The Words I Could Never Say: Bipolar Poetry

by Yogesh Chandra

From the bestselling author of the flower that went mad comes a new collection of poetry that focuses on the many things that people have been too afraid to open up grief, heartbreak and rejection, loneliness, depression and suicide, loss, and healing from trauma.

the words i could never say allows you to feel alive again, to express and not be judged for once, and to inspire at least one more person next to you. Most importantly, it centers on the value of life and the power of hope.

You’ve slowly surrendered yourself to all the misery around you. But there is something that you should the universe waits for your tears to fall just so that life could be given a new meaning and a new direction. Just as winter changes into spring, your fall will change into the greatest rise one day. There is beauty in your tears; there is hope in your suffering. Even if the entire world were to be set on fire, a drop of your tears would be enough to extinguish everything. Please know that.

This collection is the light that so many of us have been searching for all our lives but did not know where to find it.

Genres: Poetry, Mental Health

131 pages, Kindle Edition

Published November 18, 2022

About the author

Yogesh Chandra is a best-selling author from Fiji, known for his evocative and soul-stirring poetry. He earned his degree from the University of the South Pacific and launched his writing career in 2017 with his debut poetry collection, The Tragedy of Our Lives. Since then, his subsequent works—A Beautiful Poison, The Flower That Went Mad, and The Words I Could Never Say—have all become bestsellers on Amazon worldwide. His latest book, Lithium, is out now.

Yogesh’s writing is deeply inspired by the chaos, heartbreak, and sadness he has faced throughout his life. Losing his father at just 10 years old caused immense trauma, leaving scars he has carried ever since. These hardships were compounded by major episodes of depression during high school, which led to a relentless battle with suicidal tendencies. It was during these darkest moments, where he felt torn between despair and survival, that he discovered poetry. Writing became his refuge and a lifeline, helping him channel his pain into words and ultimately giving him a reason to keep going.

Heartbreak has also played a pivotal role in Yogesh’s journey. After experiencing love that left him broken, he turned to poetry to mend the pieces of his shattered heart. Each line he wrote became a step toward healing, allowing him to process the pain and rebuild his emotional strength. Poetry became not only a means of survival but also a testament to his resilience, showing him that even the deepest wounds could inspire art.

Having endured so much darkness, Yogesh finds joy in the simple things in life. To him, light often feels like something from a fairy tale—rare and fleeting. His only mechanism of healing has been through poetry, where he transforms his struggles into art. His days are spent navigating a whirlwind of emotions, while his nights are devoted to translating those feelings into words.

Today, Yogesh aspires to be a voice for those who suffer in silence, offering them hope and understanding through his poetry. His work resonates deeply with readers who find solace and strength in his words.

When he’s not writing, Yogesh enjoys immersing himself in nature and capturing its beauty through landscape photography, which he pursues as a passionate hobby.

Reviews

[Poetic Diva504 · Rating 3 out of 5]

This book is relatable, but I have a few discrepancies. First of all, nothing rhymes. It’s prose with an unpredictable rhythm. Then it’s all sad, and bipolar disorder isn’t like that. I wish there would have been some happy poems in there. But it was all doom and gloom, and bipolar is highs and lows. The chapters should have had transitioned from a positive to a negative charge to keep the readers hooked.

[kamryn ౨ৎ · Rating 4 out of 5]

really good 😊

[Kenya · Rating 5 out of 5]

I love the rawness and the gradual changes in perception throughout the book. It definitely feels like you’re reading through a rollercoaster of emotions. My favorites are on pages 8, 63, and 98.

I feel like this book is an eye opener into the mind and emotional life style of someone who lives with bipolarism. I highly recommend this book if you like poetry!

Can’t wait to read more by this author. Thank you so much for your transparency.

[Arika · Rating 2 out of 5]

I once again tried to give contemporary poetry another chance, but unsurprisingly I was once again disappointed. This is just my opinion, but this book of poetry was very simplistic and focused on accessibility over depth. It is very much “instapoetry.” The poems to me felt that they had a lack of structure thus making them feel flat and dull. Not all modern poetry is like this of course. I have read books of modern poetry that are structured beautifully and have great depth and paint vivid images in my mind, but more often than not has contemporary poetry been dull like this book in my opinion. I just fail to see the beauty and depth of this book of poetry. Once again, this is just my opinion, and what is “good” to me is different from what is “good” to others. There is subjectivity in taste. Enjoy what you enjoy. I am just sharing my thoughts.

[Night veil · Rating 3 out of 5]

The Words I Could Never Say feels less like poetry and more like a series of soft confessions slipped under the door at 3 a.m.

There is a quiet ache running through these pages: the sadness of wanting stability, the loneliness of feeling “too much” or “not enough” depending on the day.

''ʜᴏᴡ ᴅᴇᴀʀʟʏ ɪ ʟᴏɴɢ ꜰᴏʀ ᴀ ꜱᴇɴꜱᴇ ᴏꜰ ɴᴏʀᴍᴀʟᴄʏ. ᴇᴀᴄʜ ᴅᴀʏ ɪꜱ ᴇɪᴛʜᴇʀ ᴀ ᴡᴀʟᴋ ᴏɴ ᴡᴀᴛᴇʀ ᴏʀ ᴀ ꜱᴜꜰꜰᴏᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ ʙᴇɴᴇᴀᴛʜ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀᴠᴇꜱ. ᴛʜᴇʀᴇ ɪꜱ ɴᴏ ɪɴ-ʙᴇᴛᴡᴇᴇɴ. -ᴛʜᴇ ʜɪɢʜꜱ ᴀɴᴅ ᴛʜᴇ ʟᴏᴡꜱ.”

A tender, melancholic prose that does not shout for understanding, but quietly asks to be felt.

The writing reflects the emotional swings, inner conflicts, sadness, and fragile moments that come with living in a bipolar mindset.

[Michelle Thompson · Rating 5 out of 5]

all the words I could never find

Sometimes when you read something it’s like your heart says “yes, this is what I was trying to say”. I felt that with these words. Thank you for finding the voice I couldn’t .

[lynn meadows · Rating 5 out of 5]

Heartfelt and beautiful

Reading this book makes me feel like writing my own poetry. It's so right on in capturing the truth of depression, from which I also suffer. I thank the author for this book.

[River Wolf · Rating 4 out of 5]

Beauty and Power

An excellent collection of honest and very easy poetry which is free of pretensions and esoteric references. These poems deal with depression and grief without judgement and instead offer compassion and empathy
4.5 stars, highly recommended

[Aleah Nelson · Rating 5 out of 5]

Anyone going through a depressive state or knows what it’s like to live in your head, the rawness and honesty of every word in this book will help you see light into it’s okay not to be okay, but know one day that it will be okay!

[Sefri Kuehn · Rating 4 out of 5]

It’s amazing how many of these poems seemed like they just came from my soul. They left me feeling seen, and vulnerable at the same time. I’m glad that I read this, and I hope that it is able to help others feel seen and understood as well~

[Rose · Rating 4 out of 5]

3.5 ⭐ rounded up.

This was a good book. I enjoyed it, but I personally felt like I was rereading some of the other poetry books I've read before. I still very much enjoyed it and believe in the message behind it though.

[Eve L-A Witherington · Rating 5 out of 5]

This poetry collection perfectly sums up how you can struggle to be seen for the depths of your emotions are drowning and unending it feels like when no one else can understand why or how you feel the way you do, perfectly fitting the title indeed this collection was.

[Ricardo Munoz · Rating 5 out of 5]

Me encanto

Muy buena conjuncion de palabras y sentimientos en la mayoría de los poemas muy bien llevados en su ritmo. Suerte

[Aryn · Rating 5 out of 5]

Beautiful Poetry

Wonderful little book of poetry. I love the depth of the emotion shown on difficult topics. It is a well done book.

[Jenna · Rating 3 out of 5]

Def relate to this as someone with Bipolar Disorder. Very simple, but I also feel very seen.

[Sarah · Rating 2 out of 5]

"the roots of the tree i planted
during childhood hugged me
six feet under years later.
in that way, i never felt alone.
-a companion in death"

[M.G. Moody · Rating 5 out of 5]

great read

Heartbreaking and moving. An incredible talent who is will continue on this incredible journey and reach out to others. Remarkable.

[Emma Shumaker · Rating 5 out of 5]

i have never felt so understood.

[Lea Ann · Rating 5 out of 5]

My favorite poem in it: the thorn always kept its promise; it was the flower that left.” It’s an engaging collection of poetry written in contemporary style.

[Elizabeth · Rating 2 out of 5]

I’m usually a fan of the sad poetry but this one was just eh

[Andria · Rating 3 out of 5]

This was relatable on some aspects. Some of it was repetitive, but what thought process isnt?

[Sara · Rating 5 out of 5]

Amazing poetry

Everything was easy to read loved the book of all the different aspects of poetry. Would recommend to others. Overall great read.

[Leah (lay-ah) · Rating 2 out of 5]

2.5 stars

[steph ⋆˙⟡♡]

i don’t rate poetry books but this was beautiful and it made me feel so seen.