This is one of those "oldies" I've had sitting around forever that I finally got around to reading today, and I have all kinds of jumbled-up feelings about it.
***WARNING: Mildly spoilerish and largely incoherent brain-dump review coming up***
On the one hand, I command Rowan for writing about romance from a nontraditional angle. She tackles homelessness and mental illness. But I'm not sure she does it well.
For one, we never know precisely what's wrong with David. It seems that he had some kind of nervous breakdown brought on my job stress and went into a sort of fugue state where he disassociated and just left home. When we meet him, he still disassociates and is depressed (probably). Yet even as John takes him in and offers him comfort and safety, there's no talk about actually getting him professional help: counseling and medication. David talks to Barbara, the woman who runs the homeless shelter where he used to stay, but she's not a professional therapist. And he sees a doctor to get tested for STDs, but antidepressants are never mentioned. How is that possible?
Both men's sexuality was also only vaguely defined. David at one point says he's gay, but was married and loved his wife, and his being gay was not an issue in the marriage. John thinks of himself as bi, but David is the one, and his grandparents thought he was gay; before David, he dated a woman for years and he's still with her (though not exclusively) when he meets David. After he gets together with David, however, he randomly thinks about calling her, but that entire situation is just dropped. He never breaks up with her, and she never calls him, and it's never mentioned again. After years together, it all just goes away?
And what's up with John's migraines? I mean, they're mentioned in the blurb, and he supposedly makes this entire life change so he can relax, but he doesn't seem relaxed, and a headache (migraine or otherwise) is never once mentioned.
I also didn't understand why John and Jamie had to sleep together at the beginning. It added nothing to the story, except making John seem like a floozy. I didn't want to read about them together when I knew John was going to end up with David.
I got really tired of David running away. I mean, after the fifth time, I was like, come on, really.
The shifting POVs, sometimes within the same sentence, drove me nuts. It made the story harder to follow. And it wasn't just David and John's POV; it was the POVs of secondary characters as well. It made my mind jerk trying to keep up.
Finally, the connection between David and John wasn't there for me. John wanted to take care of David, and David was grateful to John, but the sexual tension? Not really there. In fact, I was shocked when they first slept together, because it was very soon after them meeting when David was still homeless, and it felt a bit inappropriate. John didn't force David, of course, but I wasn't sure David was capable of making that decision at that time.
So, yeah, the story had issues. It was sweet and tender and hopeful, but not entirely fleshed out, and some serious loose ends were left dangling.
Despite all this, I still enjoyed the book well enough. I loved Jamie's character and wanted more about him. I liked the way Adam still loved his dad and made so much effort to get to know him (he was maybe TOO nice and understanding for a teenager, but whatever). I was rooting for John and David. I WANTED David off the streets and settled. I liked the pensioners who came to the book store. There was something nostalgic about the setting, and, despite the heavy themes, this was ultimately a love story.