It’s been so long since a book properly made me cry. With this, I was sobbing through the last couple of chapters. So heartbreaking.
This Groundhog Day format can get so tired and cliched, but not here at all - such an interesting take on it, because Louise doesn’t live the same day, or even the exact same time frame over and over, she just begins at the same place. And I loved, truly LOVED, that she isn’t totally aware of it like in other novels that have used this. It starts off as very faint deja vu and we’re just a confused as her for a while. I love that she only realises what is happening to her very gradually. I hoped that Nick would become monumental in her story, but we are kept waiting a fair bit to find out. The first time that she realises she likes him and goes back and has their first romance together is just so lovely. When they realise they love each other, it’s too sweet.
I actually felt like I’d been punched in the stomach on like the third or fourth time around when Louise runs away to Thailand. When she realises she’s back at the start again and thinks that she just can’t meet Nick and that will maybe help everything, but she bumps into him when running away from the pub - it’s just a really powerful moment of fate. And after it all, when she goes on social media for the first time in a long while and there’s a message from him anyway - urgh. And then, THEN, when it turns it Yuki has been with Nick all this time this time around… I couldn’t handle it.
I also loved how subtly the idea that Nick has been going back as well was introduced. I didn’t click on to that until much later and it was satisfying when I realised it. Of course he has been, that’s why he’s drawn to her but he also feels it as a sort of deja vu. Again, that’s a new take on the Groundhog Day set up as the protagonist is usually so isolated.
Another thing that makes this so unique is the ending I suppose. In the Groundhog Day trope the character usually has this epiphanic moment and learns what they were meant to and then proper order can be restored, which usually results in the happy ending. Oh no, not this. It’s heartbreaking, hence the sobbing for the last few chapters. But the realisations for Louise and Nick, while devastating, are still so profound and beautiful ❤️
I just loved this and know I’ll be thinking about it for a long time.