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272 pages, Hardcover
First published April 1, 2012
"Screw that, Little Fly. You lost everything? Big fucking deal. Boo hoo. You said you were an artist, right? Well, this is where it starts to get interesting."
"But I don't have any paint. And my sketchbooks — all my drawings, my brushes, my charcoal pencils —"
"You don't need that stuff. I've seen your tags. You need another aerosol can? Steal it. Wouldn't be the first time, I bet. Steal everything you need. If you're good enough — if you're great — they'll forgive you. And if you're not good enough?" His eyes narrowed. "In that case, Little Fly, nobody cares."
"What about you?" I asked, not meeting his eyes. "You and your band — you were supposed to be so great. But you stopped."
"Yeah, well, them's the breaks. I stuck it out for a long time. Too long, probably. And I let other stuff get in the way. You want to know something, Little Fly?" Ted touched my wrist, and then the piece of charcoal in my hand. "None of this lasts. None of us lasts. But that" — he pointed at the empty sheet of paper — "that's what matters. That's what'll be around after you're gone. Not you or Arthur; only the stuff you leave behind." He fumbled a cigarette from a battered pack and held it to his fingertips. A blue flare; he took a drag and exhaled. "Your paintings. His poems. That's what's left."
"I stared at the cigarette. "Jesus, how the hell do you do that? Is it — is it some kind of magic?"
I thought he'd laugh. Instead, he shook his head and said, "Magic isn't something you do, Little Fly. Magic is something you make. Now get to it."


"I can't thank you enough for everything you did for me, I feel it more today than ever. I'll make it up for you someday. I'll do something even if I die trying- I swear. I have so much to say."