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160 pages, Hardcover
First published January 1, 2005
He wants to write the lost thoughts of soldiers. No, not the grand story, he has never known his life that way, but the seams and spaces in between. This is history too, he thinks, the weight of gathered thoughts…
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It is a myth we prove ourselves in war, he thinks; we test ourselves in silence.
In a chest upstairs, packed away in tissue and camphor, his old military jacket with his brevet rank that she will lay him out in. It is dark and heavy, a hint of grog and horsehair still about the lining. After a drunk, he would lie on his bed with it on his face, cool as coffin silk, and fill it with his breath. Sour caper juice in his throat, ready for ignition. His own ghost shape in the sleeves and the thick curve of the shoulders. Talking to Star-gazer and others out there somewhere in the blackness.
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How little they really told each other of their own lives; they did not try, as women do, to make each other less predictable, to rifle in the secret drawers, to find each other out. Instead, each gratefully took over the role assigned, made his language over, offered up his inner longings only as a punchline. We are the fastidious sex, he thinks.
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Look at our photographs, he thinks, and you can see that we carried the idea of the Indians around inside us, big as another continent, just as they carried our love letters and our pocket watches, not for their meaning but the weight of a future yet to be conceived. The Indians’ thoughts lost to us already, from the time we arrived here. But out on the plains we were, for the time those wars lasted, linked by our grim geography of fire beds and bullets, in a terrible third nation of our own.