EXCERPT: 'There's something I want to say,' she begins, sweat beading again on her upper lip. Clare raises her serviette to her face and dabs at it, her foundation bleeding onto the starchy cloth.
'Speech!' Joel urges, smiling.
She smiles back weakly. 'Not a speech . . . I've made a decision. Something I want to do, something I hope you'll all join me in.' Bridie's eyes flicker to Allison. They are the matriarchs of the family now. Do you know about this? the glance asks. Allison frowns in reply, already disconcerted.
Clare takes a deep breath, teeters on the edge of the high board, aims herself at the water far below before she can lose her nerve. 'I've been in contact with the New South Wales Organ and Tissue Donation Service - the agency that managed the transplants after Daniel died. I want to find his recipients, make contact with them.'
Nobody says anything. Emma looks at Joel, who looks at his lap. Bridie and Allison are both scowling now, mouths twinned in disapproval.
'Why?' Allison finally asks. 'Why on earth? He's dead, for God's sake. What does it matter?'
ABOUT 'I'LL LEAVE YOU WITH THIS': The O’Shea sisters couldn’t be more different.
Allison, an obstetrician, has always put others before herself and is torn between her job and young family.
Prizewinning film director Bridie hasn’t had work in over a decade, though her actor husband is on the brink of stardom.
Clare, desperate for a baby, is bereft when her wife leaves her after their latest IVF failure.
And Emma, the youngest, has turned to God to fill the aching loneliness in her life.
When their only brother Daniel is killed the four women drift even further apart…
Then, on the third anniversary of Daniel's death, Clare proposes an idea: they should trace the many recipients saved by his donated organs. Perhaps their brother's gift of life can bring them back together again?
MY THOUGHTS: I absolutely loved this read. The characters are a brilliant mix; people we have in our own families, our friends. The family isn't a close one, coming together only for Christmas Day and the anniversary of Daniel's death. The sisters go weeks, months at a time, without speaking. They each have their own busy lives to lead, yet they are also each missing something - Daniel.
The four women all have very different personalities: Allison is an uptight over-achiever; Bridie a bulldozer, she lets nothing stand in the way of what she wants; Clare feels second-rate, that she has never measured up to Allison; and Emma is shy and needy and feels very much ignored by her much older sisters. Daniel was the star who held them all together, the glue of the family. They all revolved around him; all adored him. Then there is John Thomas, Daniel's dachshund, and Joel, Daniel's ex-partner who is still very much a member of the family.
I'll Leave You With This is an outstanding novel revolving around the topics of organ donation, infertility and IVF treatments, miscarriage, death and grieving and sibling relationships. I was consumed by the powerful yet tactful and empathetic writing, by the reality of the characters. I felt like I was a fly on the wall watching this family drama play out in front of me.
I really can't recommend this novel highly enough. The publicity blurb calls this novel 'heartbreaking, funny, thought-provoking and honest'. It is all these things and more.
My favorite quote: Bridie has had everything catered, happily admitting that her favorite kitchen appliance is her credit card.
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THE AUTHOR: Kylie Ladd writes contemporary novels that explore the impact of devastating or momentous events in the lives of her characters. As a psychologist, Kylie is fascinated by how relationships and family dynamics are affected by upheaval - an affair, a lost child, an unexpected death.
Kylie is the author of six novels and two works of non-fiction. Her essays and articles have appeared in The Age and Sydney Morning Herald, Griffith Review, Meanjin and Good Medicine, amongst others.
She holds a PhD in neuropsychology, and lives in Melbourne, Australia, with her husband and two children.
DISCLOSURE: Thank you to Hodder & Stoughton via NetGalley for providing a digital ARC of I'll Leave You With This by Kylie Ladd for review. All opinions expressed in this review are entirely my own opinions.