace and salvation in the mundane, and the unique way she has of looking at the work of the Maine Game Wardens is fascinating and moving. If I had access to a chaplain like Kate Braestrup, I'd probably be more religious. Also, those who follow my reading exploits know that I'm new to the whole audiobook thing, and this is the first book where I found the listening to be a boon, and not just a format change. Read by Braestrup herself, you really get a sense of the tenderness that she brings to all the things she does. And her gorgeous use of the language is "amplified" when read aloud.
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1,506 reviews58 followers
February 5, 2017
A beautiful testimony in grace. Braesrtop lost her husband in a car accident, then decided to fulfill her husband's dream to become a minister. She became the Chaplain of the Maine Warden system. I never knew that was a thing-also Chaplains to assist Police work. It makes sense, actually-when people are dealing with such stressful situations, there's a person focused on their needs-spiritual if need be, but also just being present and listening. Braestrop shares heart breaking stories of search and rescues, and telling next-of-kin news of their loved one's demise. Although grim, there's also humor, and a very open description of her spiritual journey that's a joy to read.
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778 reviews1 follower
May 8, 2020
I did not know what to expect from this book, and even starting it had me wondering why I picked this up, but I loved this book about loss, death, love, hope, and connection. What a lovely book that has stayed on my mind for the past few days.
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328 reviews14 followers
November 8, 2008
What a powerful book. This has been on my to-read list for over a year, so I tore through it in one plane flight and have been mentally chewing on it ever since. Braestrup's life provides ample drama to move the narrative forward (I won't spoil the story other than to say that it starts with the death of her husband, and follows her unique decision to move on with her life as a minister to search-and-rescue workers), but it's her humble meditations on spirituality that are the most memorable parts of the book. She tackles some of life's biggest questions for those of us with any religious inklings: does God have "a plan" for us, and if so, how do you reconcile a plan that involves devastating loss? What if everything that happens to us is random, and God is truly, only found in our reactions to these challenges? I found it to be a quick but memorable read - I highly recommend it to anyone with an interest in investigating their own views on spirituality and love.
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141 reviews6 followers
November 17, 2015
I loved this book. It is a true story written by a widow who decides to become a Unitarian minister and work as a chaplain for Maine's game warden service. She writes about grief, love, commitment and hope as it interwines with search and rescue missions, death notifications and simple ceremonial invocations. I am touched by her view on faith which is surely tested in her work in which evil and bad luck are frequent visitors. When a dead child's body is pulled from an icy lake, we all ask, Where is God in this? Her response....look for the love. The love of the game warden who rescued the child, the love of the community who supported the grief stricken mother. This book is a gentle meditation on many topics I hold dear. Good job Kate Braestrup!

1,579 reviews39 followers
March 29, 2011
excellent book by a woman who retooled as a Unitarian Universalist minister after her husband died in an auto accident. She works as a chaplain for game wardens in Maine, ministering to both the wardens and the people they help. The main activity, and the source of action in the book, is search-and-rescue missions for kids who have gotten lost, ice fisherpeople who fall through the ice, etc.

Mostly it's about her grieving for her husband, raising 4 kids as a single mom who remarries just before the end of the book, thoughts on death and God and afterlife. Sometimes funny, very moving. Great read.
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210 reviews8 followers
July 8, 2023
My brother died earlier this year. This book was chosen for book club this year from another member. It was even gifted to me from that book club member. I NEVER would have chosen this book on my own. This book made me think about death in different ways than I already had. I cried. But that’s ok. I felt a bit different as I was reading this. Like I was understanding more than I knew I could. Having thoughts I never thought I would. It’s hard to explain, but if you’ve had any unexpected death in your life or even if you haven’t, this may be a book to try. I’m glad I did.
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33 reviews3 followers
November 13, 2019
I started this book one month after my sister died and found at that time that my grief was too raw to be able to handle this true story. Three months after her passing, I am still grieving, but this week I was able to finish the book and I found it comforting, moving, and hopeful. The book gave me some perspectives about life and death, and some glimpses of insight about how I might someday again live joyfully in a world that randomly inflicts hurt and pain. In terms of spiritual belief, the author (a Unitarian minister) reinforced my mother’s simple religion that God is Love. Overall this was a highly uplifting read and I recommend it.
24 reviews
January 29, 2024
Such a touching story. I really loved Kate’s writing, and her reflections on her life and becoming a minister and her interesting position as a chaplain in the Maine Warden Service. Her feelings about God and love are truly thought-provoking and inspirational.
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Author 3 books1,222 followers
November 30, 2008
At times sentimental due to its subject matter and at times choppy due to its episodic nature, Here If You Need Me overcomes in the long run as author Kate Braestrup chronicles her years as a chaplain for the Maine Warden Service. She confesses to many paradoxes, chief among them her love of a job that she never would have entered had she not suffered the tragedy of her state trooper husband's death. You see, husband Drew had intended a second career as a minister and Kate takes up the banner after he is killed in a car accident.

The book should please not only fans of religiously-inclined literature but fans of the outdoors as Braestrup rides shotgun with the wardens to Maine's lakes, streams, fields, and cliffs in search of the missing. Sometimes the search ends happily and sometimes sadly; sometimes the search ends with a find and sometimes with an enduring mystery. In either case, as she consoles the living in her capacity as chaplain, Braestrup is left to wrestle with the age-old question: Why would God stand around indifferently while bad things happen to good people? Also interesting is her sometimes graphic description of the human body (alive or dead). The intent is to challenge our fetish with the physical self, the mortal coil, at the expense of the spiritual self, the immortal (maybe) soul. Still, some might find descriptions of snots and turds a bit of a jolt.

Overall, however, this memoir is well worth the ride. It's more fun still if you are a native or fan of the Great State of Maine. Guilty as charged...
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133 reviews
April 25, 2011
Started this book 4/9/11 and I'm on Chapter 4. So far it's a bit morbid and off-beat, but it is holding my interest.

4/24/11-It took me a bit to finish this book just because I needed to be in the mood to read it. Otherwise, it is a quick read. It is not a 'sun-shiny' read. It is about Ms. Braestrup losing her husband, becoming a Unitarian Universalist minister and becoming a Maine Warden chaplain. She is called to the scene of search & rescues. A child lost in the Maine woods, a couple who goes off a waterfall, a child trapped under the ice, and more. She is called out with the search & rescue team to be of comfort to the families whose loved one is missing or in danger. She is also there to help the search & rescue wardens along.

I usually read more 'sun-shiny' books. I had found a small review of this in a magazine and had put it on my TBR (to-be-read) list. It was eye opening and gave me a new appreciation for people who do this kind of work.
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1,225 reviews31 followers
June 7, 2014
Danica recommended this to me during a couple of our random conversations. I like Park Ranger (or, in this case, game warden) stories, I'm lost in ambiguity about my spirituality, and I'm a bit of a nature nerd.

But really, I think we were discussing loss the second time the book came up. I finally put it on hold.

By the book description you might think this is going to be an emotionally difficult read. It does have some heart wrenching moments, of course, but this is not the overall tone of the book. Those moments are balanced with gentle humor and some downright "involuntarily snort while reading" funny moments.

I really enjoyed it. She has a level-headed, affable voice in her writing and balances difficult emotions with humor. Her kids' nicknames alone cinched it for me.

I finished it wanting to recommend it to others and give the book as a gift to a couple folks. I don't think I could really pay a higher compliment than that.
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1,112 reviews13 followers
August 17, 2010
I surprised myself by liking this so much. Braestrup is such a genuine, tolerant and funny person. Her husband's death is so sad, her stories of seminary are hilarious (especially her brother's reactions), and I loved her children (please can I have a child like Woolie and named thus?). I was actually almost fascinated by her chaplain work and developed a lot of respect for the universalist-unitarian church. I would like to know how Braestrup is paid, and if she isn't, how she manages to live but that's just curiosity given the neverending budgetary crisis Maine is always in (not to mention the constitution with respect to funding). I listened to the audio version and I loved listening to Kate Braestrup read me her own story.
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79 reviews
November 24, 2008
This book is one of those rare finds that really hooks it's way into and sticks for good. It's a woman's reflection on her life of being a widow, a mother of four and a Unitarian minister who works with Game Wardens. When people are lost she's there for the family. It's just really inspiring on a very basic level. It's about the joy and horror of ordinary days. It's philosophical, but simple. Her voice is endearing and honest. It's filled with little treasures that make you ponder. It made me want to hug my family, say a prayer of thanks and enjoy each moment of my life.
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387 reviews
January 29, 2010
I'm giving this 4 stars b/c I found Kate Braestrup really likable. She's the kind of person I would want to be my friend. I also like that she wasn't pushy with her religion at all. I'm often wary of reading Christian books b/c I don't want to feel like someone's trying to convert me, but I didn't get that vibe from Braestrup at all. My big complaint about the book is that, while she's an enjoyable writer, sometimes it felt like she was all over the place. The book was a little bit disorganized, but it was still a fun, thoughtful read.
404 reviews4 followers
October 24, 2011
I lived in Maine for 40 years, and moved to California 3 years ago. I have, virtually, never looked back -- of course we miss our friends, and sometimes we miss our bigger house, and I miss not being scared of earthquakes -- but until I read this book, I had not missed Maine-ness. This book made me feel homesick for the first time in three years. Kate Braestrup may be a 'transplant' to Maine, but she is a Mainah-- in her deep love and respect for the landscape and its people, especially Maine Game Wardens, who serve and protect, love and respect Maine and her people. What a beautiful book!
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496 reviews52 followers
October 2, 2023
I can't really put stars on someone's life story. This was very good!
As hard as it is when faced with our own grief, the saying "All things happen for a reason " ring true in this book. As hard as the process is. In the wake of her husband's death, Kate is propelled forward to become a minister/chaplain to the search and rescue network of the Maine Wardens and to the people they serve and help.
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